imaginary rival

There are more and more people around.

When people go out for a walk after eating and drinking, the most favorite thing to see is probably arguing.

Especially at this moment, when an adult man was beaten to the ground, the other was sitting on the ground, dazed, lost in thought, and the two old men who finally arrived were crying, Thinking of going to fight Jiang Shiyu, Yan An glared back at him again.

Yan An actually didn't have much confidence in his heart.

In the environment where he grew up, the elderly were kind, his parents were wise and heart-to-heart, and his friends, male and female, could laugh and laugh, so he would not glare at any elder—it was the first time he glared at two old people like this , Guilty, but angry.

Anger is a defense against most emotions.

"Go." Jiang Shiyu put his forehead on his shoulder and said suddenly.

go?

Yan An raised his hand in embarrassment.

How to go like this?

His arms were still wrapped around Jiang Shiyu, and Jiang Shiyu showed no sign of letting go of him. If the two of them walked with their arms around each other like this, the posture might—not possible, it was very strange.

Before he finished thinking about how to go with Jiang Shiyu in his arms, Jiang Shiyu suddenly raised his head, his eye sockets were dry, and there was no sign that he had just cried at all, if it wasn't for his voice still carrying that With such a hoarse crying, Yan An would really think that it was his own illusion just now.

"Jiang Shiyu!" Seeing him raise his head, grandma suddenly yelled, "Where are you going!"

Jiang Shiyu glanced at them, did not speak, let go of Yan An and grabbed his wrist again, and led him forward.

Jiang Xing didn't stop him, but his grandparents roared angrily but they didn't come up to chase them. They knew that they couldn't catch up with the two young people, so they could only watch helplessly as they dragged each other and ran away from the crowd.

Yan An felt that he hadn't run like this for a long time, but his body was relaxed when he ran now. I don't know if it was because Jiang Shiyu finally yelled out those words from the bottom of his heart, and he seemed to relax as well. of.

But this relief only lasted less than half a minute.

Jiang Xing and the others must have said something extremely exaggerated in order to make Jiang Shiyu, the Chinese soft-shelled turtle, so mad.

Yan An quickly went through the points that Jiang Shiyu was prone to anger in his mind, and finally he was taken aback suddenly, remembering Jiang Shiyu's very abrupt "I'm sorry".

His footsteps faltered suddenly, and Jiang Shiyu didn't have time to stop. Because of inertia, Yan An still staggered a few times, and almost fell down before he supported a white magnolia tree by the street.

"Where are we going?" Yan An asked after taking a deep breath.

Where to go?

Jiang Shiyu himself didn't know either.

He just wanted to get out of that place quickly after venting.

When a person reaches the peak of his emotions, he will always reveal some ugly faces that he has never noticed. Jiang Shiyu didn't know how difficult he was to be seen at that time, but he couldn't stay for a second longer.

Don't want to see those people again.

But where can they go next?

Yan An's mother knew, and her own mother should also know that neither of them can go home—if they don't want to take the initiative to face some storm, they can't take the initiative to go home—the parents on both sides didn't come to contact them. It gave Jiang Shiyu a sense of panic before the storm.

"I..." Jiang Shiyu looked at Yan An, panicked.

"What happened just now?" Yan An was still asking, and when he looked over, his eyes were filled with worry that couldn't be more obvious.

Jiang Shiyu swallowed, his throat was so dry that he was about to burst into flames, he took a small step back, and let go of Yan An's hand.

Yan An lowered his head almost the moment he let go, watching Jiang Shiyu's fingertips move away little by little.

"Let me tell you something," Jiang Shiyu gritted his teeth.

Yan An didn't say a word.

"Your mother, aunt, she already... knows." Jiang Shiyu didn't dare to look Yan An in the eyes, it was all his fault, if he didn't let Yan An follow, it would be fine, Jiang Shiyu wouldn't be here In the past few days, I have seen through their feelings like a madman, hoping that they can go on well and make their own decisions like a madman.

Even as Jiang Xing said, Yan An's mother had already noticed something was wrong, but she never said it out loud. There was a delicate balance between Yan An's mother and them.

Now Jiang Xing's phone call broke the balance.

Why?

Even if Yan An wants to come out of the closet, he should be the one to talk about it himself, and he should talk about it after he is fully prepared, instead of being "stabbed" without his knowledge.

Jiang Shiyu didn't even dare to lift his head.

It was the first time in his life that he panicked like this. This incident was too unexpected. He didn't know what decision Yan An would make.

If Yan An wanted him to accompany him, then he would naturally accompany him, and he would definitely not let go.

But... Yan An's heart is too serious.

He didn't know how Yan An would choose.

After a long time, Jiang Shiyu heard Yan An's voice hoarse and slow asking: "...know what?"

"Our business," Jiang Shiyu finished speaking, paused, and continued to panic, "Yes, I'm sorry, I didn't expect Jiang Xinghui to call your mother and expose this matter directly. , she now...knows that we are in a relationship."

Yan An opened his mouth, but did not speak, his eyes widened slightly.

For a moment, Ran Hang seemed to be standing in front of him again, and said, Xiao An, do you know that many people in this world have no choice.

They are forced to walk on one road, they are born on one road, there are countless roads in the world, and no one will see clearly where they will eventually go.

It was a sunny afternoon, and there was still a little coolness in the air, just like the night wind at this moment, blowing the sweat that was not dry on the back of his neck, and the coolness instantly penetrated into his bones.

Yan An always felt that he was mature and grown up, so he should no longer worry about those things in the past, but he thought again, what was Ran Hang thinking when he jumped off the building?Does he really want to die, or is he forcing him to die?

What was the uncle who pulled himself away from downstairs thinking?

This child is so pitiful, just one second away, the boy who jumped off the building was about to fall on him.

Yan An lowered his head, as if seeing the blood flowing to his feet again - but Yan An had never thought about it calmly before, and he began to ponder slowly.

Was he afraid of blood, ghosts, Ran Hang who fell from upstairs, or something else?

Before he could figure it out, the sound of a car passing by on the road behind him brought him back to his senses. Only now did he see Jiang Shiyu raised his head and looked at him blankly, and he was also blankly, like two An senile dementia who just ran out of the courtyard was discussing where to go in the future. Halfway through the discussion, he suddenly forgot what he was here for.

"..." Yan An opened his mouth, but failed to utter the first word. He cleared his throat vigorously and asked, "What did my mother say?"

"'Got it, don't worry about it.'" Jiang Shiyu said what Jiang Xing told him.

Yan An was taken aback, he had heard this sentence before, just this morning, when his mother received the phone call that made her face change suddenly.

Got it, don't worry about it, just take care of yourself.

Mom answered like this.

After that, nothing happened. When Yan An asked, she said she was an idiot colleague and it was a work problem.

Yan An thought of her cold face, and also of her relaxed, nonchalant smile. Looking into the distance, he thought of those things in the bedside table.

"What do you want to do?" Jiang Shiyu looked at Yan An and asked cautiously.

"What should I do?" Yan An also looked at Jiang Shiyu. They hid under the magnolia tree and looked at each other.

The magnolias of this season have already finished blooming, and the green leaves are so dense that they cannot see through the light. Standing here, they can only distinguish each other's expressions from the very blurred light.

"Actually, if you go home now, you can pretend nothing happened," Jiang Shiyu analyzed word by word, "Maybe Auntie won't ask you anything, if she does, just say no."

Yan An clenched his hands tightly, staring at Jiang Shiyu closely, without saying a word.

"I guess Auntie's impression of Jiang Xing is not that good. As long as you grit your teeth and refuse to admit it, Auntie won't..." Jiang Shiyu paused for a moment, and Yan An interrupted him directly, without saying the last sentence. "Then you slowly disconnect from me, my mother won't take what happened today seriously, will she?"

"No, no," Jiang Shiyu quickly denied, "It's not that extreme, it's just that you don't mention me in front of your aunt in the future, and we will be more secretive..."

"Do you want to break up?" Yan An looked at him and asked for no reason.

Just as Jiang Shiyu was about to speak, Yan An interrupted him again: "It's useless to break up, Jiang Shiyu, it's already... my mother already knows about it, you think I'll try to fool her, yes, but You can never appear in front of her again in this life, is it possible?"

Yan An uttered the words very clearly, as if not panicking at all: "And my mother already knows that I am in a relationship with you and a man. I have already come out of the closet. This is not a matter of whether I admit it or not. Break up It's completely useless, don't even think about breaking up, don't even think about it."

"...I didn't think so." Jiang Shiyu said seriously.

Yan An was silent for a long time, his breathing became heavy, he let out a heavy breath, and even trembled when he inhaled.

"Jiang Shiyu." Yan An called him.

Jiang Shiyu recalled in an instant the day they were together, Yan An called him the same way, the ending was not deliberately protracted, but trembling a little, as if any louder voice could tear him apart.

"En." Jiang Shiyu responded, and took his hand. As expected, Yan An's hand was clenched, and his nails dug into the flesh of his palm. Jiang Shiyu broke it open for him, and touched it Those crescent-like marks on his palm.

"...I," Yan An paused, and smiled ugly, "I might be...I'm...terrified."

afraid of what?

Yan An couldn't explain that feeling clearly, but he felt that Jiang Shiyu could understand.

Jiang Shiyu was only silent for a while, and then put his hand into his, interlocking his fingers.

"Don't be afraid this time," Jiang Shiyu said to him, "No matter what, I will be with you."

Yan An still forced a smile. This incident was so sudden, and her mother's answer to Jiang Xing made people wonder her attitude. No matter whether she could accept it or not, she didn't ask Yan An directly. The point that disturbed Yan An the most.

"...I'm sorry," Jiang Shiyu apologized solemnly, "I'm really sorry."

"...We can't pretend to be stupid." Yan An squatted down again, staring at the ground, and said dryly, "It can't be like this."

"I will accompany you home," Jiang Shiyu looked at his expression and said seriously, "I will accompany you."

Yan An held Jiang Shiyu's hand, stared at the ground for a while, and shouted hoarsely: "Jiang Shiyu."

Jiang Shiyu immediately responded to him, but he didn't continue.