The beauty of rebirth

Fed stood outside the door for a long time, and when he was about to knock on the door, he saw the door opened from the inside.

Zhong Yuan inside the door was stunned at first, then put on a smiley face and said: "You are here. We have disappeared for so long, we all thought you were missing."

"There's been a lot going on recently, and besides, Brother Zhong is here, so I don't worry about it." Fed stretched out his hand and scratched the back of his head, smiled, and asked after a pause, "Lin Rui... is he okay?"

"It's almost over," said Zhong Yuan, with a relieved look on his face, "Today is the fourth day, and the reaction has obviously been much lighter than before."

"That's good." Fed nodded, narrowed his eyes and smiled again, "I knew he would be fine."

"However, according to the doctor, this is just the beginning. After about two weeks, most of the physical dependence will be lifted."

"Brother Zhong is here," Fed paused and said, "I can definitely help him survive."

"However, when it comes to detoxification, the most important thing is to get rid of psychological dependence." Zhong Yuan sighed softly, then changed his smile and said to Fed, "By the way, I just happened to go shopping. You just came, Just help me look after him."

"Uh... okay." Fed froze for a moment, looked at Zhong Yuan's walking figure, and waved mechanically at him.

Putting down his hand, he hesitated for a while, then stretched out again, with a little force, pushed open the door in front of him.

After walking in for a few steps, I soon saw Lin Rui sitting on the bed with his legs crossed.He was wrapped in a quilt, with his chin resting on his knees, and his eyes stared blankly at the TV screen. The flickering light and shadow on the screen reflected on his chiseled face, flickering on and off.

Fed trembled slightly in his heart, and suddenly felt that he hadn't seen him for a few days. Lin Rui's chin seemed to be sharper, his face was paler than usual, and he looked a little haggard.

It must be tough these days. Fed forcibly raised the corner of his mouth, raised his legs and walked over, waved his hand and said, "Hi, Ruirui, I'm here to see you."

"It's you?" Lin Rui raised his head slightly, a look of surprise flashed in his eyes, but he quickly smiled and said, "I haven't seen you for a long time. Where have you been?"

Fed also smiled and said, "Something has happened recently, I'm too busy." Looking up and seeing the scattered red strangle marks on Lin Rui's wrist, he was taken aback, and asked involuntarily, "You... well enough?"

"I'm fine." Sensing Fed's gaze, Lin Rui subconsciously tucked his hands into the sheets, "Brother Zhong said, after these few days, everything will be fine."

"That's good, that's good." Fed nodded and smiled quickly.He didn't know when he and Lin Rui became so estranged. Now that they are alone in the room, he would feel embarrassed because of the short gap and silence between the words.

Looking at Lin Rui's still indifferent expression, he suddenly thought, maybe nothing has changed, the only thing that has changed is his mentality?

At this moment, Fed only felt that his social talents were suddenly swept away, and suddenly he didn't know what to say.And Lin Rui has always been taciturn and never speaks.As a result, the atmosphere suddenly became so stagnant that it was difficult to breathe.

Fed struggled on the spot for a long time, and finally heaved a long sigh of relief, deciding to ask the words that had been hidden in his heart for too long.

"Lin Rui, you can tell me," he looked at Lin Rui firmly, and said slowly, "Why do you take drugs?"

"I..." Lin Rui froze, met Fed's gaze, but did not continue.It's not that he doesn't want to tell Fed, but that he doesn't know the reason.Moreover, just as Fed couldn't believe that the reborn Lin Rui would become addicted to drugs, Yao Qi in his body couldn't believe that Lin Rui, who was once sunny and cheerful in his eyes, would go on this road.

He could only close his eyes and shake his head gently.This is also a question that he has thought about for a long time, but has never had an answer.

"Lin Rui, don't avoid this question, okay?" Fed waited for a while, then slowly opened his mouth, and realized that his tone was unconsciously solemn, so he quickly laughed dryly and said, "You know, if you don't Get rid of psychological dependence, even if you quit, you may relapse..."

Psychological dependence... Lin Rui looked up at Fed again, but then smiled helplessly and looked away.Yes, isn't this what I have always wanted to quit?But, can I really let go?

"I know." After three short words, there was still blank silence.This made the sound of the pendulum in the room extra clear and abrupt.

"But..." It took a long time before Lin Rui spoke thoughtfully.After saying two words, he still couldn't continue.

What to say?What should I say?Tell Fed that he is just a fake Lin Rui, and that the real Lin Rui is the one he wants to forget but has always been firmly engraved in his heart?

With all this, how can he speak?In the end, he just smiled and shook his head.

Fed looked at Lin Rui's dodging eyes one after another, feeling inexplicably disappointed.He withdrew his eyes fixed on him, and sighed softly: "Lin Rui, do you really not remember anything? Or do you just want to escape?"

When Lin Rui heard the unexpected words, undisguised surprise flashed across his face, he immediately raised his head and looked at Fed.

"Lin Rui, I'm sorry. I think... I know everything." Seeing his expression, Fed smiled calmly.But he quickly stopped laughing, and said every word that followed very clearly, "You really...didn't you take drugs because you missed someone?"

Lin Rui looked at Fed steadily, without any obvious reaction.However, when Fed said, "For example, that person named Yao Qi?", his whole body suddenly trembled.

Seeing Lin Rui's reaction, Fed thought he might be on point.After a pause, seeing that Lin Rui still didn't say anything, he smiled slightly and continued talking.

"I think, if you miss someone to the point where you can't extricate yourself, this is probably the only way left. Especially when that person is dead, and you will never see him again... Lin Rui, you Do you mean it?" Fed fixedly looked into Lin Rui's eyes, his eyes softened a lot, then suddenly looked elsewhere, smiled to himself, and said, "However, I probably can completely understand this kind of despair. .”

"Stop talking." Lin Rui stared at Fed in a daze, but suddenly seemed a little restless the next moment.

"Lin Rui, I don't know what happened between you and him." Fed didn't stop, but continued, "But when a person dies, he is dead. No matter how much you cling to him, nothing can be changed. .What has happened will still be the same as before, and that person will not be able to come back from the dead..."

"Don't...don't say it..." Lin Rui suddenly hugged his head in pain and curled up tightly.

Seeing Lin Rui like this, Fed felt pain in his heart.But he knew that this was the end of the matter, and if he didn't finish what he wanted to say, he might not have another chance in the future.He only hoped that before that, he could do his best to untie the knot in Lin Rui's heart.Even from now on, all of this has nothing to do with me.

"So, I think, no matter how much you love that Yao Qi, don't let him restrict your future life. You...and Brother Zhong, a living person is better than a dead one." Fed was silent for a long time , finally said this sentence.After finishing speaking, as if feeling relieved again, he finally smiled naturally, stood up and said, "That's about all I want to say. It's getting late, I have to go first." Walked out After taking a few steps, he turned back and said, "Stop clinging to those useless feelings, okay? I believe you can do it." After speaking, he smiled in Lin Rui's direction, even though he didn't see it.

Lin Rui heard the sound of Fed getting up and walking, but still buried his face in his knees, and did not give any response.In fact, at this moment, he could hardly tell whether he was Yao Qi or Lin Rui.Although he knew that Fed didn't know that Lin Rui's skin was no longer his own, so he clearly said every word to the real Lin Rui.But why, hearing these words still produce such a big shock in my ears?

Only then did he realize that he had never thought carefully about the real reason for Lin Rui's drug use in the past, it was just that he was in a foreign country and was affected by bad habits.But at this moment, after hearing what the Fed said, there is still such a possibility?Is it because he has always been a fan of the authorities, so he can't see clearly, or... No, this is just his baseless guess after all.Back then, it was Lin Rui himself who talked about breaking up, how could he...how could it be...

My mind was in chaos, and I couldn't think any more.Lin Rui hugged his head tightly, as if this could alleviate the unspeakable pain in his heart.

But suddenly, a feeling like an electric current hits the whole body.When Lin Rui realized what this meant, his whole body was already trembling violently instinctively.

The relapse and improvement in the past few days made his body more sensitive than usual, and he was even more afraid of this boundless pain.But the only thing he can do is endure.Get rid of the entanglement of the past, and start your life again with Brother Zhong.This is all the reasons he gave himself, and it is also the best reason he thinks.Therefore, he gritted his teeth and endured the whole process of every pain, even if his lower lip was bleeding, he didn't want to make any sound.

But at this moment, he suddenly felt caught off guard.Maybe what Fed said just now shook his mind more or less.

However, even if that is the case, what should be forgotten must be forgotten, and what has already left cannot come back.I have no other choice but to let go.

This was the last thought Lin Rui still had.Then, his body fell heavily on the bed uncontrollably.

For a moment, the cold sweat was like rain.