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give me Love?

Xie Zhitang suddenly wanted to laugh, but he couldn't move, he couldn't even hook the corners of his mouth, everything from his nasal cavity to his jaw was sore.

"You...how will you give it to me?" Xie Zhitang asked slowly, with eyebrows bent, and there was no smile or tears in his eyes.

As if crying out all the tears in the afternoon, Xie Zhitang blinked and said: "You can't give me."

Lu Jinsen didn't ask why.

Because Xie Zhitang immediately turned his face away after speaking and began to stuff meat into his mouth.

Xie Zhitang ate Brazilian barbecue, served with refined charcoal fire and special sauce, which combined a unique flavor on the barbecue.

Xie Zhitang not only stuffed meat into his mouth, but also continued to stuff cucumbers, tomatoes, and yellow peppers until it was full, and then began to chew slowly.

As if he didn't want to talk anymore.

Lu Jinsen didn't force him to ask him why he couldn't give what Xie Zhitang said.

Because he doesn't belong to a specific person in Xie Zhitang's eyes, so he can't give Xie Zhitang the love he needs?

Lu Jinsen didn't continue to think about it, and lowered his head to eat seriously.

Xie Zhitang poked a hole in the puff pastry on the corn soup with a spoon, and slowly scooped the soup from it.Xie Zhitang seemed to be on a multiplier of [-], no matter what he did, he was slow.

He was also slow to hold the spoon, and slow to drink the soup. After only two sips, Xie Zhitang pressed the puff pastry into the soup and was submerged in the soup, leaving no corners or corners.

Seeing that Xie Zhitang was dawdling for a long time without eating anything seriously, Lu Jinsen used serving chopsticks to pick up some of each dish for Xie Zhitang and put them on his plate.

Xie Zhitang didn't look up, didn't speak, and didn't respond to Lu Jinsen.After staring at the things on the plate for a while, he slowly picked up the dish and stuffed it into his mouth, and then ate it slowly.

It took a long time to eat this meal, mainly because Xie Zhitang ate slowly and seriously ate all the food that Lu Jinsen put on his plate, and made Lu Jinsen wait for him for a while.

Xie Zhitang didn't eat at noon, so it's understandable to eat dinner slowly.If he didn't know that eating too much at one time would be bad for his stomach, and seeing Xie Zhitang eating obediently, Lu Jinsen would have wanted to serve Xie Zhitang another dish.

Now that dinner is over, the next step is to go to the supermarket.

Why did Xie Zhitang want to go to the supermarket? Lu Jinsen has not figured it out until now. Maybe it was because he broke the snacks and wanted to restock them.

But Xie Zhitang's condition was unstable, and Lu Jinsen didn't want to bring him into the crowd, so he asked Li Zhe to communicate with the mall in advance to clear the venue in advance.

The shopping mall was not too close to the dining hall, the driver drove for a long time, Xie Zhitang quietly put his hand on Lu Jinsen's hand while sitting behind him.

The moment the skin touched, Lu Jinsen, who was flipping through the terminal with one hand, immediately turned his head to look at Xie Zhitang.

Xie Zhitang didn't know what expression to make, his thinking was slow, naturally not as good as usual, so he just opened his eyes and looked at Lu Jinsen, innocent and cute.

Lu Jinsen turned his hand over, and stretched it out between the two of them, palm up, then looked at Xie Zhitang and asked in the same tone, "Do you want to hold?"

There is only one dome light on the roof, the interior of the car is not bright, and the light is yellowish, which is a warm tone.

This kind of light shone on Lu Jinsen's hands, as if putting a soft coat on Lu Jinsen's knuckle fingers.

Xie Zhitang was stunned for a moment, blinked at Lu Jinsen, and did not speak.

Lu Jinsen waved his palm left and right in front of Xie Zhitang, as if to tempt Xie Zhitang to put his hand up.

Xie Zhitang endured it, but still did not resist the temptation, and gently put his hand on it.

Lu Jinsen finally turned off the terminal with one hand and put it in his pocket. The expression on his face softened a lot, as if he was satisfied with Xie Zhitang's choice, he turned his face back with a slight smile.

Xie Zhitang could feel the temperature of Lu Jinsen's palm, it was warm and soft to the touch.

Just as the palms of the hands pressed against the skin of the palms, Xie Zhitang's heartbeat suddenly accelerated.

Xie Zhitang secretly took a deep breath to fight against the palpitations that came from nowhere, but Lu Jinsen quietly opened his fingers.

When Xie Zhitang felt that his fingertips were hanging in the air, Lu Jinsen slowly inserted his fingers into Xie Zhitang's fingers, separated Xie Zhitang's five fingers and slowly slid them down. Lu Jinsen rubbed the tender flesh from the fingertips to the root of the fingers. It was clasped on the back of Xie Zhitang's hand and did not move.

It's a very intimate interlocking of fingers.

Xie Zhitang was stunned staring at their handshake, he couldn't figure out why they held hands in the car, or in such an intimate way.

The presence of Lu Jinsen's fingers between the fingers was too strong, Xie Zhitang couldn't convince himself to ignore this feeling at all, and couldn't help but bend his fingers and clasp them on the back of Lu Jinsen's hand.

He didn't know why Lu Jinsen wanted to hold hands with him, but Xie Zhitang knew that he would not reject Lu Jinsen, he could not refuse Lu Jinsen at all.

Xie Zhitang's heart beat faster, thumping in his chest, flowing into the back of his head along the spine, and slowly overflowing in his brain.

Xie Zhitang suddenly thought that Lu Jin

Is Sen 'love' him?

Lu Jinsen said that he can give Xie Zhitang the love Xie Zhitang wants.

So is he giving me the 'love' I want?

Xie Zhitang thought for a while, leaned back on the armchair, stared at Lu Jinsen's side face and thought slowly, but I didn't mean...you can't give it to me?

Suddenly there was a loud noise, Xie Zhitang looked over Lu Jinsen's profile and looked out of the window, the scenery outside the window was no different from before.

Xie Zhitang immediately understood that this was his rumor, not the world's rumor.

Xie Zhitang calmed down slowly, as if he took back all the overflowing soul in his body, and then poured it all into the hand connected to Lu Jinsen.

Xie Zhitang would never get used to this feeling, Lu Jinsen's fingers were inserted between the bases of his fingers, and the back of Lu Jinsen's hand was under the fingertips, he had never held hands with others like this.

Xie Zhitang couldn't help thinking again, why are they holding hands in the car?

The car is not an open space, he will not get lost, and he will not get lost, even if he wants to hide, he can't escape.Then why hold hands?

Xie Zhitang couldn't help but move his fingers slightly, and immediately received a questioning look from Lu Jinsen.

Xie Zhitang immediately stopped, shook his head, and smiled at Lu Jinsen almost flatteringly, revealing a dimple on his cheek.

Lu Jinsen didn't say anything, he tightened his fingers and turned back.

Xie Zhitang heard a sharp cry, which meant that a roar was more appropriate.Unlike any other known language in the world, the tone is weird and small.

But Xie Zhitang suddenly understood what the voice was talking about.

It said: You can't even refuse this, and you still think about tomorrow?

Xie Zhitang didn't speak, nor did he respond to it.

Xie Zhitang just couldn't refuse, let alone refuse.

It's not the mouth of the green bamboo snake, and it's not the needle in the back of the hornet. Lu Jinsen's hand, how can Xie Zhitang refuse?

So he let his mind roar and scream, Xie Zhitang restrained himself from holding onto Lu Jinsen softly, and didn't let go until he was about to get off the car.

Letting go of his hand, the voice in Xie Zhitang's head not only did not stop but screamed even more violently, even the tingling pain in his head intensified.

Xie Zhitang gritted his teeth and bowed his head patiently, and half of his face was covered by the hat, so it stands to reason that he should not be able to see his expression.

But Lu Jinsen seemed to know Xie Zhitang's situation, after getting out of the car, he walked up to him and stretched out his hand to him again, asking, "Would you like to hold hands?"

Xie Zhitang couldn't refuse Lu Jinsen's temptation for the first time, nor could he refuse for the hundredth time.

Xie Zhitang couldn't resist raising his hand to take Lu Jinsen's hand, and took the initiative to separate his fingers and interlock them, and was led by Lu Jinsen to the mall.

There were fewer cars in the underground parking lot of the shopping mall than usual, and Xie Zhitang knew that Lu Jinsen had cleared the place without even thinking about it.

Xie Zhitang didn't have any emotions about this.

On the first day when he lived in Lu Jinsen's house, Lu Jinsen took him to the supermarket.Then on the last day, Xie Zhitang also wanted to visit the supermarket again.

It doesn't matter whether there is anyone in the supermarket, the important thing is that Lu Jinsen is by his side supporting him.

Lu Jinsen didn't explain the empty mall, he just pushed a cart with one hand and walked inside.

The entrance to this supermarket is a miniature bookstore, and the shelves are filled with all kinds of books.

These books in the front are not esoteric books, most of them are picture albums and fairy tales, with colorful covers, which aroused Xie Zhitang's interest.

Xie Zhitang wanted to take a look, but he didn't want to let go of Lu Jinsen's hand, like an obedient dog looking at a toy outside its range of motion. Although he was a little moved, he still stayed quietly by his master's side.

But Lu Jinsen keenly noticed Xie Zhitang's interest, lowered his head and asked him: "Would you like to take a look?"

Xie Zhitang nodded, and was led closer to the bookshelf by Lu Jinsen.

There is a large Van Gogh album on the bookshelf, the cover of which is the famous "Starry Night".

Xie Zhitang took off the painting with one hand, put it on the lower row, and opened the book to read the introduction on the first page.

Xie Zhitang raised his hand and touched the side of Van Gogh's profile. It should be a self-portrait of Van Gogh with a photo or painting.

Van Gogh is a Dutch Post-Impressionist painter with a unique style of painting.

Xie Zhitang suddenly asked Lu Jinsen: "Brother, let me tell you about Van Gogh."

Lu Jinsen naturally said, "Okay."

Although Xie Zhitang offered to tell Lu Jinsen about Van Gogh, it took a while for Xie Zhitang to say: "Actually, I don't know what to say."

"He..." Xie Zhitang hesitated for a while and said, "I once read the letter he wrote to my brother..."

Xie Zhitang sorted out his words for a while and said: "I remember this passage very firmly, maybe it will be remembered for a lifetime."

Lu Jinsen asked, "What?"

Xie Zhitang recalled reading: "Can you know a person's inner struggle from his external performance?"

There is a great fire burning in your soul, but no one ever comes to keep you warm.Passers-by saw only a few wisps of black smoke wafting from the chimney and walked away. "

So what can I do now?I can only guard the inner flame, sprinkle salt in myself, and wait patiently*. "

Xie Zhitang finished reading slowly, and went to see Lu Jinsen again.

Lu Jinsen didn't respond at all, Xie Zhitang sighed lightly, and asked Lu Jinsen, "Brother, why are you holding hands?"

Lu Jinsen took a few glances at Xie Zhitang, and finally said, "Because you look like you really want to hold hands."

作者有话要说：*前那段话是梵高写给弟弟的信，出自《亲爱的提奥——梵高传》感谢在2020-07-2823:58:00~2020-07-2923:59:41期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 Qizhu;

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: 1 Lemon;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 24 bottles of Kuang; 20 bottles of Lugia; 10 bottles of Jinse;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!