Wading in muddy water

On Monday morning, I slept through two classes in a row. After the first class, I vaguely remembered that Dacheng came and pushed me. I didn’t wake up in a daze. I didn’t sit up straight from the chair until the second get out of class was over.

"Are you all right? How is your mother?" Sanzi handed me a bottle of warm coffee, I took a look at it, it tasted like caramel brulee, imagining the sweet taste, and handed it back without interest.Dacheng gave me the original flavor in his hand again, and I unscrewed it and filled half a bottle with one breath.

"Are you okay?" Dacheng also asked.

I cleared my throat, my throat was muffled by the coffee, and my mouth was a bit vague, "It's okay." Before I finished speaking, I only said two words, and the phone in my pocket suddenly started vibrating. I didn't even see the number when I came out, I opened the answer and stuck it to my ear, it was indeed Liu Fang's voice.

"Little Li, mom is counting the time. Is it time for get out of class to end? Are you at school?"

I squeezed the phone more forcefully unconsciously, and almost couldn't suppress the rampant irritability and anger in my heart for a moment, Liu Fang's tone was similar to fawning, probing and cautious.I had to keep in mind that she was a patient, so I had to be discouraged, let out a long breath slowly, and handed the phone to Dacheng, "My mother, tell her where I am."

Dacheng looked puzzled, he didn't understand what our mother and son were playing, and he took it politely, "Auntie, I'm Xu Yucheng... Oh yes, get out of class is just over, and the second period is over."

Before the phone hung up, Dacheng asked me with his mouth: What's the situation?

I casually grabbed a classmate passing by me, a girl I didn't know very well.I shoved the phone into her hand, "Do me a favor and tell my mom where I am."

"Ah?" The girl looked confused, but she answered the phone cooperatively, "Hello? Auntie, I'm Brother Li, er, classmate of Chen Li... Oh, it's okay, it's okay, no trouble! I'm at school. We are in class today Ah, just finished Chinese class. Goodbye, auntie."

"Thanks." I glanced at her, took back the phone, and it showed that I was still on the phone, but I really didn't have the energy to talk to Liu Fang, so I hung up.

The third son looked worried, "Brother Li, what does she mean?"

"I'm afraid I'll go find my brother." I leaned back, pressed my head against the back of the chair and looked up at the ceiling.My neck hurt so badly because I slept on my stomach for two classes, I moved my shoulders, and sighed, "I want to ask me to take a period of time off to accompany her, but I just want to lock me up. I'm afraid that something will happen to me, so let her Count to call me after class, and I will answer the video call."

The two of them didn't speak, maybe they didn't know what to say.

I was upset, waved them to go back, and then lay down on the table again.After laying down for a while, I took out my mobile phone and looked at WeChat, and looked at my brother's profile picture. The last message we chatted on WeChat was sent by me.I went back to his place after school last Friday. I passed by the supermarket and asked him what he would like to have for dinner.

Then I replied: "Return immediately, wait for me!"

There is also an emoji of blowing kisses at the back.

Let's go, let's go.The wave is too much, and now I can't see each other.

There is a physical education class in the afternoon. In winter, the playground is still wet after the snow has melted, so it is not convenient to do sports.

The physical education teacher was wrapped up like a polar bear, with hats, scarves and gloves. Around his neck was a messy string of whistles, thermoses, and teacher cards, but his neck was still raised, and he was not crushed by the several-pound thermos.

"Free activities, right? Those boys, don't worry about playing ball, you can go back to the classroom and study. Bones are brittle in winter, and the playground is also slippery. It's hard to fall."

I started to get annoyed again, and reached into my pocket for the cigarette case.It’s really difficult. My brother’s arm still doesn’t know if he can remove the plaster cast on time, and no one takes care of him. The nanny is a woman, and the assistant can’t enter his house. His bad temper makes it difficult for him to do anything by himself. .

Disbanded in the midst of cheers, I held my cigarette case and walked to the toilet under the rostrum behind the playground, Dacheng followed behind me.Before I got around the rostrum, a few people came towards me, four boys, and the one who walked in the front bumped into me.I was bumped on the shoulder, my steps didn't stop, and I didn't bother to answer.

"Yo, who is this, Chengzi!" came a strange sentence from behind.

"You are still the dog of the young master of the Liu family. No one pays attention to you. You just follow along. Does it look good, Master Xu?"

The four boys laughed out loud, as if this sentence was so funny.

"Hiss—" the man said again, and it took him a long time to think about it before he remembered, "Look, I forgot, his surname is not Liu, what is his surname? The Liu family doesn't recognize him, what a pity."

I reached out to push out a cigarette from the cigarette case, took out the lighter and lit it.

Dacheng tugged at me, "Brother, ignore them, let's go."

I gently broke free from Dacheng's hand and turned to look at them. I didn't know the four of them, so I probably had never seen them before.But it must be Li Zhou's little follower, how dare they, I laughed and asked kindly, "Why, how many bones will Li Zhou give you for a meal? He took so much effort to raise you so loyal. gone."

The face of the one who spoke changed.There is white smoke rising in front of me, especially in winter, steaming up warmly, but it is a bit choking.I didn't give him a chance to speak, so I continued, "Li Zhou likes talking about dogs so much all the time. He also thought the same way when he was trying to please my brother? Want to be my brother's dog?"

"Zhou Bo newcomers are lying in the hospital, what are you doing, relying on Liu's family or Zhou Boxin?" The man also laughed and stared at me.

The cigarette in my hand was half burnt, and I raised my hand to take a sip, and the white cigarette paper immediately burned into a series of red and ashen ashes, and fell down.The remaining two cigarette butts were thrown down at the feet and crushed out with the soles of the shoes.

The smoke ran out from the mouth and nose together, making it hard to see the face of the person opposite, I shook my hand, went up two steps and kicked him on the stomach.The cold wind in December was pulled by the speed of my passing and cut my face like a knife, which made the tip of my nose hurt from the cold.

I kicked him back two steps, swearing, raised his arm and threw it in front of me, but I grabbed his wrist and twisted it to the side, slammed him down, and pressed him to kneel down.The three who came with him didn't know what they were doing, and no one came up to pull me.

With the last puff of cigarette still in my mouth, I sprayed it on his face now, and patted the flushed cheek with my free hand, "I'm on my own. Go back and tell your good master, Stay away from my brother and my friends, otherwise I will go and buy his house, I am not afraid of squatting, is he afraid?"

Dacheng was a little stunned, and it took a long time to come to see me, he held my arm and asked, "Are you all right?"

Just now when I dragged that girl to the ground and knelt down, I exerted so much force that my arm really hurt a little.I moved my shoulders, walked two steps over to pick up the cigarette butt I just threw, and Dacheng was stunned: "I'm stupid? What are you, performance art?"

I picked up the cigarette butt and found a trash can and threw it in, and scolded him, "Performance art is shit, who stipulates that you must be handsome before fighting, it's stupid, I need to find a place to put out the cigarette, throw the cigarette butt away, and then beat him up He's so fucking lacklustre."

"Awesome." Dacheng was so happy that he couldn't stop laughing. When he went to the toilet, I lit a second cigarette and he was still having fun.

I was so annoyed by him, I rubbed a cigarette and handed it to him, "Shut your mouth."

He was not happy to be obedient, bit the filter, stood against the wall for a while, and suddenly called me, "Brother."

This brother was different from the previous ones, I heard it weird, I stretched out my knee and pushed his thigh, "Don't fucking call me brother, you are older than me, why are you pretending to be tender."

He started to laugh again, like a fool, "Sheng, what do you call you, Reiko?"

I also started to laugh, and I couldn’t hold it anymore. We laughed for a long time like two psychopaths who escaped from the mental hospital. It made my stomach hurt from laughing, "You are oranges, I am plums, grass."

We must both be really stupid right now, especially me.I know that Dacheng thanked me for such a fight, and I owe him one, but I still don't feel very good about it, and feel that I am still selfish.I do it for success, but it’s also for venting. I can’t tell. I think a lot of things are complicated, and I can’t figure it out. It’s hard to say how “love” and “care” can be judged objectively.

I care more about you or you care more about me.

After a fight, I moved my body, and after standing for a while, I started to sweat slowly, it was so hot.The mood that has been suppressed for several days evacuated a little bit, and I was tired of standing, so I just found a parallel bar to lean on.I raised my arm to cover the metal pipe on one side, and the ash fell in a flutter.

"Schizophrenia, the one with several personalities?"

I rolled my eyes, "Is that a split personality?"

"Ah? Is it different?" Dacheng took out his mobile phone and checked it himself. After checking it for a long time, he looked at me again, "Why did he suddenly get sick? Didn't he be fine before?"

I don't know either, I thought I knew Liu Fang very well, even if I didn't know many things, I thought at least I knew what kind of person she was.I took a puff of the cigarette, and remembered Liu Fang's words in the hazy white: Homosexuality is not a disease, but liking your brother is a disease.

I always feel that this sentence is very important, but I don't understand it.If my brother and I are really related by blood, this sentence is easy to understand, but my brother and I... I'm stupid, I was shocked, and almost broke out in a cold sweat.When I started to think about it, I realized that it was impossible. My brother and I could not be related by blood. If my biological father was not Chen Zhiyuan, then my brother and I could be said to be two completely unrelated people.

my brother……

He started to occupy my mind again, and I suddenly remembered that I called him a tyrant the other day.He was, indeed, unreasonable and autocratic.I can't really not contact him at all, can't see him, can't hear his voice.He can see me from the surveillance camera in Lishui Garden, but I can't see him, it's not fair.I really miss him so much, I'm really going crazy.

"Lend me your phone." I poked Dacheng suddenly.

"What's wrong with your phone?" He handed the phone to me.

I stared at his phone for a while, "Forget it."

"Want to call your brother? Do you use your own phone to call him and refuse to answer?" He asked, "Call, I think you feel uncomfortable. If you don't contact him again, you will become mentally ill."

"Well, I will definitely not answer when I call him. And I am worried that Liufang will check my call records." I pressed the sparks from the cigarette butt on the parallel bars, and rubbed the remaining filter tip back and forth with my fingertips. It's almost smashed.

Dacheng sighed, "I'll dial the number for you."

The author says:

Orange plum stickers, I will stick with you!Don't miss another chapter at the end of today's double update