Wading in muddy water

I even wondered if this was another hallucination, the pain from being hooped, probably not.I tightly grasped Zhou Bo's new suit jacket and held it in my hand, knowing that it would be wrinkled and deformed by me, and I couldn't iron it well.It’s best if you don’t iron it well, I even developed a desire to destroy, and found that the end of love is not the desire to protect, but the desire to destroy.

Thinking about it this way, I feel that I am deformed.

The tears couldn't stop like a gate opened, and they all fell into Zhou Boxin's arms.

I wanted to speak, but when I opened my mouth, I couldn't help sobbing.Before the lips could close, they were kissed by Zhou Boxin, those lips seemed to want to comfort me, wiped away the tears hanging from my lips, and squeezed in the tip of my tongue, forcibly interrupting my unstoppable crying.But the tears couldn't stop, and he didn't feel bothered. After kissing his lips enough, he kissed my eyes to wipe away the tears that just rolled out.

"Don't cry." Zhou Boxin sighed.

As soon as he sighed, I felt scared, thinking that he would be annoying the next moment.I slammed my mouth shut and pursed my lips tightly, but the tears still couldn't be held back, and kept pouring out. The more I couldn't hold back, the more anxious I became, and the more anxious the tears fell, the more vigorously they fell.I can only apologize, and I don't want to cry, the corner of my mouth curled down fiercely, "I was wrong, I don't want to cry."

He originally hugged me with two hands, but now he let go of one hand. I panicked for a moment, but fortunately, that hand touched my cheek immediately.His hands were hot, but my face was cold and full of tears, and when the tears dried, they turned into air-conditioning.Gently wiped away my tears, then lowered his head and kissed my lips, "I'll give you a chance to say you love me."

My eyes widened immediately, as if a rabbit had been stuffed in my heart, I desperately wanted to jump out, rampaging, which made me hurt and throb.I don’t know why he made such a sudden request, but before I wanted this opportunity, he didn’t give it to me, but now he allows me to say it, I… I shook my head and held him tighter, afraid that he would chase me away Walk.

Can't say love.

I don't know what love is, with such blood flowing in my body, every beat of my heart pumps out a puddle of muddy water, slowly corroding me into a monster.My love is impure, it is a disease, and I cannot tell him.

But it doesn't mean that I don't love him. I was eager to prove my so-called "love", and I didn't want him to be stained by this "love". to the chin.The kiss is not too soft to the touch, and a very shallow layer of stubble may be about to emerge.There was another sudden pain in my waist, and then my chin was pinched and lifted up a little, this time I was able to touch my lips.

The air around the two of us seemed to heat up.

My body and heart slowly became alive and felt the temperature.Being hugged by Zhou Boxin like this, there is only a little place in his arms left in the whole world, and I am safe.I lost a chance to confess, I must be very regretful, but if I choose again, I still shake my head.Crying too hard, his nose was blocked, and it was very difficult to breathe when he was pressed and kissed, and the air in his lungs seemed to be squeezed dry by him after the kiss.

I don't even know when I entered the room, but it's not the first time I was kissed like this by him in this entrance.

I lit a crackling fairy stick in my mind, the fire light was beautiful, and it seemed to be revived.

The lack of oxygen made me not so clear, Zhou Boxin supported me steadily, I was still wondering what happened to his right hand in a daze, can he hug me, can he support me like this?Delicate kisses fell all over my body, Zhou Boxin's voice seemed to have been soaked in wine, I would drown in it after hearing a few words, and he spoke slowly in my ear.I don't think I've ever heard him talk so much, and every word made me want to cry again.

"I thought Liufang could take good care of you, and that staying away from you would save you from such a big grievance."

"She didn't protect you well, take me instead."

"Don't cry, baby, don't cry."

Does he not know what he is talking about? How could I not cry? I think I have to cry blindly this night.He couldn't make a sound to answer, just shook his head vigorously.No one should protect me, I was born like this, I should have known who I am, and I should have shared the past with Liu Fang, I don't blame Liu Fang.

Don't blame Zhou Boxin, but he can't stop blaming himself. I even suspect that he is crying too, but I just suspect that I can't see his face clearly.His voice and breath on my lips were trembling, and he said "I'm sorry" and "I was wrong" at least three times.

Although I don't know where he is wrong.

When I woke up again, it was already dawn. I haven’t slept well for about three weeks in a row, and I cried for another night. I didn’t even take a bath. I fell asleep when I was tired from crying. I couldn’t sleep well next to Zhou Boxin. Provincial personnel.

After waking up, my head hurt a little, I didn’t forget what happened last night, I didn’t forget what Zhou Boxin said, and I didn’t forget that I grabbed Zhou Boxin’s collar and squeezed myself into his arms, saying nonsense, “I’m afraid ", "I think my love is dirty" and other nonsense.

I wanted to go to the bedside to touch my phone, but after a long time I realized that I didn’t bring my phone when I went out, and there was no clock in the house, so I opened the door and went out and heard voices from the kitchen.

This scene is quite familiar, that's how I came out when I was drunk that time, and I thought it was Zhou Boxin's little lover who came to his house.I walked towards the kitchen, thinking I would see Zhou Boxin's nanny, but when I saw him, I stopped abruptly.

Zhou Boxin was wearing a gray shirt, standing idly in front of the gas stove, flipping through his phone, swiping his fingers up at will.Even though he was standing casually, his shoulders were still straight. When he saw me, he paused and said, "Are you awake?"

I pinched the hem of the sweater and let out a "hmm" in a daze, wondering if he was waiting for me to get up before going to the company.My heart tightened, and I felt nervous and sad when I thought of him leaving, the kind that wanted to stay by his side and never leave.

"Come here," he said.

My heart skipped a beat, and I moved towards him.I was a little afraid to look at him, and I just listened to my own heartbeat. When I woke up early in the morning, my heart was so energetic that it made my ears ring from the noise.But before I moved over slowly and completely, the phone in his hand suddenly rang.A huge impatience suddenly appeared between Zhou Boxin's brows and eyes, he frowned and opened the answer, as if a woman's voice came out, he immediately hung up.

I had a little premonition and asked him in a low voice, "Is it Liufang?"

With a "hmm", he simply turned off his mobile phone and threw it on the table.I didn't feel sorry for the phone at all, and it fell down several times with a "bang" sound before lying flat.I think that if it wasn't for my presence, he might want to smash the phone directly. I guessed in an instant that he must have blocked Liufang, and Liufang changed a lot of numbers to call.

I know what Liufang looks like when he is paranoid, calling me several times a day to ask where I am.

"She..." I was interrupted by Zhou Boxin before I had time.

"It's not that I didn't give her a chance, she can't take care of you well."

I froze for a moment.Right now the pot is emitting an aroma, very fragrant, I don't know if it is cooking soup or porridge, Zhou Boxin is cooking.I didn't even know he would go into the kitchen, I don't know if he learned it this morning.

He said that in a tone as if Liu Fang took care of me as an opportunity for him to show mercy to her, as if I was not Liu Fang's son, but his in the first place.I bit the tip of my tongue to let the pain make me clear my mind, because I felt that I couldn't understand what he said, and I didn't know why he said it suddenly.

Zhou Boxin looked at me with dark eyes, "Others can't take care of you well, so I'll do it."

He said this last night, my eyes were hot, and my head hung down.

The lid of the pot was pushed up by the bubbling heat, and there was a "squeaky" sound. Zhou Boxin's fingers passed in front of me, crossed my face to the back and embraced my shoulders, and pressed me into his arms forcefully, " You have nothing to do with Liu Fang, let alone Liu Yuan. I don't want your eyes to look at other people, only me."

I nodded vigorously, and nodded again.

I didn't remember to check the time until the lean meat porridge came out of the pot. I thought it was nine o'clock at most, but it was past ten o'clock.His stomach was rumbling and he drank two bowls of porridge before stopping. He watched Zhou Boxin put away the bowls and chopsticks, took his laptop and sat down at the table in the living room.He didn't seem to be planning to go to the company, so I felt relieved and didn't bother him, so I took a random philosophy book from the bookshelf to read.

I can't understand it at all, and I don't know why Zhou Boxin has this kind of book, and he doesn't look like a person who can read this kind of book.

And he couldn't see it, his mind was still in a mess, and he kept in a state of panic for no reason. He glanced at Zhou Boxin from time to time, and saw his good-looking facial features reflected in a cool-toned light on the screen.

Around one o'clock in the afternoon, Zhou Boxin asked me if I was hungry.

I didn't know how many times I heard it, and when he squatted in front of me, I suddenly came back to my senses, and before I had time to answer, Zhou Boxin pressed his thigh on the sofa.He sighed, pinched my chin and pulled me down to kiss him, and asked me "what's the matter" while keeping his forehead touching.

But I can't answer it, I know I can't always repeat the set of "I think I'm dirty" rhetoric, I'm afraid he will be annoyed.

I didn't speak, but Zhou Boxin suddenly spoke.

"Do you know why Hu Keqing suddenly wanted to divorce Liu Yuan?"

I found out from my memory that Chen Zhiyuan was almost mad because Liu Fang wanted to give Liu Yuan shares, and mentioned that Liu Yuan was about to divorce.I opened my eyes wide, "It's you..."

"Yes." Zhou Boxin replied in a deep voice, "Liu Fang promised me that she is willing to sue Liu Yuan, as long as you want."

He paused, raised his head and kissed me again, and then continued, "If you don't want to, he will soon be suppressed by the Liu family without the Hu family. He always thought that he could eat Hu Keqing for the rest of his life. Offended by him. If you want, I will find a way to keep him in prison for the rest of my life."

My nose was sore, tears almost fell out again, and I quickly sucked my nose.

Zhou Boxin kissed me again, and then smiled while holding his lips, "You know I never cared about others, and I was never a good person. I don't care what price Liufang paid for this, and I don't care whether Hu Keqing is innocent or not, I just care about you."

"You said last night that you are a puddle of muddy water, and so am I. Don't think how normal my love for you is, Chen Li. I have violent tendencies and want to destroy you. I will monitor you, when will you go home, who will you be with? I want to know about chatting and who I have a good relationship with. I don’t want you to make friends, not just girlfriends, but I think people you care about are an eyesore.”

"Do you know? I love you, and I love me too."

"I love you, and you have to love me too. Chen Li, you have to love no matter how dirty you are, do you understand?"

The author says:

I don't know if Xiaoli understood or not, but I understand anyway.Translate for both of you: You two are in love with each other