Inferior by Nature

"You, why did you come out?" I hid the cup behind my back, feeling a little guilty.

Ran Qingzhuang didn't answer me, he raised his hand and threw a black shadow at Lin Sheng: "Fu Jian asked you to wait for him in the car."

Lin Sheng caught it easily, and brushed his wet hair, exposing his smooth forehead, and said with a smile, "I'll dry it in the sun first."

Ran Qingzhuang turned a blind eye to his distressed appearance, didn't say anything, and directly pulled my arm into the room.

Hiding in the shade, blowing the wind from the air conditioner, my body felt much cooler immediately, and the anger caused by Lin Sheng couldn't help but calm down.

"Go and rest, I'm here." He took the cup from my hand, rubbed my head, and pushed me upstairs.

I turned around hesitantly, and wanted to ask him how much he had just heard, but I felt that this question was very unwise, and it was too much for 300 taels of silver here.After thinking about it again and again, I gave up, nodded to him, and went upstairs alone.

so tired.I fell on the bed, feeling pain in all my bones, especially my waist, which was about to break.

I didn't sleep well last night, and my body was really tired, and soon I fell asleep again.But just as I was about to fall asleep, something suddenly occurred to me, and I struggled to pull out my phone to call Tao Nian.

Tao Nian is not on duty today, so he thought something was wrong when he received my call.

"It's okay, it's just..."

I asked him if Ran Qingzhuang went to the hospital yesterday, and he said yes, and I asked him who did Ran Qingzhuang drink with that night, and he began to feel a little worried, unwilling to say more about Ran Qingzhuang's privacy.

I thought it was right, so I didn't force him, instead I asked him if Ran Qingzhuang was very drunk when he came back.

"Is he drunk?" Tao Nian was stunned, "I didn't notice it at all."

Well, I can be sure that Ran Qingzhuang deliberately tricked me. Not only did he not go to see Lin Sheng, he was also not drunk at all.

I thought I was pretty shameless, but I didn't expect Ran Qingzhuang to be even more shameless than me.

After finishing the call with Tao Nian, I lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, having trouble recovering.From yesterday to now, one pile after another, they hit me so hurriedly and swiftly, without giving me any time to breathe. I didn't want to understand one thing, and then came the second one.

Forget it, the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge, let's go one by one, let's go to sleep first.

Thinking of this, I wrapped the quilt tightly with an ostrich mentality, turned the temperature of the air conditioner down, closed my eyes and fell asleep peacefully.

When you think about it, you will have more dreams. During this period of time, I have thought too much about Ran Qingzhuang, and he always appears in my dreams.

I seem to have turned into a cloud in the sky, or a strand of thoughts, without form, unable to speak, and can only watch and not participate in everything in the dream.

In the dream, the weather was gloomy. Ran Qingzhuang was wearing a black overcoat, holding a bouquet of various white flowers in his hand, and stopped in front of a unique tombstone.

On the tombstone stands a 1:1 cello carved from white marble, and on the lower cover of the tomb seat of the same color, there are simple characters of "Ji Ning's Tomb".

My mother is so extravagant, she actually bought me such a large tomb, doesn't it cost a lot of money?

Ran Qingzhuang knelt down slowly and placed the flowers in front of the tomb.In such a cold day, he didn't know where he found such a bouquet of vibrant flowers.

"I'm coming to see you again." While speaking, a continuous stream of mist spewed out of his mouth, and his red fingertips caressed the word "Ji Ning" affectionately. On his ring finger, he wore a thin platinum ring.

"I've come to see you so many times, can't you come and see me?"

The weather was too cold, which made him speak with a thick nasal voice, and his voice was already low and hoarse. At first hearing, it seemed as if he was about to cry.

"How long are you going to be angry? I was the one who was bad before. I treated you too badly. I reflect on it every day. Can't you forgive me?" He fumbled in his coat pocket, coaxing, "Don't be angry, I brought you chocolate. Eat more and your mood will improve."

He rummaged through his pockets, feeling inside and out, but he couldn't find anything.

His expression gradually became anxious, and he muttered: "Obviously I brought it..."

In the end, he searched almost every inch of the middle layer of the coat and the two trouser pockets, but he still couldn't find it, so he had to give up.

He knelt in front of my grave in a daze, as if he couldn't believe that he would forget such an important thing.

"It's okay, I'm glad you came, I don't like chocolate, I don't like it at all. It's okay, don't be sad, it's so cold on the ground, you will get sick if you get up first..." I used only myself to hear The voice shouted anxiously at Ran Qingzhuang, but got no response.

He seemed completely overwhelmed by the event, and while I don't think he would be overwhelmed by a bar of chocolate, he did slowly bend his spine.

Pressing his forehead against the cold cover, his body trembled imperceptibly.

"Ji Ning, I miss you."

I was in a dream, and I shouldn't have any consciousness, but seeing him like this, I still felt a huge "pain".

He used to shine like the sun, an existence that I looked up to, I thought he would not be defeated by anything, I thought he would always be strong and indestructible.But it is not, he is also a mortal body, he will also suffer from frustration, he just habitually hides all his pain and exhaustion, so as not to let outsiders notice.

And his greatest catharsis was to say "I miss you" in a trembling voice to a cold tombstone.

A small figure wrapped in a gray overcoat appeared silently behind Ran Qingzhuang, wearing a peaked cap with the collar turned up, hiding most of his features in the shadows.

My first reaction was that the other party was suspicious and wanted to remind Ran Qingzhuang.But it's useless, I can't control this dream, no matter how loud I make it, it won't reach Ran Qingzhuang.

The little man pulled his hand out of his coat pocket, holding a silenced pistol in his palm.The gun was aimed at Ran Qingzhuang's head, he opened the safety, but did not pull the trigger immediately.

Hearing the sound, Ran Qingzhuang straightened up slowly like an old oiled movement, and turned his head to look at the other party.

"Who sent you?" The end of his eyes was slightly red, and there was no element of surprise in his expression, it could even be said to be... numb.

The muscles are completely relaxed, and it doesn't look like they want to fight back.No desire to survive... I never thought that I would see Ran Qingzhuang like this.

"Ou Kelan." After the other party spat out Ou Kelan's name hoarsely, he shot neatly.

The bullets spun out at high speed, and I could even smell the gunpowder smoke.

After a muffled sound, a hideous blood hole appeared in the middle of Ran Qingzhuang's forehead, pools of blood gushed out, and he suddenly fell down.

The white marble was splattered with scarlet blood, and I wailed in my dream, trying to hug him, but I couldn't even touch a single strand of his hair.

When I fell out of bed and woke up from the dream, my thoughts were still stuck in the scene of Ran Qingzhuang's death in the dream.The whole person was swept by grief like a mountain roar and a tsunami, fingers tightly clutching the thin quilt, and tears fell uncontrollably.

"Ji Ning?" Maybe hearing the sound of me falling off the bed, Ran Qingzhuang pushed open the door and hurried in. He found me lying on the ground with a quilt on, and quickly squatted down to check my situation.

"Where did it hurt? Hands?" He wiped away the tears on my face, frowning, and began to pinch my fingertips to check my bones.

I can bear it if he doesn't come, but how can I bear it when I see him in person?

I shook my head vaguely, and with the joy of returning to reality and the anguish of having nowhere to vent, I rushed forward and hugged him tightly.

"I dreamed about you..." I was a little bit jealous, and didn't go into details, "I dreamed about something not so good."

He stroked the back of my head and smiled: "Is it because I'm dead that you're crying so much?"

The image of him being shot and falling to the ground flashed before his eyes again, and the tears that had finally stopped began to fall again.

I'm a little angry, I feel so distressed that I'm dying, and he can still laugh?

"Don't talk nonsense!" I choked up, clutching the clothes on his back, and firmly said, "You will live a long life, longer than anyone else!"

"Live longer than anyone else... so lonely?"

I pushed him away, accusing him with dissatisfied eyes.

He was quickly defeated, wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and changed his words helplessly: "I see, I will live a long life, longer than anyone else."

I was satisfied, and after my emotions gradually calmed down, I felt that it was a very embarrassing thing to cry so sad because of a mindless nightmare.

Holding the quilt and putting it back on the bed, I pretended to make the bed and turned my back to Ran Qingzhuang, ashamed to look at him.

"Did Prosecutor Fu leave?" I asked.

"Long gone."

"Oh……"

Neatly folded the quilt into a square, like tofu cubes, Ran Qingzhuang stood where he was, still showing no intention of leaving.

"Ji Ning, why did Lin Sheng call you a white swan?"

As soon as I shivered, the tofu block collapsed.

"Are you hiding something from me?"

What should come is still here, but fortunately, he doesn't seem to have heard all of it, only the part about "Swan Lake"...

I faltered: "Oh, that's... back then, actually..." After searching my brain for words, I finally decided to spit out some, but not all, "I made up lessons for Zhaofeng, in fact, to track down the murderer who tortured and killed Xiao Hei..."

I turned around, sat down by the bed, and explained the ins and outs of the year to him one by one.

"So, you didn't give Zhaofeng extra lessons because he was a good person. You had an exchange." I thought he would be angry and shocked, but I never thought that his focus would be so unexpected to me.

I froze for a moment and said, "...Yes."

On the surface, he didn't have much anger or shock, but he could be said to be very calm: "Why didn't you tell me back then?"

I smiled wryly: "Did you give me a chance to explain? You didn't give me a chance to explain, and you didn't even look me in the eye." Although the time has passed, but when I think of his cold face when he saw me back then, I still feel strange in my heart.

He lowered his eyes, and it took a long time before he said two words: "That's right." Once he learned what happened, he easily guessed various details, "You and Lin Sheng... also have an exchange, right?"

I lowered my eyes, stared at my fingertips and said, "Well, the condition he agreed to help is that I can't appear in this matter. In fact, it doesn't matter. As long as those scumbags are punished, does anyone know that I did it? none of it matters to me.”

Ran Qingzhuang didn't speak any more, listening to the sound, he seemed to let out a breath slowly.

I continued: "It's also thanks to him, otherwise it would be useless for me to have a list..."

One thing to say, Lin Sheng still contributed to this matter.

"So it's like this..." Ran Qingzhuang murmured softly.

I looked up at him, only to find that his expression was obscure and incomprehensible, as if he was a little surprised, but also not so surprised, at first glance he was calm and restrained, but at a closer look he seemed to be furious.

But why is Lin Sheng the person he has liked for so many years, and he suddenly knew that the other party was actually different from what he thought, and it was human nature to be hit.

"You, are you okay?"

Ran Qingzhuang was shocked when he heard the words, he recovered from his own emotions, and when he looked at me again, his eyes became complicated.

"He said he did all that for me, to make me happy, I believed it..." He stroked my cheek, "I actually believed it, it's so stupid, I deserve to be played around by him."

He unconsciously increased the strength in his hand: "I was wrong, I made too many mistakes in this matter."

He didn't explain what "this matter" was, the matter of Xiao Hei, the matter of falling in love with Lin Sheng, or some of both.

Holding his hand, I shook my head and said, "It's all over."

Regardless of whether he had blamed him or blamed him for this incident, it all disappeared at this moment.I don't even want him to be sad in my dreams, how can I be willing to criticize him for the old things many years ago?

"Only this?" He gently rubbed my earlobe, "Apart from this, do you have anything else to hide from me?"

Yes, there is more than one.

"...It's gone." I resisted the pressure and said.

He lowered his eyes, stared at me for a while, patted my cheek, looked around and asked: "Where did you put the ring you bought for me before?"

"Ring?" I pointed to the direction of the bedside table, "in the drawer."

He strode over, opened the drawer and searched, and found the red velvet ring box after a while.

Taking out the ring, he quickly came back to me, put the ring into my hand, half knelt down, he stretched out his hand and said, "Put it on for me."

I pinched the small ring and was a little shocked. Although the ring was indeed intended for him, it was too sudden.Is it because I am a "white swan"?He thinks that if he wants to compensate me, I should have what Lin Sheng has?

"Actually, you don't have to do this..."

"Do you recognize what happened last night?" He didn't listen to me at all.

None of you was drunk last night, am I okay?

I groaned in my heart, and nodded helplessly.

"Okay, just admit it." He asked again, "Then do you still want Lin Sheng and me to continue our relationship?"

Lin Sheng has already talked about that, so how could I possibly pit him against Ran Qingzhuang?If I'm blind, I won't let Ran Qingzhuang be with him again!

This time I didn't hesitate and shook my head decisively.

After getting my answer, Ran Qingzhuang stretched out his left ring finger to the front of the ring, grabbed my hand with his right hand, and forced me to put the ring on for him without resistance.

"Then from today, I'm yours." He showed me his left hand and announced calmly, "Don't push me to others."