[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

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I touched the tears on my eyes stubbornly, and slowly let go of Jin Zhongda and said to him, "Brother Zhong, help me." He looked at the calm me and asked, "Bo Nianxi, what do you want me to do?" How to help you?"

After a few seconds of silence, I said, "Smile and go to the park with me." I don't know what the expression on my face looks like, but I don't care about it anymore.Jin Zhongda, who was sitting across from me, said to me seriously, "Okay, I will help you".He put on his sunglasses again and thoughtfully helped me up from the chair, and I put on another face, which was a smiling face.

Holding Jin Zhong's big arm, the corners of his mouth slightly raised.Jin Zhongda deliberately found some funny topics to talk to me, when I passed by Do Kyungsoo and Xia An, I pretended that I didn't see anything and walked over safely.I tried to smile, and deliberately laughed out loud.This is the first time I feel that laughing can be more heart-piercing than crying.

When Kim Jong Dae and I were not far away, Do Kyungsoo called out to Kim Jong Dae.I pretended to be natural and turned my head to look at him and Xia An, the defense line in my heart was collapsing bit by bit.I don't know when it will completely collapse, but I only know one thing is, before all my defenses collapse, I need to get out quickly.

"Brother Zhong, you and Bo Nianxi also come for a walk in the park." When he said this, there was a smile on his face.

The people around me held my hand tightly in his, as if they were holding on to something.He led me step by step towards Do Kyungsoo and Xia An, as if I was stepping into the gate of hell step by step.Xia An smiled politely at me, but I didn't even look at her.This woman makes me feel sick. I have lived for more than 20 years. Today, for the first time, there is such a person who makes me feel like throwing up when I see her.

"Yeah, let's go for a walk. Are you and Xia An also going for a walk in the park? But, I feel that you really match each other. Whether it's looks or height, you are a match!" Jin Zhong laughed and said to Do Kyungsoo and Xia An Ann said.

"Thank you." Do Kyungsoo said without changing his face.But Xia An who was beside him was a little impatient, she held her hand tightly as if she was trying her best to endure something.

"Yeah, we are well matched. Brother Zhong, you and Bo Nianxi are not so well matched. On the contrary, I think you and sister Zhang Xianna are more like a husband and wife. Are you right Kyungsoo?"

"It's what you say." After speaking, she smiled gently at Xia An.

"Oh? Really? But I think Nianxi and I are a natural match. I was also the first person Nianxi liked at that time, but I was blinded by the wrong person at that time. Otherwise, I wouldn't have seen the wrong person. Nianxi will be taken care of by you for a period of time. Fortunately, my family Nianxi was not kidnapped by you, she still loves me." Jin Zhongda easily completed the counterattack.

"Zhong Da, it's your turn to chase me this time. I'm a little tired, I'm tired of chasing you." I smiled and said to him, with a hint of coquettishness in my voice.

"Okay, this time I will chase you. I will chase you more seriously than ever!"

I clearly saw Xia An's smile froze on his face, and Do Kyungsoo looked at the two of us expressionlessly.

"Let's go first, Kyungsoo, you guys go on walking! My Nianxi said she was hungry, I'll take her to eat first, see you later." After speaking, Jin Zhongda led me out of Do Kyungsoo and Xia An In my sight, my world collapsed after walking out of the park, leaving only a mess of ruins.

Eye sockets could no longer bear the weight of tears falling down one after another, Jin Zhongda looked at me crying and gently hugged me into his arms, I gently pushed him away and squatted on the ground crying softly.Originally, I thought that after I cried that night, I would stop crying for Do Kyungsoo, but I seemed to be wrong.I will still cry for him, and my heart still hurts when I see him with Xia An, imagining that I will not feel anything anymore, imagining that I can become a superman invulnerable, but in the end I am still hurt by a picture No body skin.

After crying for a while, I stood up again and adjusted my mood.Jin Zhongda stood in front of me and looked at me sadly, and I looked at him blankly. Finally, I said in a hoarse voice that I cried, "Didn't you say you want to take me to dinner? Let's go."He sighed softly and nodded.

Sitting at a roadside stall and eating hot fried rice cakes, my originally sad mood became much better.The so-called forgetting the pain when the scar is healed is like talking about people like me who don't have a long memory!Many times, I feel like a child.Today I quarreled with so and so, but tomorrow I put on a friendly face to treat others.

While eating fried rice cakes, I didn't say a word to Jin Zhongda, as if he didn't exist.I did it on purpose, deliberately not talking to him.Because I'm really afraid that he will ask me about Do Kyungsoo, now I just want to finish my fried rice cake and talk about the future, and I don't want to face what he said just now .

The night came just a little bit, and the leaves fluttered back and forth on the trees.The setting sun cast their shadows on the opposite wall, which looked a bit hideous, and the shadows of Jin Zhongda and I were long.He stayed with me like this all the time, and he didn't speak when I didn't speak.I looked at him from the corner of my eye, only to find that he was secretly looking at me.His eyes were very cautious, he didn't want to be discovered by me, but his eyes kept falling on me.

Now I don't want to go home, that cold home, without him.Before I knew it, I walked to the river.This is a very clear river. I have never known where its source is or what its name is. I even called it the "Xixiu" river willfully.

"Brother Zhong, why did you and Zhang Xianna break up?" I sat on the grass by the river and asked him absent-mindedly.

Obviously, Jin Zhongda, who was sitting next to me, did not expect that I would speak to him at this time.He was taken aback for a moment, and then said, "After being with Xian Na, she will still suspect that I still have feelings for you. We quarreled again and again. Until that day, I couldn't stand it anymore. And, I have to admit, I'm in love with you, Nianxi. This time it's sincere, without any purpose. I swear!"

Looking at Jin Zhongda who was a little nervous, I smiled helplessly.Even if he proposes to me with the ring now, I won't move. I really don't have any strength to fall in love with someone again.I regard Do Kyungsoo as my last boyfriend, although he is not the first, but I am willing to love him as the last.

"Brother Zhong, it's impossible for us. I still love him, and I don't even know when I can let him go. So, I'm sorry..."

"You don't have to say sorry to me. I am the one who has been sorry. If I hadn't treated you like that, you wouldn't have been hurt again. I'm sorry, Nianxi. "

"It's okay, it's not a big deal to get hurt one more time. Anyway, there will still be people who hurt me later, don't you think Do Kyungsoo is one of them?" I said to Jin Zhongda with a smile uglier than crying.

"I'm serious about what I said in front of Do Kyungsoo just now. From now on, I will always chase you. It doesn't matter if you don't accept me. I can be by your side and accompany you, even if you can only watch You are good at a glance. Don't have any pressure, just be the most natural you. It's getting late, I'll take you home." He stood up from the ground and stretched out his hand to me.

Looking at his sincere eyes, I didn't put my hand into his palm but stood up from the ground by myself.I think, if I really don't want to be a bad woman, the best way now is to push him away and let him find his own love.Instead of letting him surround me, a hypocritical girl who is intoxicated in her own miserable world, this is the only thing I can do for him.

After I got home, I started to prepare for painting. I wanted to live a more fulfilling life.Maybe, that's the only way I won't think of Do Kyungsoo...

On Monday, the old woman called me and said that she wanted me to collect last month's wages. As soon as I heard that I had money, I passed by.When I hold a thin gold card, I feel that my whole body is about to ascend to the sky.Without love, I can still have money.Of course, no one knows that what I want more than money is the incomplete love.

Knowing my situation, the company decided to come here to work after I graduated from university.In other words, during this period, I can not use it for work.It is a great thing for me to be able to come back to work here after graduation.After the old woman finished talking to me with excitement on her face, I just smiled perfunctorily. I casually threw the gold card into the bag, and Shu Luo called me at this time.

"I heard that you're hanging out with Jin Zhongda again? Bo Nianxi, why didn't I realize that you have such a strong ability of self-government before?"

After hearing Shu Luo's words, I wish I could slap her in the face!Strengthen your brother-in-law's autonomy!Besides, that's not self-government ability, it's self-healing ability, okay?

"Brother Zhong and I are innocent, don't talk nonsense." I rolled my eyes weakly on the phone.

"Really? But Do Kyungsoo said that you and Kim Jong Dae are together. Are you not together?"

Do Kyungsoo, the moment I heard these three words, all my combat power dropped to zero.I don't know what to say, let alone explain.

"Why don't you speak? Or did you admit it automatically?"

"Bo Nianxi, talk! Damn..."

After Shu Luo hadn't started cursing, I hung up the phone a little bit decadently.Do Kyungsoo, I really still love you.But why do you change as soon as you say it?Didn't you say you want to give me a home?Didn't you say you want to marry me?Why? !Why did you give up on me in the end? !Why......