Like Love But Not

Luo Yuchen didn't feel uncomfortable, because everyone who hurt others only remembered the sweetness of the past, and would smile in retrospect.

Only those who have been severely hurt can remember every bitterness, the sharpness in their hearts, and even the sweet memories make people bitter.

I don't think this is a song to sing on Valentine's Day.

Even though it is really a beautiful song, at this moment, I cannot appreciate it.

I believe that all people who have similar pain will shed tears when they hear it.

When the beauty of the past is already in the vicissitudes of life, there is no possibility of recovery forever.

Someone ignorantly and innocently replayed it with a gentle melody, and even sang with a smile: "I always thought there was a lot of time between us..."

Still thinking that way, time has passed, the world has turned upside down, and I have never noticed it, I still think so foolishly.

What worried me didn't actually happen.

Although Luo Yuchen had many misunderstandings before, his thoughts were still on Xia Mingxiu.

It is also true, a person who has not loved me for ten years, suddenly fell in love with me overnight is a fantasy.

On the second day after Xia Mingxiu went to Milan, Luo Yuchen sorted out the photos for the whole day and carefully selected them one by one. It seemed that except him and his parents, it was him and Xia Mingxiu, and he didn't know what he was picking.

Later, he finally picked out one, and he looked very happy.

The photo showed a merry-go-round in the park. He and Xia Mingxiu rode on the same one, smiling very happily.

I also remember that it was also Christmas Eve of the year, his birthday.I don't know the exact year.It was one of these ten years, anyway.

Amusement park, the annual Christmas carnival sleepless night.

I am always very generous on his birthday. Not only did I force myself to accompany other friends on Xiaolu, but Xia Mingxiu was always invited.

For the sake of Luo Yuchen's happiness, we often take the initiative to bring Xia Mingxiu to our gatherings. This is also the reason why Xia Mingxiu and I can meet each other, and maybe it is also the reason why Xia Mingxiu has a good impression of me.

I don't know if Luo Yuchen knows or not, but every Christmas Eve I have a very miserable life.

It's a matter of course, in such a romantic festival, who doesn't want to spend it happily with his sweetheart.However, if that sweetheart blatantly looks at others and smiles in front of you, cuddles with others swaggeringly, treats you like air or even a pest, and you can only smile and pretend to be indifferent, happy Can you get up?

I didn't die back then, and I didn't have the generosity I have now.

Thinking about it this way, I found that I had accumulated a lot of grievances and bitterness with Luo Yuchen, and I somewhat recovered a little bit of the determination when I made up my mind to give myself the last knife.

I found that I can accept the harmony and happiness between Luo Yuchen and Xia Mingxiu now, but I still can't let go of the past.

The grievance and uselessness at that time, the forced face and laughter, whenever I think about it, I can still have the same feeling as back then.The bitterness that has nowhere to vent has been accumulated in my heart, hidden in the corner, and I will still be unwilling to look at it at any time.

That's why I can't let go when I'm alive.

The result is because of unwillingness.I thought it was a more noble and high-sounding reason.

It seems that I am really a selfish person as Luo Yuchen has said for ten years.

Luo Yuchen held this photo and looked at it for a long time, with a complex expression of faint nostalgia and tenderness on his face.

I've been dazed by their logic, Xia Mingxiu was in front of him, he talked about me unconsciously, now Xia Mingxiu is not in front of him, he is holding a photo and thinking about Xia Mingxiu.

I believe that Luo Yuchen's nerves are normal, so I can't understand this unbelievable behavior.

The same is true for Xia Mingxiu, how could he endure Luo Yuchen's obvious miss for me without a bottom line, if not being jealous is a virtue, his virtue is like digging his own flesh to feed hungry people, beyond normal In terms of logic, he already knew that Luo Yuchen could do stupid things like holding his photo in a daze, so he didn't pay attention to me from the beginning to the end, and he pitied me from beginning to end.

I'm so sad if that's the case.

Xia Mingxiu came back from Milan three days later, their life was still the same as before, ordinary and warm.

But I just find it weirder.Compared with before, they now seem to have a tacit understanding called "respect each other as guests". I figured they had no intimacy since Xia Mingxiu went to LA, and they didn't feel like they were newly married when they came back from Milan.But now, even Xia Mingxiu's behavior of lying on Luo Yuchen's body and acting like a baby has disappeared.

I was wondering if Xia Mingxiu had already surrendered to Xiaolu.

Leaving aside whether he actually exists or not, despite such an awkward relationship between lovers that is almost fake, the two of them still took photos as calmly as water, and no one raised any objections.

When sleeping at night, Luo Yuchen would often sneak out of the bedroom, turn on the orange floor lamp in the living room, take out the photo, and stare at it for a long time, fascinated.

I don't understand, Xia Mingxiu is in the room, he looks at the photo here and misses the past, but he doesn't touch Xia Mingxiu, what does it mean?

I finally don't understand these two people at all.

January has passed quickly, and this winter has been very cold with several snowfalls.The Spring Festival is at the beginning of February, and Valentine's Day is immediately after that. All the festivals are really squeezed together.

Luo Yuchen's new album has been handed over to the final stage of production. I was very fortunate to have an opportunity to enter his recording studio and hear him sing the first version of the original sound. I was already very satisfied.

The way he sings seriously is very beautiful, and only when he doesn't know that there is someone around, can he immerse himself in it completely and naturally, exuding the mystery and loneliness as quiet and deep as the deep sea.

I don't know why, but recently I've always been a little sentimental, and I've become calm about many things when the dust has settled.

I have a hunch that I may be leaving him soon.

Still reluctant to give up is for sure, but the mentality now is very different from the obsession that was almost comparable to resentment two months ago. All the gods should have seen enough of my jokes.

Since I was touched by God's mercy for the last time, I have changed back to what I am now, and my spirit has not been as good as before.

I used to just float and float, and never felt tired, but recently, even if I stopped beside him, my body felt heavier than before.

Probably changing that chance to touch him, the price is that I can't even maintain my soul, I think I will disappear soon.

I don't complain about anything. I should thank God for such a short and incredible time by staying with him after death.

Before leaving, I spent ten years with him, although the days were bitter but also sweet, I should think back carefully for the last time.