[SD Doujin] Light Blue Summer

When I got home, on reflex, my first thought was to call Sendo.No matter how he understands the relationship between us now, I want to make it clear to him seriously.

I didn't think too much when I pressed the call button, just like usual, but I forgot why he left suddenly at that time.

"What's wrong,"

He picked up the phone and asked so abruptly, his tone was a little different from usual, a little anxious and impatient, but I obviously didn't notice it as I was still in a mess.

"I made it clear to Rukawa." The words came out directly, and the receiver was tightly held in my hand.

"..." There was a vacuum-like silence on the other side of the phone, I held my breath and listened quietly.However, there was no sound other than some jumbled noises.

"Hey, Zhang, can you hear me?" I asked again uncertainly.

"……Feel sorry"

There was silence for a while, then suddenly said.

"me……"

"Ayu, I'm really sorry, I don't want to talk about this right now, if you, no, talk about it later." Before I could finish speaking, he quickly interrupted me, the rare desire to speak over there It stopped for a while, but it made me feel like I was thrown into the abyss again after the confession became easier.

"Did I disturb you?" I felt very uncomfortable, and I asked slowly.

"No, anyway, there are some things I wish we could talk about in person. I'm sorry, I'll go find you."

Then, the phone was hung up.There was a busy tone of "beep beep" from the receiver, and someone hung up the phone just like that, and the other party was Xiandao, and the one who doted on me was Xiandao, my lover.

I thought I would be comforted by the other party, but it turned out to be a cold answer. To be honest, I was completely shocked.So many things happened today, so chaotic, when I needed someone to rely on the most, I was pushed away by the person who pinned my expectations.

It turns out that I thought I was the most important, but it was only in a very limited and special environment.Outside of the time between the two of them, I didn't receive as much attention as I imagined.I lay down on the sofa and turned on the TV, boringly flipping through the programs that were showing at the moment. It would be a lie to say that I am not sad and disappointed, but what is spreading at this moment is more anxiety and inexplicable feelings that I have never had before.

"Girls who are still in front of the TV, hurry up and act! Our idol planning activities will start in the near future, as long as girls with idol dreams can sign up! Those who win the final victory can not only launch their own The photo and single will also join a new agency, which will be analyzed by professional planners..."

The host on the TV was excited with a microphone in his hand. I suddenly looked up when I heard a familiar name. I was stunned when I saw the TV station marked NBS. I looked at the phone that hadn’t rang for a long time. I thought it was him. He would come back to coax me, but in the end there was no call, and I was the only one waiting like a fool.I have never been so neglected by Xiandao, I am very sad and very angry.But when I think about it on a deeper level, what I'm actually more afraid of is that he said something like breaking up with me.

In a way, I've never been one to compromise.If you don't make a mistake in your judgment, you are probably used to keeping a strong corner in your heart for yourself, and Xiandao is definitely much more realistic and rational than I imagined.I seem to be the opposite of him. Occasionally I do not rule out escapism, and I am also used to subconsciously avoiding the ending. I don’t pay more attention to the Dahe drama that is playing on TV.

At this moment, the phone rang suddenly. After I realized it, I ran over immediately, without even realizing how urgent I was.

"This is Sakurai."

"Ayu, you haven't replied to me for a long time, I'm really worried! Have you thought about it?"

"Ma, Mami-san? Sorry, I have something to do recently."

"I'll wait for you at the coffee shop on the corner of your house, come here quickly."

×

The lamp above the head shines on the table, glowing with white light. There are not many customers in this coffee shop at the moment, only the moving music is flowing slowly. In this narrow compartment, only the voice of Ms. Mami can be heard.

"If I can get No.1 this time, I think I can switch from a plane model to a formal model, and there will be more external affairs. It will also benefit you a lot, and you must prepare carefully when you go back." The other party remained motionless. Sitting, thinking with downcast eyes, subconsciously turning the teacup in his hand, the light yellow liquid surface on the side reflected bright spots.

Withdrawing my thoughts of running wild, I blurted out almost out of habit, "...But, if I can really be selected, I will move to Tokyo..."

"There are more opportunities there, and there is nothing bad about it. If you are worried about Ayu, I will always be by your side. I can say that you are the person who knows the most about your work and purpose. You are suitable for the career of modeling. As long as this continues, I will definitely become a well-known model in a few years. Here is the registration form and proposal, you can go back and have a look for yourself, I will wait for you in the live broadcast hall of the TV station on Friday."

"……Yes."

I smiled silently, looked away, and looked at Ms. Mami. She was holding her handbag, her hands were folded in front of her body, and her long curly hair was draped over her shoulders. After smiling at me, she left one step ahead of time. the cafe.

In the city where the lights and the dark fog fall, the night is so bright.

The vault is vast, and the deep purple stretches infinitely into the distance, and the distant and blurred colors of neon lights emerge in the sky, covering the starlight.And the thin moon above the head hangs high in the sky, bending above the criss-crossing branches, suspended high in the clouds and mists.

With so many dreams and seriousness that I don’t want to admit defeat, I feel that I still have hope to be a model, or even become a jjj or release a single, or a star who develops foreign affairs in other ways, and I feel that I can still stand on the stage On the screen, standing on the screen, the dream has swelled bigger than my heart since then.

When will something like this make me hesitate?

When I saw the figure downstairs in the apartment, the answer seemed to be coming out. I rubbed my eyes desperately in disbelief, trying to confirm whether I was in a dream at this moment, but the opposite Xiandao did not speak anymore, but the curvature of the corner of his mouth was not easy Feeling a little bit better, we just kept our posture and looked at each other. In the end, he was the one who acted first.From the indescribable and illusory feeling before, I was suddenly pulled towards reality, towards me.

I kept silent, looking for the right words to say, probably weighing the right words, but in the end I raised my face without anything to say.

"I thought you wouldn't want to see me anymore, didn't you say you were busy with something?"

Such a boring, back and forth like nonsense, I provoked him with my eyes, "It sounds so impatient on the phone."

"yes?"

He smiled, as if he sighed in relief, and then suddenly remembered something, "By the way, I thought..."

"Speak straight up."

Seeing the hesitation on his face, I interrupted him.

"You and Rukawa..."

For the abrupt and ambiguous question, I vaguely understood it in just one sentence. Could it be that he was thinking the same question as me?But Xiandao, who has always been called a genius, would also be troubled by this kind of problem?I pretended to be stupid and looked at him with puzzled eyes.

"Actually, I have always cared about your previous relationship. When you called me, I thought you were going to tell me to leave, so I planned to come over in person and want to face to face... that's all."

After saying a lot, Xiandao coughed, raised his eyes and said bluntly, "Even if you really like him, I won't let him go."

The four eyes met, and after a few seconds, I laughed out loud, took two steps forward, and turned my head with a relaxed attitude.

"I thought you didn't care about that."

"...Maybe I don't care."

He followed, and the voice of the question was almost inaudible.

"Idiot! You are the real idiot!"

I clenched my fists and said to him, but he just looked down at me and paused for a while, then raised the corner of his mouth again as if he didn't care, and brought me into his arms, lowered his eyes, and even raised his ending sound happily.

"Yes, there is no cure."

His sudden change of attitude actually disintegrated my solid line of defense in an instant, and the remaining grievances kept coming out.At the same time, I hated myself for being worthless, so my tone unconsciously became awkward in a low voice, I raised my eyes and looked at him, "Then you were angry with me that day because you were jealous."

Looking sideways at me, he sighed softly and smiled helplessly.

"No, is it possible that I'm angry with you?"

"...Liar. I was scared to death when I made the phone call and that night."

He sighed and shook his head, stroking my long hair with his fingers, and the hug became more stable at this time.

"Uozumi-senpai and Ikegami-senpai have already quit. Speaking of which, I still don't feel the reality of being the captain until now, but as you said, as long as you are serious enough, there will be no problem. Next year, no matter what. To win."

He sighed sincerely, and when I looked up, thinking he would get serious, I was surprised to find that he blinked narrowly at me.

"Can I stay with you tonight?"

×

Finally, I agreed to let him live in my house. I opened the refrigerator and sighed, took out mineral water from it, poured it into a cup and walked to the living room. Under the light, the other party raised his face subconsciously, and squinted his clear eyes to look at me.

"Well, you go to sleep in my room, I, I'm fine here." Slowly put the water in front of him, unexpectedly he grabbed my wrist, and then stretched it on himself, my whole body People stuck to him.

"What is Ayu worried about?"

His breath fell on my lips, burning my skin.I didn't reply to her words, or in other words, every time I was in this state, I couldn't express myself well, and I could only let the immortals do evil.

"I won't hurt you." He put his other hand on my waist and closed it slightly to his body. I looked into her shining eyes and didn't know if I should believe his words.After all, at that time, it was really, really painful.

Facing my long silence, he put away his smile slightly, held my hand and then climbed to my face, carefully walking between my lips, "How can I believe me?"

I still haven't responded.

"That's good." He smiled slyly, put his hands on the back of my head, leaned forward, and breath rushed into my lips and tongue.He snatched my lips, and the kiss was a little messy and uncontrollable. His lips fell to my neck, just like before, with hot breath, he licked the kiss gently, the tip of his tongue slid across my skin, There was an electric current passing through the body like a shock.

"Chang, I, my leg...it hurts so much, can I..." I gently pressed against his chest, pushing him away with my only rationality.I thought he would restrain himself at a moment when he could hardly restrain himself like many times before, and then kissed my forehead lightly, and hugged me into his arms, but I was wrong, he paused and hugged me I got up and walked into the bedroom, and fell on the bed with my arms around me.

I didn't dare to look into his eyes, I stared at the tip of his nose, already dripping with sweat.

"It won't hurt." He smiled softly, with a charming charm, falling next to my ear, removing the last defense in my heart.I can feel that when he said this, his hand had moved to a position where I would lose control, and he was stroking lingeringly.I couldn't do anything else except hug him tightly so that he wouldn't notice the expression on my face that was about to collapse.

"Ayu." He kissed my earlobe, "Can I?"

I knew what he meant by asking, but I couldn't open my mouth, so I could only hug him harder as a response.

Xiandao kept looking at me, and when I was too shy to close my eyes, he would lean over, kiss my eyes, and tell me,

"Open your eyes and look at me, the person closest to you now is me."

Accompanied by the gradual clarity and the pain spreading all over my body, I slowly woke up from sleep.The air-conditioned room was a bit cold, and there was a chill on the shoulders that were not covered by the thin blanket. In contrast, it hit the bare nape of the neck. Xiandao's hot breath was behind him, and it was suddenly heavy and light. ︳Man, just kissed︳The body is still a little sensitive after warming up.Knowing that he has fallen asleep, this is just an unconscious move, but the temperature of the body still rises a little unconsciously.

Throat is a little dry, and it brings a little tingling when breathing.Now that I'm awake, it's better to get up and drink a glass of water, and I'm going to lift the quilt and get out of bed.But when the action was in the middle, it stopped and found the problem.Sendo's posture of hugging my waist restricts my movement.Because of the tight hug, my back was tightly attached to his body, and a little struggle was exchanged for the other party's unintentional dissatisfaction and increased strength around the waist, which made me give up the movement and lie down.However, the discomfort caused by a thirsty throat and the unconscious teasing of being imprisoned on the bed cannot be called comfortable.

The other party was sleeping peacefully, but I couldn't do anything when I was awake. After thinking quietly for a few seconds, I decided to lighten my movements, gently lift that domineering hand, and try again to go from that warmth to hair. Pulled out of the hot arms.

Because of his departure, he lost the object of hugging, and as if giving up, he simply changed from a hugging posture to lying on the bed with his hands spread out, with a dissatisfied expression on his face, like a child having a temper tantrum, innocent and cute.It was totally different from usual, I covered my mouth and laughed out loud.

I picked up the shirt that fell off the floor in the chaos just now and put it on. By the way, I helped the person who was not in a good sleeping position pull up the quilt. I picked up the remote control of the air conditioner and turned up the temperature. I walked out of the room with only the shirt on Standing barefoot in the refrigerator in the kitchen without even buttoning up his buttons, he took out mineral water, drank slowly while walking to the entrance hall, and lowered his brows as he looked at the documents placed there.

Pulling out the registration form, I originally planned to tear it up, but the moment my fingers gradually separated the paper, I stopped, unable to move forward any further.

The words Miss Mami said at night seem to be repeating back and forth in my mind at this moment. My wish is actually very simple.

In other words, the purpose or the deeper level is the ideal, and it is also simple and very single-line, naively trying to realize it.After spending so much time, if I just give up at the moment when it's about to come true, isn't it...

"Standing there in the middle of the night is very easy to catch a cold." The hoarse voice of someone who had just woken up and hadn't turned it on brought me back to reality from thinking. Standing a few steps away with a coat in my hand, dressed like that and saying that to me, is not convincing at all.

"Did you wake me up?" Saying so, I put it back into the cabinet in the hallway.

"You know that too?"

"I don't know, it seems to me that you slept soundly."

"I can't sleep well without you by my side."

"...It's just nonsense every time."

He laughed out loud, came over and hugged me again, I hugged his neck with a blushing face, he reached out to touch my cheek, and rubbed it lightly for a long time with the strength like teasing a pet meeting.

"It's really a rest this time. But, Ayu, stop running around."

I don't know if he still thinks I'm not embarrassed enough at this time, he bowed his head and whispered in my ear, deliberately emphasizing the pronunciation of rest and running around.

The author has something to say: the finale of the next chapter.

Sure enough, writing a sweet plot is the easiest, eh.

I'm sorry for the late update, I'm doing internships and learning to drive recently, so I only have time to code QAQ at night