Like Love But Not

The entire month from January to mid-February is the intensive promotion period for Luo Yuchen's new album, and the big stars are very busy.However, Xia Mingxiu was dragged to his hometown B City to film a new movie, and he also settled down to spend the New Year with his parents there.This month, the two of them are basically busy with their own business, getting together less and leaving more.

It snowed three times in January.

Luo Yuchen and I have actually enjoyed snow scenes many times. It often snows in S City in winter. When we were young, we built snowmen and had snowball fights together. In winter, our clothes were always soaked when we came home from school, but we were very happy.

Luo Yuchen's favorite thing to do is to hoard a large number of snowballs and stuff them into my clothes after hitting me at once until I can't resist.

At that time, I let him bully me, and I even got the nickname "Xiao Xueren".

Later we got together, no matter how much I pestered him, he ignored me, so I had to build my own ugly, lonely snowman in the yard every year.

This year Luo Yuchen had a lot of leisure time. When the third snow fell, he drove to the river embankment to blow the cold wind for a long time.

It just happened to give me a fantasy, anyway, I was by his side, and I had the illusion that we were looking at such a beautiful snow scene together, looking at this white world covered in silver.

New Year's Eve has always been a big festival for us. We always hold the most tacky parties, drink and sing until we get drunk.

But this year without me as the leader, everyone kept silent tacitly.

Although Xia Mingxiu was far away in City B, he still called and wished Luo Yuchen a happy new year with the whole family.

He said that he would come back on New Year's Day, and sure enough, he was still thinking about Luo Yuchen.

I don't know if Xia Mingxiu and his family have confessed his relationship with Luo Yuchen, it should still be covered up, everyone in the Xia family thinks Luo Yuchen and I are the nobles who help their family when they are most difficult. Help.Xia Mingxiu's family background was mediocre, he was the only son, and he went bankrupt in order to treat his illness, that's why Luo Yuchen came to beg me to make Xia Mingxiu popular, because he knew he needed money.

He has been by my side for ten years, all because of Xia Mingxiu.Every time I think of this, I'm so envious that Xia Mingxiu can make Luo Yuchen make such a sacrifice, but I can't move him no matter how hard I try.

Thinking about how I even used this, it was really despicable.

Suddenly and evilly thought, Xia family only has such a son, will he let him get married with a man and finally cut off the incense?

This is a problem they will face in the future, and it has nothing to do with me.

It was only nine o'clock after the phone call with Xia Mingxiu, and Luo Yuchen looked like he was going to bed.

His life has always been active until midnight and then sleeping until noon, and it turned out to be uncharacteristically on the craziest New Year's Eve.

Go to bed early and get up early, to cultivate enough energy for Xia Ming, whom I haven't seen for a long time tomorrow?I suddenly realized that it seemed understandable to do so.

Before he was about to go to bed, he picked up his phone again.I leaned over to check, and he called me, but he couldn't get through.

I smiled, I am really grateful, I can still think of me during the Chinese New Year, thank you.

He couldn't get through, so he called Fang Shuyi again with a depressed face.

I got hung up three times in total, and finally got picked up the fourth time.

It's actually a few hours until midnight, but people are already in the midst of festive cheer.The sound of firecrackers outside was deafening, I couldn't hear what Fang Shuyi said, even Luo Yuchen had to shout.

He said: "Please tell Xiao Heng, Happy New Year! Tell him, take care of your health, and also, say thank you to him for me!"

I think he is thanking me for taking care of him that time.

After all, it was New Year's Eve, Fang Shuyi probably didn't say anything vicious, Luo Yuchen hung up the phone with satisfaction, smiling slightly and blushing, looking very cute.

I think it's a good ending.

I waited quietly, waiting for the smoke to dissipate. After midnight, I opened my eyes and found that I was still here.

On the night of December 31st, I stared at the alarm clock like this until it was exactly twelve midnight, and then found that I was still there.

I thought that at the end of the year, I should also belong to the ranks of being swept away, especially after Luo Yuchen said "Happy New Year" and "Thank you", I thought this was already the curtain call.

I could only laugh helplessly, and it turned out to be the beginning of another normal day.

The most spectacular scene on New Year's Day is praying to God and worshiping Buddha.All the famous incense shrines in S city were crowded with people that day, believers or not, they all wished for auspiciousness and peace of mind.Happy family, successful studies, happy love and so on, in short, these are some pretty good wishes.

I also worship every year. People say that sincerity leads to spirituality, but maybe a person's greed is too much, and God will laugh at it.Like me, the heart is sincere, but the wish has never been realized.

I don't blame the gods, I know that my expectations are too high, and I am too obsessed with a certain thing.

Luo Yuchen would never do this kind of superstition of praying to gods and worshiping Buddha. Every year when I come back from all kinds of gods refreshed, he usually still sleeps on the bed with his head covered.People say that the first day of the new year should always be hardworking, which is a good omen for the year, but Luo Yuchen has never dismissed it.

However, this year he was amazing, he woke up at [-] o'clock in the morning for the first time. I have been with him for ten years, except for catching a plane, he has never woken up so early in a day.I thought he was going to pick up Xia Mingxiu's plane, but he did the same thing with me who was too greedy, as well as those good men and women and old men and women who had nothing to do, and went to burn incense and pray to Buddha.

He went to the church first, then temples, Taoist temples, and mosques. It can be said that he worshiped almost all gods who could worship, regardless of whether they were in China or not, whether they were in charge of our border or not.

When he prayed, he just meditated. I don’t know what special wishes he has this year, so he needs to be so cautious.

I have also been praying by his side, hoping that he will be happy and that his wishes will come true.

I think that as a spirit body, it may be easier for the gods to hear me when I speak.

In this way, he squeezed through the turbulent crowds of various monasteries and churches all day, and was quite tired when he returned home at night.

He opened the door, the lights were on, and Xia Mingxiu had already returned.

Luo Yuchen was startled when he saw him, and then smiled apologetically.

Xia Mingxiu is so much better than me, so naturally he didn't care about it.He didn't even ask where Luo Yuchen went that day, but when he went in to take a shower to help him pack the coat that was thrown on the sofa, he saw a handful of begging talismans falling out of his pocket.

Upon closer inspection, they turned out to be all safety symbols.I stared at them blankly, and suddenly remembered that when Xia Mingxiu was sick, he seemed to have done similar stupid things.

At that time, I was with him, from one temple to another, burning incense continuously.

It seems that for a person like him who doesn't believe in ghosts and gods at all and has no pious heart, cramping Buddha's feet temporarily will be effective.

Even though I was a fool, when I saw these talismans suddenly, a burst of emotion and sadness filled my chest.

Xia Mingxiu had a strange expression on his face. He stared blankly at the talismans for a while, then smiled, and then cried.

I didn't expect him to cry, and I couldn't think of why he was crying for a while, but after thinking about it, Xia Mingxiu didn't put his jealousy on the surface, but it didn't mean that Luo Yuchen didn't feel sad when he thought of me.Although he showed signs of fading out, his liking for Luo Yuchen may not be as strong as mine, but it is not necessarily less than mine, it's just that each expresses it in a different way.

I laughed, what's the use of patience and being strong, he just bullies your patience and takes advantage of your strength.The more you force yourself to smile, the more unscrupulously he will take advantage of you. Luo Yuchen has always been like that, I know it all too well.

But on the other hand, I was impressed by Xia Mingxiu's greatness.

I will never admit that my feelings for Luo Yuchen are inferior to Xia Mingxiu's, but Xia Mingxiu has so much that I don't have.How difficult is it to let go of someone you love so much? How can Xia Mingxiu do it?I can't do this kind of chicness and forbearance. For ten years, I have tried to set Luo Yuchen free, but without success.