back to 20 years old

After a leading car passed by, grandma's hearse drove slowly, decorated with white flowers, solemn and solemn.

We were all in deep sorrow, watching the hearse move and weeping.Presenting the delicate chrysanthemum in front of grandma's tombstone, and bowing deeply three times, we sadly left the cemetery reluctantly.

After sending off grandma, we simply had dinner and the sun was about to set.Borrowing the evening wind, we came to a stone bridge. Big V opened a pack of cigarettes and distributed them to Haoran, Sam, and Xia Zhi.I didn't know they still smoked.I don't like cigarettes and I don't smoke.

Xia Zhi asked Haoran, "Are you going back with us today? Or are you planning to leave in a few days?"

Haoran said lightly, "Go back, there is nothing to do here."

Haoran lit a cigarette deftly and passed the lighter to Sam.She held a cigarette in one hand and rested on the elbow holding the cigarette in the other hand, leaning against the stone bridge. The setting sun shone behind her, casting a long shadow on her figure.

They continued to chat about the bar, and Xiaoxiao and I were talking about Lili and her boyfriend breaking up, standing a little far away from the smoking staff, leaning on the big V’s car and waiting for a while to return to Shanghai, but me and Xiaoxiao's eyes have been watching them.

I saw Haoran took a deep puff of the cigarette with his head turned sideways, with a handsome demeanor, a bad expression, a lazy look when he exhaled the smoke, and deep eyes.This is the first time I know that girls who smoke can also be described as handsome.God~ This fascinates me, I feel my heart beating wildly, I quickly lower my head not to look at her, I can't hear what Xiaoxiao is saying, I can only hear the sound of my own heartbeat.

The big V came over and called me, and I was taken aback, thinking that she had seen what was on my mind.The conditioned answer is "Ah! What?"

"I have something to ask you. Xiaoxiao said that you have been learning guzheng since you were a child, and you are very good at playing guzheng."

I said embarrassedly, "I have been learning since I was a child, but it is not as good as Xiaoxiao said."

Big V continued to say, "I just want to ask you for help with something. Would you like it?"

"Help? What's the matter?" I looked at Big V and then at Xiaoxiao.

Xiaoxiao said, "I wanted to tell you this morning, but everyone was in a bad mood on the way here, so I haven't told you yet."

The big V went on to say, "We have just decided to hold a concert on May 5st. Before that, we held a concert every year. This year is special because of Grandma Haoran's affairs, so we have not confirmed the date. But just now Make sure, we will start preparing for the concert as soon as we go back. What we need your help is, there are 21 new songs. When we arrange, we hope to add some Chinese elements to the music. After trying several instruments, we finally I feel that playing the guzheng is closer to the song. It happens that you are a master of the guzheng, so I would like to invite you to be the guest of the live guzheng performance during the concert?"

"Are you sure I can do it?" I looked at the big V suspiciously.

"Oh, Shenyue, I don't know what level you are? It must be fine, don't worry!" Xiaoxiao said.

The big V also said beside him, "I believe you will be fine."

"Okay, I agree, it's fine if you think it's okay." I nodded.

The big V said, "Great, after you've decided, the concert matters are basically settled. The problem right now is that you need to get familiar with the music first, and then practice together. When do you usually have time, I can arrange it." Rehearsals and rehearsals."

Xiaoxiao rushed to answer, "The time is the same as mine, three or five afternoons, and all day on Saturday, but she has a part-time job on Sunday."

"Friday and Saturday are busy at the bar, what do you think of Wednesday?" Big V was thinking about which day would be more suitable.

I said "Since when?"

"Is it okay to start next week?"

"Well, yes, it will be fine from next week. We just agreed to go shopping this week." I looked at Xiaoxiao.

Xiaoxiao also looked back at me and said, "Yeah, I almost forgot if you didn't tell me, I'm going to buy a gift for Lily."

I said to the big V again, "Pass the song to me in the past few days, I want to get familiar with it first."

The big V happily said "yes"

Haoran came over and said to Big V, "Let's go? You can go back."

Big V waved and said, "Okay, get in the car, let's go back to Shanghai."

I casually opened the door behind the driver and sat in, waiting for Xiaoxiao to open the door on the right and come in.

After opening the door, it was Haoran who got in, and Xiaoxiao sat in the passenger seat.

Xiaoxiao said while fastening her seat belt, "Why do you sit in my seat? Don't you have a car? If you don't drive, what will happen to the car?"

Haoran said, "Sam will help me drive back."

Xiaoxiao continued, "Then you shouldn't grab my seat, you can take the passenger seat."

"You blame me for letting you stay with Big V at close range? I'm sleepy, so I can sleep later." Haoran leaned back and closed his eyes.

What else did Xiaoxiao say, Big V shook Xiaoxiao's hand, shook her head, and said, "Let her rest in the back."

We didn't talk along the way, we only played the music at the lowest level, we were afraid that Haoran would take a break because we knew she must be very tired now.

After playing with the phone for a while, I looked sideways at the scenery outside the window. The scenery on the side of the road quickly reversed, and my thoughts also retreated a little bit. I remembered watching the most beautiful sunset in Yuxi Park with her, and remembered Her lazy and handsome expression when she just smoked, I remembered that she held my hand with her in the MUJI store in Beijing and refused to let go. We were debating which doll was more like each other. I remembered her when we talked about my father that night. To comfort me who was crying, I remembered the sound of her crying on the phone at 3 o'clock in the morning.

The sound of text messages brought me back to reality.

I picked up the phone, and the screen showed Mu Haoran?

Isn't she sleeping?

I quickly turned my head to look at her, and saw that she was still sleeping in the car, but her eyes were staring at me. Her eyes made me very uncomfortable. I quickly looked down at my phone and opened the text message: What are you thinking? ?

After I looked sideways at her again, I looked at Xiaoxiao and Big V again.Xiaoxiao is sleeping, and big V is driving seriously.I thought to myself, fortunately no one saw what was on my mind just now.

I bowed my head and replied to her: I didn't think about anything, I was looking at the scenery.

She replied: Are you thinking about Zhao Zhi or me?

I definitely can't let her know what I'm thinking, I reply: I'm thinking about my father.

Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a smile on her face after reading the text message.

She replied: I'm so tired, can I borrow my shoulder?

I sat up straight, looked at her with a smile, and patted her on the shoulder.

She leaned her head against my shoulder and fell asleep like a child.

I know, she must still be sad now, Sun Yu is filial and doesn't want to be close to her!We grow up day by day, and then we each have our own circle of life, busy with our own careers, studies, running around, and less and less time to reunite with our families, and sometimes we don’t even see each other for several months. Take less care of your elderly grandparents or parents.However, now we are free, however, time will not turn back, some relatives are no longer alive.We have lost the opportunity to make up forever, leaving only ashamed tears!

A ColdPlay "Fix_You" is playing on the radio.