Wading in muddy water

I occasionally feel that my brother and I are two crazy people.

Neither of our love is "beautiful". Most people in this world are always willing to compare love to sunshine, angel tears, and fleeting but brilliant fireworks. These metaphors are warm and beautiful.

But there are a small number of people whose love is hard to see.

They are full of gray desires, which often make me wonder why love makes people want to destroy, imprison, and collapse, and why love is embodied as "monopolistic", "surrender", and "blind".I still can't figure it out, and I can't figure out whether my "love" should continue to exist. This is a big thing for me, and nothing else is more important than it.

I admit, Song Yiwei is right, there is a shortcut to cure me.

Come to find Zhou Boxin.

Zhou Boxin is now kneeling in front of me. He coaxed me patiently just now, kneeling on the warm tiles due to the floor heating.With my face in the palm of my hand, the strength of the kiss changed from being superficial and gentle at the beginning to plundering.

It was the first time there was such a gesture between the two of us, he knelt in front of me.He doesn't seem to care about the things I care about. He can speak out his most secret desires frankly, and then kisses my lips as if I am sure that I will not be frightened by his words.

This is Zhou Boxin.

My heart has been trembling, beating wildly in a panic, like a butterfly resting on a flower, fluttering its wings tremblingly.

When I was taken to the bedroom, I couldn't move my feet well, and I started to feel nervous for no reason.I have long forgotten what it was like the first time I took the initiative to climb into his bed. On this bed, he was even lighting a cigarette at that time, and the ash was shaking on my waist, which made me cry from the pain.At that time, I thought it was alright if the sky fell, all the things in this world had nothing to do with me, all I wanted was Zhou Boxin.

And now the sky is indeed falling, but I can't bear it, I'm stupid.

I have always been stupid.

(Delete from here, the middle is some mental activities that I think are more important)

He pressed against the entrance, but didn't come in, and then I felt a soft and hot touch on my waist.He kissed me?I was a little dazed, I always felt that this kiss was not a simple kiss, and the moment he really came in, I suddenly remembered that the place he kissed just now was the place where he shook the ashes for the first time.

At that time, there was a red mark when it was burned. I thought it was a scar, but it was not.

But I knew clearly that he must have wanted to leave a scar on me at the time, and he must also want to now, but he didn't, but kissed me instead.

His eyes suddenly became hot, and he cried in a muffled voice as he covered himself in the bed sheet.

……

I broke down and cried aloud, I reached out my hand indiscriminately to touch him, but he grabbed my fingers and pulled them to my lips and kissed the back of my hand.

"Say."

What?I was stunned by this word, and I didn't have time to think about the context of this word. Fortunately, Zhou Boxin reminded me in time, "Baby, say you love me."

"Don't be afraid, say you love me."

It was as if a firework exploded in my mind, crackling and igniting, and I realized why he had blindfolded me.

I cried so hard that I couldn't tell whether it was because of excessive pleasure or because of... love.

Zhou Boxin wants me to really feel the love.

Deformed, gloomy, selfish, hurt and destruction, excessive control and possessiveness, long and deep pain, pleasure, sinking, and self-control, these are the love that Zhou Boxin wants me to feel.

I love you, I love you.I said a series of love in my heart, surrendered to him, but couldn't speak because I was crying too hard, so I lip-synced.Didn't even know if he heard it or not.

Zhou Boxin leaned over to untie the shackles in front of my eyes, and he still couldn't get used to the sudden light, but fortunately, he immediately approached and kissed my eyelashes, which also blocked the light.

(Cut end from here, really sorry!)

Panting and sticking together, the air seems to be wet, so it makes my whole body moist and affectionate.

My waist was sore and limp, and I tried to raise my hand to touch his face.His voice was very hoarse, and he didn't have much strength to speak, but he rubbed his cheek affectionately.

I had to reclaim my chance to confess, the one I'd dreamed of, the one thing I'd wanted for so many years.At this moment, I feel that none of us is crazy.In the final analysis, all love in this world is two strangers polishing themselves for each other, and my brother and I, we are a natural pair, born to fit each other.

I closed my eyes, licked my lips, and called him softly.

"elder brother……"

"Brother. I love you, I love you, I love you."

The author says:

There are deletions in this chapter, but there are important plots in the deleted content, so I can only paste the plots piecemeal.I know that the reading experience is very poor, and I am also very distressed. I hope everyone will understand!