[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

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There was a cold voice in the earphones, it was Jin Sha singing that he doesn't love me.Yeah, because he doesn't love me so he doesn't care about any of my feelings.On the bus, most people looked out of the window, only a few high school students on the bus gathered together and talked about some interesting topics with smiles.My vision gradually became blurred, and I turned my head to the window.Then I raised my head slightly, looking at the vehicles coming and going, my heart was so cold...

When I got to school, I got out of the car.Carrying a bag and walking towards school in a normal way, he was patted on the shoulder just a few steps away.Impatiently, I turned my head and saw Zhao Hao's smiling face. I ignored him and prepared to move on.He yelled my name from behind, and I walked even faster when I heard it.

"Bo Nianxi! Why do you always avoid me!"

After hearing Zhao Hao say that to me, I ran away.Now I really don't want to say a word to anyone, I want to hide alone and lick my wound quietly, firmly remembering this bloody and slightly sweet smell.In my subconscious, I feel that I should firmly remember this smell.This may be the last taste of him for me...

There was no one in the studio, and I slowly breathed a sigh of relief in my heart.They all went to other classes. I hung the bag on the easel, skillfully changed into a pair of two-color paper, and then I found a good angle and put the easel over there.The sunlight shines into the room through the window, which gives people an unreal feeling from a distance.The ginkgo trees on the campus give people a warm feeling. Last night's wind blew the leaves all over the ground, adding a sense of sadness to this October.

Holding a 6B pencil in my hand, I began to take shape, and this world was recorded by me bit by bit.After less than 15 minutes, the general shape has been drawn by me.Open the paint box, pick up the brush in your hand and start coloring the scenery.This time, instead of painting in the same style as usual, I chose pointillism.It seems that only in this way can my floating heart settle down in this chaotic world...

The light changed a little bit, and I picked up the speed on my hand.But I know that no matter how fast I am, this painting is destined not to be completed by me today.I turned the phone to silent, so I didn't hear the harassment from Shu Luo and the others.I looked at the dense and chaotic images, like my heart corroded by ants, ugly.Before the painting is completed, it is normal for it to be ugly and not understood by others.But what about my heart?

Picking up the bag hanging on the easel, I looked at the clock in the studio, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon.I left the studio with light steps.Of course, before this I carefully covered the paint box and sprinkled a little water on it.The setting sun shone on my face, but I couldn't feel any temperature.At this time, Tong Yan called me...

"Nianxi, where are you?" Her voice sounded a little anxious, as if she was more anxious than having a baby.

And I stood in the corridor, looking at the bloody sunset, I told her unhurriedly that I was at school, and she seemed relieved.I find it ridiculous.Why do everyone think that I am so fragile, even if I am fragile, I will not do those things that are looking for death.How could I give up completely without seeing that person marry Xia An?

"Shu Luo and Brother Zhong have called you so many times, why don't you answer?! Are you trying to panic us to death?! Bo Nianxi, you little bitch!" I could tell that the other end of the phone Tong Yan was already a little out of breath.This time, I seemed to really annoy her.

After watching for a while, I turned around and continued walking downstairs.People passing by me will look at me, yes, I have too little time in this school.Or in other words, I appear too few times in their sight.Tong Yan was still chattering on the other end of the phone to tell me about my understanding of life, and I listened to these words absent-mindedly.In fact, I really wanted to say to her, "Mother Tong, is your phone bill all that much? Don't you need to contact Lu Han anymore?" But in fact, I didn't have the guts to say it out.

Standing at the school gate quietly waiting for Tong Yan and Shu Luo to arrive, because I was afraid of meeting that bastard Zhao Hao, so I sat in the milk tea shop not far from the school.After ordering a cup of taro milk tea, I looked up and saw someone I hadn't seen for a long time, Park Chanyeol.He sat in the innermost corner of the milk tea shop, wrapping himself like a ball.If I didn't look carefully, I wouldn't recognize him as the happy germ Park Chanyeol from before.

Holding the untouched taro milk tea, she slowly walked towards him.I naturally sat down in front of him, and he was a little surprised when he saw me.I withdrew an ugly smile at him, and we all agreed without speaking.After about a minute he spoke.

"Nianxi, long time no see." He showed his old white teeth, but there was a hint of loneliness in his smile.If you don't look carefully, you won't notice his change at all.

There is such a kind of person in this world, and it is also a person that I admire a little.They can hide their feelings quietly, no matter how uncomfortable or painful they are, they will hide them all.They laughed nonchalantly and made noise, as if they were heartless.This kind of people, we call them "monsters".They only sang sad songs and shed sad tears in the dark and silent night...

Coincidentally, Park Chanyeol is this kind of person.The "monster" who only sheds tears at night.

"haven't seen you for a long time."

"Girl, we need to use honorifics!" He still smiled brightly, looking at me and said.

"Yes. Brother Cancan, do you want to drink taro milk tea?" Because I was afraid that others would recognize him when they heard the name Chanyeol, so I called him Brother Cancan.

"Okay, I have no reason to refuse my sister's treat." He spread his hands and looked at me with a look of "no way".

After handing the milk tea to Park Chanyeol, he really drank it unceremoniously.He didn't even ask me if I had touched it before. I thought, he must be suffering now, right?Because Xia An and Do Kyungsoo are together.I'm fine, at least I'm not related to Xia An, and she won't feel so bad if she doesn't meet Do Kyungsoo after they get together.But Park Chanyeol is different, he and Do Kyungsoo are teammates as well as friends.No matter in the company or in the dormitory, we always see each other with our heads up and down. It will inevitably be embarrassing, right?Do Kyungsoo's existence seemed to be a constant reminder that he was broken in love, he lost to Do Kyungsoo, this cruel and real thing.

"Why are you here?" I asked him curiously.

After hearing what I said, he pretended to be a little angry and said, "This girl! I told you to use honorifics, but why can't I remember it! Oh! Forget it, forget it, don't use it if you don't need it."

Seeing how he wanted to avoid this topic, I wanted to laugh, but I found that I had no energy left to laugh.On the contrary, my vision is getting blurred bit by bit. I don't know why I want to cry so much at this time.Behind every smile, the heart is bleeding mercilessly.The more you laugh, the faster your blood will flow.My heart hurts more and I want to cry more...

"Didn't you ask me why I'm here? I'm waiting for the dark. I've seen everything that happened that day." He looked at me with a serious expression.Then he said, "I heard Xia An's conversation with you that day. I remember which coffee shop you worked in for a long time, and you didn't leave until night."

My heart was like being shot by a bullet, unable to move.

At first, I thought that my embarrassed side was not seen by anyone, but it was still seen by Park Chanyeol.Originally thought that only he knew the depth of his wound, but unexpectedly, Park Chanyeol found out.My tears flowed down all at once, and I quickly wiped them away with my fingers.I kept shedding many tears, and I kept wiping them away.

After a long time, Park Chanyeol said to me, "Don't wipe it off, and don't cry. You seem to be bullied by me. I was the one who was unlucky to be seen by acquaintances. Look at me, and I didn't cry."

I didn't speak, and after I calmed down, I said to him, "Shu Luo and Tong Yan will be here in a while, so do as soon as you can. Unless you want to make trouble for yourself..."

Before he finished speaking, Park Chanyeol stood up, smiled and waved to me.After I waved to him, he gradually disappeared into the crowd.I took my gaze back and ordered a cup of taro milk tea again.In my impression, no cup of milk tea can be more bitter than this cup of milk tea.The milk tea that is extremely sweet in other people's mouth has become extremely bitter poison in my mouth.It flowed into my stomach, seeped into my blood bit by bit, and finally caused my death...

When Shu Luo and Tong Yan arrived, I had just finished my last sip of milk tea.The two of them came to me in a hurry, Shu Luo pulled me up and walked out the door without saying a word.I looked at Tong Yan behind me with some doubts, and when I wanted to ask her what happened, she looked at me coldly.

Suddenly, a not-so-good premonition surrounded me, who was weak and weak.Is this going to kill people, or is it going to prevent fire?I'm not a sinner, why do you do this to me?

Sitting in the warm car, Shu Luo and Tong Yan pulled me into an Alto just a few minutes ago.The driver is Tong Yan.In fact, Tong Yan has already passed the driver's license test, but her father hasn't bought her a car yet.On her birthday, his father bought her an Alto, which is the car we are riding in now.

Now, our destination is another home of Tong Yan.

Facing so many unknowns, I could only sit in the car and watch the trees falling backwards, while Shu Luo beside me was playing with a mobile phone and didn't know what to do.Tong Yan played a song from Exo's new album, and she turned up the volume very loudly.That's a ostentatious approach, just like the students in the school are walking in every corner of the school holding hands with their boyfriends or girlfriends in a fair manner. It just so happens that the school's head of the school is also present.But the holding hands are still holding each other, without the slightest timidity.

After more than half an hour, we arrived at Tong Yan's new home.When I walked in the door, I was itching with hatred!This evil rich man, is it so rich? !Do you want to envy, envy and hate us little poor people?When I saw the yard full of red roses and different kinds of flowers, I shouted in my heart: let those rich people die!

Of course, I only dare to think in my heart.Tong Yan led us in, and Shu Luo and I looked around, like a village girl who just entered the city.Later, when Tong Yan said that, Shu Luo and I bowed our heads and said nothing.Because, what she said is not wrong, we are really like village girls...

When Jin Zhongda called, I was sitting on Tong Yan's comfortable sofa, hugging a pillow and watching a TV series.When I saw the caller ID, I stood up and walked to the window to answer the phone.

"Nianxi, what are you doing now?"

"Just playing around in Tong Yan's new home. What about you?"

"Just finished filming, I'll look for you in a while!" His voice was full of joy.When I was wondering what was going on, Zhang Xianna's voice came from the other end of the phone...

"Jin Zhongda, if you are with that little bastard Bo Nianxi, I will definitely curse you! Curse you to die!" "We are over, Zhang Xianna! Stop messing around! Nianxi, I'll hang up first See you later." After speaking, he hung up the phone, and there was an empty "beep" sound in his ears.

What echoed in my mind was Zhang Xianna's words, "Curse you to die!" Standing blankly by the window, she wryly smiled.How could this sentence be so familiar? Did I also curse Bill to die?Yes ah, not a good death.Good luck to us all...

"Nianxi, what are you doing standing there? Come here, I'm telling you..."

I didn't listen to a single word of the following words, and all that came to my mind was the sentence: I will die badly.