Like Love But Not

"Hi, my name is Luo Yuchen."

He sat down next to me, smiled slightly, and the vast light penetrated the hazy sky and shone directly on his face. At that moment, I saw the dazzling halo behind him.

I remember that day was the first day of junior high school, the classmates didn’t know each other yet, they were very fresh and curious, I saw him the first time I entered the class, that was probably the beginning of my obsession.

He is only 13 years old, he is tall and handsome, and he is very conspicuous among his peers.

The moment I saw him, I really experienced the legendary feeling of being struck by lightning, and my heart beat so fast that I almost jumped out.

He was standing at the back of the classroom, surrounded by a group of people, smiling brightly. I thought he should be a very easy person to get along with, but I still didn't dare to talk to him, so I chose a seat in the front row and sat down silently.

The teacher came in, she was a very young woman, so everyone returned to their seats, she didn't know what was on her mind, she pointed to Luo Yuchen who was sitting in the back and said, "Student, come and sit at the front."

So he sat next to me like a god.

At that time, I was only 13 years old, and I hadn't thought too deeply about the question of whether I like men or women, and the fact is that I didn't think about this question in the next ten years of my life.Because I just like Luo Yuchen, I have never been tempted by anyone else, male or female, and even when it was the most painful later, I never thought about just finding someone to replace him.

Sometimes I wonder what this is, is this what I should have in my life?

Luo Yuchen... Falling into the dust, it really is a fairy descending from the earth.Luo Yuchen, who descended from heaven, sat next to me who was very ordinary, and stretched out his hand to me with a bright smile.

I didn't think at the time that when I held that hand in a daze, my life would no longer be so nameless and ordinary, and it would be turbulent and stormy ever since.

Sometimes I secretly think about what my life would be like if I hadn't met Luo Yuchen.It should be to study hard in peace, become a white-collar worker in the company, marry a wife and have a child.

It would be even better if my father and elder brother, whom I have never met, still recognize me like this, and I can be a beautiful and handsome guy hugging me left and right, and the second generation ancestor with infinite beauty.

But the reality is that I got to know Luo Yuchen, and since then I have been circling around Luo Yuchen like a sunflower circling the sun every day. I study hard to copy my homework for Luo Yuchen, and study hard so that I can show Luo Yuchen during the exam. I have even practiced two kinds of handwriting, one is Xiao Heng style, and the other is Luo Yuchen style that I copied every day, so that I can help him when he makes up his homework, which is double the efficiency.

And Luo Yuchen was also very kind to me at the time, and was willing to eat and drink with me, skip classes and play games. For this reason, the head teacher who was very "gradually discriminatory" secretly approached me many times and said earnestly: " Xiao Heng, you have a bright future, so stop messing with a bad boy like Luo Yuchen, and be careful not to drag your grades down."

It was also rare for me to be cunning at the time. I said teacher, I am the advanced and the late. I helped Luo Yuchen in study and life, and the teacher was quite moved.

When I was in high school, my grades allowed me to be promoted to a special class, and I was unwilling to go. I was so depressed that the grade director who regarded the entrance rate of the college entrance examination as very important, came to lobby four or five times, but I was determined to change my mind. I have to follow Luo Yuchen to ordinary classes.

Luo Yuchen's reaction to this was to pat me on the shoulder and say, "Xiao Heng, you are so loyal."

Of course, Luo Yuchen is also very loyal. He played basketball in elementary school. When he saw that I was tall in junior high school, he desperately tried to pull me to their basketball team. After a few times he couldn't pull me away, he simply threw the basketball away and joined the team. My football team.

He said at the time: "I think it seems interesting for you people to run around in such a big venue."

No one thought that Luo Yuchen was born with a lot of football talent, mainly manifested in being able to run very fast, and with accurate shots, so he was promoted to a forward after a short time as a substitute.

Then he himself became madly obsessed with football.

In order to follow him to participate in the competition, I naturally did not dare to be sloppy at all.Many people are eyeing the position of goalkeeper, and I will be replaced if I am not careful.

But maybe because I happen to be the goalkeeper, I have many opportunities to practice with Luo Yuchen in private, and he kicks me to block.

At that time, Luo Yuchen was still very straightforward. If I blocked too much, he would get angry: "Xiao Heng, is it so difficult for you to put some water in and let me in?"

I would smile and say: "The revolution has not yet succeeded, comrades still need to work hard."

Every time after practice, we would eat together and sometimes take a bath together. This is the most uncomfortable thing for me, because I don’t know if I can be so evil and secretly stare at Luo Yuchen’s body.

Luo Yuchen's figure is very strong and slender, neither muscular nor ribbed, his skin is quite delicate, and his naked appearance is simply... extremely criminal.

And he doesn't care about his own charm, and he often walks around naked in front of me, and sometimes touches me.

I may look taller than Luo Yuchen, but in fact I belong to the type with less flesh but a larger skeleton. Luo Yuchen jokingly called him an "empty clothes rack", and then came to me to show his perfect figure in all directions. He said it was to make me jealous, but in my opinion his purpose was to make me spit blood.

Looking back on our teenage years, I was really happy and carefree. I often think to myself, if we hadn’t had that fight, and we would have been champions of the Youth Cup and advance together, many things would not have been so sad and suffocating. , Can I just stay quietly by Luo Yuchen's side all the time, as a team member, as a partner, to prevent him from realizing any thoughts that I shouldn't have, and silently guard him.

However, this idea turned out to be just a fantasy.