Like Love But Not

The operation was a success, and when the doctor came out of the operating room to announce the news, I was finally relieved.I only stayed in the hospital for an extra three days. Xiao Heng didn't wake up during the three days. He still needs to stay in the sterile room for two weeks, and then stay in the hospital for observation. It may take several months before he is fully discharged.

I've been being pushed by the company and have to start going back to work.I don't know if it's a coincidence, but after only three days in the FA company that was sold by Fang Shuyi, I got a gift that people in the showbiz could only dream of.The second male lead in Hollywood movies, an adaptation of the smash hit best-selling adventure novel, directed by an internationally renowned director, and his partners are all well-known international movie stars in Hollywood.

The reason why I was chosen was that I read the script and found out that the description of this Asian man in the whole story is like a me who was stuffed into a book. In short, his destiny is: possessing outstanding charm and He has a beautiful voice, but he is indifferent, self-righteous, and out of gregarious. He is obviously in love with the heroine but he doesn't know it. The ending is because he insists on going his own way and ruins his life in the desert. For the kind and brave heroine and the omnipotent The male number one smoothed the road to happiness.

Is this script mocking me or something?

The period of absenteeism when I was with Xiao Heng in the hospital was really stirred up by the newspapers. There were so many different versions of the story, some of which were completely irrelevant, but there were actually one or two people who actually guessed the plot of the story. roughly.It was said in the newspaper that I was trying to avoid the limelight, but in fact I was pressured by the company to take the movie and go overseas.

Before I left, I went to see Xiao Heng again. He was awake and in good spirits. I hugged the dog and waved to him outside the window.The way he looked at me was very gentle, even with a slight illusion of happiness, but it made me quite sad. When did he learn to behave like this?Mingming drove me away, and laughed as if nothing happened.

I handed over the big flannel dog, the house key and our pair of rings to Fang Shuyi, and asked him to forward Xiao Heng on his behalf, and told him that I would come to pick them up in a year.Then I got on the plane and flew to the United States.

Because it is a Hollywood production with a huge cost, the filming time span of this film is a full ten months, and the location is also selected in the deep forests and islands of more than a dozen different countries around the world.I think it's the right time, the busy work can stop me from thinking about it, and after the filming, I will go back and go back to him.

The shooting process was more difficult than I imagined. The director strived for perfection, and where special effects could be used, he preferred to capture real scenes.There was a scene where I looked at a puma without any chains less than three meters apart for a minute, and that minute passed longer than any other time in my life; in the Sahara desert where the edge cannot be seen In the movie, only the camera followed me, and the director didn't call the card until I was almost dead in the desert before he was satisfied.

It is difficult to fall asleep in a place that is not home, not to mention that our crew usually just pitches tents in the wilderness because we often go deep into no one's land.Every tossing and turning night I spent in those strange places made me miss the night light he tolerated me at home even more. The dim yellow light in my memory penetrated into my bone marrow day by day.

The internationally renowned leading actress often said that I played the prodigal son too touchingly. She said that the complex tenderness and sadness in my eyes when I looked at her made her know that she should love the leading actor, but she couldn't help but want to pull him. She ran away holding my hand, and even in the scene where I died, she cried hysterically, and the people around her couldn't persuade her. She said that the person she really loved had died.

She said I was a genius, but what she didn't know was that I was playing myself.It was a person who, over a long period of time, gave me that look.

And the essential difference between that character and me is that his heart is always wandering, but I know that I have a home.

Ten months, three hundred and three days, 7000 two hundred and seventy-two hours, I think about him every minute and every second.

At Christmas, I went back to S City.

After getting off the plane, the colorful lights and neon lights in the bustling area outside the airport are shining together with the reindeer bells of this festival.I changed back to the domestic mobile phone card, recited his number, and almost clicked to dial.I was thinking, should I not be so eager, I just got off the plane for ten hours, and I look scary, maybe I can go back to sleep, take a rest, and then go to see him refreshed.

In the past ten months, I have lost more than a dozen catties of meat, and I have also lost a lot of black.The blackness is caused by the sun exposure in the Sahara desert, not to mention losing weight. I have never been able to eat and drink properly every day. I have stomach pains for at least one third of the ten months. I was too haggard to watch, and only the director was happy, because my last slumped look fit the final scene of dying in the desert.

I took a taxi and passed through the urban area. It seemed that this winter hadn't started snowing yet, but it was extremely cold. I quietly looked out the window at the familiar city I hadn't seen for more than half a year.People say that at night, a lonely person in the middle of the noise will only feel more lonely. This may be the reason why the bar has business. Now, I feel a little bit of that feeling.

"Stop! Stop!" Suddenly I saw a familiar figure flashing past the car window. I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I threw a bill to the surprised driver, jumped out of the car, and ran towards the place where I saw him. The cold air was locked in my lungs, and my mind was a little confused for a moment. I ran to the street lamp, panting heavily, and looked around at the bustling crowds and busy streets. There was nothing... nothing.

Oh, how did I become so ridiculous.Just looking at it and chasing after it...

However, at this moment, Xiao Heng was walking out of the store door in front of me. I couldn't have misread it so close. It was such a coincidence, so coincidental that it seemed to be arranged by heaven.However, before I had time to laugh, I saw a person holding his right hand, as close as a lover, and it was the foreigner.The person he led turned out to be Lu Weixi.

I just stood like this, should be stiff and conspicuous on the happy street, but he just didn't see me, and the two of them were talking and laughing as they walked across the road in front of me.Didn't he once say that as long as I'm by his side, he can see me at a glance, but now, I'm by his side!

He didn't see me, but Lu Weixi did.He froze for a moment, then turned his head away as if he hadn't seen anything, pulled Xiao Heng to walk quickly and wanted to leave.At this moment, I once again realized how precarious my position is. There are so many outstanding people around him who are eager to replace me, just like the person holding his hand now.

Who knows?It might have been replaced.Ask myself what can I use to compare with Lu Weixi, the unique appearance, personality, and the degree of concern for him?

I thought he would come back to me, but the result of his year of thinking is that he doesn't want me anymore?

Seeing that the two of them were about to walk away from my eyes. "Xiao Heng!" I heard me calling him, and the tone of my voice changed violently. At the same time, I saw him visibly trembling, stopped, and turned to see me.