Inferior by Nature

It turned out to be like this.After wearing the ring, the relationship between me and Ran Qingzhuang became somewhat strange.

It wasn't my plan.

Several times I wanted to rush to Ran Qingzhuang, ask him to take off the ring, and tell him that what I said that night was unintentional, what liking him and telling him not to like others were all nonsense.But as soon as he got close to me, touched my face, rubbed my head, without even saying a word, I didn't remember anything.

His touch, his words, his whole being are eroding my precarious sanity, like magic, making me unable to say anything against his wishes.I even felt that even if he wanted me to die, I wouldn't say anything else.

Otherwise...just seven days, stay with him for another seven days, and I will leave.

Although I didn't have any plan and didn't know where I could go, I told myself that it would take seven days at most, and I had to leave after seven days.

For the past seven days, I have to do my best to make him hate me, make him never get in touch with me, it is best to hate the kind of hatred that is so unforgettable that I am glad that I am not with me for a long time when I know I am dead.

I don't want him to be like in his dream, I don't want him to like me.

The first and second days were still a bit foggy, but on the third day, I finally found some rhythm.

"Don't you think it's a little bald outside?"

Sitting with Ran Qingzhuang watching the football game, during the intermission, he got up to go to the bathroom.I glanced at the small courtyard outside the window, it was so deserted under the street lights, there was only one maple tree in the flower bed, it was so lonely and ugly.When he came back, he suggested whether to buy some flowers and plants for replanting.

He took a bowl of washed cherries and sat back next to me, nodded and said: "There seems to be a market nearby, I will ask Tao Nian to buy some flowers tomorrow."

He handed the bowl in front of me, I took it, held two cherries and stuffed them into my mouth, the sweet and sour taste spread in my mouth instantly.After eating half of it, I found that I was always eating, and Ran Qingzhuang didn't move at all.

"Why don't you eat it?" I squeezed a cherry and brought it to his lips.

He glanced at me, then at the cherry, opened his mouth and bit it, and rolled my fingers with the tip of his tongue.

I withdrew my hand at once, and was so distracted by him that I lost the mood to watch the football game.

After eating the cherry, he spit out the core, and focused his eyes on the big screen in front of him, watching it very seriously.

I fed him another one, this time he didn't even look at it, let me push the cherry into his mouth, chew it mechanically, and then spit out the pit, without taking his eyes off the whole process.

The scores of the two teams fell into a stalemate, which made the offense of both sides more intense.

Putting the bowl on the coffee table, I took a cherry in my mouth, turned around and held Ran Qingzhuang's face, covering my lips.

He leaned back into the sofa, wrapped his arms around my waist, and intertwined with my lips and teeth.

"...This ball is fine, there is a play."

He was distracted for a while, I bit his tongue, crushed the flesh, and kissed him deeper.Juice filled the mouth and overflowed every corner.I knelt by his side and pressed my palms on his chest.

He passively allowed me to perform what was called "feeding", which was actually "sexual harassment", responded to me in a leisurely manner, and kept kneading my waist with his palms.

"Goal, goal!"

He paused, still kissing me, but his face was tilted to one side, looking at the TV.

Frowning, I straightened up, turned my head to spit out the cherry pit, turned his face back, bent down again, and harassed him harder.

His breathing became more and more rapid after being kissed by me, and the strength of his fingers became heavier, reaching into the hem of his clothes.

Seeing that it was about to get out of hand, I put my palm against his chest and pushed it away, and my lips seemed to rub against the junction of his chin and neck: "I didn't draw the curtain." Tao Nian and the others on the opposite side may have seen him. arrive.

"Then go where they can't see." Ran Qingzhuang said hoarsely, and in the next second he held my hips and hugged me firmly.

I hooked his neck and asked knowingly, "Don't watch the game?"

"Don't read it." He bit my Adam's apple, and said vaguely, "What else do you think?"

I raised my head and pressed the back of his head, breathing tremblingly.

At first, I just wanted to annoy him so that he couldn't watch the ball game, and somehow I got annoyed on the bed, and the two of us rolled into a pile.

When I woke up the next day, it was almost afternoon, and when I sat up, I felt a pain in my back.

I touched my shoulder and looked back, only to see a red mark on the shoulder blade.

Ran Qingzhuang went crazy yesterday, almost biting every inch of my back.Especially the part close to the tailbone, he gnawed and licked it over and over again, and couldn't put it down, I had the illusion that I was going to be licked by him.

Walking slowly to the door, Ran Qingzhuang was planting flowers under the sun.Sweat covered the neck, and there was a bright red tooth mark on the exposed collarbone, which was bitten by me.

After last night, I am more sure that a man is a creature that can say anything as long as he is happy.

I can't recall what I said to him in nonsense last night. Likes and loves are no longer surprising. The most outrageous thing is that I even called him "my baby"...

I can't wait to lose my memory again.

"Shoot it like this..." Ran Qingzhuang planted a hydrangea, turned his head to show someone, and patted the soil at the bottom with a shovel.

I took two steps forward and saw clearly that there was a little boy squatting on the other side of him, the same one that the ball rolled to my feet last time.

Holding a smaller shovel in his hand, the little boy followed Ran Qingzhuang's example and planted a small Ophiopogon japonicus into the soil.

"Is that so?" he asked uncertainly.

"Yes, you did a good job." Ran Qingzhuang praised him without hesitation.

With a bright smile on his face, the little boy lowered his head and planted grass more diligently.

Looking at this scene, I felt my heart swell, and I smiled unconsciously.

Once I wanted to run away with Ran Qingzhuang, to a place where no one knew us, to go to the market every day, buy sweet popcorn, and bargain with the boss.At that time, I thought in my heart not to care about the Jin family, nor how long I could live. Now that my wish is half fulfilled, there are some things that I can't ignore.

Looking at the little boy playing in the mud, I sighed softly.Hey, it's better to be a child.

When I was young, I envied the freedom of adults. When I really grow up, I envy children who are carefree.

After watching for a while, I silently turned and entered the house.

After washing up, I took a meat bun on the table, and I joined the team of transforming the courtyard.

The little boy lives next door. His nickname is Haohao. His parents are working out of town. He and his grandmother are the only two people at home. He is six years old this year.

It may be that he has no relationship with playmates of the same age. He has a shy personality and speaks thinly and weakly, like a kitten meowing.After playing with us for a while, the weather was too hot, and he was going to take a nap, so he was called back by his grandma.

Ran Qingzhuang and I continued to dig holes to plant flowers, he was responsible for digging holes, and I was responsible for handing the flower seedlings to him.

He would not let me touch the shovel, nor the thorny flower, as if I would break my finger if I touched it.

"I don't know what this yard will look like next year." I probably won't be able to see it. If Ran Qingzhuang is, he may not live here all the time. The fruits of our labor today will be cheaper next year.

"You can come back every year to have a look." Ran Qingzhuang planted the last rose against the wall, and stepped on the soil with his feet.

He patted the mud on his body, came over and stood side by side with me under the eaves, looking at the revitalized yard, and said with emotion: "I never thought that one day I would have the leisure to grow flowers and plants."

I held his muddy hand and looked at the new members of the garden. I was in a particularly good mood: "When the sun goes down, don't be afraid of the night; when it dawns, be grateful for the new day. The rising and setting of the sun cannot be changed, and anxiety and worry are all right. It doesn't help. You have to learn to relax, because there will be many days like this in the future."

He didn't speak for a long time, but I could feel him looking at me the whole time.

"What's wrong?" I turned around and asked.

"When the sun goes down, don't be afraid of the night..." He repeated what I said.

I thought he thought it made sense, so he said with a smile, "At dawn, be grateful for the new day. I didn't say that..." I thought about it, but I couldn't remember who said it, I just remembered it was many years ago I saw the sentence somewhere, thought it was good, and remembered it until now, "I saw it too."

He thought for a moment, nodded, said nothing more, packed his tools, went into the house and took a shower.

In the evening, apart from the meals delivered by the small restaurant, Ran Qingzhuang personally ordered a bowl of plain noodles and brought them to the table.

"Today is my birthday," he explained.

"Birthday?" I was startled, a little at a loss, "Why didn't you say it earlier? I didn't even prepare a present..."

Blame me for not writing down his birthday, I should have ordered the cake in advance.This is the first birthday I spent with him, and it was so simple and unadorned...

Wait, I suddenly came back to my senses.

Ji Ning, can you get rid of Ran Qingzhuang's magic for a while?What if you agreed to make him unbearable and make him hate you?In a few days, it will be the appointed time, don't you want to go back on your word?

"No gift is needed." Ran Qingzhuang handed me a small bowl of noodles, "You are enough."

You wake up!You start to look slack again, where is your concentration?Have you forgotten the nightmare you had?Do you want him to never forget you and suffer forever?

Only this point, please don't waver, don't waver!

My thoughts were tossed back and forth between noble sentiments and low morals. Before a winner could be drawn, the situation was temporarily unified by Ran Qingzhuang's noodles—the birthday party is the biggest, and this bowl of noodles still needs to be eaten.

Ran Qingzhuang's craftsmanship is not very good, the taste is a bit bland, and the noodles are hard, but this bowl of birthday noodles is still the best and most delicious I have ever eaten.

"I don't want a gift, let's play a game of asking you to answer?"

In the past, Ran Qingzhuang's appetite was amazing, and he was very focused when eating. Today, for some reason, his appetite was smaller on his birthday, and his chopsticks stopped moving.

I ate the noodles, nodded and said, "You ask."

He took a mouthful of vegetables and gave me: "Name?"

What kind of problem is this?

"Ji Ning." I couldn't see what he was selling, but I still reported my name cooperatively.

"age?"

"25."

"Favorite fruit?"

"pear."

"favourite colour?"

"White."

"When the sun goes down, don't be afraid of the night..."

"At dawn, give thanks for a new day."

"You may be waiting for redemption, but how do you know..."

"You are not someone else's salvation." After I finished speaking, I was taken aback.

I forgot where I saw the last sentence, but I am deeply impressed by this one—it is the motto in the fortune cookie.The day I got it, it was like a nightmare for me.I witnessed Ran Qingzhuang and Lin Sheng's tryst in the classroom, driven by jealousy, I made a wrong decision and reported them.

When Ran Qingzhuang put down the chopsticks, it was obviously not a big movement, but when the chopsticks collided with the table and made a "snap" sound, I still shivered uncontrollably.

"Ji Ning, this is the last chance..." He paused every word, emphasizing the pronunciation, "Do you still have something to hide from me?"