The sun and the moon are affectionate

(four)

For the next few days, I spent all my time in the dark clothing team, not wanting to see her again.The number of members of the Shenyue Sect continued unabated, which made me very upset, so I stayed with the brothers of the Dark Clothes Team for twelve hours a day, and didn't even go back to the other garden.

It wasn't until I heard Sai Huatuo's news that she fell ill again that I went back to Bieyuan and wanted to see her.

Hearing the knock on the door, Leng Yue smiled and scolded: "The door is open, what are you knocking on, why don't you come in quickly."

I sat next to her bed again.Not seeing her for many days, her haggardness is worrying.A small face has faded to yellow, and now the blood is completely drained, and it is so pale that it seems to be broken at the touch of a touch.The lips have turned lavender, and it can be seen that the poisoning is deeper than the previous few days.

"Is my sister better?" I asked.

"It's nothing, it's all floating clouds." She looked at me carefully and asked with concern: "Nongyue, why have you lost so much weight?"

As he asked me, he raised his hand to caress my cheek.

This sudden intimacy made me a little panicked, I quickly blocked her outstretched hand with a fan, and pretended to be relaxed and said: "Sister, Nongyue is not a child."

Leng Yue chuckled at first, and then asked me more seriously: "To be honest, I haven't seen you for many days, what are you up to?"

"It's nothing, it's still those things." I said.

"It doesn't seem to be going well."

"No, it went well."

Since she can't shake things about Shi Qiuyan, why should I annoy her by speaking out?

But her inquisitive temperament has not changed at all, and she guessed the whole story with just a few eye movements.

"I can't hide anything from my sister. Nongyue doesn't want to say it because she is afraid that my sister will be upset."

"It's really my good brother." She said with a smile.

I feel a little ashamed.Back then she just said something as a joke, so why should I take it seriously?I secretly sulked at her for many days, and now that she is so weak, she still doesn't forget to care about my condition.

It is a blessing to have a sister.

I want to take a good look at this gentle and considerate sister.

A white hair came into my eyes, so white that it was particularly dazzling among the black hair.These days, I don't know how much she has spent and how much suffering she has endured.She is too smart to take care of everything.It's the way it is now, but it's because of too much work.A woman's ignorance is virtue, but knowing too much is not good.

She said that there are only two solutions to Shi Qiuyan's matter: one is for her to die, so that Shi Qiuyan will disappear with her; the other is to resolve the grievance, so that Shi Qiuyan will no longer help Ban Tianyue The threat of Shi Jiajun was lifted accordingly.The second method seems to be the better choice.

"I don't want tomorrow to know," she said.

That being the case, let Nongyue stay with my sister.

Leng Yue asked me to move the empty chair in front of her, then close my eyes and imagine Shi Qiuyan sitting opposite to communicate with him in my mind.

She talked about her grievances, and the more she talked, the more excited she became.Tears were like a broken bank, crying until he was exhausted, and even breathing began to become difficult.Her hair, wet with tears and sweat, clung to her face in a mess.I reached out to help her brush her hair, and my fingertips lightly touched her face, which was as cold as ice.

I'm a little scared.I have never seen her lose such a big temper, and I have never heard of her being wronged so much.This has just started to be so painful, if the whole process continues for several months, what will she look like?

"Maybe Nongyue's thoughts are too selfish. If my sister wants to leave, Nongyue is willing to help you." I said.

"I'll stay," she said.

"But Nongyue really can't bear it..."

"It will pass." As soon as the voice fell, he fell into a deep sleep.

She didn't come for me, but she trusted me so much.He told me what he didn't want to say to Sai Huatuo.

She was so frank and real in front of me.Her reassurance reassured me too.

This sister is really nice.

I leaned down and kissed her pale forehead.The cold sweat has a sour taste, mixed with a faint herbal aroma, which is unforgettable.

Leng Yue, I will take good care of you.Even without Sai Hua Tuo, you will never be alone.

Hearing a burst of disordered breathing, I turned around and saw Sai Huatuo standing at the door flusteredly, with an embarrassed expression on his face.I smiled frankly and motioned him to come in and have a look.

He hesitated, but walked in anyway.Seeing Leng Yue's face, he gasped, and quickly caught her pulse.After a while, Sai Huatuo looked at me incredulously, and dragged me out of the room with an excited expression.

"Master Nongyue, what's going on?" He asked impatiently.

I told them exactly what happened.After hearing this, Sai Huatuo flicked his clothes and was about to kneel down on the spot.

I was startled: "Sai Huatuo, what are you doing?!?"

"Master Nongyue, Ouyang will remember the kindness you have received today forever."

"Sai Hua Tuo is too polite, I just do what I want to do." I said.

He nodded meaningfully and said, "Thank you. I will take good care of her."

What more can I say?It's just for fun.

That night, I heard Sai Huatuo say to Leng Yue: "I will stay with you, Nong Yue is still busy with the Dark Clothes team, so don't let him run around."

I stood outside the door and smiled wryly.

Maybe I like Leng Yue a little bit.But I know in my heart that being her younger brother is much easier than being her husband.Leng Yue already has her own heart, so what can I do with her?

Sai Huatuo, you are thinking too much.

Peeping at her has already become my habit.This is even more so during the period when Leng Yue is at war with the demons.

At the beginning, Sai Huatuo was very resistant, because every time I hid in time, but he denied it when we met, so he couldn't say anything about me.Gradually, I got used to it.After all, no one can control someone's heart.

I thought I would always accompany her secretly like this.Until one day, she almost went mad because she couldn't forgive herself, and I couldn't stand it anymore, so I knocked on the door without any explanation.

Sai Huatuo politely invited me in, I waved my fan and walked slowly to the bedside.Leng Yue's complexion has indeed improved a lot, but her face is more haggard than before. She was already thin, but now she has lost a lot of weight.If it wasn't for us, she wouldn't need to embarrass herself like this.

"Aren't we being selfish in doing this?" I said.

Sai Huatuo sighed: "I never thought that Shi Qiuyan would cause such great harm to her. Seeing her so haggard, I also feel very guilty and guilty."

"In this case, let's help her." I took out Roumengsan from my arms.This poison was prepared by myself, and it has an elegant floral fragrance.After taking it, one can die without pain in a dream.

"No!" Sai Huatuo reached out to grab it.

I blocked his hand with a fan, and asked coldly: "Sai Huatuo, don't you love her very much? Leng Yue always thinks about us, shouldn't we also think about her once?"

"But we should respect her choice, shouldn't we?"

"This is your excuse!"

"I won't let you hurt her!"

The voice has not yet fallen, and the trick has already passed.

"Sai Huatuo, do you really have the heart to see her in such pain?" I asked while accepting the move.

"I'll be with her!"

Leng Yue heard the movement, half-opened her eyes, and asked in a daze, "Who?"

Sai Huatuo and I stopped immediately.I regretted the fight just now. I was always so careless that I even forgot that she was resting.Sai Huatuo leaned forward and said softly, "I'm sorry to wake you up."

Leng Yue sat up and asked what happened.I had no choice but to tell the truth: "Nongyue hopes that my sister can treat me better."

Sai Huatuo also said: "Leng Yue, I can't bear to see you face the pain in your heart so hard every day. If we hadn't held you back, maybe you wouldn't have had to face so much pain. So, Nongyue and I hope you can think about yourself, and don't just think about us."

Leng Yue smiled, smiling as warm as a spring breeze.

"Nongyue, tomorrow, thank you," she said, "No one restrains me, I really chose to stay."

"Is this true?" I doubted.

She said that people will not do things that are not good for themselves. Behind all things, there will be some benefits, and the same is true for pain.

"I face this not for you, but for myself. I am not afraid of your jokes when I say it. Since Xiaoyan's death, I have never had the guts to touch emotional matters. In fact, I know in my heart that if I don't face it All of this, he will be my eternal pain. But I dare not face it, because behind all this, it is not his badness, but my badness. I have to face the darkest side of my heart , it makes me feel ashamed and scared. Although there will be the joy of rebirth after facing it, people always like to muddle through, don’t they?”

"If I had faced everything bravely back then, he wouldn't have come to this dream. Even if he would have come, he wouldn't have been against you. What you have to face and bear, you can't escape after all. This is What I owe to you is also what I owe to myself.”

Sai Huatuo held her hand tightly and said firmly, "I will accompany you."

But I still don't understand.Is it really so important to forgive someone who hurt you?

Leng Yue used Sai Huatuo's life experience as an example.On the surface, Sai Huatuo hated Ouyang Feiying for abandoning him. In fact, what he really hated in his heart was that he was born disabled and insulted his family tradition.This explanation sounds reasonable, but my situation is completely different from that of Sai Huatuo.

No matter how cruel Ouyang Feiying is, blood is still thicker than water.But Ban Tianyue and I have a sworn feud. He killed more than 30 people in my Sima family. Could it be that the person I hate in my heart is not Ban Tianyue, but myself? !

"Nongyue, when you knew that you were always doing things for your enemy, did you ever hate yourself for a moment?" Leng Yue asked me.

Hate, how can you not hate!I hate Palace Master Wuyou for not telling me the truth earlier, I hate Ban Tianyue's vicious heart for letting our brothers kill each other, and I hate myself even more for not being able to see through Ban Tianyue's true colors earlier!

"On the surface, Ban Tianyue is the one who killed your family's enemies, and getting rid of them is a matter of course; in fact, deep down, you can't accept that you have been deceived by Palace Master Wuyou and Ban Tianyue for many years, let alone forgive yourself. Because you You are smart, but you failed to recognize that Ban Tianyue was the one who killed your family enemy. So, you not only want Ban Tianyue to die, but also let him die in an ugly way. For this reason, you can do whatever it takes, right?"

She was right.For revenge, I will do whatever it takes, no matter how despicable means I use, no matter how heavy a sacrifice I make.I will never forgive Ban Tianyue, just because my heart is full of hatred.As long as I live for half a day, I will never forgive myself.

"So what if I forgive myself?" I asked.

Leng Yue walked up to me, smiled and put her little hand on mine.

She said: "It is a helpless act for Palace Master Wuyou to conceal the truth, and there is nothing wrong with you in it. Since you cannot forgive yourself, you will always take some extreme but unsatisfactory ways to take revenge; And because you are eager for revenge, you often wait for the best time to act rashly. As a result, you get twice the result with half the effort and even lost your life. If you can forgive yourself, you will understand that Ban Tianyue's death was not 'our' plan, but his Your own karma. The mistakes he committed will have to be paid back sooner or later. In this way, you can calm down and think of a brilliant strategy with a calm and calm heart to subdue it half a day and a month at a time."

At that moment, I suddenly understood the good intentions of Palace Mistress Wuyou.

The Mistress of the Worriless Palace once said that I am more important than half a moon in her heart.She handed me the ice silkworm armor woven for Ban Tianyue, and embroidered on the ice silkworm armor the method to decipher the golden Buddha's indestructible body.She understands me and my extreme temperament, so she solemnly warned me on the soft armor: If you are not sure of victory, never take revenge.

It turned out that she hid the truth from me not to cover up Ban Tianyue, but to protect me.

Palace Mistress of Worry-Free Palace, what virtue can you do to play with the moon, to be favored by you so far?This kindness and love will never be forgotten until death.If there is an afterlife, Nongyue would like to have joy at your knees.

In an instant, everything suddenly became clear.Don't hate your mother-in-law anymore, don't hate yourself anymore.

My heart is warm.The corners of the lips are slightly raised.

"Now you understand why I have to face this pain, right?" Leng Yue patted my shoulder.

Sai Huatuo also came to me and put his hand on my other shoulder: "It seems that we also need to face our own pain."

I smiled slyly: "Sister, how about you help me and Sai Huatuo sort out our emotions?"

Leng Yue snorted coldly, grabbed my ear with one hand, and grabbed Sai Huatuo's ear with the other: "Aha, you two were relieved on the spot after hearing it, how can I explain it to you? Pretend? Pretend to me again, huh?"

"Oh, my sister is merciful, Nongyue will never dare again!" I said with a smile.

Sai Huatuo also grinned and said, "Oh, let it go, it hurts!"

Leng Yue let go of her hand and said with a smile: "Sister, I'm tired, you two go release it by yourself, remember to go together!"

It's such a joke again.Now, not only am I no longer angry, but I think this joke is very funny.Leng Yue's thinking has always been different from ours, perhaps there is no malicious intent in saying this.

When I saw Sai Huatuo shaking his head helplessly, I couldn't help laughing when I remembered how serious I was back then.Shaking the folding fan in his hand calmly, he smiled frivolously at Sai Huatuo: "Let's go, Sai Huatuo, are your ears itchy again?"

Sai Huatuo is a smart man who knows everything.He rubbed his ears with a smile, and said to Leng Yue: "I didn't expect you to be quite savage, I have to guard against you in the future."

In this way, we "walked together" and "in pairs" and left the room.

Walking out of the room, Sai Huatuo patted my shoulder and said to me seriously: "Just get used to it, don't mind."

I smiled knowingly.