song for the city

The days at his aunt's house were Xiang Pei's nightmare and the source of his pain.

Xiang Guo's parents are typical patriarchal patriarchal, and his aunt was not treated well when she was a child, and suffered a lot.After the parents died, the hatred was transferred to Xiang Guo, and finally to Xiang Pei.

Xiang Pei could understand his aunt's pain, but he hated her and no one could understand his pain.

He was taciturn since he was a child, and others seemed to be too sensible, so his aunt and the others thought he was easy to bully.He is equivalent to having no parents, let alone suing.

The first time my aunt slapped Xiang Pei on the face, it was just because Xiang Pei broke the water glass, and then there were countless slaps.Xiang Pei's skin was pale, and the marks of redness and swelling were particularly obvious, with a few touches of red interspersed with white.

The cousin smashed the guitar that Xiang Pei bought as a migrant worker, pretended to be pitiful and said that he didn't mean it, kicked him, and was fined not to eat for two days.From then on, my aunt knew that Xiang Pei was not easy to bully, and the physical torture turned into mental torture. She scolded his father and then his mother, and finally scolded Xiang Pei with extremely vulgar words.

But in fact, Xiang Pei didn't feel any of these insults.

His life is sealed by a gray cloth, no one is his weakness, and no one can be the reason for his anger.

Xiang Pei never thought that one day the cloth would be torn apart, and he rarely felt the warmth of the sun.

Youjing Chen Zhaonan and the others tore up the cloth and became his family.But Liang Zhang lifted the cloth and became Xiang Pei's weakness and sunshine.

After a cigarette was burned out, sparks jumped, approaching Pei's thumb and index finger.Chewing the last puff of shredded tobacco, the white mist slipped out from the gap between his lips, and rubbed his hot fingertips at Pei, the sweat was dried by the wind, and he wanted to smoke another cigarette.

Looking back at Liang Zhang who was sleeping soundly, he suppressed the craving for cigarettes welling up in his heart, and swallowed a mint to Pei to cover up the smell of cigarettes on his tongue.

Sweetness and bitterness are mixed together, after all, the sweetness has the upper hand, and the wind pours into the mouth, which is hot and painful.

It's not that they haven't considered the prejudice that two men will face when they are together, and they can't be together if they think too much. It's not that they need to consider these ages, and they also have the courage to be presumptuous.

If courage wears away, so does the ability to love.Xiang Pei has always felt that love is about how to love, not whether you can love.

What lies between them is not only a problem of gender, but also distance.Day city and Nanchuan are one south and one north, separated by countless rivers and mountains.Liang Zhang is lying beside him now, but Xiang Pei is ready to lose his consciousness at any time.

There was a sound on the bed, Liang Zhang turned over, his nose and throat made sounds together, he seemed to wake up.

With half of his eyes closed, Liang Zhang shrunk into the pillow in a daze, and reached for the person beside him with his right hand, only touching the lonely mattress.

His mind was not clear, and Liang Zhang was still in the panic of a dream. In the darkness, there was only the sound of the fan running. Suddenly, he opened his eyes wide, and he didn't know which direction to call: "Xiang Pei."

"what happened?"

She closed the window to Pei and went to bed beside Liang Zhang.

Liang Zhang leaned into Pei's arms, and smelled a faint smell of tobacco, which was almost gone, a bit bitter, and smelled like mints.

"What time is it?" Liang Zhang asked.

Xiang Pei glanced at the mobile phone next to the bed: "It's only three o'clock, you should sleep for a while."

"Are you awake or not asleep?"

In the darkness, he could only draw Xiang Pei's simple outline and bright eyes.Liang Zhang tried his best to get a closer look at Xiang Pei's face, but it was useless, and he was too lazy to turn on the light. Lying on Xiang Pei's body was very comfortable, and Liang Zhang didn't want to move.

"I couldn't sleep, so I got up and smoked a cigarette."

The night was sweltering, and Xiang Pei was defeated by sweating. Liang Zhang turned around and lay on Xiang Pei's lap, with his head facing the electric fan, and he closed his eyes due to the coolness.

"Get up," Xiang Pei propped up his knees, and lifted Liang Zhang's head, "Blow to your head, do you want to become paralyzed?"

Liang Zhang touched his neck uncomfortably, muttered a few words, and lay down again with a face of reluctance, not next to Xiang Pei this time.

"It seems that when you were a child, you often blew on your head."

Xiang Pei was expressionless, smiled and squeezed the soft flesh on Liang Zhang's arm, clamoring to tickle him.Liang Zhang was the most ticklish, he couldn't hold back his unhappy expression, he begged for mercy while laughing, he hid back and forth, twisted into a snake on the bed.

Seeing that Liang Zhang was out of breath and continued to laugh, Xiang Pei stopped teasing him and asked Liang Zhang if he wanted to listen to the song.

Having a bad dream, Liang Zhang couldn't fall asleep anyway, so he took the earphones plugged into Pei's mp3.

""IWantToBreankFree", the title of the song." Xiang Pei hummed along with the singing in the earphones, and Liang Zhang listened to two male voices surrounding his ears.

"Queen's song?"

"Well, the title of the song is very similar to our current situation, isn't it?"

"I've fallen in love for the first time." Turning to Pei, fingertips slid across Liang Zhang's eyelashes, "And this time I know it's for real."

Liang Zhang's eyelashes moved, rubbing against Xiang Pei's fingertips so that Xiang Pei felt pain.

"Did you know that Freddie, the lead singer of Queen, is also gay?"

After a song was played, he said to Pei.

Liang Zhang was surprised: "Is such a famous person too?"

"He died of AIDS. In the last period of his life, Freddy was surrounded by his homosexuals. Many people may not know much about Freddy's music. The greatest rock singer, his light is not dimmed because he is gay, it makes him more special, doesn't it?"

Liang Zhang nestled in Xiang Pei's arms, and Xiang Pei rubbed his forehead, his fingertips were covered with thin calluses.Liang Zhang held Xiang Pei's finger: "Suddenly I feel that we are not so lonely anymore."

"So we are not aliens, Liang Zhang. We are normal existences in the world."

The plaster hasn't been removed yet and it can't stop You Jing from coming to the bar. He knew that Xie An'an came to make trouble yesterday, so he was very angry and planned to hire some security personnel to guard the door.

These are secondary, You Jing is more worried about Xiang Pei and Liang Zhang's emotions.

Liang Zhang didn't come to the bar the next day, he didn't know how to face Chen Zhaonan and the others, so he asked Xiang Pei to find out.He expressed his understanding to Pei, and he didn't want Liang Zhang to go there now, lest he couldn't bear it.

You Jing told the bar staff to keep their mouths shut in advance, and their demeanor had to be natural, and Xiang Pei just stepped into the bar door and found nothing different.

Chen Zhaonan's reaction was calmer than he expected, and he didn't know if he was pretending or he really didn't care.

It was Xin Yu who gave Xiang Pei a headache. Chu Ranfei said that she went back last night and cried all night, and she would not go out today anyway, and her mentality was on the verge of collapse.Chu Ranfei and Chen Zhaonan have the same attitude, which is not easy to accept in a short time, but because it is Xiang Pei, they unconditionally support it.

Xiang Pei felt a little warm in his heart, but when he got off work, he found a dead mouse on the parked motorcycle.

The pale light shone on the gray fur and extremely long tail, like the stench of rotting rat corpses, numb Pei's scalp, overwhelming nausea flooded his stomach, he leaned on the wall and retched, the deepest depression in his heart Fear rushed out of his throat in an instant.

There is a whiteboard on the car.

The big characters "I am gay" were painted with red paint, bloody.

Chen Zhaonan and the others came from behind, grabbed Xiang Pei's shoulders, and asked him what's wrong.

Xiang Pei didn't answer, because he couldn't hear any sound clearly, as if he had fallen into the endless sea, and couldn't swim up no matter what.