[Tutorial] Sense and Sensibility

He doesn't like it here.

He doesn't like the gloomyness here, the harshness here, the coldness here, everything here.

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...He wanted to go home, the poor home with his mother.

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It has been three months since he came to this huge and gloomy castle, and he has gradually calmed down from all kinds of crying at the beginning... because all the tears here can't solve the problem.

It is worth mentioning that in the second month of coming here, Sasa was also taken over...the purpose is to serve as his personal maid.This, of course, means "father".

With Sasa's company, this kind of torment-like life can be tolerated...but I can't help but think of my mother.

"Father"'s home is not warm, there will be bitter maids and aunts who speak ill of mother, there will be indifferent butler uncles silently ignoring, there will be a beautiful aunt who scolds and insults him in public, and even more His older brother, who was six years older, teased him badly.

... He hates all of this.

"Dad" is often not at home, and he faces indifferent and sarcastic faces every day... The immature young mind is tortured by indifference all the time.He was very unhappy. Although he promised his mother to be a man, he still couldn't help crying secretly in the cold dark night.

Sasa said that he has to be strong, everything can survive.

He felt that it was with Sasa by his side that he was able to persevere until now. Sasa gave him a dream, a dream in which he could go back to the past if he lived hard.

This is an unrealistic thought, but it has become the only pillar of his survival.

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He didn't like Matthew, or at least hated it too much.

Matthew was that brother six years his senior, his half-brother, the son of the mistress of the Costa Castle.In short, he was just a young master who was being offered up.

The arrogant Matthew always takes pleasure in teasing him, and often makes him embarrassing in public, the worst one even took off his pants at the youth party of the Costa family, leaving him naked in humiliation He was ridiculed by the children of the major families who attended the party and insulted him as a bastard born of a prostitute.

His good self-cultivation since childhood made him blushed but he couldn't speak. He just gritted his teeth and held back the scorching tears to prevent them from falling... But his heart seemed to be chopped into pieces by the sharp tip of a knife, and it hurt so much suffocating.

At that moment, he realized how kind it was to laugh at the children who didn't have a father before, and now what Matthew is doing is the real "bullying".

He gritted his teeth, walked upstairs naked step by step, and bursts of sharp laughter from behind made his whole body ache... All the maids and waiters he met along the way ignored him without exception. Some of them even shy away.

... No one thinks highly of him, everyone is laughing at him.

With blood dripping from his heart, he tried his best to keep his figure straight until he entered his room.

After closing the door, under Sasa's surprised gaze, he finally burst into tears.

The heart-piercing pain spread all over his body. At that moment, he was crazily missing the vegetarian sandwiches made by his mother, the small bench in front of the dark fireplace, and the old patched sofa that would always make a low moan The dilapidated gate... All the things that passed away left only a residual shadow, which made him realize that no matter how beautiful the memory is, it will make people feel a slight pain when he misses it to the extreme.Only for the past that we can't go back to.

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His dislike for Matthew has been escalating day by day, because Matthew has shamelessly harassed Sasa recently, which makes him very angry.

The mystery of an oriental girl on Sasa is indeed very attractive, but when he saw Matthew touching Sasa in front of others, he was furious, especially when no one blamed Ma When he was repairing, he became even angrier.

He has a very strong sense of crisis... He feels that if this continues, he will lose Sasa soon.

Looking at Sasa's increasingly haggard face recently, his heart couldn't stop aching.

This year, he was 11 years old, and as a precocious Italian boy, he felt that he should have fallen in love with Sasa.

My mother said that you have to be an upright man so that you can protect your important things.

But now, he deeply felt his mission.

Living in this castle in a low voice for two years, he knew that he had no status and no ability to protect Sasa from harm, so after thinking twice, he took the initiative to find "father" for the first time for Sasa.

He said his request stiffly under the indifferent gaze of "Dad", hoping that no one would hurt Sasa... Unexpectedly, "Dad" agreed to his request in one gulp, which made people never experience He was flattered by his father's love.

Back in the room, he couldn't wait to tell Sasa the news, hoping that she could relax... Sure enough, Sasa hugged him and cried excitedly.

... At that moment, his heart was swollen, as if a place had been filled.

That night, he fell asleep with a hint of sweetness... In his sleep, his world finally began to have a tinge of color.

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After waking up in the morning, he didn't see Sasa as usual, so he was a little puzzled, so he walked around the castle, but he still couldn't find a trace of Sasa... Faintly, he seemed to have a kind of Foreboding.

When the breakfast time started, he had to go downstairs to eat breakfast under the "coercion" of the maid... When he arrived at the restaurant, he was unexpectedly glared at by Matthew, who even kept ignoring his existence. The beautiful "mother" also seldom gave him a few glances, which made him a little baffled.

After eating breakfast in a weird atmosphere, he started looking for Sasa again, but no matter how hard he searched, he couldn't find any trace of Sasa.

My heart gradually became anxious.

"Is that girl still in Master's room?"

"Yeah, Master hasn't had breakfast yet..."

"That girl seems to be under 15 years old...Oriental girls seem to develop later."

"Shh, don't say it, it will be bad if someone overhears you."

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The two maids were talking quietly at the side, and no one noticed the slender boy hidden in the corner...

His brain was blank, and he couldn't think for a while.

His eyes were slightly wide open, he even forgot to breathe... After a long while, he suddenly ran quickly to the upstairs room, only the sound of his heartbeat remained in his ears for a while.

Cold sweat couldn't help seeping from his back, his heart was held tightly in his throat, and it seemed that he could spit it out at any time.

When he ran to the door of "Dad"'s room, his hands began to tremble, and then he slammed on the hard wooden door frantically, smashing wantonly again and again.After a while, the door opened, and a pale Sasa wrapped in a thin quilt walked out from inside.

Sasa pursed her lips tightly, and her big black eyes were full of lifelessness... There were some red marks on her slender neck, and her slender body trembled slightly under his shocked gaze.

... A soul-tearing pain came from deep in the top of his head.

As an Italian boy, he knew exactly what was going on.

Hatred finally began to grow crazily.

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"In this way, no one would dare to hurt her. Didn't I just follow your will?" The man argued coldly.

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He didn't speak, and before he even vented the deep hatred in his heart, Sasa grabbed his arm tightly: "Gasparre, let's go, please..." There was a hint of desperate crying in the deep voice: "...Take me away, please..."

His heart trembled violently, and the pain was a thousand times more painful than being torn apart.

Gritting his teeth tightly, a thick bloody smell filled his mouth... Then, he turned around and hugged Sasa's thin body tightly and walked downstairs.

...Really, I hate it.

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He knows that he has no place here, and sometimes even worse than a dog.

"Father" has fallen in love with Sasa's body ever since that time, and in his desperate roar, he took Sasa's body forcibly again and again...and Sasa deliberately kept getting farther and farther away from him.

He suddenly felt that his life had completely lost its meaning.

... The sense of despair of not being able to protect Sasa, and the sense of collapse of having nothing left torment him every moment.He thought, or just die like this.

Since life has always been so painful, why do we still live in this world and suffer?

Now, he really wanted to be freed.

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After half a year of being in a daze, there seemed to be a sudden change in the family.He didn't know exactly what it was, but "Papa" suddenly decided to send him to another family to "perform a mission".

...He had been completely desperate for "Dad" for a long time, so he didn't expect anything good at all, and Matthew's complacent and mocking attitude confirmed his expectation.

"Hey, idiot, I won't see you again, I should lose a lot of fun without you." Matthew smiled cruelly: "You probably don't know which family you are going to Well, then my kind brother will tell you that you are going to the notorious Estoraneo family."

"...What kind of family is that?" Although he didn't want to talk to Matthew, he still couldn't help asking.

"It's a family that specializes in human experiments." Lowering his voice slightly, Matthew said the answer so bluntly: "There are all kinds of human experiments there, fool you go and enjoy it Hahaha."

His face turned pale in an instant.

Although I knew from the beginning that this "task" was not easy, I didn't expect that it would be directly regarded as an abandoned child.

... My heart was already wounded and riddled with holes, but I still felt the pain.

At the moment when he was about to set off, his heart was extremely heavy. He knew that his path was almost "death", so at this moment, he uttered the most vicious curse in his heart to everyone here.

…Until, Sasa walked towards him with a pale face carrying a small box.

"She's going with you." The haughty man said the last words that crushed him.

In an instant, the world in front of me collapsed.

It turned out that she also became an abandoned child.