Like Love But Not

Seeing that the two of them were about to walk away from my eyes. "Xiao Heng!" I heard me calling him, and the tone of my voice changed violently. At the same time, I saw him visibly trembling, stopped, and turned to see me.

Lu Weixi wanted to pull him across the road, but he came back and stopped in front of me.Great, his complexion is good, there is nothing very worrying, his hair has grown a little, and he looks very warm in winter.He smiled at me and said hello, "Hi, long time no see."

After finishing speaking, he turned around to leave. "I... I'm back." I said something hastily again, and he stopped, still smiling: "Well, I see."

It was a smile that deliberately didn't put any sincerity in it, and it was quite chilling to look at.I called him again, as if he would stop whenever I called his name, and then looked me in the eyes seriously waiting for my next sentence.When I was enjoying that privilege, I never thought about what I can do to prevent myself from being ignored if one day he no longer responds to me.

Later things proved how inappropriate it was for me to fall into this kind of self-pity and self-injury when I called him. I was full of thoughts about whether he and Lu Weixi were together, and how could he do this when I was sad, so there was no I found that the excitement in his eyes was completely different from the usual one.When he dragged me by the collar to the corner of the street and threw me against the wall, I was still in a daze.

And he had already greeted him, punching me in the abdomen, so powerful that I was stunned at the time, and I forgot to hide. When I remembered to block it, Lu Weixi had already run over to pull him.He was panting, his expression was obviously angry, I was shocked and wronged, what did I do wrong?

What did I have to do to make him so angry that he needed a beating to relieve his hatred?

"Luo Yuchen, since you have the guts, you should never appear in front of me! What are you doing here now?"

What is he saying?I was almost sour from his beating, and my ears were buzzing.I immediately realized that he must have misunderstood something, but before I could say anything, he yelled at me: "Luo Yuchen, get out of here! I will believe anything you say casually? Let me tell you, disappear from my eyes forever, I don’t want to see you again, I don’t want to hear anything about you again, I don’t care if you die someday Got it, do you understand?"

...Need...Need to say so absolutely?

I heard Lu Weixi persuade him, I heard the foreigner tell him not to talk nonsense with this kind of person, and then they all left, and I huddled in the corner by myself, slowly recovering from my stiffness.It hurts, there are so many places on my body that I can't even tell which ones are physical and which ones are mental.I seemed to be nestled in that dark street corner for a long time, and the pain in many parts of my body gradually turned into cold numbness, only my heart and stomach were still excruciatingly painful.

Why is he so angry... It's actually easy to figure out.Fang Shuyi definitely didn't hand over the things I left him, making Xiao Heng think that I left without saying goodbye.God, if I really left without saying goodbye then and went back to him now, he would really hate me to death, and a beating would be considered light.

uh, my stomach hurts...

He still remembered what I depended on for food, so he didn't hit me in the face, but just a few times ago, my already extremely fragile stomach, which had been ruined for ten months, was completely finished under his unreserved strength.Sometimes I think this is retribution. I beat him a few times before, but he never fought back. I didn’t know how powerful he is until today.

It turned out that being beaten was so painful...

My stomach hurts more and more, and I can only support it with my knees.It's so stupid, how can I be fooled by Fang Shuyi's few words before parting, Xiao Heng is also an idiot, would I just leave like that, give up so much after apologizing, repenting, stalking and cheating his trust again simply?I'm not him who wants to walk away after ten years of getting people out of him who can't even turn on the alarm clock, completely ignoring the life and death of the person left behind.

Just have that little confidence in me?I just believed what the fox said, so I can't ask more?Although I'm abroad and it's not that I can't be contacted, he just wants to forget it, he can't call me to ask me, or scold me?

It's too much... I have been looking forward to the stars and the moon for ten months, and he might have been pricking my little paper man when he was in a bad mood for ten months.

Woo... well, I complained too much, it doesn't hurt so much.If this goes on... I'm going to die of pain in this street today.

I smiled wryly, trying to stand up, but just moved my knee, and it almost didn't hurt so much that I was going to hit the wall.I couldn't do it anymore, I clutched my stomach, took out the mobile phone from my pocket with difficulty with the other hand, clicked on the only number in the newly replaced card, and dialed.

How kind, this person who seemed to say that he didn't want to hear my voice just now didn't hang up immediately.It's a pity that I immediately remembered, depressed, this is a new account, he didn't know that it was me who called, so naturally he wouldn't hang up directly.

"...Hey, save me." I said angrily, not pretending, I was really dying of pain, if he hung up on me, I might die on this dark street corner tonight The little match girl was even worse.

The phone was silent.

"Xiao Heng, save me, I'm going to die..."

In this icy and snowy place, the pain is so painful that I can hardly hold the phone with my hands.Consciousness is gradually blurring, I still haven't heard the echo, and now I have reached an impossibly miserable situation. He is right, I am a person who will be impulsive, and I feel so wronged that I might as well just die like this , The dead body will be on the street tomorrow, let him know that when he received my call, he was desperate.

"Are you really ignoring me? Xiao Heng...I..."

"Xiao Heng, I... I'm sorry... I... I..."

I have said the apology so many times that I feel it is meaningless.But until now, the sentence "I love you" is still too awkward to say, cowardly, and I am still afraid that he will not respond to me, and I am afraid that it will be too late to say it finally.

"Xiao Heng..." I could only call his name over and over again, my voice getting weaker and weaker.

There was still no answer on the phone, I was desperate, the phone slipped to the ground, and I didn't have the strength to pick it up again.The pain has distorted the scene in front of me, turning dark red and distorted, almost like a sign of death.I seemed to lie down for a long time, and it seemed that it was only a short time. I couldn't hear anything, and I clearly felt the consciousness going away...

Suddenly I heard someone shouting something in my ear, I couldn't hear it, but I seemed to see his face.I think I'm smiling, at least I tried my best to make a smiling movement, I seemed to be hugged by him, the warmth instantly restored my hearing to my ears, almost roaring.His expression was irritable, and he was yelling at me. It took me a long time to realize that he was saying: "Did you do it on purpose?! I kept asking where you are, why didn't you answer!"

I laughed, it should be a bit hateful besides happiness.He took out his cell phone while scolding me, and at this time my body could no longer bear the torment of stomach pain, and I passed out peacefully in his arms.