full of love for you

When Xiaoman came out of Li Xiwei's room, for the first time, he didn't see Lao Song who had been guarding him all the time. He looked around, but didn't see anyone else. He went back to his room to get his things, then slipped to the back garden, crossed the fence and left. He was still wearing pajamas and slippers on his feet. He was afraid that Li Xiwei would suddenly wake up and look for him, so he walked along the lake for a while, and slowed down after making sure that no one came to look for him.

There is a moon in the sky, which is reflected in the lake. He can see the moon in the lake wherever he goes. Finally, he is tired and stops by the lake to rest. The moonlight shines on his back, reflecting a pale coolness. Slightly bent, with his head lowered and a small part of his neck exposed, he kept looking at the moon in the lake, as if it was very close, so close that he could pick it up just by bending over, but his fingers only touched it lightly. Touching the surface of the lake, the moon on the surface of the lake was wrinkled and rippled layer by layer, and finally returned to calm, leaving only a layer of cold touch of lake water on the fingertips.

The moon in the sky fell into the lake, and he couldn't catch any of them.

Xiaoman stood up, shook off the water on his hand, and continued to walk forward. In the dark night sky, Xiaoman could no longer remember how far he had walked. It seemed like a long time ago. A cut was made on his right ankle by a branch. Fortunately, there was already a wide distance ahead. On the wide road, I met a kind-hearted man on the road, and it was already light when I drove him back to the city.

The red brick house has long since disappeared. He returned to the bustling urban area, but the feeling of suffocation has not diminished in the slightest. Li Xiwei seems to be caught in a cage that can move and he cannot get rid of. Wherever he goes, the cage follows him. Where is he?

Xiao Man didn't know where he could go. Li Xiwei replaced the door of the rental house with a new one. He didn't have a key, so he couldn't go to school. Finally, he went to the pharmacy to buy some medicine to treat the injury on his foot, and then went to Longdong Street , Lin Hong's store has been replaced by a clothing store, the proprietress is sitting at the door eating melon seeds, he asked the proprietress again, but the proprietress said that the cash that was given directly when the store was set up was cleared up on the spot, and she didn't even leave a phone call , She didn't know about the man with one arm missing.

"Who did you say ran away?" Li Xiwei was woken up by Lao Song's knock on the door, his eyes were still a little dull, and he got off the bed after realizing it, "You said Xiao Man ran away?"

"Last night, I saw that he entered your room. He didn't come out for a long time. I didn't care. I went out to smoke a cigarette. I didn't notice that he had left. When I checked the surveillance this morning, I found that he came from behind. I went out of the garden." Lao Song lowered his head, not daring to look into Li Xiwei's eyes.

"Go find it quickly." Li Xiwei kicked the head of the bed with his toe, and yelled at the door.

"I'll go right away." Lao Song hurriedly exited Li Xiwei's room after speaking.

Li Xiwei wanted to get dressed and look for him, but the phone rang, and it was Su Yu, "Brother Xiwei, I'm sorry, I lost my phone before, and our photo was leaked. Someone recognized me in the photo, so take the photo Asked me for money, the person said that I sent you last night, but you didn’t respond to him, but don’t worry, I’ve already bought the photo and it won’t be leaked.”

Li Xiwei flipped through his phone, "Su Yu, what the hell are you doing? When did you send me the message? I haven't received the message."

"Sent it to you at two o'clock last night."

Li Xiwei searched several times but found no information. Finally, he saw a text message with an MMS in the recycle bin. He clicked on it and cursed. He still had some faint memories. Last night Xiaoman undressed him and He wiped his face, thinking that Xiaoman had already seen the photos, he wished he could kill himself last night.

Li Xiwei found Xiao Man in a park on Longdong Street that night. He was sitting on a bench in the park with his head down. There was no one around but himself.

Li Xiwei has already changed into clean clothes. He didn't force Xiao Man directly this time, but just sat beside Xiao Man, looking at the small park covered in black in the distance, and Xiao Man in the park, "I said before, I It's easy to find you."

Xiaoman's fingers curled up, not surprised that Li Xiwei could find him, as long as he was in Nancheng, he would always be found, and he didn't hide on purpose, just seeing each other again, more numb and dull.

He didn't look at Li Xiwei. He lowered his head and looked towards his toes. His expression was dim and his face was completely black. He couldn't see much expression, but what he could feel was indifference. For some reason, he remembered what he accidentally saw last night. photo.

When I looked at the photo last night, I obviously didn't feel much, but now it seems that the reflex arc has just finished its work. It feels like someone pinched his heart, twisted it again, and pinched his blood vessels. The blood can't reach the brain, so that Insufficient blood supply, with round and round dizziness, as if the heart will stop beating in the next second.

Li Xiwei went on to say: "Did you see the photo last night? It's not what you saw. I really have nothing to do with Su Yu. It was before I met you. I drank too much that time, but did I do it?" I can still feel it after doing it. Later, I also went to that hotel to adjust the surveillance. Su Yu entered my room in the morning, and he left after 5 minutes. He wanted to keep a handle on me before going abroad. After the results of the college entrance examination, when they held a party for me, I didn't ask Su Yu to come."

Xiaoman listened quietly, slowly receiving Li Xiwei's voice, trying to understand Li Xiwei's careful explanation.

After a while, Li Xiwei continued: "I admit that my attitude towards Su Yu was indeed unclear and vague. People around me thought we were together, but in fact we were not. I have known him for many years. Yes, we have been together for a long time. I have never paid attention to him before. If you want to say when he approached, it was a year ago. If you ask me why, I can’t tell why, probably because It must be because he suddenly can't speak." After Li Xiwei finished speaking, he smiled bitterly, paused, and continued: "It seems more like a lie, but what I said is indeed true, it's very inexplicable, right, I also feel strange .”

"Also, the wine that night was not done by me. If I really wanted to do something to you, you would have left no scum. I wouldn't use such indecent means. Who did it? I'm still looking into your hands and feet," Li Xiwei was silent for a while after finishing speaking, then turned to look at Xiao Man's side face, "Xiao Man, I won't force you in the future, and I won't force you again. If you don't like me, then I'll chase you slowly, if not in one day, then two days, okay?"

Li Xiwei waited for Xiaoman to finish his infusion before leaving. He gave Xiaoman the key to the apartment they lived in together with the new key to Xiaoman's rented house, "I have had the rented house cleaned, and the quilt has been replaced with a new one. You If you want to go back to the rental house, you can go back to the rental house, if you don’t want to live in it, you can go back to the apartment, and you also take your mobile phone with you, although I said before that I will definitely find you, but I’m really afraid that I won’t find you.”

Xiaoman looked at the thing in Li Xiwei's hand, but he didn't take it for a long time. In the end, Li Xiwei stuffed the thing into his hand directly, "It's my birthday in three days. Have you prepared my gift for me? It's nine o'clock in the morning It’s my last motorcycle race, if you agree with what I just said, go and watch my race, it’s still where you were waiting for me at the finish line last time.”

The weather was fine on the 26th, Xiaoman woke up early, and his feet were fine. He has been living in a rental house for the past few days, but he has always carried his mobile phone and the key to Li Xiwei's apartment with him. After getting up and washing up, he received a text message from Li Xiwei , only three words, "see you later!"

Xiao Man smiled, not knowing if he was laughing at Li Xiwei's certainty that he would definitely go, or at himself.

Turning off the phone screen, Xiaoman went to the kitchen to get some breakfast, and finally put the sweater he had knitted these days into a gift bag that he bought at a gift shop, and also bought a box for the sweater , is also white, pretty good-looking, and pretty good.

It took a long time to take the bus. After calculating the time, Xiaoman deliberately set off half an hour earlier to catch the earliest bus. But when he just arrived at the stadium, he received a call before he entered the gate. He thought it was Li Xiwei. But the caller ID was an unfamiliar call. When I picked it up, a female voice said, "Hello, is this Mr. Xiao Man? I am Wu Li's legal aid lawyer. My client has something very important to talk to you about. About Lin Hong, I know you can't speak, if you hear it, please come to the Longdong Street Police Station as soon as possible."

When Xiaoman took a taxi to the Longdong Street Police Station and saw Wu Li, he was still in handcuffs, because he only had one hand, so the other side was baked on the table, and there were two uniformed policemen, Wu Li sat opposite Looking at a woman in formal attire, it should be the lawyer who just called him.

When Wu Li saw Xiaoman, he was a little excited, his eyes lit up, he moved his handcuffs, and the table jingled.He stood up, but was held back by the policeman beside him, "Don't move around, the lawyer will convey your words for you."

The lawyer took Xiaoman aside, "My client Wu Li, because he wanted to treat your sister Lin Hong, he borrowed usurious loans, but was cheated of the money. In the end, he beat her seriously, so he was arrested. , He wanted me to tell you about the condition of your sister Lin Hong. She has liver cancer and is currently in the Central Hospital. Wu Li said that her condition is not good. The doctor said that a liver transplant must be performed immediately. The original operation time The surgery is scheduled for eleven o'clock this morning. The doctor said that Lin Hong's condition can no longer be delayed. If he can't do it today, he might not be able to do it later. But now you can see that Wu Li has already been arrested. , he wants you to help Lin Hong. Wu Li said that Lin Hong never wanted to tell you, because he was afraid that you would be in trouble because of money. He also entrusted me to transfer all his deposits to you. The total is 8600 yuan, but he said that Lin Hong The cost of the operation is [-]..."

Xiaoman took the cash that the lawyer handed over to him, and finally asked the lawyer to defend Wu Li well, then left the police station and went directly to the Central Hospital. When she found Lin Hong, she was still asleep on the hospital bed, with needles hanging from her back and lips Open, with a black and yellow complexion, thin cheekbones and sunken eye sockets, the Lin Hong I saw in the store last time was completely different from the person on the hospital bed. Xiaoman remembered what Lin Hong said to him last time, and felt that his chest was full of pain. Sullen, accompanied by a feeling of falling after being unable to support herself, Lin Hong may have hated herself, hated many people, and said cruel words, but in the end she still gave her sister's tenderness.

Xiao Man stood in front of the hospital bed for a while without waking Lin Hong up, and finally went to the doctor's office after seeing the name of the attending doctor hanging on the bed. Lin Hong's attending doctor said the same information as Wu Lirang's lawyer conveyed.

After he came out of the doctor's room, he went back to the ward and looked at Lin Hong. She was already awake. She was a little surprised when she saw Xiao Man, moved her lips, and said in a heavy voice, "Xiao Man, why are you here? Who asked you to come?"

Xiaoman was typing on the mobile phone, and told Lin Hong about Wu Li's situation. Lin Hong reluctantly turned over and turned her back to Xiaoman, "I said why I haven't seen him in the past two days, I told him not to tell you, that Baihua Money, Wu Li insisted on my medical treatment, he paid the money for many days in the hospital, Xiao Man, leave me alone, I have lived enough in this life."

Lin Hong's nasal voice was very heavy when he spoke, and Xiao Man's tears rolled down as he heard it. He quickly wiped the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and suppressed the weight in his throat. Now is not the time for him to be sad, he has to get money now , One hundred thousand was pressed on top of his head, he didn't have time to shed tears, he left the hospital after tucking Lin Hong in the quilt.

Xiaoman directly took a taxi back to the apartment where he lived with Li Xiwei before. The card that Li Xiwei gave him was still on the bedside. He picked up his mobile phone and called Li Xiwei. He sent a message, "I'm in a hurry, I'll spend [-] from your card, can I pay you back slowly in the future?"

He sat on the bedside and waited for a while, but he still didn't receive a reply from Li Xiwei. He called him again, but there was still no answer. He checked the time on his phone, and it was already past nine o'clock. Li Xiwei's call The game should have ended, he was still holding the gift bag with the sweater in his hand, the sweat on his palm soaked the rope of the gift bag, he thought, give it to him at night.

After waiting for another hour, Lin Hong's attending doctor called him, saying that Lin Hong had been pushed into the operating room, and he needed to go back to the hospital as soon as possible to sign and pay the fee. Xiaoman didn't wait any longer, sighed, and took the Got the card on the nightstand to go to the hospital.

What I owe you, I will pay back slowly in the future.