Wading in muddy water

Before Liu Fang woke up, I had been researching what schizophrenia was. At the beginning, I couldn’t even control my hands. Then I calmed down and forced all the messy memories in my mind to stop. content.After reading it, I posted a blank for an unknown period of time. According to the time, Song Yiwei should be free. It was noon, so I called her.

It didn't take long for the phone to be picked up, Song Yiwei still had the same tone, very enthusiastic, with a natural intimacy in her tone, "Hey, classmate Xiao Chen, how are you doing?"

I was suddenly speechless again, and was silent on the phone for a long time, until Song Yiwei adjusted her tone, "It's okay, you can speak slowly."

"Louise, Liufang may have schizophrenia, I... I don't know what it is." After I said this, my speech speed increased uncontrollably, "But I just checked, emotional disorders, cognitive disorders Obstacles, she always feels that she is not wrong, and she is proud of being a mistress. She always goes back to the Liu family because of the way the Liu family treats her. I always thought it was because she was bad and cowardly. In fact, she is sick, right? And... …and hallucinations, delusion of being persecuted, she always doesn’t go back to Lishui Garden, and lives outside by herself, do you think it’s because she sometimes goes crazy? She’s afraid that I will know and hurt me, I thought she lived with her lover .And she is easily angry and unable to control her emotions. She used a knife in the morning..."

"Chen Li." Song Yiwei on the phone interrupted me suddenly.

"Huh?" I stopped abruptly, and responded vaguely, breathing unsteadily.Then I felt my heart beating crazily, and the hand holding the phone was very hard, as if I was suddenly pulled back by a "Chen Li", and I didn't even remember that I was calling Song Yiwei.I exhaled tremblingly and licked my lips.

"Are you okay?" Song Yiwei asked me.

I tried to calm down, "I'm okay, I'm fine."

"I'm sorry, Xiaoli. I'm just a psychological counselor, and I'm not qualified to make a diagnosis. I suggest you take your mother for a formal examination, but before that, I hope you can come to me as soon as possible, is that okay?" Her The emphasis was placed on "you", and I agreed ignorantly, saying yes.

Then hang up the phone.

I really want to call my brother, I've never thought of him that much.Thinking of my numb mind and slow thinking about everything, no matter what I think about, I will run to think about my brother within half a minute, and I think very slowly that he will see everything that happened in Lishui Garden in the morning.

Is my brother and I really finished? I don’t know what’s going on for the time being. I don’t know why Liufang reacted so strongly to my falling in love with my brother. I don’t know why she let my brother drive me away. , My brother actually listened to her.But I know that my brother and I seem to be really doomed, and he won't talk to me anymore, no matter how pitiful I am, even if I really sit at his door for three days and three nights without eating or drinking, he won't talk to me anymore.

Why on earth?

It seemed that they knew everything, that there was actually a connection between Liu Fang and Zhou Boxin, and they thought they were "protecting" me comprehensively, but it was like I was stuffed into a vacuum jar, unable to breathe or move.Every breath is suffering, obviously the most ignorant, but did not miss any damage.

In the afternoon, people from the Liu family actually came. I remembered that my brother told me to stay away from the Liu family, so my attitude became much colder, although I was also so cold to the Liu family.

It was Liu Yuan who brought his two daughters. Liu Yuan smiled when he saw me, and wanted to reach out to pat me on the shoulder, but I avoided it.He wasn't too angry, he was still smiling, looking very kind.Liu Fang asked me to go out and wait, so I closed the door with Liu Yuan's two daughters and went outside together.

Liu Yuan's two daughters are both beautiful, but there is a huge age gap between them. My elder sister is about the same age as my elder brother, and my younger sister is much younger than me.I have a deep impression of my elder sister Liu Yaoyao. When I first met her, I felt that she looked at me differently from other Liu family members. It could not be called kind. If I had to say it, it might be a kind of pity.

I don't care too much, I am indeed worthy of pity, in the eyes of others.

I looked down at my phone and looked at my brother’s WeChat first. The day before yesterday I changed his note to “Caring for the disabled, getting angry and hurting the body”. After reading this note for a while, I changed it back to “Never reply to messages” I'm so cold and cold", I breathed out, implying that I have nothing to do with it, just start over from the beginning, my brother ignored me before, it's nothing.

"Chen Li?" Suddenly someone called my name.

I turned my head to look, Liu Yaoyao smiled, I nodded, but didn't reply.

"You don't seem very talkative," she said.

Although I don't hate her, I don't want to talk to her about my life, and I state the facts in a neither good nor bad tone: "I have nothing to say to the Liu family."

She is still smiling, she really looks like Liu Yuan, as expected of her biological father and daughter, they love to laugh so much, they love to laugh all the time.If they weren't the Liu family, I might like them a lot, don't hit the smiley people.She said again, "Indeed, the Liu family is sorry for you."

I wanted to laugh a little, thinking that there is still a sensible person.But I didn't think the Liu family really felt sorry for me, the degree of "sorry" was too heavy, the Liu family just didn't like me, a bastard of unknown origin, that's all human nature.Or maybe she felt that Liu Fang was sorry for me, and that I was doomed to face such a fate in my life. In short, she said that the Liu family was sorry for me, and I wanted to laugh.

"It's a pity that your surname is not Liu." Liu Yaoyao said abruptly and inexplicably.

I don't understand where she came from, but it's not a good word for me. She thinks that everyone likes that surname, and everyone wants to crown it, but I can't avoid it. What a pity.I don't want to talk to her very much, and I have nothing in common.

It didn't take long for Liu Yuan to come out. He hugged his two daughters affectionately with his right arm, and looked at me with a smile, "Xiao Li, go in and be with your mother."

He seemed to be in a better mood than when he came here. I watched the family of three walk away indifferently, and couldn't help thinking before entering the door: I am so happy.

Liu Fang has returned to her usual gentle and elegant appearance since she woke up. Everything in Lishui Garden in the morning was fleeting like a phantom. If she was not lying on the hospital bed, her left arm was wrapped in thick gauze, I would have thought I hallucinated myself.Liu Yuan came to bring a fruit basket, I peeled off the plastic wrap and took out an ugly orange.

"Chen Zhiyuan will come over later." Liu Fang said.

The movements of my hands paused, "Did you ask him to come here?"

Liu Fang was silent, I glanced at her, she was concentrating on my action of peeling ugly oranges, her eyes moved slowly with my hand.I stopped, and her eyes met mine, and I asked her, "Do you know you have schizophrenia?"

Liu Fang avoided my eyes, "It's okay, it's not serious."

I wanted to ask her why she was in contact with Zhou Boxin, and suddenly remembered that the doctor said that she should not be stimulated anymore. I took a deep breath and changed the subject, "The doctor said you should not be stimulated, so don't let Chen Zhiyuan come over."

Chen Zhiyuan didn't come over until an hour later, and he let out a heavy "tsk" after coming in, the voice was drawn out and full of impatience.He sat down on the empty hospital bed next to him, and glanced back and forth several times, "Who is sick?"

"Xiao Li, you go out first." Liu Fang looked at me.

After closing the door, I leaned against the wall and heard Chen Zhiyuan's roar in a short while. I looked up at the ceiling, and knew that they would definitely quarrel, but unfortunately Liu Fang didn't listen to me and insisted on Chen Zhiyuan coming over.There was no need to avoid it at all, I could hear Chen Zhiyuan's roar clearly.

"Fuck! Are you crazy, you bitch? Give him shares? Give him shares! You are so cheap, how did the Liu family treat you, how did I treat you? I have beaten you and scolded you for so many years?"

"As much as you plan to give him, give it all to my name! Why should you give it to him? He has contributed to the company? I worked so hard back then and didn't see you giving me more shares!"

"Whether he's going to get divorced or not is up to me. If he can't keep his marriage locked up, why should Miss Hu divide my money? You think you're really brothers and sisters with them, and you're starting to see the truth through adversity Oh, fuck. People in the Liu family regard you as a younger sister?"

I'm too lazy to listen anymore, I'm not interested in money or Liu's affairs.

Chen Zhiyuan, the family company, did contribute a lot at the beginning.When I was seven years old, my mother proposed to contract all the wheat farms in the north and develop them into tourist attractions, which would definitely make a lot of money.Chen Zhiyuan had a gratified expression on his face. He didn't know in his heart, maybe he felt that my mother was too strong, and there were too many wonderful and advanced ideas in her mind, which made his status as the "male master" precarious.

Maybe it was because my mother came up with this idea, so Chen Zhiyuan was extraordinarily active, with a sense of stealing credit, as if everything was so successful because of his "capability".At that time, I was still young, and I always thought that "Dad" was very powerful. I really thought he was capable. Later, I realized that without my mother, Maitian would not have developed into this way, and Maicheng might not have become an Internet celebrity city at all.

I liked that wheat field very much when I was a child, and my brother seems to like it too.

I became the king of the wheat field. In the third field from the west to the right, there is a scarecrow with a FENDI scarf around his neck, 3000 yuan.When I was seven years old, the 3000 yuan directly turned the scarecrow into the biggest online celebrity check-in point. I often squatted in the distance and watched many first-generation Internet celebrities holding mobile phones, high-heeled shoes splitting the golden wheat waves, stepping on the heavy harvest and life. At his feet, he squeezed out a bright smile for the camera.

"Hi, audience friends. Next to me is the most expensive scarecrow in Maicheng that you have always wanted to see. I am here today."

"I didn't dare to look at this scarf more, for fear that others would think I was going to grab it and run away."

"Everyone has their own fate. A scarecrow and a scarf are worth more than my monthly salary...Thank you for the gift from this audience!"

At that time, I asked my brother what it meant to say that everyone has their own destiny. My brother rubbed my head. The years from the age of seven to ten were the years when we were most like brothers.

There was a gentle smile on his eyebrows, eyes and lips, his imposing manner was not as aggressive as it is now, but his figure was already tall and good-looking, and he answered me in a faint voice.

"If you put the unnecessary scarf on, she may be regarded as a thief if she takes a second look."

My brother looked down into my eyes, "This is how everyone lives."

At that time, although I nodded pretending to understand, I didn't understand what my brother meant at all, but now I understand.

Liu Yaoyao and her sister went out holding hands. I missed my brother very much, but I couldn't meet him.

This means that each person has his own life.

The author says:

Low EQ 1: I feel so bad for my son, I want some starfish to comfort my wounded heart

Low EQ 2: Pay starfish to speed up the meeting progress bar

High EQ: Can I see your starfish balance?