Like Love But Not

I don't want to admit that something that was so good was wrong, but it was wrong, and it was all because of me.

"I'm sorry." I said sincerely, even though I knew that even the most sincere apology would not help.

Xia Mingxiu raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, waved his hands grinningly and said, "It's okay."

At this time, it is impossible for me to smile at his tolerance, the more he is like sunshine, the more I am like a dark shadow with nowhere to hide, I can only lower my head and continue to state my stupidity and my fault.

"The person I love is Xiao Heng. I haven't found it yet. I'm sorry."

"I know," he was still laughing, but his voice trembled, and finally he lowered his head and murmured with crystals in his eyes: "...I know, I knew it from the beginning."

"You can hate me."

But he chuckled, raised his head and wiped his tears and stood up: "How could I hate you. I can survive because of you, and I can be today because of you. Luo Yuchen, no matter what happens, you The position in my heart will not change, because you are an angel to me."

"Angel?" I laughed too, and asked him, "If I were all angels, who would go to hell?"

"I can't help you if you say that yourself." Xia Mingxiu sighed and walked in front of me, looked at me and smiled and said, "But to me, you are. You appeared in my life when I was most desperate, Saved me and my whole family. You have given me too much, I have no reason to greedily want to keep you by my side. Luo Yuchen, I am satisfied with you being with me for so long, now you should fly to your The person who should really be protected is by my side.”

I know he is sincere, but I can't agree with his way of expressing it. Coupled with the recent facts, I can only bow my head and say: "I am a flying creature that can only bring disasters to people. I'm afraid others don't want it."

"So you have to work hard anyway, as time goes on, he will definitely see your sincerity!" He looked at me fiercely, and when I thought he was going to preach something again, he suddenly opened the refrigerator door and opened it like a magic trick. Taking out a bottle of wine, he said with a smile, "Let's celebrate, let's have a drink together."

"Celebrate what?" I saw that he bit the cork with his teeth and ran to the kitchen to get a glass and poured the wine, and sat down and poured himself a glass, then tilted his head and waited for his explanation.

"Congratulations, you are only a grasshopper on a rope, and you are destined to be tied together for the rest of your life in the end." He raised his glass, teased, and drank it in one gulp, and then refilled it.

"What is destined to be together... You don't even know what he said that day, I was so mad," I continued to drink, although I couldn't help complaining, "I finally put down my face, almost begging He died, but he didn't appreciate it, and I don't know if he really didn't understand or just pretending..."

"Okay, okay, it's not easy for Xiao Heng to have a temper, you just let him vent it, remember to hang around in front of him often in the future and pretend to be pitiful, and he will definitely win it in a short time... Xiao Heng's People are the easiest to soften their hearts, let alone you..."

"Easy to say! What if he doesn't forgive me this time?"

"Impossible. Let me tell you, people like Xiao Heng are..."

So that night, the two of us toasted and drank. I don’t know how long we chatted, and I don’t remember exactly what we talked about.I never thought that two people who have experienced so much can break up in laughter and laughter. Maybe we both deliberately avoided the heaviness, maybe we really let go of it, and I don’t know who started the drunk madness. It seemed that they were crying, laughing and laughing together and talking nonsense, and finally fell into a drowsy sleep due to the power of alcohol.

The hangover was terrible. When I woke up at noon the next day, my head was as big as two. Xia Mingxiu woke up too, complaining about a headache.Then we glanced at each other to see both of us so uselessly drunk on the floor, and laughed and pointed at each other.

I think there is really no grievance now, we haven't said anything about the future, but I always feel that we can still be friends in the future.

"Well... I'm going back... I'm so sleepy." Xia Mingxiu yawned and scratched his head before walking out. I saw that his sunglasses and wallet were still on the sofa, and I couldn't help shaking my head and sighing that he might not be sober yet.He's not me. If the paparazzi caught him walking on the street with this decadent look, the company that had maintained his pure and sunny image before would be in trouble.

I chased him out to put on sunglasses, smoothed his rumpled clothes and weed-like hair by the way, he just let me fiddle with it, I hired a lot of taxis, put him in the car and paid the driver Just finished.

Watching the taxi leave, he suddenly noticed something out of the corner of his eye, and his heart twitched violently.On the opposite side of the road, a person is standing with something in his arms. This is the beginning of a misunderstanding that often appears in movies but is almost impossible in real life. Obviously nothing happened, but it seems that adultery has been caught.

Xiao Heng stood on the sidewalk across the road, holding a big toy dog ​​in his hands, for an unknown how long.The thing he held in his hand didn’t fall on the ground or anything like in the series, and there was no surprised disbelief or hurt look in his eyes, on the contrary, it seemed commonplace or indifferent, and he was nervous and at a loss for me in a mess, Just greeted plainly: "Hi."

"You...you..." I couldn't even ask a simple question "Why are you here?" I froze as I watched him walk down the sidewalk and walk across the deserted road to me.I didn't even have the strength to avoid his eyes because of my stiffness, and he looked straight into my eyes with no expression on his face, without a trace of provocative calm, but because he no longer shone with a little secret and joyful smile like before. The light made me feel like I couldn't breathe in the rapid fall and weightlessness.

He was wearing a black shirt with a slightly open neckline. He was very handsome but completely out of line with his previous style.In my impression, Xiao Heng has always been soft white. He has many white shirts. The appearance of wearing one of them and sitting by the window daydreaming is already his classic patent in my heart.And the him in front of him, no matter his demeanor or clothes, seemed to be a completely reborn person, so unfamiliar that it made one's heart palpitate.

Then I suddenly alerted him that he should not be here as a patient.

"Why did you run out of the hospital?" I asked him, and naturally walked over to hold his shoulder: "Did the doctor agree to you coming out?"

"No, I sneaked away." He was honest, and then stuffed the big dog in my arms nonsensically and said, "It's for you."

I held the stuffed dog with long ears and proud expression in my arms, and as always, I had no idea what he wanted to do. Seeing my confused look, he kindly explained: "It looks very similar to you, so it doesn't matter. Be careful buying it."

After all, it is Xiao Heng. If he enters into a state of rich imagination, what he says is quite a stream of consciousness.I could only follow his words and lift up the dog to look at it seriously. It became uglier and uglier, and I couldn't help but ask, "Where does it look like?"

But he didn't answer my words at all, turned around and said "Okay, you keep the dog, I'll go first", and he was ready to leave with ease.

This is too unreasonable, I catch up.He didn't stop, so I followed him at a pace that wasn't too fast or too slow and asked him, "You came all the way here just to give me this?"

He thought about it for a while, and then said firmly: "No."