Like Love But Not

"How is it?" I waited for him to appreciate the dish that took hours to prepare.He probably wanted to praise me very much, but he had to live up to his conscience, so he said to the point: "It's very special."

"I will do well one day, you wait," I refused to accept: "Didn't that bastard Lu Weixi say that a man who can't cook is not a good man? I just have to do this thing well, See what else he can say! By the way, why did he hold your hand that day on the street?"

I have always felt that the foreigner is threatening my status with his innocent appearance and attitude, but I have never been able to ask. Finally, I brought this question up, but Xiao Heng didn’t know if he really didn’t listen. He understood or pretended not to hear and did not answer, instead he frowned: "Hey, at least that's my friend, can you stop calling him a jerk?"

Alas, my family Xiao Heng has learned to face outsiders, and he is still so fierce.

I bowed my head and ate silently, thinking to myself, just turn your elbows outward, anyway, I can’t speak and I’m not popular.

"I will be very embarrassed if you always open your mouth," he taught me: "Because...it will offend people if you take you to a friend's party in the future."

……

"Really?" I can now taste the feeling of being excited and depressed by a word: "Will you really take me there?"

That kind of feeling can't be said to be good. My whole heart is held in the hands of others, and it fluctuates up and down with each other's casual or inadvertent words. Fortunately, the person who has mastered me is a very gentle person.

He looked at me and laughed, and pointed behind him: "You really look more and more like 'it'."

"It" refers to the big flannel dog, which is sitting quietly behind me now, mocking me with that silly smiling face.

I stare at it.Laugh again!When I laughed again, I had to find some reason to lose it for you.

That's right, we're moving—back to where we used to be.Xiao Heng said that it was a place full of memories, but I dare not fully agree with it. In it, I said a lot of things that I regret for a lifetime, and I did a lot of things that I regret for a lifetime. I always feel that returning to that place will be emotional.

"What are you stupid, don't you also have a lot of good memories?"

Have it?All I can think of are things that made him feel wronged.

"Actually, there are many, for me..." He said and laughed: "The most important thing is that you fell in love with me there, for me that may be the best and most beautiful thing that happened in my life Incredible thing."

"What's so wonderful, people like me..."

"No way, I just like you. From many, many years ago until now, you are probably the most persistent thing in my life."

As he spoke, he took out the envelope containing the key from the drawer, and at the same time as the key was poured out, the two rings tied together by necklaces slid out at the same time, and landed on the table with two clangs.

I immediately picked them up, feeling sorry for his rough attitude towards them. He seemed to think of something, and shook his head with a smile: "I know you treasure them now, but fortunately I didn't throw them away. At that time When I got these things from Fang Shuyi, I was really angry. I wondered if you were being so stupid on purpose. I walked to the artificial lake next to the company a few times and wanted to throw them in, but in the end I was still reluctant. "

As soon as I mentioned that lake, I thought of another thing that I felt very sorry for him, but I was afraid of something. He suddenly asked me: "Did you throw the earrings you gave me before?"

Yes, I was like crazy at that time.

"I'm sorry... There are still old photos, and many things are gone." I honestly admitted my mistake, although I knew that I would be forgiven, but I was still extremely disturbed.

"It's okay, if you don't have it, then it will be gone." He probably saw that I looked too much like a primary school student who did something wrong, so he reached out and rubbed my head: "Don't be like this, sometimes I really can't understand you This way. Stop torturing yourself because of regrets, whether it’s memories or things, you can make new ones if you lose them, right?”

"And...you have nothing to blame. I thought about giving up because I wasn't strong enough. I assure you that I will never do that kind of thing again. Luo Yuchen, I was selfish before, but Even at that time, I wanted you to be happy, now that... my selfishness and your happiness have become the same thing, I must go all out."

In those pure black eyes, I couldn't see any hesitation. After deciding to start again, I really didn't hold back at all. Such firmness made people feel even more distressed.

An injured snail knows how to hide in its shell, but he, a seemingly strong but easily injured person, is so stupid.

"You don't need to be so tolerant to me!" I grabbed his shoulder and asked him: "You never punished me, how do you know that people like me won't heal and forget the pain?"

"I just know." He looked at me and sighed slightly: "Luo Yuchen, in the past year, I often have some strange dreams. Those things don't seem to have happened, but they feel very real. ... Sometimes I dream that I stand in the room watching you fall asleep, sometimes I dream that you are crying silently, and sometimes the details of my dreams are so clear that I don't dare to think about what they are , but I don’t know why, but I feel very, very sad, I obviously only want you to be happy, but it makes you so painful.”

"So that's enough, everything is over." He suddenly stopped talking, hugged me, and took a deep breath: "There are still many ten years, and we can be very happy. That's what we should look forward to right now."

I opened the necklace and looked over his shoulder at the two simple silver rings on his hands. The inscriptions engraved there were so unfairly showing his feelings for me.

And what about me to him?I can't write it anywhere, so I can only engrave it in my heart silently.Every day from now on, let him know slowly.

I put a ring on him and put mine on, the ring finger of my left hand.

It was just a peaceful afternoon, but the sunlight poured down through the window, making everything extraordinarily bright, so this action seemed to be as pious as a ritual, and it even seemed to hear the chorus of hymns for a moment.I didn't even recover myself, I looked at my fingers and muttered to myself, "...it's like getting married."

He smiled. At first I thought he was laughing at my analogy, but later I realized that he was laughing at my appearance. He sighed and shook his head: "It turns out that you really don't fit the ring...it feels so strange."

"It's strange that I won't take it off." I shook it, "Just get used to it slowly."

"I'm serious, you don't have to do this for me... Hey, take it off, won't there be a video this afternoon? If someone asks you like this..."

When asked, is it okay to admit it?Anyway, he is not my boss anymore, and he is not the one who is really troubled by the consequences. Of course...he probably won't agree, so I have to discuss this matter with him first.

I stuffed the big dog for him to hold, then grabbed his other free hand and dragged him out the door. Furniture and packed things were piled up and thrown to the moving company, while I grabbed my most important thing. People, go back in that familiar direction and continue the story of ten years and even longer.

END

Some people may say that there is still more to say, but let me sprinkle flowers first~

Magi guessed right, the letter that Fang wrote to Luo at that time was indeed Xiao Heng's last pen written a long time ago, but with Luo's IQ, he didn't remember it until a long time later, so let's write it later.

Ping Anping is like love, I am not the king of pits, let me get excited first.