why don't you laugh

It was late at night when Chen Bing's pain subsided.

It felt like waking up from a nightmare. Chen Bing was lying on the quilt dripping with cold sweat, her wet hair curled up around her ears, and beside her, her hands were tightly held in the palms of her hands.

Xiao Zhi was here all the time, hugging him and really didn't know what to do, so he had to repeat one useless sentence after another, "It doesn't hurt anymore" "It doesn't hurt anymore".And Chen Bing was in pain, like magic, and gradually became quiet in his voice.

Physiological tears poured out, Chen Bing had no emotion on his face, but the corners of his eyes were wet, he gently pressed his forehead against Xiao Zhi's neck, and rubbed his cheek.He breathed very lightly, falling like a feather, easily broken.

With just one movement, Xiao Zhi lowered the end of his eyes, and his voice was almost unconscious: "Fuck. You should love me to death."

Whenever he thinks about how he lived before his rebirth, Chen Bing doesn't have the energy to pretend to be strong anymore, but wants to see Xiao Zhi circling around him now, constantly saying those warm words to comfort him.

Chen Bing was silent for a long while, and only one word: "It hurts."

His voice was soft, completely different from usual, and he didn't even realize how much he depended on Xiao Zhi.Like a child, when you meet someone you trust, you begin to demand love unreasonably.

Xiao Zhi breathed closer: "Where does it hurt?"

Chen Bing didn't say anything.

This feeling can really grind people to death.Although Xiao Zhi knew that it was not a day or two for Chen Bing to grind people. Since he was a child when he couldn’t fight, he was wronged, "Then you beat me to death, anyway, you don’t feel bad." You can see the clue, and now he is still using the same tactics. .

I know you love me.

I want you to take the initiative to coax.

Xiao Zhi wiped the sweat off his face with a wet tissue, and kissed him: "Where does it hurt?"

Chen Bing: "It hurts."

Xiao Zhi's voice was very low: "It still hurts now?"

Chen Bing was quiet again.

——But not the kind of silence that says nothing, but the silence of silent grievances.

I'm in pain, I won't say it, I want you to guess, it's just for fun.

"..." Xiao Zhizhen couldn't stand him like this, wished to dig out his heart to him, even dared not use force to kiss his brows and eyes, he could only clasp his five fingers tightly and then loosen them, kissing him endlessly.

Chen Bing was like a cat being rubbed, opening its belly and raising its paws, occasionally panting slightly when he kissed it hard, generally squinting its eyes lazily, enjoying it.

He said, "Drink water."

Xiao Zhi took the bottle and plugged it into a straw, checked the temperature of the water and handed it to Chen Bing, watching him take a few sips.

After drinking Chen Bing said: "Uncomfortable."

Xiao Zhi: "What's wrong with you?"

Chen Bing didn't give a specific answer: "Just, lying down is uncomfortable."

"..."

The Princess and the Pea attributes have struck again.

Xiao Zhi adjusted the height of the bed, found the metal support at the bottom of the bed and rotated up, and then mixed milk powder for him and wiped his body, he was so busy that he was almost on his feet.

And Chen Bing looked at him quietly, seeming very happy.

"..." Xiao Zhi raised his eyebrows, his words restrained his emotions, "You just want to see me circle around you, don't you?"

This said.

The corners of Chen Bing's lips slightly curved: "Really not."

It's really not.

What's the difference between crying and being hugged by your brother when you were a child?

Xiao Zhi didn't want to dwell on this question: "If there is anything else you want, please bring it up at once."

Chen Bing was not polite, so he really thought about it carefully, and said after a while: "I want to eat spicy food, but it doesn't taste good in my mouth."

"..."

Xiao Zhi has nothing to say about other requests, but the doctor asked for taboos, Chen Bing is not suitable for eating irritating things now.Xiao Zhi refused: "This is not acceptable."

"No, right?" Hearing this, Chen Bing didn't say much, but just looked sideways to the other side without words.

... Just, I don't know, I thought he was humiliated by me, my heart was ashamed, and I didn't bother to talk to me.

Xiao Zhi didn't intend to compromise on this issue, he pulled out a chair and sat down beside the hospital bed, with one long leg pressed on the other's lap, shaking the bottled milk powder that gave him nutrition.Chen Bing remained silent, and even tried to turn over, silently turning his back to himself.

"..."

What kind of humiliating action is this?

Especially his movements are inconvenient, so hard, he just wants to avoid himself in the field of vision.

Xiao Zhi was convinced, and stepped on the bottom frame of the hospital bed with one leg, attracting his attention: "Can I go shopping now?"

Chen Bing tilted his head, noncommittal.

Xiao Zhi made the greatest concession: "I'll buy it for you, but you can't eat it. You can satisfy your craving by smelling it."

Chen Bing: "..."

Xiao Zhi turned around and left the ward.

He didn't have dinner, and he ate very fast when he was dragged to the restaurant by Xu Rong, and then he went back to the street and tried to find a barbecue restaurant.Yes, there is, in the specialty store near the intersection.Xiao Zhi grilled a few skewers of meat and chicken wings, told him to add more seasonings, and when he carried them back to the hospital, he saw a convenience store next to him.

Xiao Zhi went in, walked around a few times, found two boxes of candies with different flavors, and walked to the hospital.

Because the doctor forbade Chen Bing to eat spicy food, Xiao Zhitu was a little guilty when he passed by, so he conveniently hid the barbecue in the sugar bag.Going in, I didn't expect Xu Rong and the others to have arrived.

"..." Xiao Zhi moved the bag back calmly.

Xu Rong smiled and said, "Have you finished your meal?"

Xiao Zhike said politely: "Eat, Aunt Xu."

"Okay then," Xu Rong asked the most important thing, "Where are you going to rest tonight? Auntie has booked a hotel outside the hospital, and the house number will be sent to you later, you can stay there, and come see Chen Bing tomorrow morning."

Because there was only one bed in the hospital, considering that Xu Rong might stay here, and Xiao Zhi was a student, she booked a hotel outside.

However, after she finished speaking, Chen Bing's lips moved, as if he wanted to say something.

"..."

Needless to say, Xiao Zhi understands everything.

Xiao Zhi thought for a while, and said: "Aunt Xu, you have been with Chen Bing in the hospital for almost a week, it's been so hard, why don't you go to the hotel tonight and have a good rest. I'm on vacation tomorrow, I have nothing to do, let me accompany Chen Bing tonight Ice it."

Xu Rong hesitated for two seconds and said, "It's too much trouble for you."

Xiao Zhi said, "No trouble."

After finishing speaking, he said in a non-serious manner: "Besides, Chen Bing doesn't want me to go either."

Chen Bing: "..."

Xu Rong laughed immediately: "I haven't thought about this yet." She turned to Chen Bing, and said teasingly, "Do you want Xiao Zhi to leave?"

Chen Bing replied indifferently: "All go, leave me alone."

"..."

Speaking of this, Xu Rong no longer insisted, sighed and nodded: "Yes, I haven't washed my hair for almost three days, so I just go over to clean up tonight. Xiao Zhi, Xiaobing will be taken care of by you. "

Before leaving, Xu Rong babbled about precautions, her nose fluttered, as if she smelled something.

Xiao Zhi concealed: "Auntie, I just had some barbecue."

"Okay." Xu Rong nodded and pointed at Chen Bing, "Don't give it to him. He's tired of porridge now and wants to eat something else. I'm determined not to buy it for him, just because I'm afraid he will make trouble with you. Three or two sentences will soften your heart."

—— Before Chen Bing even said a few words about the question, his heart softened.

Xiao Zhi glanced at Chen Bing, lowered his eyes, and said without changing his face, "It's impossible to be soft-hearted."

"..."

Before Xu Rong left the ward, she warned: "Then you should also keep warm, don't catch a cold."

"Aunt Xu, go slowly."

The door is closed.

Xiao Zhi took out the barbecue from the shopping bag, it was still warm, held it in a paper towel and handed it to Chen Bing: "Here, your barbecue."

"..." Chen Bing looked at the chicken wings, feeling that the sense of smell and taste that had been dead for the past few days had finally come back to life, just as he lowered his head, his lips parted a little, and the chicken wings were taken back by Xiao Zhi.

Xiao Zhi's voice was crisp: "You can't eat it."

Chen Bing was quiet for a while.

He repeated his tricks, ready to turn to the other side.

Seeing his resisting body posture, Xiao Zhi directly smiled angrily: "Chen Bing, this move is no longer possible."

Chen Bing stopped his movements and looked at him quietly for a while: "I want to eat."

Saying this makes me feel miserable, like a little white flower, even a man can't bear it.Xiao Zhi's throat tightened, he looked at him fixedly with lowered eyes, and said for a long while: "How about you watch me eat to satisfy your craving?"

Chen Bing: "..."

Does this speak human words?

Chen Bing: "No."

Different from the usual coldness, Chen Bing was not angry, so he looked at him limply and said, "I just want to eat."

This is simply being coquettish!Are you acting like a baby?

Xiao Zhi's eyelids twitched, his heart scratched like a cat, and he felt that he could not handle Chen Bing's rejection at all.He stayed irritably for a while, and said seriously: "Brother, you really can't eat."

Chen Bing's lips moved, but the subsequent arc did not bend out. Xiao Zhi had already guessed that Chen Bing was going to... be wronged.

Xiao Zhi grabbed his wrist and clenched it tightly, then clasped his five fingers, and coaxed him before his next move: "I really can't eat it, treasure."

"..."

Chen Bing's expression stiffened.

Xiao Zhi thought for a while, then took out the candy he bought just now from the shopping bag, and took out a crystal clear pink one: "Is this a meal replacement, okay?"

Take the next step.

Chen Bing looked at it for a few seconds, something is better than nothing, nodded: "Yeah."

Xiao Zhi peeled off the candy wrapper, not sure if Chen Bing could eat it, broke the candy into four parts and handed Chen Bing a small crumb: "Come, keep it in your mouth."

Chen Bing: "..."

This is the pain of the sick.

Chen Bing had no choice but to bite his lip until it curled up.

The sweetness melted on the tip of the tongue, and Chen Bing felt aggrieved.

... This kind of life began to become more and more unbearable.

If it was a terminal cancer in my previous life, I thought it was okay to let anyone mess with me at that time, but now it has become more expensive, and I feel dissatisfied everywhere.

... I don't know if it's because Xiao Zhi is by my side.

Always contributes to the indulgent and doting part of his character.

Chen Bing lowered his eyelids, thinking quietly.

By the ear, Xiao Zhi thought that he was still unhappy, so he leaned close to his face and chirped, breathing heavily.

"Just once, it won't be like this in the future."

Xiao Zhi comforted him like a cat, carefully kissing his ear, with a soft voice.

"Be good, be good."

In the middle of the night, Chen Bing's wrists were a little cold, he leaned against the white bedding, and looked sideways at the other side.

With a tall back, Xiao Zhi took out a brand new mattress from the cabinet and spread it on the companion bed, and turned around: "Are you sleepy?"

Chen Bing: "Not sleepy." After speaking, he added, "In the hospital, I slept almost all the time."

Xiao Zhi sat down and said, "I'm a little sleepy."

Chen Bing: "You sleep."

"Don't worry." Xiao Zhi approached, he was wearing a pair of white sneakers, his body was clean, he looked down at the quilt covering Chen Bing's body.

Chen Bing: "What's wrong?"

Xiao Zhi pressed the corner of the quilt with his fingers and uncovered: "I want to see your wound."

"..."

Chen Bing was silent for a while.

He was injured too suddenly at that time. Although he was mentally prepared for an accident in his life, it was still too sudden that day, as if there was no warning every day of the accident.A hole was almost opened in his abdomen, and a sterile environment was maintained for several days in the ICU to avoid possible large-scale infection of the wound.

Now, Chen Bing looked elsewhere and said, "Look."

Xiao Zhi lifted the quilt.

Chen Bing was wearing a loose hospital gown, his long legs were slightly curled up because of the cold, Xiao Zhi hugged him by his armpits and leaned against the back of the bed, unbuttoning the buttons of the hospital gown one by one.

There is air conditioning in the room, the temperature is not too low.

Chen Bing said, "It's wrapped in gauze, so you can't see clearly."

Xiao Zhi responded in a low voice: "I want to see it."

Unbutton all.

Xiao Zhi clutched the front of his clothes and pulled them open, in front of his eyes were the fair shoulders, neck, collarbone, chest and waist, his skin was like faded pearls.In the past few days alone, Chen Bing has lost a lot of weight, his ribs are faintly showing bone lines, and his slightly curved spine looks fragile and easily broken.

His waist was tightly wrapped in gauze, and there were red marks, one of which protruded slightly, which was obviously the location of the wound.

Xiao Zhi half arched his back, looked down at his wound, and gently put his hand on it.

Chen Bing said, "Don't press it, it will hurt."

"it is good."

Xiao Zhi saw some fine blood scabs and bruises on the skin in front of Chen Bing, and stroked his pale skin.

"Is this the pain just now?"

Chen Bing: "Yes."

"Fuck." Xiao Zhi said to himself, with a violent voice, staring at the wound as if treating an enemy, "Don't hurt my wife anymore, understand?"

"..."

Confused speech.

Chen Bing couldn't hold back, and let out a sneer.

——His smile can be regarded as one of the biggest movements of the day, and his waist and abdomen were involved, causing a very light stabbing pain.Chen Bing suddenly reached out and grabbed Xiao Zhi's wrist, hissed: "...don't talk."

Xiao Zhi: "?"

"I can't laugh," Chen Bing said with difficulty, "it will hurt."

"..."

Xiao Zhi changed the topic.

He continued to caress Chen Bing, his fingers cruising to his chest.

The clinging touch was tainted with other meanings, and Chen Bing was powerless, so he just said, "Xiao Zhi."

"Huh?" Xiao Zhi's gaze spread with warmth, and his voice was careless.

"Stop touching like that."

"..."

Being reminded, Xiao Zhi let go of his hand calmly, straightening his clothes without changing his face: "I know, I can't touch it now. With your physical condition, if you do it once, you should die immediately."

"..."

Chen Bing pursed his lips, and it was the first time in his heart that he wanted him to go to the hotel as soon as possible.

The placket is closed, and the buttons are put back one by one.

Xiao Zhi carefully hugged him and lay down, meeting Chen Bing's eyes.His brows and eyes are wild and sharp, but there is an indescribable tenderness in his eyes: "I'm asleep. Something called me, I'm a light sleeper."

Chen Bing: "Yes."

"Good night."

Chen Bing didn't speak any more.

The place where Xiao Zhi slept was not far from Chen Bing, Chen Bing slept during the day, today Xiao Zhi came to look for him, it was the most lively and sober day.Couldn't sleep much at night.

He is still a little confused about this car accident, and he doesn't know why it happened. After all, there was no such plot before rebirth.Is this implying something?Or proof that the cancer in a previous life is over?

Chen Bing remembered that he asked after the examination, and the doctor said that apart from the car accident injury, all functions of the body were very healthy.Even if early cancers are detected at this level of health, there are great opportunities for treatment.

Chen Bing thought about it, sometimes he felt quite hopeful, and sometimes he felt uncertain... In his conflicted psychology, he didn't know when he fell asleep.

It was quite late when Xu Rong rushed over. She wanted to give the two children time to spend alone, so she didn't set an alarm clock when she went to bed. Naturally, she woke up at eight o'clock and had breakfast before coming slowly.

The situation in the ward was relatively good. Xiao Zhi was sitting beside Chen Bing's bed, holding an infusion stand with one hand, and facing Chen Bing with a mobile phone in the other hand, the two watched intently.

Xu Rong thought she was watching a movie or entertaining, to relieve Chen Bing's boredom in the hospital, but she didn't expect to hear Xiao Zhi say in the next second: "All four solutions to this problem are listed, I think the second one is easier It’s easy to use, and it happens to be all high school knowledge.”

Chen Bing did not object: "Well, the fourth type has calculus in it."

Xu Rong was in a complicated mood, and she couldn't tell if she was relieved, so she asked, "Have you had breakfast yet?"

Xiao Zhi: "Eat it, Chen Bing also ate it."

"Well, there is mouthwash in the cabinet, and towels are in the bathroom—" Xu Rong said, and found that Xiao Zhi had already used these things for Chen Bing, and she didn't need to worry about them at all.

"..."

Xu Rong felt a little redundant for a moment.

Xiao Zhi cut the video, and the speakers came out one after another: "Let's assume that the formula of this graph is that y is equal to—"

Chen Bing looked away, resting his chin on his shoulder.The two watched the video and listened to the explanation of the college entrance examination questions tacitly.

Xu Rong said: "...I'm going out to do some errands."

Let these two children stay.

At eleven o'clock, Xiao Zhi put down his phone and went downstairs to buy lunch, and came back to feed Chen Bing and clean up after eating.Chen Bing looked down at the test paper he had written, stroked the surface of the test paper, and asked, "What time do you leave?"

Xiao Zhi had to go back for evening self-study, and said: "It's three o'clock, you can stay later if you have time."

He took a two-hour car ride from the hospital to the No. [-] Middle School.

For some reason, Chen Bing stopped talking.

Xiao Zhi closed the exercise book and approached him, turned his head to look directly at Chen Bing's calm expression: "What's wrong?"

Chen Bing said, "I'm sleepy."

Xiao Zhi: "Then you are sleeping now?"

Chen Bing directly closed his eyes.

Xiao Zhi probably understood what it meant, hummed his throat, and held Chen Bing's hand: "Reluctant to let me go?"

Chen Bing was still lying down.

Xiao Zhi lowered his voice: "It's okay, I'll come to see you next week."

"You go." Chen Bing simply pulled the quilt to cover his face, expressing that he was autistic and didn't want to talk.

"..."

Xiao Zhi laughed inexplicably.

He pulled a corner of the quilt and opened it, and saw Chen Bing's hair was rumpled, a thin layer of red fluff appeared on the back of his neck, and he looked at him quietly from the bottom of his eyes.

Xiao Zhixin said, it's over.

Chen Bing didn't want to let him go, the hospital was boring, and there was always a smell of disinfectant.Xiao Zhi had to go back, and now he began to think about ways to make Chen Bing more comfortable: "Your hands and feet are a little easier now?"

"Huh?" Chen Bing asked.

"Can I play with my phone?" Xiao Zhi took his hand and said with a smile, "I'll send you more messages, okay?"

Chen Bing had no expression on his face, thinking seriously about this proposal.The answer is actually no.However, he bowed his head, showing his thin collarbone at the neckline, showing a clean side face with a slight sense of alienation. After a long while, he said calmly, "Let's go."

Now, the mood seems to be back to normal again.

But when he got bored with it for a while, Xiao Zhi thought it was very cute.

Chen Bing's superficial indifference is just a protective cover, and he has a sticky personality, which can only be seen on special occasions.

Like now.These words made Xiao Zhi's heart melt, it was unbelievably soft.

Xiao Zhi wanted to spend as much time with him as possible: "Then I'll wait for you to take a nap, and then go after you sleep."

"No need." Chen Bing closed his eyes immediately after speaking.

"..."

Xiao Zhi looked down for a while, then turned around, gently closed the door of the ward, and at the same time sent a message to Xu Rong.

Xiao Zhi: [Auntie, I'm going back to school first. ]

Go to the side of the road and wait for the bus.

Winter is a bit cold, the sky is gloomy, and the ground is piled up with withered and yellow leaves.

Xiao Zhi's phone message beating.Xu Rong went to the orthopedic department next door to visit another friend, and now she is back in the ward.

Aunt Xu: [Xiaobing is not happy. ]

Aunt Xu: [Because you went back to school.He has a sullen face now, and he doesn't know who to attack. ]

Aunt Xu: [This child is becoming more and more ignorant. ]

Xiao Zhi stroked the phone screen with his fingertips, and for a moment he wanted to go back, but he breathed out white mist against the sky, but didn't know what to say.Now the learning task is very heavy, and he has already clearly felt what it means to be unable to get away.

As soon as Xiao Zhi returned to the classroom, Li Zong handed out a test paper to take the test, and after the test, he took it up for marking.

Wen Wei's face was pale: "The exam, the exam made my kidneys weak."

Xiao Zhiyang waited in the back seat for the class representative to come and collect the papers, and glanced at him: "You are not a question for the exam."

"..."

He started joking, and Wen Wei found it funny: "Is Bingbing healthy? I see that your face is more refined and easy-going than before, and your aggressiveness has also weakened."

"..." Xiao Zhi said, "It's okay."

"That's good, I said earlier that our classmate Chen Bing is blessed and lucky." In fact, Wen Wei is still quite embarrassed, "I hope there will be no problems with his health."

"There are still a lot of questions." The class representative came over to collect the test papers. Xiao Zhi pressed a corner of the test papers and handed them to the edge of the table. The tall figure stood up, "It is estimated that he will have to stay for more than a month before he can be discharged from the hospital."

Wen Wei was stunned: "He won't take the exam at the end of the semester!?"

"No way." Xiao Zhi put together the chaotic test papers, "The body is the most important thing."

"Hey," Wen Wei thought for a while and thought it didn't matter, "Even if Brother Chen takes a break from school for a month or two, the exam will also reduce the dimensionality of others, so it's okay."

Xiao Zhi was noncommittal: "In the decisive period, time is still of the essence."

Chatting with him one after another, walking to the bottom of the dormitory, the screen of Xiao Zhi's phone turned on again.

Xu Rong specially sent him a message after class.

Aunt Xu: [Xiaobing is still angry. ]

Aunt Xu: [I don’t even eat dinner. ]

Aunt Xu: [You are so grown up, why is it almost as if you have just been weaned? ]

What Xu Rong said was not a complaint, but just chatting, sharing Chen Bing's physical condition with him.

Xiao Zhi was funny.

What kind of anger is he?

I'm really angry that I didn't care about him and went back to school?

Xiao Zhi walked towards the dormitory, while sending a message: "I'll make a video for you to chat with Chen Bing."

Ever since Chen Bing regained consciousness, he called every night to find out the situation.However, when the dial was dialed today, Chen Bing's voice soaked in cold water came from the opposite side: "I won't talk to him."

"..."

Xiao Zhi came to the balcony.

Straight ahead is an illegal building, dark and empty.The bedroom door opened, and Yang Feihong came in with a guitar to play with Zhou Fang, and there was a lot of noise.

Xiao Zhi asked: "Who don't you talk to?"

The ward became quiet, and Chen Bing did not expect to have already dialed.

Xu Rong put the phone on the shelf and picked up a bunch of grapes: "I'll go outside and wash."

The camera showed Chen Bing's face.

He was still in the same hospital gown, with his fingers grasping the thin quilt of the hospital bed, it was clean, and there was a layer of coolness between his lowered brows, clearly dissatisfied with his picky nose and eyes.

Xiao Zhi smiled: "Why don't you eat?"

Chen Bing has a little bit of a young master's temper in him: "You care?"

Xiao Zhi said patiently, "Are you hungry?"

Chen Bing said coldly: "Not hungry."

This angry look... so cute that Xiao Zhi wanted to kiss him through the screen.

Xiao Zhi raised his eyebrows and asked, "Why are you talking to me like that?"

Chen Bing became quiet.

"is not it--"

Xiao Zhi guessed his intention, "You don't want me to go, you want me to accompany you in the hospital?"

Chen Bing didn't answer.

Behind him, ghosts and wolves playing guitar sounded first.

Xiao Zhi leaned on the railing with his thin wrists, and looked at the sky loosely. A few faint stars shone in the dark blue night, and Yang Feihong's beautiful singing voice could be heard from next door.

"Looking up at the stars singing ~ woo woo ~"

Xiao Zhi laughed.

There was no movement on the other side.

His white sneakers rolled on the ground, and he whispered: "Well, how about you?"

With a faint smile in his voice: "Do you miss me very much?"