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Xie Zhitang has tried his best to reduce communication with the outside world, reduce intimate contact, and avoid other people being influenced by him.

But it is impossible for him to completely avoid contact with the outside world.

his parents.

Xie father Xie mother wanted to have another baby a long time ago.When Xie Zhitang was seven or eight years old, Xie's mother told him that he would have a younger brother or younger sister in the future, maybe both.

As an elder brother, Xie Zhitang has to take care of them and love them.

Of course, Mom and Dad said, they will not forget to love him just because they have younger siblings.

Xie Zhitang was looking forward to the birth of his younger siblings.

But Xie's mother was originally in poor health, and when Xie Zhitang was born, she had just passed the legal age for marriage.Giving birth to Xie Zhitang was not easy, and after many years of nursing care, she did not conceive another baby.

When Xie Zhitang was about to leave the hospital at the age of 14, Xie's mother was found to be pregnant.

This was originally a good thing, Xie Zhitang recovered from illness, Xie's mother was pregnant again, double happiness.

But Xie Zhitang was soon diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

Xie's mother cried all night watching the test results, she knew very well what kind of blow it would be to Xie Zhitang if she told Xie Zhitang that she was pregnant at this time.

Such a serious disease was only discovered, and the mother became pregnant immediately. If there is a new baby in the family at this time, Xie Zhitang will definitely feel that she has been abandoned.

So Xie's mother finished crying, wiped away her tears, didn't tell anyone, and secretly went to the hospital alone to abort the child.

Xie's father only found out that Xie's mother was pregnant after Xie's mother had aborted the child. Xie's mother was in poor health and did not know if she would be able to conceive again after the abortion. Xie's father was distressed and sad, but he didn't say anything.

And Xie Zhitang found out by chance a few years later.

At that time, Xie Zhitang felt guilty. His brother or sister could not come into this world because of him.

It could be a healthy baby, beautiful and pretty, as smart as he is, but not as sick as he is.

So Xie Zhitang always told Xie's mother that he would take good care of them if he wanted to have younger siblings.

Now Xie Mu is pregnant again.

A new baby in the mother's womb.

Xie Zhitang should be very happy, but he felt terrified.

He is no longer the only child of his mother, so will the love he has still exist?

If the new child is smarter, more beautiful, healthy, lively and cheerful than him, will parents transfer their love for him to the baby?

Xie Zhitang was afraid, and felt ashamed and blamed himself because of this thought.

How could he be so selfish?His mother had already aborted a child for him, did he want his mother to abort another child?

Xie Zhitang doubted himself uncontrollably.

And Lu Jinsen.

...Lu Jinsen.

Lu Jinsen will be much more relaxed, right?

If it wasn't for him, Lu Jinsen wouldn't have been thrown over the coffee table, smashed the TV, made a mess of the living room, and even made a mess of the bed by him crying.

Lu Jinsen has lived here for several years, this should be his home for Lu Jinsen.

If it weren't for him, Lu Jinsen wouldn't have to rush back from work just because a psycho is demolishing his home.

Xie Zhitang was even more sad.

Think again, if he dies now.

Will Lu Jinsen be sad?

Will Lu Jinsen shed tears for him?

After the funeral, will Lu Jinsen think of him again?

As time goes by, will another omega live in Lu Jinsen's house?

Maybe that omega will still sleep with Lu Jinsen, on the bed that was wet by his crying just now.

If that omega cried, would Lu Jinsen gently wipe away his tears?

Will you also carry that omega from the room to the study and watch him work?

Will you come back every day to bring cakes to that omega?Say hello to that omega every morning?

Will Lu Jinsen mark that omega too?Will they have sex after marking, will Lu Jinsen mark that omega for life?

Will Lu Jinsen marry that omega?

Swear love to each other, exchange rings, and kiss in public in the presence of family, friends, and pastors?

Yes, I will.Xie Zhitang knew.

Then why can't that omega be him?Xie Zhitang quietly raised such an idea, but it was instantly shattered.

That omega, the omega Lu Jinsen likes.

He must be better than him, maybe better looking than him, maybe smarter than him.

But at least that omega won't suffer from his disease, let alone demolish Lu Jinsen's house.

The more Xie Zhitang thought about it, the sadder he became, and he couldn't help but quietly opened his eyes to look at Lu Jinsen in front of him.

From Xie Zhitang's perspective, only Lu Jinsen's profile could be seen, and Xie Zhitang was staring at him.Just staring at Lu Jinsen, Xie Zhitang felt much more relaxed.

Xie Zhitang whispered in his heart: I really like you.

Then Xie Zhitang lowered his eyelids, and said quietly: I'm sorry.

After a while, Xie Zhitang thought again: I love you.

Lu Jinsen didn't know that Xie Zhitang's mental activities were so complicated. After he finished approving the documents, he called someone to come home to pack his things.

The apartment was turned into this by Xie Zhitang, so naturally he would not consider staying here in a short time.

Lu Jinsen is considering taking Xie Zhitang to move to a bigger house, it doesn't have to be as big as Lu's old house, just a manor-style villa will do.

Would it be better to hire more nannies to take care of Xie Zhitang?At least a psychiatrist can be on call when Xie Zhitang is sick, so they won't be blinded.

But anyway, let's stay in a hotel these days.

Lu Jinsen sent a message to Li Zhe, asking Li Zhe to come over with a moving company in a while, move the clothes in his room to the hotel, and then move there with the nanny and nurse, and stay for a few days first.

Whether it is to move back after redecoration, or to move in another house, a transition period is required.

Lu Jinsen made a decision, turned to Xie Zhitang and said, "Let's stay in the hotel for a few days first, do you have anything to bring?"

Xie Zhitang blinked at Lu Jinsen slowly, and said slowly, "Bring... my painting materials."

Lu Jinsen said, "Okay."

Then he bowed his head and sent a message to Li Zhe asking him to bring Xie Zhitang's painting materials with him.

After preparing everything, Lu Jinsen stood up and put the computer back on the table, standing in front of the sofa and asked Xie Zhitang: "Can you go now?"

Xie Zhitang looked up at Lu Jinsen and said softly, "I'll only know if you release me first."

Lu Jinsen picked up Xie Zhitang with one hand, and took off the quilt on him.

Xie Zhitang was put on the ground by Lu Jinsen's waist, and before Lu Jinsen let go, Xie Zhitang immediately knelt down on the ground.

As if he was in a daze, Xie Zhitang stared at his hands propped on the ground, but he still hadn't recovered.

So Lu Jinsen slightly bent down and picked Xie Zhitang up, put him on the sofa again, and said, "Maybe it's because you've been wrapped in the quilt for a long time, and the blood is blocked, sit and rest for a while, and I'll ask the nanny to pour you a glass of water. "

Xie Zhitang nodded, straightened his legs on the sofa, and tapped his numb thigh with his hand, hoping that it would regain consciousness soon.

Lu Jinsen didn't go far, just asked the nanny to bring in a glass of water for Xie Zhitang at the door, and then walked back to the study.

It seems that Xie Zhitang is very worried about being alone.

Xie Zhitang knew it well, so he didn't say anything, staring at the coffee table in front of him in a daze.

Lu Jinsen glanced at Xie Zhitang a few times, thinking he had to find something for Xie Zhitang to do, looked around, and suddenly had an idea.

Naturally, there are many books in the study room.

After thinking for a while, Lu Jinsen took out a book at random, it was "Borges Poems",

Lu Jinsen looked through it and found that there was nothing wrong with it, so he walked in and handed it to Xie Zhitang, saying, "Read a poem."

Xie Zhitang took the book strangely, turned it over, suddenly smiled slightly, and raised his hand to touch the four big characters of Borges.

"I like him very much." Xie Zhitang said.

Lu Jinsen nodded and sat down on the sofa.

The nanny brought in a cup of warm water, and this time it was finally served in a cup.

Xie Zhitang just took a sip and put it on the coffee table. He couldn't wait to open the book and turn to the table of contents.

Xie Zhitang's reading speed is very fast, and the speed of turning the pages of the book is also very fast, one can almost hear the sound of flipping through the pages.

""Rose"*," Xie Zhitang sat up straight and read, "Borges."

Xie Zhitang's voice was much hoarse after the long cry just now, even if he drank water to moisten his throat before reading the poem, it was still hoarse, not as crisp and clear as before.

But this kind of dumbness brings another kind of heavy layering to the poem.Xie Zhitang's articulation is very accurate, and the severity, pauses, and ups and downs of the tone all carry his own understanding and expression.

"Besides my singing, the thankless rose." Xie Zhitang read.

While listening, Lu Jinsen quickly rechecked all the upcoming itinerary.

Xie Zhitang raised the corners of his mouth slightly, and read with lowered eyelids: "...a small rose regenerated from ashes through alchemy, the rose of the Persians and Aristotle..."

Lu Jinsen moved quickly. After checking, he immediately put away the terminal and sat down to listen to Xie Zhitang's poem reading.

"...The one that will always be unique, will always be the rose among roses..." Xie Zhitang's voice was lingering, and his eyes were almost glued to the book.

Lu Jinsen listened carefully to Xie Zhitang's poem reading, Xie Zhitang read it very well, Borges also wrote very well, that's the end of Lu Jinsen's appreciation level.

Xie Zhitang looked gentle and soothing, and read: "...Besides my singing, the fiery and blind rose, the unattainable rose."

Lu Jinsen waited for Xie Zhitang to finish reading, raised his hand and clapped three times and said, "It's a good read."

After Xie Zhitang finished reading, he ran across the rose with his finger, and said leisurely: "A rose is a rose, and the fragrance of flowers is meaningless*."

Lu Jinsen watched Xie Zhitang read the poem aloud, straightened his back and then slightly raised the corners of his mouth, gentle and comfortable.

Xie Zhitang was reading, and suddenly closed the page, raised the water glass on the coffee table to take a sip, and continued: ""What Can I Use to Keep You"*, Borges."

This is also Borges' poem, because it is so famous that Xie Zhitang can recite it.So Xie Zhitang lightly

He closed the pages of the book and stood up from the sofa.

"I'll give you a poor street, a desperate sunset, and a moon in a ruined suburb." Xie Zhitang walked slowly in the study, still a little unsteady and staggering. "I offer you the sorrow of a man who looks long and long at the lonely moon."

Lu Jinsen watched as Xie Zhitang walked steadily.

Xie Zhitang did not ask him for help, but chose to recover gradually like a toddler in Handan, so Lu Jinsen pretended not to know, and let Xie Zhitang walk around in the study slowly.

Lu Jinsen watched Xie Zhitang walking towards him, and then he almost jumped into his arms, Lu Jinsen subconsciously wanted to reach out to catch him.

Xie Zhitang leaned lightly on the back of the sofa, pressed a kiss on Lu Jinsen's cheek, and then immediately turned to the back of the sofa.

The author has something to say: The two poems before the * are written by Borges.

"A rose is a rose, and the fragrance is meaningless" before the * comes from Borges' "Seven Nights"

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No cp pre-received article: "Became the shit shovel officer of monsters after time travel"

Copywriter:

Zhong Xiu was startled, the super-rich 38-line starlet finally picked up a reality show, the staff put a blindfold on him, put on headphones and pushed him on a push chair, and he disappeared.

Zhong Xiu didn't know how long he waited in shock. He took off his earphones and blindfold and saw that there was a virgin forest in front of him.

Before he could doubt it, a leopard emerged from the grass and spit out human words.

Zhong Xiu was startled: I'm so stupid... the long warbler flies to the February sky! !What is this stuff? ?

Zhong Xiujing: Got it, I'm afraid it's a simulated animal robot host brought in by the program group, are these two eyeballs cameras?The workmanship is also realistic, and it can lick my face, so I want to buy it for fun.

Zhong Xiu Jing thought he understood and was not afraid. He carefully sorted out his expressions for a while (for fear of being photographed in black), introduced himself to the (what he thought) camera, and pretended to be surprised with an aria: This nature is so beautiful !We should stay away from the city and return to nature. (Try to keep the personality)

Leopard: This thing is cute, but is there something wrong with the brain?_??

Zhong Xiu rubbed the leopard's head violently in shock, and then started the 'today's task' as the chicken and the duck talked.

Waiting for the sun to move westward, Zhong Xiujing kept shuttling through the forest without seeing a single person or other cameras, and gradually felt that something was wrong.

The leopard also brought Zhong Xiujing into the clan at this time, and Zhong Xiujing came back to his senses and saw that the mountain was full of glowing animal pupils.

Zhong Xiujing: Although my name is Xiujing, who the hell is not afraid of this?

Zhong Xiujing: I just accepted a 50 reality TV show, time travel is another price.

Just when Zhong Xiu thought his life was over, the leopard excitedly ran into the clan and shouted: Isn't he cute!I found it!I am the first!

Other strange-looking animals also praised him one after another: so cute!

This is too cute!

What kind of monster is he!

Zhong Xiujing: You are the monster!Reflect on yourself!

Well, since the monster is not going to eat him, Zhong Xiujing is thinking about how to survive alone in the virgin forest.

But I found that this is not just a forest, but a world of monsters.

1. No cp.

2. Animals have a human form.

3. Go all over the map, frantically engage in infrastructure construction.