Like Love But Not

People like me can also become very decisive and desperate for a person.

I can die for you.

He grabbed my hand vigorously, the scar on my wrist was still ugly, he stared at it, and the expression on his face made me realize that I was doing something wrong.Isn't this just taking advantage of his love for me, the same knife, the same bleeding, my injury is just a cowardly self-exile, no matter how terrible it looks, how dare I take it and compare it with his whole ten years of heartache.

"When... did this happen?"

I didn't answer, and tried to hide the injury, but he suddenly became angry, and he was already asking, "When did you get it?!"

"...when I thought you were dead."

He is rarely so fierce, right now, the strength of the hand holding my wrist has almost broken my bones.Rarely did I become the more sober of the two, and it was my turn to say to him: "Xiao Heng, calm down, it's all over."

His expression...was struggling, he was struggling between the two diametrically opposed emotions of being soft-hearted for me and furious.If it was him in the past, I would win, even though the means are dishonorable, I would definitely win, but I forgot that he is no longer the person I was able to completely control a long time ago.

"You will die, do you know, do you know!" He yelled at me: "Luo Yuchen, how dare you be so casual, dare to take your own life seriously? You think you will pay me if you die Now, you think that if you die, nothing will happen, and you think I will be happy if you kill me?!"

I was really amused by his sentence: "Oh, I didn't expect that even you are qualified to talk about me."

"Yes, I was stupid first," he admitted, but he said as if he was justified: "Although it was wrong for me to do that, but I did it for a reason, and I have thought about it carefully! What about you? Don't tell me You are not impulsive, have you thought about the consequences? What if you die?"

You can die, but I can't. What kind of logic is this?It's better to think carefully than to be impulsive, but it doesn't have to be compared to things like death!The two people compared each other's absurdity, so I asked him: "Oh, you still have a reason. You still have a reason, have you thought about it? I'm so bad that you can't think of anything but death after thinking about it, um ?”

One sound was louder than the other, we all realized it, but no one wanted to stop it. My fucking fragile heart is a bit overwhelmed, but I don't want to stop like this. Only by continuing to talk can I know him Exactly what he thinks, his usual elegance hides all this deep in the snow, and if I can't dig it out, I may never know. Now I finally have a chance, even if I am stung by the truth, I must hold on.

I need him to tell me face-to-face about the grievances and pains he has endured for the past ten years.

I think I was right, I was really bad enough for ten years, so he finally let go of the tolerance he had been holding.

"Anyway, you wouldn't care if I died at that time, would you? Ten years, Luo Yuchen, do you think I'm really stupid enough to think that it's all my own fault? Clearly, you know what it means to be completely disappointed and desperate! Survived inexplicably, and finally started a new life, but you keep appearing again and again, so I have no way not to remember, Luo Yuchen, I am really afraid You, what else do you want from me? Can't you just let me go? "

This is to say the dead.

I asked for his true intentions, but got the answer I was most afraid of.

It turns out that it has been so difficult all this time because... you actually never thought about forgiving me.

Yes, it's all my fault, and you don't want anything to accompany you, including my heart.It turns out that it hurts so much when your loved one tells you "let me go".Just one sentence hurts so much... Heh, ten years, it's normal not to be forgiven.

Really, I was too naive to think that everything can be patched up as if nothing happened.During that long time, maybe his feelings had really been exhausted, so he could be so decisive.I haven't tried it, I only know the world where he exists, and I am reluctant to leave it.

...It needs to be cut off before you are willing to let go.

This kind of hollowness rising from the bottom of my heart gradually spread to the whole body, making it difficult to breathe and move.But I have to look good, I'm here to accompany him, and the pre-operation will start tomorrow, I can't make him feel a little bit overjoyed, whatever he says, I... I should still be my usual appearance, Although I finally knew that he might not love me anymore, I still pretended not to know.

"I'm sorry." He has calmed down: "I'm sorry, what I just said..."

Before he finished speaking, the door opened, and Lu Weixi rushed in and asked nervously, "What's the fuss?" Fang Shuyi came in right after him, and he looked at me, already bluntly: " You, get out for me."

"Fang Shuyi, Xiaolu, it's okay." Xiao Heng said to them, but the remaining flush on his face was still obvious, and I heard Lu Weixi complaining to him over there: "I said you, didn't you talk to me?" Did you say don't get angry, don't get angry, why are you arguing with that idiot, be careful to hurt your body..."

When I was pushed out the door, I heard him call me. I looked at him, and he seemed to want to say something, but the door was already closed.I looked at the door and suddenly felt something was wrong. This day should be warm even if it can't be very warm. Even if there is nothing, it can't end in this way.

I was about to move forward when Fang Shuyi reached into the inner pocket of his jacket and took out something.Then I was stunned, I might not think it was exciting enough to be hit by Xiao Heng, but it made me even more honored to have Young Master Fang pull out a gun.

Fang Shuyi blatantly pointed a gun at me in the empty hospital stairwell.I already guessed that he is not clean at all. Even the boss of an entertainment company should not carry a gun on his body in such a country with strict bans. If you say it is just a model... for a model, it looks like [-] Fang Shuyi's foolish attitude should not be so tasteless.

"You'll kill me if you have the guts." I sneered, I'm really not afraid of him holding a gun, but before I finished laughing, he pushed me with the hand that didn't hold the gun, and I just looked up Head, roll down the stairs.For a moment I thought I had just been murdered.

I woke up in the inpatient department on the second floor of the hospital in the early hours of the morning. Before I realized what was going on, Fang Shuyi came and said lightly, "Xiao Heng told me, but you don't seem to have done anything." As soon as I wanted to leave, I immediately became angry and yelled at him: "Stop! Is it fun to push people down the stairs? You almost killed someone, do you know that!

"I've wanted to find someone to kill you for a long time, you think I dare not?" He actually swaggered and lit a cigarette in the hospital, looking at me threateningly.Maybe there is still the depression from yesterday, I am full of evil fire and have nowhere to go, I got out of bed and dragged my slippers to the door and grabbed him. This fox has disliked him eight lifetimes ago!

"Who do you think you are? How old is Xiao Heng, who needs the 24-hour protection of you, who claims to be an older brother? Who do you scare by pretending to be a fox all day long? That's right, I did something wrong in the past, It was a big mistake, I was trying to make it up, and I didn't force Xiao Heng to forgive me, and I didn't want to do anything to hurt him. I'm asking you, what are you doing with all this? Why do you want to destroy it? , huh? Love brother plot!"

I gasped for breath, and saw the surprised expression on Fang Shuyi's face, and immediately relieved my hatred.I never expected him to smile sinisterly again, patted my shoulder and said, "That's right, I want to give you a new look."