imaginary rival

What can love contain?

What can love change?

Before this, Yan An never had a definite concept.

Up to now, he doesn't dare to say that he has fully grasped this love, nor can he say that he fully understands it, but he has never had such... a time when he couldn't explain clearly.

The expected beating did not appear, nor did the hysteria, everything turned into green smoke and was dissipating. Looking at Jiang Shiyu in front of him, Yan An suddenly had the urge to hug and kiss again.

But can't do it.

Parents don't know when they will come out of the room, it's better for him and Jiang Shiyu to keep a distance.

Jiang Shiyu seemed to see through what he was thinking, quickly hugged him and let go, and even took two steps back.

"If you step back again, you will hit the glass." Yan An couldn't hold back what he said.

Jiang Shiyu stopped and looked at him, what emotion was in his eyes?Yan An couldn't understand, but he suddenly felt an unprecedented sense of relief.

High school has never been so easy.

The two were left here, inexplicably at a loss, after tonight's emotional outburst, they could only look at each other, and adding a bgm to the two of them could act in a romantic drama on the spot.

After a while, the bedroom door suddenly opened, and Father Yan came out, glanced at them, and asked, "Do you two have supper?"

"Huh?" Yan An didn't react for a while.

"I didn't eat enough at the dinner, so cook another bowl of noodles. If you two eat..." Father Yan entered the kitchen, "I'll cook two more bowls."

"Let me help." Yan An glanced at Jiang Shiyu, and followed into the kitchen.

The kitchen of Yan An's house is not too big, and it seemed a little crowded when three people stood there. Jiang Shiyu put the seasonings for himself, and took out another bowl. Pass it to Yan An and let him do it himself.

The hot noodles were served in a bowl, and the heat was blowing on his face. There was an inexplicable sense of warmth. Yan An bit his lip, trying not to cry out over the bowl of noodles. The chopsticks stirred in it. Jiang Shiyu on the opposite side didn't move his chopsticks.

Papa Yan seemed to be unable to eat any more, he turned the noodles over and over several times, finally couldn't hold back, and sighed, both of them straightened their backs from his sigh.

"Does your mother know about this?" It was Jiang Shiyu who asked this question.

Jiang Shiyu tightened his hand holding the chopsticks, and said in a low voice, "I don't know yet."

"Oh," Papa Yan turned his eyes back to his face, "Are you going to tell her or... hide it?"

Jiang Shiyu was a little dazed, he didn't expect Uncle Yan to ask such a question.

Logically speaking, Yan An's parents knew about it, so shouldn't the next thing be to tell his mother?Could it be that Yan An's parents really helped him hide the truth when he said he wanted to hide it?

Jiang Shiyu was a little dazed, calmed down quickly, and said, "I want to tell her, it can be regarded as an explanation."

"Well," Yan's father seemed satisfied with the answer, and said after a while, "Your mother may be very resistant to this matter, after all... that bastard Jiang Xing is like that, so don't report too much. Great hope."

"I know," Jiang Shiyu looked down at the bowl, "I will make it clear to her."

Papa Yan didn't speak any more.

They had a light supper together, Jiang Shiyu couldn't possibly sleep here at night, he didn't have the guts, since the end of the college entrance examination, Yan An had traces of being found, he didn't sleep here again , it is even more impossible now, he...he needs to give Yan An's parents some time to think.

But it was really late at the moment, Yan's father allowed Yan An to send Jiang Shiyu to the gate of the community, and he sent the two children out by himself. Looking at Jiang Shiyu, he didn't know what he was thinking, but he didn't say much. .

Yan An sent Jiang Shiyu to the gate of the community. The two of them didn't say anything along the way, but the backs of their hands and arms rubbed together from time to time to remind the other party of their existence, which was enough to make Yan An feel at ease.

He raised his head, looked at the moon in the sky, and suddenly felt an indescribable feeling all over his body.

Neither light nor heavy.

In short, the feeling that the sky would fall down at any time was gone, and the sky suddenly cleared up. Although there was still some water vapor in the air, at least...you could see the sun.

"Don't send it off," Jiang Shiyu stopped him at the gate of the community, "If you send me off again, I'll be home."

"It's so fast," Yan An said with a hoarse voice, "I think it's so unreal."

"En." Jiang Shiyu glanced at him.

Yan An took two steps back, retreated into the shadow of the grove, and opened his hands to Jiang Shiyu. Jiang Shiyu followed without hesitation, and hugged him very hard.

They hugged very hard, exaggerating like the rest of their lives, but they couldn't say a word, they could only hear the sound of each other's heartbeats, as if they were going to pierce their chests to cling to each other, Yan An's face was on Jiang Shiyu's earlobe kissed.

Jiang Shiyu didn't move.

The next day was still a sunny day.

Yan An didn't sleep well all night, and when he woke up the next day, he was in a daze. There were some clinking sounds of bowls and chopsticks outside, and someone was shaking the cat teasing stick and playing with the little hail, and the bell on the cat teasing stick sounded .

He grabbed the mobile phone next to the bed and looked at it, replied to Jiang Shiyu's message, and then got up to go out. His father teased Xiao Binghai and ignored him, and he went straight into the kitchen.

Mom was heating soy milk, Yan An watched it for a while, then walked over slowly, put his hand on mom's shoulder and squeezed lightly.

"Go and brush your teeth," Mom said, "Eat breakfast."

"Thank you," Yan An lowered his head and leaned on her shoulder, "I'm sorry."

"...Aren't you a little slow to react?" Mom looked back at him, with a helpless smile on her lips, "Low your head."

Yan An obediently lowered his head.

Mom rubbed his head twice, and after a while rubbed it hard again.

Yan An didn't move, he lowered his head and let his mother rub his head.

Last night I lay awake all night, Yan An had a lot of dreams, dreaming about childhood, dreaming about the rebellious period, dreaming about countless moments of fear of myself, suddenly resolved by a word from my parents, When I woke up in the morning, I couldn't tell how awake I was.

Thank you.

Thank you for giving birth to me and loving me so much.

Yan An felt that he couldn't say more, but his parents would definitely understand.

Chinese-style families are always so reserved and not good at expressing their rich feelings. Yan An is no exception. He helps take the breakfast out of the table, cleans up after eating, takes the initiative to wash the dishes, and catches the little hailstone by the way. After taking a bath, it seemed as if he had grown a lot overnight.

Jiang Shiyu didn't dare to come to the door the next day, and sent messages with Yan An all day with his mobile phone, and only dared to make a video at night.

Even though they are talking now, they always feel a little more embarrassed than before.

"The score will be checked tomorrow," Yan An said, holding his mobile phone and lying on his back on the bed, "Are you nervous, Brother Xiaoyu?"

"It's okay." Jiang Shiyu said.

"I'm a little nervous," Yan An continued, "If you don't get a place in the exam..."

He paused as he spoke, as if he felt that it was a bit unlucky to say these things at this time, he poohed, and changed the subject: "Xie Lanlan said that we will go to her house to check the score together tomorrow."

"Okay," Jiang Shiyu had no objection, "Then what, does she... know?"

"What?" Yan An didn't understand.

"Just, does she know that your parents know about us?" Jiang Shiyu said.

Yan An settled for a while, then said, "I don't know if she knows if my parents know about our affairs."

"Fuck." Jiang Shiyu laughed.

"Anyway, she's a smart person, and you'll be able to see it sooner or later," Yan An said, "Go and see it tomorrow."

Jiang Shiyu had no objection, and the two chatted for a while before hanging up the video.

I don't know if it was because of tomorrow's grades, my mother came back very early, but after she came back, she sat in the living room for a while, and then went back to her room without saying a word to Jiang Shiyu.

Jiang Shiyu couldn't find anything to talk to her about.

If he came out of the closet, he wanted to wait until the results of the college entrance examination came out, he could stand on his own, and when he grew up, he would talk about it when his mother completely let go of Jiang Che.

At least not now.

Jiang Shiyu threw his phone aside, looked at the ceiling, and for some reason, had a dream that both he and Xie Lanlan failed the exam.

Yan An and Sun Ke were admitted to the same university hand in hand, and he and Xie Lanlan set up a stall outside the university to roast gluten.

Business is still booming.

Jiang Shiyu was so smoked by the barbecue all night that he couldn't keep his eyes open. When he woke up the next day, there were even tears in the corners of his eyes. He was a little speechless. After washing up, he looked at himself in the mirror and complained in a low voice: " What a mess..."

It was agreed that we would check the results together, but Jiang Shiyu didn't check the class group or anything else in advance. He put on his shoes after memorizing the test number once and went out. He almost came to the gate of Yan'an's residential area before recovering. He forgot Send Yan An a message in advance.

The man is probably still asleep.

He took out his mobile phone and was about to send a message. He seemed to feel that something was wrong, and lowered his head—when he touched the mobile phone, he felt that the position of his trouser pocket seemed not right.

Now I looked down and looked carefully.

Good guy, Jiang Shiyu.

The pants are all reversed.

Jiang Shiyu doubted whether he had woken up, so he went to the toilet in the community to change his pants stiffly, and even checked to see if the clothes were put on backwards.Fortunately, the trousers are black, so you won't see the pros and cons unless you look carefully.

Are you a little too nervous?

Jiang Shiyu was not quite sure.

At least he didn't feel nervous until he found out that his pants were put on backwards.

When Yan An was called up, and they went to Xie Lanlan's house to sit and prepare to check the score, the feeling of just stepping into the college entrance examination room pervaded again.

Xie Lanlan paused for a moment, with a desperate expression: "Let's check Xiaoan's first."

Yan An nodded, before realizing what Xie Lanlan said, he raised his eyes and stared at her: "I thought you were going to talk about checking yours."

"No, no, no," Xie Lanlan shook her head wildly, "I want to be the last one to check."

"Okay," Jiang Shiyu had already entered the test number, "Then I'll check—"

"Do you remember my test number?" Yan An looked at him.

"Remember," Jiang Shiyu said, "I remember both your test numbers and Xie Lanlan's."

"No need," Xie Lanlan said, "I don't want to be in the car, let me stay under the car."

The three of them immediately became a group of joy.

No matter how nervous the parents were outside, the three of them stayed in the study, gathered together, checking their college entrance examination scores nervously, no one came to disturb, the only noise that could be heard was the cicadas outside the window.

The author says:

It's over tomorrow!