imaginary rival

In fact, Yan An had rehearsed countless times of coming out in his mind.

Jiang Shiyu told him not to think too much, it would only interfere with his life, Yan An agreed, but in the middle of the night, he would always think of these things involuntarily, his thinking cannot be completely controlled by himself .

It is impossible to completely let go of what has happened, especially this kind of thing that does not know what will happen after it is said.

Brother Ran Hang is ill, so don't play with him anymore.

That's what my mother said back then.

Now that I have the same "disease" as Ran Hang, what will my mother say?

After all, mother's vague attitude was enough to make Yan An flustered.

The street lamp flickered for a long time, and finally announced the end of its life with a squeak, like a small piece of a puzzle was suddenly missing, and only this place in the whole street was darkened.

Yan An subconsciously looked at Jiang Shiyu at the moment when the street lamp was broken, and Jiang Shiyu also looked up at him. The two people's eyes met, and they wanted to say something, but they couldn't say anything.

The way home has never been so short. In the past, Yan An always felt that his home was too remote and far away from anywhere, but now he felt that it was too close.

The old people who came out for a walk at this time have all gone back. A few old ladies in the elevator were chatting. When they saw Yan An and Jiang Shiyu go in, they greeted first; "Xiao An is back?"

"Ah, um," Yan An nodded numbly, "Hi, mother-in-law."

"Did you get your grades in the college entrance examination?" Another old lady asked.

"Not yet," Yan An said, "The day after tomorrow."

The old lady chatted a few more words, and Yan An responded one by one, as if nothing happened, as if he wasn't the one who stammered out the phrase "I'm scared" just now.

Jiang Shiyu kept looking at him from the corner of his eye, and he didn't take it back until the old ladies had all stepped out of the elevator.

The elevator trembled slightly and continued to go up. The two of them stared at the floor number and remained silent until they got out of the elevator. Jiang Shiyu saw Yan An's hand shaking as he took out the key.

A surge of anger burst out of Jiang Shiyu's heart immediately, and he even had the urge to rush back and slap Jiang to wake up.

Yan An failed to align the key to the keyhole several times, and the more misaligned, the more his hands trembled. The keychain given by Xie Lanlan collided with a few small keys, and there was a series of light and delicate sounds. Shi Yu reached out and grabbed his wrist.

"...Don't say I'm sorry," Yan An said suddenly, with an unexpectedly steady voice, "No, it's not your fault."

Jiang Shiyu didn't speak, and helped him align the key bit by bit, inserted it, and twisted it again. When he let go, his fingertips touched Yan An's palm, and his hand was sweating.

For a moment, he had the feeling to persuade Yan An not to confess, and to do as he said, "Don't admit it".

But this idea just popped up and was pushed back by himself.

"It's all Jiang Xing, who made his own decisions and has nothing to do with you," Yan An gritted his teeth and continued, "You don't need to apologize to me."

"... You were Jesus in your previous life, right?" Jiang Shiyu frowned and said in a low voice.

Yan Anqiang smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, and finally opened the door.

Yan's mother has come back from get off work, and she is playing with Xiao Binghai with a cat teasing stick. Looking at the shoes in the porch, Dad hasn't come back yet, so he must be working overtime.

Yan An and Jiang Shiyu changed their shoes and went in, and sat opposite her, their backs straightened, as if they were here to explain something wrong, for fear that Mother Yan would make a decisive decision for them.

"Are you back?" Yan's mother didn't even lift her eyelids, "There's watermelon in the refrigerator, you can bring one to Lan Lan tomorrow, I bought it at the supermarket, it's not big, it's good to hold and eat, doesn't she just like to take a spoon Do you want to hold it and eat..."

Before she finished speaking, Xiao Binghai suddenly stopped playing with her, and took two steps towards the opposite side of the sofa. She was stunned for a moment, raised her head, and saw Jiang Shiyu: "Ouch! Why don't you say a word when you're here, acting in a mime What about you two!"

After she shouted, she put down her crossed legs, and then put down the cat teaser: "I'll go and cut some watermelon for you two."

After she finished speaking, she put on her shoes, raised her eyebrows and glanced at Yan An, then stared at Jiang Shiyu, and asked, "Is there a fight?"

"...Mom." Yan An yelled, and the hand on his knee subconsciously grabbed it very hard. The shorts he was wearing today had a few white marks on his knee right now.

Yan's mother stared at him for a while, the smile on her face gradually stopped, as if she heard something from Yan An's words, she sat back slowly.

After Yan An finished shouting, he didn't speak, and the three of them fell into silence. Xiao Binghai spun around the edge of the coffee table in the living room and looked around, as if wondering why these people were so quiet all of a sudden.

Mother Yan leaned back, took a pillow and hugged her in her arms, looked at Jiang Shiyu and Yan An, and suddenly recalled the appearance of these two when they were young.

Yan An has been very skinny since he was a child, and he and Xie Lanlan went to heaven and earth. She even took Yan An to the hospital to check if he has ADHD. In comparison, Jiang Shiyu was not so skinny when he was a child. He has been quiet since he was a child. that one.

At that time, he was very white, didn't wear glasses, and was a little timid—Jiang Shiyu was very afraid of strangers when he was a child, Yan's mother still remembers—Jiang Shiyu was not born in the south, he followed Jiang Xing's work And transferred to this side, and then transferred back with the job transfer, until last year.

When I was young, on the day I introduced Jiang Shiyu to Yan An, Yan An happened to be playing at Xie Lanlan's house. Jiang's mother pushed Jiang Shiyu into the room, pointed to the two children sitting on the ground, and said, "This is Yan An and Xie Lanlan. , say hello to them."

Jiang Shiyu was like a machine, he greeted bluntly when he received the order, and Yan An burst into tears before his voice landed.

Yan An loved to cry when she was a child.

Mama Yan thought.

Because he can cry about anything big, as if the tears of the whole world are on him, and he is here to repay the tears, but no matter how many tears, no matter how many times, the mother will never get used to the child's crying .

Yan's mother hurried over and asked, "What's wrong?"

What did Yan An say at that time?

He is a zombie!I don't want to play with him!

Yan's mother and Jiang's mother were stunned for a while before they realized it. Yan'an heard Jiang Shiyu as "zombie rain" and broke out in fright. The two mothers hurried to comfort him. After explaining clearly, Xie Lanlan next to him smiled. Lie down on the ground, holding a toy hammer: "Xiao An is so stupid!"

Jiang Shiyu was standing at the door, where his mother pushed him in. He didn't move, speak, cry or laugh, without any expression, and his sense of existence was minimized.

It was such a child who seemed to be in the same panic as she was sitting beside her son.

"Do you know where Ran Hang has gone?" She asked suddenly.

Yan An and Jiang Shiyu froze at the same time and shook their heads. They really didn't know where Ran Hang and Lian Zhou had gone. The location of the photos they sent to Yan An kept changing. Traveling while escaping, there was a sense of carefree wandering in the rivers and lakes.

"No one knows where they went," Yan's mother looked at the two children, and said slowly, "I'm very scared, afraid that you will disappear one day like him, and then you will never be found again."

Yan An and Jiang Shiyu were stunned again, their hearts tightened for a moment, their breathing was a little trembling, they could even hear the wind outside the window clearly, whistling, as if they were crying.

"Sometimes I also think, two such good children, ah, I look at the two children who have grown up," Yan's mother suddenly smiled, "How did it become like this?"

"Mom," Yan An called out, his voice was so hoarse that he seemed to be crying, "... When did you know?"

Mother Yan stared at Little Binghai for a while, then said softly, "It's Chinese New Year."

during the New Year?

Jiang Shiyu suddenly remembered Yan Yaoyao who broke into the kitchen suddenly, did she really see nothing at that time?

He was stunned for a while, then suddenly turned his head to look at Yan An, and found that Yan An's eye sockets were frighteningly red, and there was a layer of water mist inside, which was not enough to gather into tears, but it was just like that.

Jiang Shiyu really wanted to hug Yan An, but he didn't move. He looked at Yan's mother and couldn't say a word.

Suddenly there was a sound of opening the door at the porch, and Yan An straightened his back even more—Papa Yan came back.