self strategy

Bian Yiyang has fallen asleep with the sound of even breathing coming from his ears.

I closed my eyes, but the scenes just now appeared in front of my eyes.

Actually masturbating, still flirting with Bian Yi.I thought so.

Am I being a little bit different?Turning over, thought slightly mockingly.

I've liked Ren Qi for so many years, but now because I'm doing it all over again, in just one semester, I've been shaken by my previous self, what the hell is this?

Before I was reborn, I couldn't count how many times I forced myself to give up on Ren. That feeling was so desperate.

Why does God want me to do it all over again?In fact, when I received Ren Qi's wedding invitation, my heart was already dead, it should be said that it was paralyzed... The result that I had expected a long time ago, after such a long time, has already hit me Adequate vaccinations.

That night, I originally thought that I would be sad for him one last time, get drunk for him one last time, and live a good life from now on, never to be overjoyed or sad for a person named "Ren Qi".

As a result, who would have thought that such a thing would happen.

It seems that my whole life is destined to be bound by the name "Ren Qi".

Actually... Sometimes, at night, when I look in the mirror, when I see myself in the mirror, I think, "I" is here, but where is Ren Qi?

Ren Qi is not dead, if it is said that my soul occupied his body, then where did his soul go?

Want to know the real answer?No, I buried my cheeks in the pillow, for some reason, I rejected this question that popped up in my mind almost immediately.

I seem to be a little afraid to know this, feeling... that will not free me, but will pull me into a deeper abyss.

Consciousness gradually became shallow. When I closed my eyes and sank into sleep, pictures began to gradually emerge in front of my eyes, and I was transported to another time and space. I knew that it was the same as the previous two times——I will see Go to the scene after "I" dies in the world over there.

It was the wedding church, the colored windows dyed the white sunlight, I heard the bell, and I saw a woman in a white veil walking towards a man in a suit.

It's Ren Qi, that's not my Ren Qi, he smiled, stretched out his hand slowly, took the bride's hand, and then turned around together, facing the priest.

I actually came to the time when Ren Qi got married... I felt a bit sour in my heart, although I was determined to give up on him, but when I really faced the scene in front of me, I couldn't help feeling a little uncomfortable.

There is a smile on Ren Qi's face, the smile is not very strong, but it has a happiness that I have never seen before. I know that at this time, he is very happy, not when he is with me. The joy of playing around is another kind of happiness that I can't describe.

At this time, I seem to be sitting on the neatly arranged benches on both sides of the church, like a spectator attending a wedding, but the only difference is that I can't move, I can't applaud, and I can't express their sweetness. A little bit of testimonials.

I couldn't hear the words spoken by the priest, I just looked at Ren Qi, watched him look at the bride with expression, and said "I am willing" to her.

There is a heart-wrenching feeling. At the beginning, I used to think how heart-piercing I would be when I saw him say this to others, but when I really saw the scene at this time, that feeling was more It is indescribable in words.

Watching them exchanging rings, watching them look at each other, watching Ren Qi smile from the bottom of his heart... I think, as long as he can be happy, it is good.

The person in the front seat is Lin Yi. I am familiar with his back. He sat there alone without saying a word, and I don't know his expression. The person should be me, but at this moment, I can only look at his back, and I don't even have the ability to reach out, poke his back, and ask him "what are you thinking?"

"Do you know why?" A voice suddenly sounded in my ears. At first I thought it was the person next to me talking, until the voice said, "I'm right next to you."

Cold sweat broke out, I knew that this was my dream, a "real" dream, in the dream, I was a dead person, no longer related to that world, just a bystander.

But... that sentence seems to be really meant for me.

"That's right, I'm talking to you." The voice sounded a bit vicissitudes and hoarse. When I turned my head and saw this person's face, I couldn't help but froze.

I'm sure it's a face I've never seen before. It's an old man about 50 years old. At this moment, he is looking at me with burning eyes.

I wanted to ask "Who are you?" "How did you see me?" But at this moment, I couldn't speak. In this "dream", I was deprived of the ability to speak.

"So it's so stupid..." The corner of the old man's mouth curled up, he looked at me, and said slowly.

I know he's probably saying that my expression looks stupid right now, but I don't know why he would say that...

Who are you?I really want to ask him, but from beginning to end, I can only be like a mute with damaged vocal cords, opening my mouth but unable to make any sound.

This is my dream, in this "dream", I am like a ghost, everyone should be invisible to me, but why this person...

"Want to know why?" The man smiled and asked me.

I can't nod or shake my head, I can't even feel my body, but this man seems to know what I'm thinking, he looks at me, gives me a smile that doesn't mean anything, then gets up, walks to the center of the church, I found that at this time, everyone's expressions were calm, as always, as if...they couldn't see that person.

The old man is gone, I want to get up, tell him not to go, and ask him "Who are you? Why are you in my dream?" But no, I can't make any movements at all, just like a statue with a soul, and others A sculpture that cannot be seen or touched, without the ability to even move.

When I woke up, I was covered in hot sweat, and Bian Yiyang was touching my forehead with his hand, and then touched his, "I don't have a fever..." he said.

I looked at him, and an unprecedented sense of sadness suddenly spread from the bottom of my heart. I didn't know why it happened, but for a moment, I had an urge to confess everything to Bian Yiyang.

"Bian Yiyang..." As soon as his name was called out, the phone rang inappropriately. Bian Yiyang and I were startled at the same time. I shook my head, and finally took out the phone from my bag. The caller ID showed that it was Lin Yi, it's still early, I really don't know what happened to make this kid call me so early.

"Hello." My voice was a little hoarse, and I asked Lin Yi while putting on my pants, "What's wrong?"

"My God! I can't believe it! An Qing actually agreed to date me!" Lin Yi's voice was very excited, and I remembered that according to the memory of my previous life, after this Christmas friendship, Lin Yi confessed to Li Anqin , indeed Li Anqin agreed to him.

"Isn't it? You got it so soon?" I couldn't say congratulatory words, so I could only tease him. Hearing Lin Yi's joy when he spoke, I really didn't know how to treat him.

"Hey, nothing is difficult in the world, as long as there is a heart! By the way, where are you now, why did I go to your dormitory to look for you and you are not there?"

He glanced awkwardly at Bian Yiyang next to him, cleared his throat, "I'm with Bian Yiyang now."

"Huh? Why did you two walk together?" As soon as Lin Yi's family came out, I felt weird, "Didn't that kid be surrounded as soon as he came out yesterday? I thought he was dating some girl, Cooperating with him, he left those girls and went to find you." Lin Yi's words really didn't mean that much, but to me, it felt like something was wrong, so I exchanged a few words with Lin Yi, and finally said "Leave the order Dinner, please" ended the conversation.

"What's wrong?" Bian Yiyang rubbed his head and asked me.

"Lin Yi and Li Anqin are dating." I replied casually.

"Li Anqin? Oh...is that woman?" Bian Yi frowned, "No way."

I nodded, "Really."

"That woman is not worthy of Lin Yi..." Bian Yi sighed, "I hope Lin Yi can see the true face of that woman as soon as possible."

I nodded, knowing that Bian Yiyang has the same philosophy as mine, and I know that Lin Yi will not change his opinion of the person he likes because of one person's one-sided remarks, obstructing, and meddling casually, but will cause both sides to suffer...

I can only hope that I can help Lin Yi in other aspects.

Back in the dormitory, I saw the fat man and the thin man lying on the bed, both of them seemed to be dead, and they almost spit out their souls from their mouths again.

"Aqi... I was hit! The girl in the game confronted me, but she thought I was fat!" the fat man wailed.

"Lose weight, just like you, if I were a woman, I wouldn't even consider you." I replied without hesitation.

"Ahh... thin man, let's go for a fat replacement operation. I'll share some of the fat with you. It's good for both of us." The fat man teased the thin man opposite.

The thin man opened his eyes, but he still looked dead. I found it a little strange. If the fat man said such things to him, he would be poor with the fat man for a while... But now, he didn't say a word.

"Slim?" I called him.

"Hey, don't mention it, I saw him like this in the dormitory just now, and he doesn't answer when I talk to him, but I'm so bored..." The fat man complained in a rough voice.

Seeing the thin man's appearance, the string in his heart was tensed. He walked up to the thin man and called his name softly, but the thin man didn't answer.

He stroked his forehead tentatively, "Damn! I have a fever!"

"Huh?" Fatty just turned over and sat up, "Isn't it...it was fine yesterday..."

It seems that when he returned to the dormitory, the fat man didn't realize the situation of the thin man at all, "Okay, okay, hurry to the hospital."

Bian Yiyang called the car, and I carried the thin man to the car. The thin man's condition was not optimistic. The fat man saw him like this, and kept saying sorry, "It's a good thing we came back early! Fuck! Why did you..."

"I didn't know... At that time, I thought he was just tired and didn't want to talk anymore... Xiao Lin... I'm sorry." The fat man didn't have the usual vigor at this time, I remember that he seemed to have such a thing in the last life , but Ren Qi and Fatty sent him to the hospital at that time, and I was not there at the time.

After settling the thin man down, he ran upstairs and downstairs several times, and took a lot of checklists, all of which were paid by Bian Yiyang. The diagnosis came out—infectious anemia, and blood transfusion was needed.

Bian Yiyang has type O blood, Ren Qi's blood type is AB, so I am also type AB, and the fat man is type A...but the thin man who just needs a blood transfusion is type B. Time Hospital B

Type blood is just in short supply.

"What a fucking day!" The fat man complained loudly, and several people were in a hurry. I got the thin man's cell phone, and I wanted to call his parents, but we couldn't open the screen lock of this kid.

"What should I do? What the hell!" The fat man has lost his sense of proportion, running around like an ant on a hot pot. Bian Yiyang went to go through the hospitalization formalities and has not come back yet. I suddenly remembered that Lin Yi was B. Type blood, call him and tell him to come over quickly.

The author has something to say:

By the way, some people don't like Xiaoshou. In fact, when the author set it up, he set it as awkward. The delay in accepting Xiaogong is because his heart has not been opened. Some questions will be explained later.

Also, please collect it QAQ, it feels so bitter.

Also, the last chapter is locked, you can go to the author’s Weibo @Blazelie, which no one cares about, or add a group, 428730864, ​​and there are also posts in the post bar, but in fact, in order to make it better, the content of this chapter can actually be connected with the previous chapter together