goodbye sunny day

"Every day, every day..."

Qin Tian felt that his head was heavy, but his limbs were light and light. He vaguely felt that someone was calling him, one after another.

"Tiantian, wake up, wake up quickly."

"Well, is it mother?" Qin Tian asked the other party.

Such a gentle voice, such an intimate name, who else would it be if it wasn't Su Tian?

So Qin Tian tried his best to open his eyes, hoping to see his mother, but what was disappointing was that all the places he could see were misty.

"Where are you, Mom? I can't find you!" Qin Tian found himself lying on a snow-white bed, from the sheet to the pillow towel, which was blindingly white. He slowly sat up and looked around. In this world, there is no second person to be found.

At that moment, Qin Tian realized that he was hallucinating, and he lowered his head discouragedly, only then remembered that Su Tian had passed away.

"day by day."

As if sensing the disappointment of the other party, that familiar soft voice sounded again.

This time Qin Tian didn't hesitate anymore, he suddenly raised his head and widened his eyes, and then he really found Su Tian's figure not far away.

It wasn't a hallucination!

"Mom!" Qin Tian ran down from the bed, stumbling all the way towards Su Tian, ​​but no matter how hard he tried, he always seemed to be standing still.Qin Tian ran and ran, and finally couldn't run anymore. He fell to the ground and questioned Su Tian who was still smiling gently in front of him.

"Mom, why can't I touch you! Why!" Qin Tiantian waved his fist angrily.

"Qin Tian, ​​you've lost weight." Su Tian's voice was ethereal and unreal.

Qin Tian sniffed, hugged his knees with his hands and curled himself up, looking lonely and helpless, how much he wanted to be rubbed by Su Tian's hair again, or shaved the bridge of his nose: "Mom, I miss you so much. "

"Mom misses you too."

"Are you still blaming me?" Qin Tian looked at the other party without blinking, his eyes were sore but he didn't dare to blink, "I've dreamed about you many times, but I've never seen you clearly, you Don't you want to see me?"

Su Tian curled up one corner of her lips when she heard the words, and a hint of evil was added to her spring-like smile. She said slowly, "Silly boy, why doesn't mom want to see you? Mom is looking forward to you coming to accompany me every day." And me."

Qin Tian was stunned, this kind of Su Tian was very strange, although he was smiling, he looked eerie, like an emissary from hell.

"Does Mom want me to accompany you?" Qin Tian stammered, "But Mom, you already..."

"Already what?" Su Tian raised his eyebrows, and then suddenly realized, "Oh, I'm already dead, isn't it?"

Looking at Qin Tian who was stunned and unable to utter a word, Su Tian sneered and said, "Baby, have you forgotten how you got here these days? Mom passed away, and Dad was also disappointed in you. You give up by yourself, oh my god, don’t you feel uncomfortable? Come and stay with mom, mom didn’t see you before she died, do you know how sad mom is? "

Every word of Su Tian pierced Qin Tian's heart, his heart contracted in pain like an oyster that had been cut open and exposed to the sun, those memories that were deliberately avoided and forgotten came to mind one by one, Qin Tian Heaven has never felt like such a failure.

"Stop talking..." He tightly covered his ears and muttered to himself, but he couldn't block Su Tian's next words from the outside.

"Tiantian, do you still remember that today is my mother's birthday?" Seeing Qin Tian's heartbroken look, Su Tian seemed to be unable to bear it, and then changed his gentle face and asked softly, "Didn't you come here to Will you commit suicide if you stay with your mother?"

Of course, Qin Tian would never forget Su Tian's birthday. In the past, even if he was in Korea and couldn't come back, he would prepare birthday gifts in advance and send them back to China.However, suicide?Qin Tian was confused for a few seconds.

"Living is hard, isn't it? It's hard to beg, isn't it?" Su Tian smiled and waved to him, "Come and accompany mom, come."

"Could it be that I'm already dead?" A terrible thought flashed in Qin Tian's mind. He raised his hands covering his ears to his eyes. They were thin and pale hands with protruding blue blood vessels on the back. It really looks like a dead man's hand.Qin Tian stared blankly at these hands, and a voice in his heart said, "I don't want to die!"

The past two months replayed in my mind like a rewind.His insomnia symptoms are getting worse, and his body's drug resistance is also getting stronger. The sleeping pills helped at first, but the good times didn't last long. In the past week, it happened repeatedly that he sat withered until dawn after taking the medicine, and even several times because of Exhausted, he broke down emotionally on the set and cried loudly.There are not a few people in the entertainment industry who are mentally disturbed due to excessive pressure. Qin Tian also knows that this is dangerous for him, but he still takes chances, thinking that he will be fine after the movie is finished, and he will be fine after a while.Who knew that all thoughts would suddenly be lost this morning, and he swallowed sixty or seventy pills in one go as if in a daze.Qin Tian thought of Si Jie, Jia Yibing, and Qin Shouzheng. He seemed to see his former friends and relatives standing in a row saying goodbye to him, saying "Goodbye Qin Tian."

"No... I don't want to die, I don't want to die. I'm sorry, Mom, I'm sorry, I don't want to die yet."

"Life is hard, but I still want to live."

"Sorry, I want to live."

……

The sound of farewell gradually faded away, and finally turned into the sound of "didi" from medical equipment.

"Add another 300 ml of gastric lavage solution."

"Okay, Doctor Zhang."

When Jia Yibing arrived, the doctor just came out of Qin Tian's ward. When he saw Jia Yibing who was running all the way and sweating profusely, he was taken aback for a moment, and then asked, "Family?"

Jia Yibing was out of breath and nodded angrily. He didn't dare to tell Qin Shouzheng about Qin Tian's suicide, for fear that the old man would not be able to take it.

"The patient is still in a coma, and he probably will wake up at night." The doctor immediately said with a straight face, "I said you don't care about the people around you too much, go back and arrange a psychological counseling as soon as possible, otherwise it's hard to guarantee there will be a next time. "

"Yes, yes, I will pay attention." Jia Yibing nodded and asked hastily, "Then is he all right now?"

"I'm fine for the time being, but I have to stay in the hospital for observation for a few days."

"Okay, thank you, doctor."

The door was pushed open, and the person on the hospital bed looked extremely weak, his bloodless face was like a piece of white paper, and only the slight rise and fall of his chest proved that he was still alive.Jia Yibing sighed softly, and sat beside Qin Tian's bed, blaming himself and being confused.

"Qin Tian, ​​Qin Tian, ​​what on earth are you thinking?"

Qin Tiancai woke up in the early hours of the morning. After going through a lot of gastric lavage, he couldn't eat and could only rely on drips to maintain his strength. He was lying on the bed weakly. Feeling distressed, he took a deep breath, pressed his anger and said, "How do you feel? Where is it uncomfortable?"

Qin Tian raised his eyelids: "Everywhere is uncomfortable."

"Will you die next time?" Jia Yibing couldn't help but get angry when he said that.

"Actually, I don't really want to die, I just think about it..." Qin Tian thought of his bizarre dream. Although it was a dream, the feeling of heartache was very real. When he arrived at Si Jie, Qin Tian became extremely resigned to seeing his father and his friends. After experiencing this time, he would no longer do stupid things.

"Mr. Song was frightened to death when he found out about this. He must come here in person. I finally stopped him." Jia Yibing pointed at the other party angrily, "Tomorrow we will transfer back to another hospital. After returning, you must follow me Go see a psychiatrist."

As soon as the words fell, the door of the room was pushed open from the outside, and the two looked at it in unison, and then both were taken aback.The person standing outside the door was gasping for breath. He took off his suit jacket and put it on his arm. There was a fine layer of sweat on his forehead. It was obvious that he had rushed all the way here.