Don't look for the old attack in the crematorium

He Yi raised his eyes and glanced at Gu Wenyu, guessing why the man knew about it, he chuckled lightly, and said with a sarcasm: "It means literally."

"'Alive' means not dead, Mr. Gu is so smart, you should understand~"

Gu Wenyu lifted his long and narrow eyes, and squinted them, his sharp eyes were full of danger, he shook the wrist of his left hand, his voice was cold and icy.

"He Yi, I advise you not to challenge my patience, but what happened abroad that I don't know?"

"What happened abroad?" He Yi leaned on Gu Wenyu's car, gritted his teeth and glared at Gu Wenyu, "Gu Wenyu, why are you so shameless? Is it Mr. Gu's style?"

Hearing the words "She said...alive..." that Lin Qingran murmured softly while leaning against his arms, the scene that flashed before now flashed again and again, Gu Wenyu slowed down and adjusted his breathing with difficulty.

"...Is this related to me?"

With his hands wrapped around his arms, He Yi lifted his chin slightly and looked at Gu Wenyu disdainfully, guessing that he should know the outline of the matter, he snorted and said with a cold smile: "Mr. Gu is so smart, it seems he guessed it~"

Leaning on the car door, he stared at Gu Wenyu's dark eyes, and said each word with a pause: "Do you know what Grandma Lin Qingran said to him on the hospital bed when she was dying?"

"Grandma Lin Qingran said, let him and Gu Yanqing live happily ever after. Gu Wenyu, you should know the meaning of this sentence."

He Yi didn't give Gu Wenyu a chance to slow down, he continued: "Live happily with Gu Yanqing, um... and live happily with Gu Yanqing, live happily."

As if he couldn't stand listening to it, he shook his head with a cold snort: "And Gu Yanqing, happiness, can he meet these two conditions?"

"Gu Wenyu." Thinking of the past, He Yi felt a little sad. He looked at Gu Wenyu, "Do you know why Lin Qingran didn't die in the end after she continued to mutilate herself on her wrist so many times?"

He slowed down, as if venting his strength, and his voice was very soft: "Because 'living' was the last thing his grandma told him, he said that he couldn't do that, he could only 'live', so he did it time and time again." living in pain."

"He said that death was a relief for him. It's not like he didn't have this idea, but the words that grandma said to him with a smile when she was dying made him struggle hundreds of thousands of times in pain. In the end, he could only living in such pain."

"Obviously all the pain is gone after death, but he doesn't even have the right to die, he can only live in the pain of despair, this feeling..."

He took a deep breath and shook his head with a light smile, "How could you, Gu Wenyu, feel this kind of feeling? If you had felt it, even if you had such a thought, you wouldn't have treated him like that in the first place."

After finishing speaking, He Yi stood up straight with his body leaning against the car door, glanced at Gu Wenyu who was stunned in place, turned and left.

In the car, Gu Wenyu's hand had been tightly clutching his left wrist, and he was breathing hard, as if relying on the pain in his wrist to support his breathing.

His throat was so dry and painful, the oxygen in his body seemed to be sucked away, and his heart and trachea hurt every time he took a breath.

When he hugged Lin Qingran that day, when he heard him say "alive", this kind of frightening speculation flashed through his mind, but the facts did not give him a chance to breathe, even worse than the result he was afraid to imagine. Make him terrified and flustered.

If there were no grandma's temporary words at that time, maybe he would never see him again......

But... the words that grandma said to Lin Qingran when she was dying, made him feel the pain in his heart and made it difficult for him to breathe, as if his heart was being eaten by countless insects and ants, and the pain penetrated to the bottom of his heart.

Lin Qingran helped him conceal his identity as Gu Wenyu at the last moment, preserving the last dignity of "Gu Yanqing".

Before her grandma passed away, she thought that "Gu Yanqing" was someone who could bring happiness to her grandson, and she kept saying "Gu Yanqing" until the last moment, saying things that would make them happy.

At that time when the truth was exposed, the truth was like broken glass shards piercing into Lin Qingran's heart bit by bit, and the "Gu Yanqing" that grandma mentioned when she was dying repeated the glass shards several times more and went into Lin Qingran's heart again tie.

Gu Wenyu choked up with difficulty, and hammered the steering wheel fiercely with his hand. The side of the hand was imprinted with deep bruises due to too much force, and a large area was red.

The air in the car seemed to be getting thinner and thinner gradually, and it was difficult to breathe like a lack of oxygen. Gu Wenyu swallowed the suffocation with difficulty, and his bony hands searched for the sundries in the car.

After searching for a while, he found an unopened bottle of wine from inside, and then smashed it on the hard object next to it. The bottle shattered into many pieces with a bang sound, and the wine spilled directly and wet the seat next to it.

Bending down to pick up a shard of glass, he scratched it straight on his wrist, seeing the blood gushing out from the wound, he felt he could breathe a little.

But the pain in his heart was still twisting and throbbing, and the injury on his wrist couldn't be compared with his heart at all.

Looking at the blood that was slowly flowing out and dripping down, he suddenly understood what Lin Qingran said at the time, "the feeling of being alive".

"Hahahahaha!" Gu Wenyu leaned back in his chair, choked up and laughed wildly, with despair and pain in his laughter, almost hysterical.

It turns out... the heartache is so unbearable that I want to seek physical pain to relieve it. This is the feeling...

He made Ranran suffer too much, but what he feels now is only a tiny bit of the suffering that Lin Qingran has suffered.

Insignificant, not worth mentioning.

When it was close to the evening, Lin Qingran returned to the hotel after filming. As soon as he opened the door of the hotel room, he saw soup from his assistant and a large table of food from the hotel on the table.

"What's going on here? Is it a gift again?"

He Yi originally planned to go out to eat with Lin Qingran and Han Jin, but the food and assistant from the hotel came over before him.

The food delivered by the hotel was Lin Qingran's favorite dishes, and the table was full again. He Yi couldn't help but sigh that Gu Wenyu's memory is quite good.

Pulling Lin Qingran to the dining table to sit down, he unceremoniously grabbed a piece of meat and ate it, saying: "Whatever it is, don't waste it if you have something to eat, there are so many dishes that can be called RMB if you don't need money. OK."

After that, he picked up a few chopsticks of meat and gave it to Lin Qingran: "Eat more, you look thin, and filming consumes a lot of energy, you have to eat more to make up for it."

Han Jin put the freshly peeled prawns into He Yi's bowl, and while eating the vegetables in Lin Qingran's bowl, he bumped He Yi's arm with his elbow: "Brother Yi, I want to eat too, pick it up for me."

He Yi turned his head and glanced at Han Jin, and raised his eyebrows on purpose: "Are you jealous? If you say something nice, I'll clamp it for you."

Han Jin leaned into He Yi's ear and whispered something, He Yi's face slowly turned red, and he patted Han Jin: "It's true that if you don't tidy up for a day, you will start to go to the house to uncover tiles!"

That's what he said, but He Yi still didn't agree because someone awkwardly gave Han Jin a lot of meat.

"By the way, you remember to drink soup later." He Yi reminded.

Although he was dissatisfied with Gu Wenyu, these soups were indeed good for Lin Qingran's health.

Pushing the soup in front of Lin Qingran, he urged: "Drink a few sips first."

"Let's drink together." Lin Qingran got up to get a few bowls, one for each person.

"Don't!" He Yi hurriedly held Lin Qingran down, glanced at a large table of vegetables on the table to find an excuse, and said, "We are not thirsty, we can just eat vegetables, it would be too wasteful to eat so many vegetables with soup! "

These decoctions were specially prepared by the doctor for Lin Qingran, they didn't know what would happen after drinking it, even if there were no other symptoms, it wouldn't work too much.

Originally, he wanted to drink the soup from the hotel as an excuse, but he glanced at the large table of dishes on the table, and there was everything but no soup.

He Yi gritted his teeth silently, and cursed in his heart: Gu Wenyu, that bastard, really knows how to do it!No consideration for other people at all!

Because Lin Qingran wanted to drink soup and medicine, and if he drank other soups, he would be overwhelmed or his body would not be able to bear it because it was too nourishing all at once, so fragrant and sweet soup or supplements were not in Gu Wenyu's consideration at all.

"Drink it yourself." He Yi pushed the soup in the insulated box to Lin Qingran: "Drink more."

In order to make his excuses sound good, he also pretended to be lyrical: "Xiao Li specially bought it for you, it's all from his heart, drink it up."

Fearing that Lin Qingran would recognize it, Gu Wenyu specially asked the doctor to change the formula of the decoction. Compared with the previous decoctions, the decoctions these few times were a little different, and this time some things were added to make the bitterness less.

After dinner, Lin Qingran went to take a bath. He was a little tired from filming today.

When he came out of the shower, he heard someone knocking on the door. He Yi and Han Jin were in their own bedroom, and Lin Qingran went to answer the door.

As soon as he opened the door, a fluffy thing suddenly ran over and rubbed against his calf, "Wow~"

"Meat floss!" Lin Qingran squatted down and picked up the meat floss in surprise, "Why are you here? I miss you so much, so good~"

"Senior." Gu Haifeng came from the corridor, stood at the door and greeted Lin Qingran awkwardly.

Although he didn't mean to deceive Lin Qingran because of Gu Wenyu before, he was indeed an insider who also participated.

Later, after knowing what happened to Lin Qingran's family seven years ago and what he suffered in the past seven years, he felt even more uneasy.

Lin Qingran's intimate smile with Rousong just now subsided, and he smiled politely: "Long time no see."

Facing Shanglin Qingran's smile, even though he knew it was a polite smile, Gu Haifeng felt a little relieved.

"The meat floss misses you very much, so I brought it here." Gu Haifeng pointed to the meat floss and explained.

Lin Qingran nodded with a smile: "Thank you for bringing the meat floss over here, come in and talk."

At the corner of the corridor, Gu Wenyu hid and kept watching secretly. Seeing Lin Qingran's smile when he saw the meat floss, he was a little jealous but also happy.

At least Lin Qingran smiled, although it wasn't because of him.

Gu Haifeng entered the living room, Lin Qingran poured tea for him, the meat floss lay on Lin Qingran's lap, and he rubbed his head against Lin Qingran coquettishly.

Smiling and rubbing Rouxong's head, Lin Qingran tapped its nose with the pad of her index finger: "Good boy."

Unwrapping the jerky that he bought at a shop passing by before and thinking about bringing it back for the meat floss during the break, he took out a piece for the meat floss. Lin Qingran did not forget the existence of Gu Haifeng, and chatted with him politely.

Although they met several times at Gu Wenyu's house, they never chatted. They just nodded and said hello, and they didn't even say a complete sentence.

"Senior, how do you feel about filming today?" Gu Haifeng was looking for something to talk about.

It was impossible for him to mention the past, and it was impossible for him to ask about the seven years since Lin Qingran left. He knew what these seven years meant to Lin Qingran.

"It's okay, the condition is okay." Lin Qingran responded politely.

"By the way, senior, can I go to your set to watch you film tomorrow? I haven't been to the set to see how actors film."

Lin Qingran nodded: "Yes, it doesn't matter if you don't find it boring."

Hearing Lin Qingran's agreement, Gu Haifeng immediately replied: "It's okay, I'm not afraid of being bored, I can take the floss tomorrow and take care of it."

"Wow~" Rousong echoed, rubbing Lin Qingran's arm.

After some time, when Gu Haifeng really had nothing to talk about, he found an excuse to stay.

There are three separate rooms in the presidential suite, one for He Yi and Han Jin, one for Lin Qingran, and one room left, which is just enough.

After Lin Qingran and Rousong returned to their own room, Gu Haifeng entered another empty room for him.

After returning to the room and closing the door, Gu Haifeng took out his mobile phone and sent a message.

He would bring the meat floss here today, but Gu Wenyu actually ordered it. He asked the reason, and Gu Wenyu said that Lin Qingran should be very happy to see the meat floss.

At that time, Gu Wenyu's long and narrow eyes were drooping, and it was rare that he did not have a high-ranking posture. When he talked about Lin Qingran, his sharp eyebrows would always soften.

"Although I want to send the meat floss over in person, I think...but I don't want to see me. If I ruin his happy mood when seeing the meat floss, it's not worth it."

Hearing Gu Wenyu's words at that time, Gu Haifeng's first reaction was to be stunned, because Gu Wenyu's possessiveness is very strong, and his personality is also very tough. Normally, a man would be displeased even if others looked at Lin Qingran more than once.

Although he is dissatisfied with him for sending the meat floss here and taking his credit, but considering Lin Qingran's mood, he still gave in.

He tentatively asked the reason, and Gu Wenyu said that it was Shen Xinjiao, and no matter what the purpose was, he had to consider the other party's mood.

Sitting on the sofa in his own room, Gu Haifeng sighed slowly: "Brother learned how to love when the senior left, but he didn't learn how to love others."

He shrugged his shoulders, and leaned lazily on the back of the sofa: "It's a good thing brother has listened to Shen Xin's suggestion, otherwise..."

Gu Haifeng's mind suddenly flashed back to the time when Lin Qingran didn't know that "Gu Yanqing" was Gu Wenyu, and he smiled innocently from the bottom of his heart. He pursed his lips in melancholy: "...Senior should be happier."

"Brother Yi." Han Jin came out of He Yi's room, hugged He Yi's waist from behind, and rubbed against his neck coquettishly.

He Yi drank water, stretched his hand behind and touched Han Jin's fluffy hair, Han Jin gently kissed He Yi's neck, the picture was very beautiful.

When Gu Haifeng came out of the room, he happened to see such an intimate and ambiguous picture of the two of them. He froze for a while, as if he had caught an adulterous affair, and bad thoughts surfaced in his heart.

Isn't He Yi Lin Qingran's lover?So He Yi is cheating with other men now?

He frowned, and suddenly became a little annoyed, thinking that Lin Qingran didn't deserve such an upright and cheating boyfriend like He Yi.

Just thinking about how to tell Lin Qingran, Lin Qingran's room door suddenly opened a small crack, Gu Haifeng suddenly went back to the room and closed the door for some reason.

Maybe it would be better for Lin Qingran to find out by himself.

The door was not completely closed, Gu Haifeng secretly left a small gap to watch, but his heart was tense all the time.

Han Jin rubbed He Yi's neck affectionately again, then broke his chin and kissed him, Lin Qingran saw everyone when he went out to the living room.

When He Yi saw Lin Qingran, his face was a little flushed, and he covered Han Jin's mouth in embarrassment and wanted to kiss him, but he didn't break free from Han Jin's hand holding him from behind.

Lin Qingran was not surprised when he saw it, and talked to He Yi naturally, and the atmosphere between the two was very harmonious.

Gu Haifeng was stunned for a long time, very puzzled.

"Let's have breakfast, the hotel just delivered it." He Yi pointed to a large table of breakfast on the dining table with his chin.

Lin Qingran felt strange about this situation, but after hearing He Yi's words, she didn't go into details, nodded and said, "I'll call Gu Haifeng."

Hearing this, Gu Haifeng sorted out his expression, and came out of the room pretending to have just woken up, and when he saw He Yi, he smiled and nodded to greet him.

Han Jin had already let go of He Yi at this time, and he naturally stood behind He Yi.

He Yi glanced at Gu Haifeng indifferently. Although they had met several times when they were at Gu Wenyu's house, they had almost no interaction.

Responding politely, He Yi's attitude towards Gu Haifeng is not good, but at least it won't be as bad as it is towards Gu Wenyu.

At the dining table, Gu Haifeng observed He Yi and Han Jin calmly. Although they are not as intimate and ambiguous as they were when they were alone, they can still be seen as a couple.

He found that Lin Qingran seemed to be aware of all this, and seeing that He Yi and Han Jin were not in a bad mood, on the contrary, he had a feeling of "they are so happy".

Suddenly he understood everything, it turned out that He Yi and Han Jin were the real couple.

After breakfast, Gu Haifeng followed Lin Qingran to the set.

Lin Qingran had just arrived on the set, and Fan Li had also just arrived.

Fan Li greeted, "What a coincidence."

Lin Qingran nodded politely.

He Yi and Gu Haifeng stood on the side where they would not hinder everyone from filming. The meat floss in Gu Haifeng's arms opened his big black eyes and looked at Lin Qingran who was talking to Fan Li in front of him.

"Wow..." It didn't seem to like Fan Li very much.

After chatting for a while, Lin Qingran and Fan Li went to the locker room to change.

"I have a story that I want to talk to you about." Fan Li said to Lin Qingran after changing his clothes.

Actors can refuse to talk about other things, but talking about the script is an actor's duty, Fan Li knows that Lin Qingran will not refuse only this excuse.

Fan Li is actually not the type who is keen on getting acquainted with people. He paid attention to Lin Qingran because at that time he learned that Director Wang had chosen a little-known actor who had just returned to China, which made him very curious.

It was precisely because he paid more attention to Lin Qingran that he found that there were many things about Lin Qingran that made him curious. Although he was generally not interested in people, once he was interested, he would be very sensitive to the other party.

He could feel that Lin Qingran would unconsciously maintain a sense of distance when treating others without losing politeness, but the more Lin Qingran behaved like this, the more interested he was in him.

Especially Lin Qingran's beautiful eyes, like Li Yang's, hide some stories.

"Sure, what plot do you want to discuss?" Lin Qingran asked in response.

There was still some time before Fan Li and Lin Qingran left for filming, Fan Li took him to the lounge, Lin Qingran flipped through the script book, and asked, "Is it the scene we are going to shoot later or something else?"

Fan Li didn't think about it, he just wanted to find an excuse to be alone with Lin Qingran, he stared at Lin Qingran's serious appearance, put his elbows on the armrest of the sofa, rested his chin on the back of his hand, and watched quietly for a few seconds.

"Just the scene we're going to shoot later." Fan Li thought for a while and said, "We'll be filming a scene with rivals. When we got home from school, Li Yang happened to run into Jian Yang, and the two went back together. It is said that Li Yang has been actively looking for conversations with Jian Yang, and Yang Yang is not like being bullied in the classroom just now, what do you think his mood was like at that time?"

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The lounge is on the left side of the set, and Gu Haifeng is in that position so that he can see Fan Li and Lin Qingran discussing the plot.

"Aww..." The meat floss was held in Gu Haifeng's arms, and its ears drooped. Although it was chirping, it was still very obedient and did not run to look for Lin Qingran.

Gu Haifeng patted Rousong's head to comfort him, his gaze stayed on Fan Li and Lin Qingran in the lounge.

After Fan Li said something, Lin Qingran smiled, the conversation between the two was very happy, and the picture was very harmonious.

The two talked for a while, Fan Li got up, Lin Qingran also got up, the two of them were talking and moving, they should be rehearsing a scene, Gu Haifeng thought to himself.

"Aww!" Rousong suddenly became more energetic and looked to the side.

Gu Haifeng looked to the side, and shouted resentfully: "Brother... why are you here?"

The man didn't respond immediately, his eyes stayed in the direction of the lounge, his sharp brows furrowed, and some hostility filled his narrow eyes.

Gu Haifeng was so upset that he didn't dare to ask, and looked in the direction of Gu Wenyu's line of sight, he suddenly froze for a moment.

He saw that in the lounge, Fan Li hugged Lin Qingran, put his hands on his waist, and slowly helped him up.

Gu Wenyu's indifferent eyes were slightly touched, and the cold eyes narrowed dangerously. His body was full of cold hostility, and the surrounding air pressure also dropped a little bit. He frowned, and kept restraining himself.

Gu Haifeng looked at Gu Wenyu like this, knowing that the man was jealous, he kept stroking the floss to comfort him resentfully, and didn't dare to make a sound.

In fact, seeing Lin Qingran talking with Fan Li, he had thought about what would happen if Lin Qingran was really with Fan Li.

The two of them seem to be a good match, and they are both actors. If they are really together, they will not only have a common topic, but Fan Li will not bring up Lin Qingran's past because he does not know, so he will not expose his scars.

In this way, maybe Lin Qingran will live a very happy life.

Suddenly feeling that the surrounding temperature had dropped a few degrees, Gu Haifeng shivered unconsciously, turned his head to look at Gu Wenyu, seeing the man was about to walk towards the lounge, he hurriedly grabbed Gu Wenyu's arm.

"Brother, where are you going!"

Holding the meat floss in one hand and holding Gu Wenyu's arm in the other, Gu Haifeng was afraid that he would not be able to stop him, so he hurriedly moved out of Shen Xin and said, "Brother, you will make the senior hate you even more!"

As soon as the words fell, Gu Wenyu paused and froze.

Seeing that this trick worked, Gu Haifeng hurriedly explained: "Brother, senior is an actor, it's normal for actors to have physical contact with actors, you can't be so sensitive, even if you're jealous, you can't put it on the stage, or senior will get angry."

Speaking of Lin Qingran being angry, Gu Wenyu turned his head, his dark eyes sank, and after a while he asked in a low voice: "... If I go over, will I be angry?"

Gu Haifeng nodded hastily: "Of course! They knew they were rehearsing a scene at a glance. Brother, you, a layman, will only cause trouble for them in the past. You have no position and disturb them. Of course the senior will be angry."

Seeing that Gu Wenyu had no plans to go back, Gu Haifeng slowly let out a sigh of relief, but he didn't dare to let go of the man's arm.

Before "Gu Yanqing"'s identity was exposed, Lin Qingran and "Gu Yanqing" were lovers, the situation must be different, and at that time Lin Qingran still liked "Gu Yanqing" so much.

The current situation is not only completely different from that time, but also the worst situation. Gu Wenyu has absolutely no position to interfere with Lin Qingran's affairs, and it can even be said that he has no right to interfere.

If Gu Wenyu really passed by, it's hard to imagine what will happen then.

"Brother, you go back to the car first, and calm down first." Gu Haifeng suggested: "Calm down first, and then we will slowly think of countermeasures."

Gu Wenyu lowered his eyelashes, clenched his fists tightly, and said hoarsely after a long time: "...um."

In Gu Wenyu's car, Gu Haifeng handed Gu Wenyu a bottle of water: "Brother, drink some water and calm down."

Although he felt that Lin Qingran and Fan Li would be better together, at least better than now, but now he dare not say it out.

He knows how much Gu Wenyu loves Lin Qingran, a man can even destroy everything for Lin Qingran.

If Lin Qingran joked that he wanted the world to be destroyed, Gu Wenyu would really destroy the world.

Gu Haifeng didn't dare to think about it. Fortunately, although Gu Wenyu didn't know how to love someone, he at least learned to restrain himself now.

"...that man touched Ranran's waist just now." Gu Wenyu's voice was cold, the bottle of mineral water in his hand kept making "clicking" sounds, and the bottle was twisted out of shape.

Gu Haifeng took a breath, and quickly explained: "Didn't I say they are actors, it's normal for actors to act like that."

Talking about this topic again, he was afraid that Gu Wenyu would not be able to calm down. Suddenly remembering what happened last night, Gu Haifeng changed the subject and said: "I stayed in the senior's suite last night. When I went out to drink water in the middle of the night, I saw the senior sitting alone with meat floss In front of the floor-to-ceiling windows."

Recalling the situation last night, he said: "Senior looked at the lake outside the floor-to-ceiling windows for a long time, it was already past three o'clock in the morning, but the senior was still staring at the lake, holding the wrist of his left hand. "

Gu Haifeng remembered the day when Gu Wenyu cut his wrist, and the next morning he saw the wrist guard Lin Qingran was wearing on his left wrist when he came down from the stairs. He was a little worried: "Senior, you don't want to commit suicide, do you?"

Gu Wenyu's body froze, his cold eyes slightly raised, then he suddenly lowered his eyes, his deep voice sounded hoarse because of the choking feeling in his throat.

"...Of course, I won't commit suicide. Because I promised grandma..."

Difficult to swallow the suffocation in his throat, Gu Wenyu slowed down, and suddenly the words He Yi said flashed through his mind, his body froze suddenly, and his heart suddenly trembled violently.