Like Love But Not

I nodded, trying to be a little more obedient and weaker, so that maybe they wouldn't think of driving me away.Maybe it's too self-aware, but I feel that I must be by his side for at least these fourteen days. I will try my best to restrain myself from saying stupid things and doing stupid things during this time, but I must watch him get better.

But even if I didn't say my intentions, they would reject them. I know that the words Luo Yuchen have long been listed as disgusting as viruses to the people around Xiao Heng. They are trying to avoid me by themselves. At the same time, they protect the defenseless Xiao Heng, and they may even think that if there is any medicine that can completely free him from my infection, they will definitely buy it for him at all costs.

The way of seeing off guests is Lu Weixi's simple and rude way. I know that only Fang Shuyi here still keeps his word. When I was pushed towards the door, I sincerely said to Fang Shuyi: "Please, let me stay and take care of him... "

"It's only fourteen days." I saw him looking back at me. I didn't understand what the unfathomable look in his eyes meant, so I could only humbly and grit my teeth and say, "I will disappear automatically after the operation is over." , can’t you?”

"Take care? You take care of yourself!" Lu Weixi interrupted me even more rudely: "Luo Yuchen, although you are hateful, we don't think you are pitiful. It's not that you have been given the opportunity, once or twice How do you want me to believe you? This time is not a joke. Do you know how low the success rate of the operation is? 50.00%! Half of him may die! If you can make you mess up again this time? Is it easy for him to live until now, and you will have to make up for it a few times and sprinkle salt on the wound, Luo Yuchen, he has been made like this by you all his life, and you still haven't let him go in the end?"

"What do you mean 'to the end'? What are you talking about, you bastard?" I got angry and pushed him hard.My hands are shaking, 50.00%, I never thought that there would be risks in getting to this point, and I naively thought that he would be fine when he woke up.

what is this?I looked at the person lying on the other side of the glass, you already knew there was only half the chance, why did you never tell me that you never showed fear or dread?Isn't it sad and sad for you to leave this world and leave me?

Xiao Heng... you...

He's changed, he's not what he used to be.The center of his world is no longer Luo Yuchen. When he no longer faces me, he will show an expression that is rare for others to see. He is even stingy to let me see his heart again. He can hide the big things now. Looking at me, I have been drawn out of his world, like a stranger passing by, only polite and not warm, he almost tried not to say a word to hurt me, but he clearly told me with his behavior: "I Life and death have nothing to do with you."

In the past, his thoughts and affairs were always transparent to me, and only I turned a blind eye to them. Now I try my best to think and explore, but he hides so deep that I can't dig it out even if I dig hard. Therefore, after being told the truth Then I felt so powerless and unbearable.

what do I do?I told him my sincerity, and he didn’t believe it anymore; I stayed by his side, but every move made him feel hurt; or I hid myself from a distance and watched him walk on the normal road, even if I shrank to death It doesn't matter, but if I don't give him the happiness that I owe him, will it grow grass and rot in my heart?

Not qualified to love him, not qualified to let go, self-inflicted can't live, a dilemma.

I have been pushed out of the door, and when I saw it was about to close, someone reached out and pulled it away from the inside.When Lu Weixi turned her head, Fang Shuyi stood behind him and said to me with her head held high, "It's okay."

I froze for a moment, his eyes narrowed and he said slowly: "If you don't show up in front of Xiaoheng after you agree, I can let you stay for these fourteen days."

"Fang Shuyi!" Lu Weixi shouted angrily, Fang Shuyi winked at him slightly and pulled me back rudely, Lu Weixi glared at him, and slammed the door bitterly.

"Although I don't want to admit it, Xiao Heng may die. These fourteen days may be his last days. You know how precious they are." Fang Shuyi walked to the front and sat on the table and turned around and said, " But if the operation is successful, I don't want you to continue ruining his life. No matter what the result is, you only have these fourteen days. If you can promise to treat him well during these days and guarantee that he will disappear automatically, then I will consider letting you stay. Next. Otherwise, please."

He pointed at the door, I didn't move, he smiled and said: "There is a better choice, you can go now, we will take good care of him. If you are all lucky, you can naturally after he is cured Continue to bother him, do you want to take a gamble?"

Bet... How dare I bet on such a thing?This kind of person obviously pushed me into a corner with nowhere to go, and pointed me to a dead end with a smile and kindness.I really need these fourteen days, and the price is not too great no matter what. I gave up on myself and nodded, not daring to have any extravagant hopes in my heart.

"There is no evidence for what you say. You go back today and think about it. I will prepare the contract tomorrow. We will sign it to legalize it. In the future, you will not be able to deny it." Fang Shuyi raised his eyebrows and said: "Of course if you go back on your word , you don’t have to use it tomorrow.”

I can only obediently follow his request to go home, although I just want to get some change of clothes, whether I sign the contract or not, the plan I agreed to adjust, I didn't think about falsely agreeing to forget it in the next fourteen days No matter how hard you try to make Xiao Heng fall in love with me again.I dare not, the sky is watching my every move, I have had enough of doing wrong things, but it always punishes Xiao Heng.

As long as he survives, as long as this is the case.

It started to rain lightly, and then it gradually became heavier. I didn't bring an umbrella and didn't want to run back, so I just let it get wet.People took shelter from the rain, and the streets gradually cleared up. I remember that once, I don’t know which year it was, I seemed to be in a gloomy mood, and like this, when I was walking back slowly in the rain, he ran towards me and yelled at me. He took me into his arms with a big umbrella. At that time, it was a lie to say that he was not moved. I was wrapped in a coat by him and ran home together. In fact, both of us were soaked, and then we put hot water in the bathtub to do it. up.

I have left this day in my memory for a long time. I haven’t thought about it for a long time. In fact, that day was very good and perfect. We embraced each other gently like a happy and sweet couple. Why did I forget about it after the next day? , Why can't I just make persistent efforts and continue to be sweet and happy.

The rain dripping from the bangs makes it hard to keep your eyes open.I tripped over something, knocked my knees on the concrete floor, stretched out my hand, and squeezed out water from the wet hair. Looking back, I felt that God really hated me, and that's why I made everything ironic to the nail on the nail.That fluffy dog, Xiao Heng said was very similar to Luo Yuchen's fluffy dog, was left by us on the side of the road, and now it is soaking upside down in the rain, like a floating corpse at a suicide scene.

When I picked it up, his face was already stained by the muddy water on the ground, and there was a smear winding from the corner of his eye like tears.I frowned and looked at its dirty appearance and asked it unhappily: "What do you have to cry about? I am the one who should cry."

Of course it couldn't answer me, it looked pitiful, so I picked it up and tucked it under my arm and took it home.

Lying in the scalding hot tub, I was too lazy to use soap and didn’t know if I was done washing. The dog was already soaked and sat on my lap, pinching its ears and face. I can wrinkle it to squeeze out the water, then flatten it, and pinch it again, and then I become a big living person mechanically bullying a flannel dog.

That night was the deepest sleep I've had in a long time.

The next day I went to the hospital early, Fang Shuyi really took out a thick stack of contracts for me to sign, and Lu Weixi stood aside, staring at her.

"The rights and obligations of both of us are clearly stated in the contract. There are additional conditions that you can't tell Xiao Heng about this to win his sympathy. After you get out, you are not allowed to contact him for any reason. I think if you have a conscience, you can Keep the agreement for me, if you don't do this, Luo Yuchen, I can use a thousand ways to make it difficult for you for the rest of your life."

I didn't bother to look at it at all, so I started to swipe the signature, and threw it back into Fang Shuyi's hand, ignoring the smug smile in his eyes.