[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

Spoiler: Admiralty - the more you forget, the more vivid you are

The white snowflakes kept falling and floating.It seemed that she was saddened by the fact that Nianxi died.

On the day of the wedding, when I saw Do Kyungsoo running out and Xia An shouting hoarsely behind him, I faintly felt a bad premonition.

Then, I heard Xia An say, "Bo Nianxi is dead! But why don't you love me?!"

At that moment, I even felt like I was hallucinating.What she said was, is Bo Nianxi dead?You only talked to me on the phone when you woke up in the morning, how could you just die like this?Xia An must be talking nonsense!It must be!Because she is jealous of Nianxi, because she knows that Do Kyungsoo doesn't love her.So, she must be lying!

All eyes were on Xia An, both Xia An and Do Kyungsoo's parents said they didn't know what happened.A rotten smell started to fill the air, and I couldn't stay there for a second.He left this desperate and even disgusting auditorium with big strides.

The snow is still falling, small, soft, and cool.The moment your finger touches the snowflake, it has turned into a small drop of water.Probably the temperature of my fingertips melted them.

That's when the phone call came.Looking at the unfamiliar number, I picked it up. Before I could say the first sentence, I felt like a bolt from the blue.I just stood outside in a daze, until the other end of the phone hung up, and I still kept the posture of answering the phone.Soon, I played it again...

"Hi, hello. I would like to ask, who is the first person you notified?"

"Hmm...it seems to be a person named Do Kyungsoo, right? Because, when the phone was brought, his number was listed first..." The person on the other end of the phone still didn't know what to do. After I finished speaking, I hung up.

At this moment, her heart became extremely cold. What Xia An said was true.Nianxi, she is really dead...I thought of Do Kyungsoo who ran out, and after thinking about it, I went to the hospital first.When I arrived at the hospital, I took Nianxi's mobile phone, and there was Do Kyungsoo's number in the dialed number.I think that at the last moment Nianxi probably wanted to call Do Kyungsoo, but for some reason he didn't call.

At the last moment, it turned out that you still had him in your heart.

Following the nurse's lead, I came to the morgue. From a distance, I saw corpses lying on cold beds covered with white cloth.I thought, which one will be my favorite New Year's?Would it be cold where she lay?Maybe it was just a mistake?How could Nianxi die? !Yeah, how come...

At this moment, the nurse had already lifted the white cloth.I clearly saw Nianxi's white-haired face, she lay there motionless as if she had fallen asleep.She must be waiting for Do Kyungsoo to wake her up, it must be!Nianxi wouldn't just die like this!I ran out of the hospital like crazy and kept looking for Do Kyungsoo.Finally, I found him downstairs in Nianxi's house.

The snow was floating in the air, and I looked at Do Kyungsoo who was sitting on the ground from a distance, and the anger in my heart seemed to have reached its peak.He ran over and grabbed his collar and pulled him up, then gave him a slap without saying a word.This slap was made by me for Nian Xi.It is he who owes years!

After I let go of him, he sat on the floor and cried like a child who lost his favorite toy.Looking at him like this, my heart also clenched into a ball.I'm jealous, jealous people are going crazy!

I took Do Kyungsoo to the morgue of the hospital, he was crying and laughing after seeing Nian Xi's body, I really wanted to tell him, and remind myself that Nian Xi died.He hugged Nian Xi's body tightly and refused to let go. Later, several hospital staff forcefully removed Nian Xi's body from his hands.

On this day, heavy snow covered the bustling city silently.And we, a small group of people, shed sad tears.Because our most important person, Bo Nianxi, died suddenly...

When I knew that the murderer was Xia An, I really wanted to go up and kill her.But, I can't.Her mental condition is getting worse and worse, but even in this situation she still does not forget to curse my favorite Nianxi.She said my wife was a bitch.She said, let Nianxi give her Do Kyungsoo in exchange.She said that my age was not good.Yes, isn't it already a terrible death?Wasn't it killed by you? !

On the day of Nianxi's funeral, it was another snowy day, and everyone from our team came.Including Park Chanyeol, he looked at the photo of Nianxi on the tombstone with a heavy expression on his face.I know, we all know, he likes Xia An.Even after Xia An went crazy, he would still go to accompany her often, although most of the time Xia An called Do Kyungsoo's name.But he still didn't give up on Xia An. I think he probably felt a little guilty about Nian Xi.

After all, it was Xia An who killed Bo Nianxi.

After the funeral, Do Kyungsoo stayed in the cemetery for a long time.He said a lot to Nianxi, but it's a pity that Nianxi couldn't hear him anymore.If there is really a heaven in this world, my Nianxi must be in heaven.

I came to Nianxi's home from the cemetery. I found a diary in a drawer while helping to pack Nianxi's belongings.I held it and looked at it for a long time, and when Shu Luo came in suddenly, I hid it in a panic.I think this is the only thing I can treasure.I bumped it into my thick clothes, and at this moment I felt that Nianxi had not left our life, she would always be with us until we were old and we died.

After helping, I went back to the dormitory.After Brother Xiumin fell asleep, I carefully took out this diary.Looking at this diary under the dim yellow top light, although Nianxi's font is not so beautiful, it is very neat.The diary is written from September [-]st, which is the day when I broke up with Do Kyungsoo.

September [-]st:

I really cried for a long time today, because the man who once said he would give me a family broke up with me.I'm so sad, so sad.He said he doesn't love me anymore, how could this be... He said he fell in love with Xia An.But, Do Kyungsoo, do you know?I really love you.Although I said that I have always liked Jin Zhongda, but my heart is full of you.Why must you do this to me?

September [-]nd:

Xia An talked to me, she said, Do Kyungsoo and I are not suitable.After she finished speaking, she walked out of the cafe, leaving only a crippled me.At that time, I saw Do Kyungsoo outside the window.He didn't even look at me, Xia An took his hand and disappeared from my sight.I sat in the cafe for a long time, until the waiter reminded me at night that they were closing.The moment I got on the bus, I was even called aunt by a little kid.After that, I hit my head on a bus pillar. After getting off the bus, I squatted on the empty street and cried a lot.Then, I went home.I'm so tired...

One day in September:

I don't even bother to look at the date.Brother Zhong asked me out, so I met Do Kyungsoo and Xia An.They were kissing at that time, I asked Brother Zhong to help me, and he really helped me.In fact, at that moment, I wanted to poke my eyes blind and never see anything again.Because, then I won't be so distressed.

One day in September:

I think, I really miss that I haven't been to school for a long time.I used to think that writing a diary was quite naive, but I only knew it since the day I broke up with Do Kyungsoo.It is actually a wonderful thing to record the things that are with the people I love every day, but unfortunately I have missed this opportunity.I started writing a diary to make myself less lonely. I went to the studio and drew a picture.This kind of season always makes people feel an inexplicable sense of melancholy, and I don't know where it comes from.After receiving Tong Yan's call, I was waiting for her and Shu Luo's arrival at the milk tea shop, but I never thought that I would see the long-lost Park Chanyeol here.

As usual, he greeted me happily after seeing me.He must be very sad too, right?Both of us are broken.I gave him taro milk tea, but he still smiled at me.In my mind, he was always the happiest person.I wanted to say something to him, "Park Chanyeol, please cry." But in the end, I didn't say it.After telling him that Shu Luo would come back here later, he left in a hurry.

You see, he is still so afraid of Shu Luo.

Tong Yan brought me and Shu Luo to her new home, I really have to say that her new home is really big.What I didn't expect was that she had a party and invited everyone.Tong Yan prepared a beautiful dress for me, but Do Kyungsoo didn't even look at it.In the end, Park Chanyeol and I hid in a corner and had a drink.By the way, I forgot to mention that Wu Yifan was molested by me once!Ha ha!

In my memory, Park Chanyeol and I drank a lot of wine, and the two of us went to the rooftop to have a crazy time.After that, I don't know anything...

One day in September:

When I woke up, I found myself lying with Shu Luo and Tong Yan, I simply sorted out my image and went to school.Actually, I'm still very angry about yesterday's party.By the way, Zhang Xianna cursed Brother Zhong and me yesterday.She said that if Brother Zhong and I were together, she would curse us to die.Am I really going to die badly?I have no idea......

I stood on the roof of the school and got caught in the rain.When I walked out of the school gate, I saw Brother Zhong standing outside the school gate holding an umbrella.Still holding an umbrella in his hand, he walked towards me quickly when he saw me.I don't know how I was brought home by him, and I took a shower when I got home.By then he had already started cooking.On this day, I learned the sad news that Do Kyungsoo and Xia An are going to get married.But the biggest news, only I don't know.I felt like an outcast, and I ended up in the hospital with a fever.

My heart really hurts.

But, Do Kyungsoo, do you know?I really miss you.

One day in September:

Do Kyungsoo and Xia An came to see me when I was in the hospital, and as soon as Do Kyungsoo came, he sat down and peeled an apple for me.But when Xia An poured hot water, he accidentally spilled it on my hand.With red hands, Shu Luo slapped Xia An a little frizzily.It was this slap that completely angered Do Kyungsoo, he scolded me so badly because of Xia An.My heart seems to be dying. He used to put me first, but now I should be regarded as the bottom person in his heart.You see, it was Shu Luo who moved his hand, but he told me not to play tricks on Xia An.After he left, I cried a lot.Shu Luo told me that Xia An did it on purpose, she was just jealous because Do Kyungsoo peeled an apple for me.Kyungsoo, do you know how much I want to hug you and kiss you.Hold your hand and never let go.

But now, I really can't seem to do it...

Because in your eyes, I am a bad woman.

One day in September:

I find it's a good thing not to remember dates, at least I don't have to keep track of how long it was since I broke up with Do Kyungsoo.It's been a long time since I've written a diary because I haven't met Do Kyungsoo during these days.I don't know what to write, everything is so dull without him.Until today, Brother Zhong came to see me, holding a festive red invitation card in his hand, and then he told me that Do Kyungsoo and Xia An are getting married.I couldn't accept this sudden news all at once, so I asked Brother Zhong to leave after receiving the invitation.I was alone in the room and cried for a long time, the pain seemed to dig my heart out of my body.

Do Kyungsoo, this time we really have no chance...Because of you, I really don't love me anymore.

When Xia An told you to get out, you pestered her, you said you wouldn't get out, even if you died, you wouldn't get out.You don't even know that my heart hurts more than it does now.Because seeing you in pain makes me more miserable than you.But do you remember?That day you said that if it wasn't for me, you and Xia An would be fine, and you also said you wanted me to get out.I'm gone, really gone.

But I didn't expect that I rolled to your wedding day.Rolled into the cold cellar, never getting any warmth.

One day in September:

Today is the wedding of Do Kyungsoo and Xia An. I received the dress Xia An gave me and said that I must wear it to her wedding.I got that dress on and she even arranged a ride for me.It's obviously her wedding, but why do you do so much for me?I have no idea.

She stole the person I love the most, and now she is going to marry the person I love the most.I find it ironic, deeply ironic.I cried all night and my eyes still look a little swollen.Now I don't know what pain is, my heart died yesterday.The last bit of warmth I had was finally fanned away silently by this paper invitation...

Well, time is running out.I'm going to wait for the car.

Do Kyungsoo, no matter what you become, I love you and only you.

Really, even if you marry another woman, I still love you.I can't lie to my dead heart...

This is where the diary ends, and I was already in tears after reading it.My favorite Nianxi loves Do Kyungsoo at the last moment, and the person she misses most is also Do Kyungsoo.However, even so, I am very happy.At least, I have appeared in her diary.

Holding this diary, I cried for a long time.In the end, I decided not to show Do Kyungsoo this diary.This is a kind of punishment for him and it is also out of my own jealous heart, Nian Xi, please forgive me.Forgive me for being selfish for the last time, secretly collecting your diary.

Just like this, I live day by day, and I have never talked about a relationship again.Just like Do Kyungsoo, alone.I think, in this life, I will probably never fall in love with others again.I want to keep Nianxi for the rest of my life, even if I only rely on that little memory.But I think these are enough. I stood in the wind and watched the crowds. After taking a month's leave with the company, I have traveled to many places.

There, I saw a lot of people and a lot of scenery, but I still pretended to be young in my heart.

Bo Nianxi, you are such a bad girl.Received my heart, but still left.I really have no way to forget you, forget your faces one by one, whether you are smiling or crying, I can't forget.

The more you want to forget, the more vivid it becomes.

Just live a lifetime with your memory in your arms, just live a lifetime...