The beauty of rebirth

When Fed opened the door, he found that the lights in the villa were not turned on, and the whole room was pitch black.

Standing at the door, my heart suddenly tightened almost instinctively. Fed took a deep breath, quietly telling himself to relax and stop thinking about it.

After a pause, he walked slowly into the door, and then the bright light from the floor-to-ceiling windows cast a vague glimpse of the back of a figure sitting blankly by the bed.

Fed's body froze slightly, and the next moment he had already walked over there quickly.However, when he had already walked to the side, his pace suddenly slowed down.

Because he saw Lin Rui's expression looking out of the window.

The moonlight outside the window mixed with the night lights of the city shone on his face, making his facial features more clear and straight.However, this face is like a lifeless sculpture at this moment, almost dull and without any expression.The eyes, which were originally empty and lifeless, looked even more pitch-black at this moment, filled with bottomless darkness.

He was holding the phone loosely in his hand, the slide cover hadn't been closed yet, and it was still shining bright light that looked rather glaring in the darkness.

Fed stood quietly behind him obliquely, only felt that after a short relief seeing that he was fine, he immediately felt a slight pain in his heart.After deciding to give up, he faced it again and wanted to have it again. He suddenly felt that all this seemed like a lifetime away.But in fact, when he was standing next to Lin Rui at this moment, he found that he hadn't thought about how to speak at all.Obviously, I can almost fully empathize with the despair in his heart at this moment, but can I really only look at him with heartache, can it only be heartache in vain?

Clenching his fists, he took a few steps forward and stood in front of Lin Rui.The only light in front of Lin Rui was blocked, and the whole person was suddenly submerged in a shadow.

"Lin Rui," Fed said in a low voice, but he could only call out his name.

Lin Rui still stared blankly at the front, even though it was no longer the scenery outside the window.Hearing Fed's voice, it took a long time to react, raised his face slightly, looked at him blankly, and slowly had a faint expression on his face.

"It's you?" This expression finally slowly added a bit of an extremely forced smile.But as the mobile phone in his hand suddenly slipped down with a "touch", his smile suddenly disappeared, leaving only the almost dull eyes looking down at the mobile phone.

Fed knew that Lin Rui didn't know that he planned to return to China quietly and quit, but he knew what decision and change the whole process of leaving the airport and coming here meant to him.He slowly knelt down to pick up the phone for Lin Rui, but saw that the call records on the screen were all dialed calls, and they were dialed to Zhong Yuan, and there was no response to the call.

He shook the phone vigorously, paused, and cleared the call history under Lin Rui's gaze.

He closed the slide cover, put the phone back into Lin Rui's hand, and then stood up straight in front of him again, but didn't speak immediately.

He just stared at Lin Rui motionlessly, even though the latter just lowered his head slightly, hiding his expression in the darkness.

After half a century seems to have passed, Fed finally let out a sigh of relief, tried to put on a relaxed expression, and said: "Brother Zhong, if you are sad... just cry. Press like this, yes I'm not good."

He tried to make his tone less concerned, but when he opened his mouth, he knew that his true feelings had been completely exposed.

Very concerned, very sad, and even trembling voice.These were so obvious that even he could hear them clearly.

Immediately smiled, mocking himself that he really couldn't hide anything in front of Lin Rui.

After Lin Rui heard this, his whole body seemed to be moved, and his body visibly trembled.He lowered his head very low, as if deliberately avoiding Fed's gaze, but the next moment he stretched out his hand tremblingly, pressing his eyes tightly.

Fed looked down at his every move, and felt that something in his heart was going to burst in an instant.He gently sat next to Lin Rui, watching his eyes suddenly become soft, and gently stretched out his hand towards him, trying to push away the bangs that he used to hide all his expressions.

But Lin Rui felt Fed's movement, and instinctively covered his eyes more tightly with his hands.And the next moment, the wrist was already held by someone, and he immediately pulled it to the side forcefully.Unexpectedly, the hand that blocked his eyes was pulled away, and the whole person fell sideways with the sudden force.

Fed felt that the hand holding Lin Rui's wrist had touched some water stains, he paused, and just pressed Lin Rui tightly into his arms.Feeling the warm breath of the person in his arms through the clothes, he smiled instead and said, "Lin Rui, do you still need to be brave in front of me?"

However, as soon as these words came out, Fed obviously felt Lin Rui's body tremble.After that, his chest began to feel a little wet.

Fed slowly leaned his face against him, reached out to stroke his hair, and smiled instead.

At first Lin Rui just buried himself in his chest calmly, then his shoulders slowly shrugged, his body twitched intermittently, and finally let out a low whimper.

This is the first time that Fed sees Lin Rui in front of him, so he doesn't suppress himself, showing his sadness wantonly.But at this moment, he found that he was actually a little proud while worrying.Because it is not others who can make him like this, but himself.

In the future, it should only be me.

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Lin Rui has been ill since that day, suffering from a high fever of 39°, and was unconscious for most of the day.

Fed knew that he was weaker than usual because of his drug withdrawal, and he had almost quit drug addiction now, but there was still the possibility of seizures from time to time.So he returned to his job as a full-time nanny more thoroughly, and stayed by Lin Rui's side every step of the way. Due to the temporary cancellation of his plan to return to China, many things were put on hold and needed to be dealt with and changed accordingly.But the Fed doesn't care about that at all at the moment.After asking someone to ask the doctor to prescribe the medicine, he simply turned off his mobile phone and isolated himself from the world, and only took care of Lin Rui wholeheartedly.

And after that, including Lin Rui's recuperation period after his fever subsided, during this nearly a month, although he didn't have any great joy or sorrow, he was still so silent that Fed didn't have a chance to talk to him too much.But Fed can clearly feel that the relationship between himself and Lin Rui has slowly returned to the previous natural state.Although at this moment, he knew that what he wanted was more than that, but he would never force Lin Rui to do anything. He only hoped that he would get better slowly, even though he knew that Zhong Yuan's knife had left a big hole in his heart. scars.

But Fed has already made up his mind, he is willing to wait, when Lin Rui will come out from the shadow of Yao Qi and Zhong Yuan in the past, until he accepts himself.He believes that this time will not be too long.

A month later, when Lin Rui's body finally recovered, Fed turned on his phone, ready to deal with the mess he left behind.

But saw a text message from Zhong Yuan.

There are only eight words: "I'm leaving. Treat Lin Rui well."

Fed stared at the screen in a daze, but the next moment the phone rang again.

It was still Zhongyuan's text message, followed by the previous one, still only a short sentence.

"I'm sorry for him. You must never be like me."

Not long after, the third text message sounded.

"Don't tell him."

And then there is no more.

Looking back at the time when I received the text message, it was already a week ago.

Fed could almost imagine Zhong Yuan's hesitation when sending text messages, which made him feel a little touched in his heart. He vaguely felt that compared with the Zhong Yuan he met at the gate of the villa that night, the him in this text message seemed to be Much truer.After all, he had witnessed his actions towards Lin Rui bit by bit, and he was very serious about his feelings.It was precisely because of this that he was so willing to make the decision to back down.

But thinking about it calmly at this moment, there must be important or helpless reasons for Zhong Yuan's sudden 180-degree turn in attitude.It's just that I don't know what it is, and I can't ask Lin Rui.

Fed held the phone firmly, looked back at Lin Rui who was sitting on the sofa watching TV, hesitated for a moment, then lowered his head and deleted the two text messages.

Although I don't know the reason, since Zhong Yuan has made the decision to give up.Then, in my opinion, all his nostalgia or guilt for Lin Rui are meaningless.

So there is no need for Lin Rui to read these words.Zhong Yuan should also hope so.

"Lin Rui," put the phone in his pocket, walked over a few steps, sat cross-legged next to him, turned his head and said with a smile, "You are almost ready, how about we go to Milan Cathedral next week?"

"Well," Lin Rui nodded slowly, looked at Fed's face that immediately smiled brightly, smiled slightly, and said "OK" again.

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Rewind time to more than a week ago.

Solomon walked into the bar with his new friend in his arms.I found a seat and sat down, and when I was about to call the waiter to serve the wine, I unexpectedly saw a familiar figure at the bar.

But it wasn't a surprise to see him.

"Wait for me." He said something to the person next to him, then got up and walked to the bar.

"Zhongda Photographer," he put his hands on the bar, tilted his head and looked at Zhong Yuan with a smile, "If I remember correctly, I should have seen you here for three consecutive days."

Zhong Yuan was staring at the front in a daze, but when he heard Solomon's voice, he came back to his senses, and quickly snorted softly and said, "This shows that you are actually similar to me."

"It's different, I'm looking for happiness," Solomon shrugged, and looked at the wine glass in Zhong Yuan's hand, "And you are looking for sorrow."

Zhong Yuan paused for a while, then smiled and said, "Your Chinese has improved a lot."

"Thank you for the compliment, I think so too." Solomon raised his mouth unceremoniously, then suddenly raised his head to stare at the wine on the shelf in the bar, and said casually, "But it seems that you have recovered ? I remember seeing you like a drunk two days ago."

"Really." Zhong Yuan smiled slightly, looked down at the half glass of wine in the glass, took a deep breath, and said suddenly, "Probably because I have decided to leave here."

"Are you leaving?" Solomon turned his head to look at him, a little surprised.

"Fed has already gone back to find Lin Rui," Zhong Yuan shook the wine glass in his hand, but smiled faintly, "Is there any need for me to stay here?"

"Does he know why you gave up suddenly?" Solomon asked suddenly after a pause.

Zhong Yuan shook his head, raised his head and drank the wine in the glass.

Solomon frowned, "Then why did you insist on going to him when you were so drunk that night?"

"I just told him, I don't want Lin Rui anymore, I gave Lin Rui to him."

Solomon froze for a moment before saying, "You're really terrific."

"So that kid was so angry on the spot, he almost didn't punch me a few times." Zhong Yuan was calm, looked down at the empty cup and smiled and said, "But if I don't say that, with his personality, maybe he will Turn it over and persuade me to turn back."

Seeing Zhong Yuan's calm look, Solomon felt a little unbearable.After a pause, he slowly opened his mouth and said: "Although I told you about this, I thought about it later, after all, you have been thinking about it for so long, if you still pretend that he is Lin Rui after you know it, and pretend that all this has never happened ,Maybe……"

"No," Zhong Yuan shook his head and interrupted, then raised his face slightly, his expression seemed a little dazed for a moment, "All this is caused by myself, and it's all because I can't let go of what happened two years ago. But Now, if I continue to be with him, to Lin Ruier, to myself... it seems like a kind of betrayal..."

"You're really terribly infatuated." Solomon stared at Zhong Yuan for a moment, then smiled again, and asked, "Where are you going? When are you leaving?"

"The day after tomorrow." Zhong Yuan also recovered his expression at this moment, and smiled faintly, "Go back to China first, and then, maybe go to other countries. Actually, I haven't thought about it yet."

"The day after tomorrow?" Solomon was a little surprised, but quickly smiled and reached out to pat him on the shoulder, "Since you have decided, I can only wish you a smooth journey."

Zhong Yuan smiled, said "thank you" to him, then turned around and signaled the waiter to bring another glass of wine.

Solomon waved him goodbye, then got up and walked in the direction of his original seat.After walking a few steps, I looked back at the back of Zhong Yuan sitting there drinking alone, I don't know why I suddenly felt very emotional.

In the end, he just shook his head, sighed and returned to his seat.