Wading in muddy water

Maicheng.

I grew up in this city.In the past, this city hadn’t become an Internet celebrity city, and the city center hadn’t become a stage for the rich to show off—the payment code “Di” would disappear from the balance after scanning a few zeros. He smiled and said to the people around him "I've been waiting for this bag for a long time, and I didn't even look at the price carefully. It's hard to get the goods."

Nearly 30 years ago, Chen Zhiyuan and Zhou Qingluo came to Maicheng from Luxiang to develop. Although Maicheng was already developed at that time, it still had a lot of human touch, which was not buried by copper stink.

For a while, Chen Zhiyuan often mentioned to me that his purpose was to create a helpless and stalwart father image for himself, and to whitewash himself for his "derailment".

Said that he used to start a business for his "family". Zhou Boxin was still a big fart baby who needed to eat milk powder. He got up before five o'clock in the morning to run business.

When he said this, he usually sat at the dining table, holding the fork in a very arrogant and disdainful attitude.I know that he didn't regard the previous suffering as a medal at all, but just talk.But because of Zhou Boxin who is occasionally mentioned, I have the patience to listen to him when I am not in a bad mood.

It seems to be able to outline what Maicheng was like when Zhou Boxin was still young.

Not golden.

And now Maicheng is golden in the daytime and colorful in the evening.

If you look up, the night sky is reflected in psychedelic colors by colorful spotlights. Everyone is precocious, and those who don't know how to make up or smoke have no friends.Girls wearing wireless earphones only wear skirts that reach the heels of their legs in the cold winter. There are two thin straps in the down jacket to hang the umbilical suspenders. The lip studs on the lips are very beautiful.Tobacco, alcohol, sex, desire and reality are connected.

The city was pushed from home to place.

I am that kind of person too.Going to bars and changing girlfriends is not as fast as Dacheng, but it is much faster than ordinary boys. Cigarettes are a social tool, and I have touched many girls' waists and buttocks with my palm.I used to not be able to classify myself, thinking I was "what kind of person", but now standing on the street, stepping on the snow under my feet in a daze, looking at the sports cars whizzing past me, I know that life is indeed not a luxury, but the deepest festering and numb.

Zhou Boxin is not this kind of person, although it seems that there is no difference between me and him.Both are rich and live the life of friends in benefits and girlfriends on call, but he's not like me.I always say that Zhou Boxin is inhuman, but in fact I am inhuman, he is.

Before leaving, Song Yiwei said something else to me. She said that Zhou Boxin had asked her a question when she contacted her.

I stared blankly at the street lights on the side of the street in a daze, imagining in my mind what the tone of Zhou Boxin's question should be like, it's hard to imagine, it's impossible to imagine.

"Sorry, can I delay you for a few more minutes? For his consideration, should I still see him?"

Suddenly remembered what happened in the bar that day.It may not necessarily be true, I have had too many dreams these days, maybe I fabricated them, but there is another hunch that it is true.I remember Zhou Boxin's eyes looking at me, they were very dark, and I could feel sad even when I touched them.

I seemed to shake off Zhou Boxin's hand, telling him not to touch me.

Obviously I want him to save me, I want him to take me away.I have always thought this way, and I think so now, no one can save me except Zhou Boxin.What I hate is Liufang, not him. Between him and Liufang, I will choose him without hesitation.But I did shake off his hand, not allowing him to approach me, saying I want to go home, don't touch me.

Thinking of this, he closed his eyes fiercely, let out a breath, and the warm air immediately turned into white mist when it touched the cold air.

I didn't bring my mobile phone with me when I went out. If I did, I would definitely be beaten by Liu Fang.

I guess Liu Fang will not take the initiative to ask Zhou Boxin until tomorrow at least, she definitely does not want Zhou Boxin to know that I am missing unless she has to.Liu Fang and I are surprisingly selfish here, we both understand that Zhou Boxin is an irrelevant outsider in this matter, but because of our ugly scars, Liu Fang and I have to sentence Zhou Boxin to death.

Just because he is an older brother, he cannot appear in our lives.

But me, but I'm actually not because of this, both Liu Fang and Zhou Boxin thought it was because of this.But it is not his death sentence that I pronounce, but mine.I'm not selfish, and I'm not afraid to be a monster.

I'm afraid he thinks I'm dirty.I think I'm dirty so I don't let him touch me, he must have misunderstood.He was absolutely mistaken.

elder brother.elder brother.

My brain was a little stiff from the cold, and I read this word very slowly in my heart. Every time I read it, I felt a warm feeling in my chest. I thought it was quite funny. Others rely on fire and electricity to keep warm, but I can’t get it by asking for it. miss.

My fucking heart hurts, did I really say it, don't touch me.

How can it be.When he was so fierce, I would allow him to fuck me, how can I not let him touch me now.

It's very close to Jiying, Zhou Boxin must still be in the company at this time.

I slowly went in the opposite direction, stepping on the footprints of different shades, listening to the "creaking" sound of the snow being stepped on, and hearing it made my teeth ache.There are hot milk tea, squid, boiled fish and eggplant in the stomach. When people are full, they will long for the filling of the spiritual world.I haven't eaten so full for a long time, and I haven't been so impulsive for a long time.

Holding the 100 yuan that Momo forced to give me in her hand, I said I didn't bring my mobile phone, so she gave me [-] yuan and asked me to take a taxi home.

He licked his lips and raised his hand to stop a car.

I know the password of Zhoubo's new villa, I thought so when I came here, but when I arrived, I realized that I couldn't even enter the gate, and knowing the password was useless.I don’t have a mobile phone, and I have less than 50 yuan in cash left on me. I can go to the convenience store outside the community and make a phone call, but I didn’t go.

Squatting obediently in place.

It was so cold that my teeth were chattering. I didn't seem to be afraid of the cold before, my mind was dazed, and my whole body was a little stiff. I almost knelt down when I stood up after squatting for a while.I clenched my fist and tapped my thigh twice, but I didn't feel anything, probably because I was nervous, so nervous that I was going to throw up.I don't know what time it is, when Zhou Boxin will come back, or why I'm here.

What am I doing here.

Song Yiwei asked me to come to him, yes.It's not that I want to come, Song Yiwei asked me to come to him.

I took a deep breath, the breath was so cold that my throat hurt, and it went all the way down the lung duct of my throat, and after I swallowed it, I felt like I had swallowed a mouthful of ice.Why don't you go, he doesn't know that I've been here, and when he goes back, he tells Liu Fang that I went out to relax, and no one knows that I've been here.

I was a patient honestly, a young master who pretended to be quiet, went to school, made girlfriends, had sex, got married, and had children.

Grass.

Why hasn't Zhou Boxin come back? If he doesn't come back, I'm going to leave. I really have to go.It took three weeks before I dared to step out of the house, to borrow Song Yiwei's words before I dared to come to him, I was a coward, I had the courage to come after so long, he still hasn't come back, I really have to leave.

The night seems to be very low, and you can grasp a piece of blackness with your hand.

I stood up abruptly as the headlights swung in front of me, and this time I actually fell to my knees.

My calf softened, and my knees ached from squatting for a long time. My palms were pressed into the snow, and there were still a few stones hidden under the snow, which made my palms, which were already unconscious, feel pain.But I didn't bother to cry out the pain, and got up with my limbs that were no longer my own. I quickly patted Xue, who was kneeling in pants on my knees, and quickly took a step back, leaning against the concrete wall next to the gate.

The headlights dazzled my eyes, and I couldn't tell what kind of car it was, let alone the license plate number, but I knew it must be Zhou Boxin's car.At first I raised my arms to cover my eyes, but then I got used to the light, put my arms down, and put myself in his headlights, knowing he could see me.

When Zhou Boxin opened the door and came down, my mind was buzzing, and I had no ability to think at all.I watched him stand in front of me, he got down without even wearing a coat, in such a cold weather, only wearing a thin suit.He is a little taller than me. I don't seem to be too tall at this age. No matter how hard I try, I will only be a centimeter or two. I am destined to look up at him like I am now in this life.

I licked my lips again, my lower lip was bitten several times by my teeth, and I called him dryly, "...Brother."

After calling, I didn't know what to say, as if I couldn't say anything, I didn't know if he would drive me away or take pity on me and take me home.I'm really like a very embarrassed stray dog, grabbing his trousers and wanting him to take me home, but I'm dirty and ignorant, so I have to wait for him to speak.

There is only such a small distance between me and him, I can touch him by taking a step forward, but I dare not, so I have to keep a close eye on him.

I saw strong impulses in his eyebrows, eyes and limbs, and the flesh on the side of his cheeks probably moved slightly because of the clenching of his teeth. It was not very clear in the night, but I watched too carefully for fear of missing every frame of his reaction.Before I fell into my arms, I heard Zhou Boxin ask me in a soft voice, "Can I hug you?"

It's really light, so light that it seems that I'm afraid that the overwhelming love and longing will frighten me, and it seems to be foretelling how hard and tight this hug will be.

My tears rolled down suddenly, and I said yes.

The author says:

Lots of new readers today!Jump up and welcome!Let’s talk about five updates a week, no updates on Mondays and Thursdays, and the time is ten o’clock in the evening!I hope that everyone who has plenty of starfish can give me a few!Bobobo 333

Oh, that's right, I just saw someone wanted to see Zhou Boxin's perspective. There is a side story, but it's not too detailed.Will post when finished!