imaginary rival

In fact, they all decided to come out, so Yan An naturally had the expectation of facing his parents.

But my father came back later, and this perception is different from facing the mixed doubles at the beginning.

Jiang Shiyu didn't know if he straightened his back under Yan An's influence, but he still looked at the door while avoiding his eyes.

Father Yan may have drunk some wine today, his face was a little red, but when he walked in, he was keenly aware that the atmosphere in the room was not right, and joked with the corner of his mouth: "Oh, what's the matter, this is, you are holding a family meeting without telling me? "

Yan's mother didn't loosen her frown, and didn't respond to Yan's father's words, but continued to say to the two children on the opposite side: "During the Chinese New Year...Yao Yao found out, and she quietly told me that I... had no choice accept."

"What are you talking about?" Father Yan put down the bag.

None of the three present responded to him.

God knows how broken Mama Yan's heart was when she found out that her son might be gay, or was with the child she had been treating as another son in New Year's Eve.

Why.

she thinks.

Yan An is a good boy, no matter how bad his studies are, his conduct is good; Jiang Shiyu is a good boy—I can’t tell what is good, but the two children have never committed murder and arson. Can live this life in peace.

Why did they take this path?

Yan's mother went to the bathroom and put her hands on the washstand. She wanted to explode, but she couldn't. Apart from Yan An and Jiang Shiyu, there were relatives and friends outside, and Yan Yaoyao, who had just told her the secret. , she couldn't blow it out so directly, without giving Yan An and Jiang Shiyu any face.

Did Yaoyao read it wrong?

How trustworthy can a child's words be?

Mother Yan thought about it, and she had to think about Yan An's overly intimate attitude towards Jiang Shiyu—she was not unaware of it, it was not that Yan An had no friends of the same sex before Jiang Shiyu came, but none of them would be like Jiang Shiyu. Like Yu, they naturally blended in between him and Xie Lanlan, and even made up some kind of three-person team, staying together every day.

Whenever there is an abnormality in the child, the parents will always be the first to notice that something is wrong.

Then, on the night of the New Year's Eve, those things that were wrong were ignited in Yaoyao's smiling children's voice, crackling and exploding louder than the fireworks in the sky.

There is no way to accept it.

Yes, she couldn't accept it.

This is a concept rooted in the bones, no man will spend the rest of his life with another man, let alone think about the details of those couples - if Xie Lanlan suddenly said that she wanted to find a girl to fall in love with, Mother Yan would feel that she Neither will be accepted.

"Then why did you," Yan An's voice became tighter, forcing it out of his throat, "didn't you say that?"

There was no outbreak, no quarrel, and she didn't even take the initiative to lift the cloth when she omitted the questioning and was hammered into the board by Jiang Xing.

It's not a mother's style.

According to Yan An's idea, once her mother finds out about him and Jiang Shiyu, she will arrest him and beat him up, and at worst, they will arrest him and Jiang Shiyu and beat them together, and then educate them, countless educations, Family relationships are like walking on thin ice in such an education, and finally fall apart.

But she didn't.

Including now, at this moment, she is just sitting here calmly, talking seriously with Yan Anjiang Shiyu.

"I wanted to talk to you at first," my mother said, "on the first day of the new year, when we went to visit relatives, remember?"

Yan An was stunned for a while. He couldn't remember clearly what happened half a year ago. He only vaguely remembered that his mother's face didn't look very good that day. He thought it was because he didn't sleep well or drank too much the day before.

"When I was sitting in the car, I kept thinking about how to speak and how to talk to you about this matter. I know that calling is useless. You must have your own ideas when you are so old." Mom paused for a while , when he spoke again, his voice was very hoarse, "If you can get over it by beating you up, I'm raising you for nothing, right?"

Although Father Yan still didn't understand what they were talking about, he didn't speak again. Instead, he sat on the single sofa and listened quietly.

Yan An's Adam's apple rolled several times, and every time he felt that tears were about to fall, his eyes were blurred, but the tears did not fall as expected.

"Then I...saw Sister Wang—you call her Aunt Wang, yes, I saw her, she was posting a missing person notice," Mama Yan paused again, and tightened her hands by her side, She turned her head to prevent the two children from seeing her expression too clearly, "On the first day of the new year, she stood alone on the street posting a missing person notice, and she... is looking for Ran Hang."

Aunt Wang's figure immediately appeared in Jiang Shiyu's mind.

The last time I saw Aunt Wang, her mental state was far from ideal, she was as thin as a lamp made of paper.

"I just thought, although I can't accept this matter just like her, but... at least, I won't push my child to that extent, right?" Mother Yan said.

Father Yan seemed to understand something, he was taken aback for a moment, then raised his head, stared at Jiang Shiyu and Yan An with wide eyes, his lips trembled, he wanted to say something but didn't say it.

He did not interrupt the exchange.

"In addition, you have to take the college entrance examination, and you have to go back to school within a few days after the new year. Speaking of the college entrance examination, I thought about it. Before Jiang Shiyu came, your grades were not very good. Our expectations for you are actually... ...Relax a little bit, "Mother Yan probably never thought that this conversation would come so quickly, she didn't type out the draft, she remembered what to say, "There are not so many requirements, as long as you can be admitted to a school, it will be smooth After graduating, find a job that suits you, how can you not live?"

"But after Jiang Shiyu came, your grades suddenly started to rise. It seemed that you had found the method and goal of learning. You were not as ignorant as before. I began to think that it would be good to have someone take you with you," said Mama Yan. Then, I raised my head and glanced at Jiang Shiyu, "I started to think, is it really a bad thing between you? It doesn't seem to have brought any bad influence, nor did it bring any drag to each other, or else let You can go on like this, but..."

But she couldn't accept it.

She can convince herself that if you are in love, you can talk to someone, but no one knows Yan An's temper better than her. Yan An is so serious and motivated in studying because he is serious. I was planning to let go, so I was willing to work hard.

But this is wrong.

The upbringing passed down from her parents, there is no such thing as same-sex blind date, everyone is saying that it is wrong, everyone thinks it is wrong, so how many people will maliciously talk about them behind the scenes or on the surface ?

This society is not as harmonious as it seems on the surface. There are dark tides and mixed fish and dragons. She can't stop thinking about it.

The more I thought about it, the more time I decided to talk to Yan An, and the time was pushed back.

Because of the college entrance examination, because of her entanglement, Yan's mother didn't speak, and no one said anything. If she closed her eyes and blocked her ears, she wouldn't hear anything, but someone would come to wake her up, such as Yan An Those things under the pillow, such as Jiang Xing's phone.

When she received Jiang Xing's call, she thought she would be furious, that she would not be able to hold back her temper, and felt disappointed and angry at the truth she had known long ago, but she was only stunned for a moment, and her heart had never been so peaceful.

Don't worry about it, take care of yourself.

Yan An's breathing became heavier and heavier.

Jiang Shiyu pursed his lips, trying to find a suitable time to say something, but he found that he couldn't speak at all. Mother Yan found out that their affairs had been going on for more than half a year. There are too many, and there is no need for them to enlighten.

"The two of you came to me for a showdown, but you don't actually want to express anything, right?" She blinked, raised her head, and forced a smile on her face, "I just want to hear my thoughts, even if I'm It doesn't matter if I beat you... No matter what, you two won't break up."

The word "break up" fell into Papa Yan's ears, as if he had finally sentenced something, he bent his back straight, and suddenly he seemed to be ten years older, sitting there without saying a word, Yan An Blinking his eyes, the tears finally rolled down.

"I don't want you to break up, it's just... you don't listen to me anyway, but," Yan's mother frowned, she was at a loss for words, "Maybe, I still think that if your family doesn't support you, this The road is getting harder."

"Don't Xie Lanlan support you?" Papa Yan asked in a low voice, "Don't tell me she doesn't know."

"She... knows," Yan An said hoarsely, dragging Xie Lanlan into the water very firmly, "She knew it from the beginning."

"So young people are quite supportive of this now, aren't they?" Papa Yan smiled, took out a cigarette from his pocket, put it in his mouth but didn't light it.

The whole living room was silent for a while, as if no one was at home.

Little Hail had already noticed that something was wrong with these shit-shoveling officers, but he didn't bother to care. He rubbed against Yan's mother's legs, put his head on the slippers and fell asleep.

Mama Yan looked down at it for a while, then suddenly asked, "When did you start?"

Jiang Shiyu glanced at Yan An, and said softly, "When the third year of high school begins."

"Oh, it's been a year." Yan's mother was silent for a while, then continued, "That's the situation, I have no objection to the two of you wanting to fall in love, and I don't know if I convinced myself. The way, you can figure it out for yourself."

Yan An and Jiang Shiyu didn't speak for a while.

After Yan's mother said this, she got up and went back to her room.Little Binghai was woken up, moved two steps to the side, and went back to the cat's nest by himself. Father Yan watched the two of them for a long time, probably because he had something to say, but felt that his wife had finished talking, so he opened his mouth several times without knowing it. If he wanted to say anything, he could only stand up and say to Jiang Shiyu, "Come here."

After speaking, he got up and went to the balcony.

Jiang Shiyu was stunned for a while, then followed.

The cigarette that Father Yan was holding in his mouth was finally lit, sparks flickered, and the smoke lingered and dissipated in the night like a veil.

It wasn't too late, but there were still people in the buildings across the street who turned off the lights early. Jiang Shiyu heard the cicadas chirping, and the one overshadowed the other, giving off a desolate smell.

Father Yan looked out of the window for a while, then suddenly fumbled in his pocket again, took out the cigarette case and shook out a cigarette, Jiang Shiyu shook his head and said, "Last time you told me to quit smoking, so I quit."

"It's obedient." Father Yan put the cigarette case back and continued to look outside, "Can you listen to what uncle has to say about this matter?"

Jiang Shiyu paused, clenched his hands quietly, and said, "No."

"I haven't said what it is yet." Father Yan glanced at him.

"...things related to Yan An can't be done," Jiang Shiyu changed his words, "Everything else is up to you."

Papa Yan sighed and flicked the cigarette ash: "Have you ever dated a girl?"

"No." Jiang Shiyu said.

"Does any girl like you?" Papa Yan continued to ask.

"...Yes." Jiang Shiyu answered truthfully.

"Then why didn't you go over there and try it with the girl?" Papa Yan smoked heavily, and before Jiang Shiyu could reply, he quickly lit a second cigarette, "Stay away from the balcony, I'm afraid I can't help but push you down."

Jiang Shiyu took two steps back in silence.

This habit of not forgetting to tease a few words when talking about serious things is quite familiar, and it is estimated that Yan An inherited it from here.

But for more questions, Jiang Shiyu couldn't answer him, so he could only respond in silence. Father Yan lit the third cigarette, and when he was about to finish smoking, he suddenly saw the man's hands trembling.

It took half a year for Yan's mother to convince herself. Thinking of her husband's temper, she didn't tell him immediately. Now that the news came suddenly, how long would Yan's father need to get used to it?

"You two are good boys," Yan's father closed his eyes, and continued after a long time, "Two good boys together...well, it's good."

Jiang Shiyu pursed his lips, his eyes a little sore.

Father Yan didn't say any more. After the third cigarette was smoked, he suddenly raised his hand and hit Jiang Shiyu hard on the back of the head. up.

Father Yan pointed at him, didn't say anything, packed up the cigarette butts and ashes and left. Jiang Shiyu didn't quite understand what this meant. He waited for the footsteps to go away before walking out of the balcony, and saw Yan An standing outside the balcony door , rubbing the back of his head in a daze, apparently also beaten.

Father Yan returned to the room, and the two of them were a little dazed for a moment.

The imaginary flood and ferocious beasts fell before their eyes, and suddenly turned into a calm lake, and the huge gap that the strong wind could not stir up waves made both of them very confused.

After a while, Jiang Shiyu suddenly said, "They can't accept it."

Yan An froze for a moment, then nodded, "En."

Jiang Shiyu's eyes quickly turned around the house, and finally fell on Yan An, and said softly: "But they love you very much."

Yan An was still stunned for a while, his eyes became more red, and he continued to nod: "I know."