Like Love But Not

Xia Mingxiu said: "Everyone said that you seemed very happy today, and they all came to ask me if any good things happened to you."

"No." Luo Yuchen said, but under Xia Mingxiu's scrutiny, he quickly laughed.

This person is very different from the Luo Yuchen I usually know, and I found it quite strange when I saw it.

Let alone the fact that he and I have been together for ten years and have been paralyzed on the ground, even when he smiles, he usually twitches the corners of his mouth and snorts coldly, so that people don't know whether he is laughing or mocking; In the month I watched, I was smiling at most, smiling warmly and kindly. I have never been so happy from ear to ear as I am today.

"What are you laughing at, tell me~~" Xia Mingxiu was laughed at by him, and began to dangle on his arm.

In the end, this idiot really said that Luo Yuchen, who was extremely cruel and ruthless, actually said with a cute expression that was a bit shy and embarrassed to speak: "Xiao Heng has been here before!" .”

If I were Xia Mingxiu, I would be surprised if I didn't get mad when I saw my lover say such a sentence with such an expression.

As a result, Xia Mingxiu stayed out of the matter again, was stunned for a moment, and then asked earnestly: "And then?"

No jealousy, no jealousy, no anger, he is like the kind of old woman with a small trumpet in the alley who is ready to listen to the gossip of the person concerned, waiting for the next detailed description seriously.If I hadn't seen the two of them having sex with my own eyes, I would have thought they were pure friends.

Before I die, a few things are clear.I like Luo Yuchen wishfully, Luo Yuchen ignores me and likes Xia Mingxiu seriously, Xia Mingxiu also likes Luo Yuchen seriously.

I couldn't let go of Luo Yuchen, neither he nor Xia Mingxiu could be happy, so I decided to sacrifice my ego to save my big self.But I really couldn't stand the pain of letting go, so after looking at the doctor's speculation about the bleakness of my remaining life on the medical record card, I decided that short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.

And a series of strange phenomena since my death made me unsure about the relationship between Xia Mingxiu and Luo Yuchen, about Luo Yuchen's feelings for me, and even strongly doubting the correctness of my suicide.

"Then... I seem to have a stomach problem, and he took care of me all night..." Luo Yuchen said, his cheeks began to blush, which made me extremely uncomfortable.

"Oh, so the porridge I drank that morning was made for you by Xiao Heng, no wonder it tastes good." As expected of Xia Mingxiu, Xia Mingxiu made a careful guess: "Then, where is Xiao Heng?"

"I don't know...you were there when I woke up...he should have left." Luo Yuchen's tone sounded regretful.

"Gone? Where did you go?"

"I don't know." When Luo Yuchen said this, he suddenly became a little depressed.

"How could you not know?" Xia Mingxiu was a little annoyed, but he had no choice but to ask again, "How is he?"

"It seems to be okay..."

Thinking of my illness, the two fell into a heavy atmosphere.

"There should be nothing wrong with being able to take care of you overnight." Xia Mingxiu cheered up first, and comforted him without any trace: "Anyway, I have the bone marrow for adaptation, so Xiao Heng is definitely fine."

"Ah."

There was another awkward silence.

Luo Yuchen and Xia Mingxiu seem to be getting more and more out of track. When I look at them now, I can't see anything related to "love". Instead, they seem like close buddies. One of them is very interested in the other's love life. He was trying his best to fan the flames.

Now this makes the seriousness of the two of them before I was alive is like a long time ago. At that time, the two of them worked together to exclude me. It was exciting. Why did I die for less than a month? The temperature between them Also spoiled.

Is it because the relationship is too smooth but can't go on?After the rough and bumpy road of love lacked an insurmountable obstacle like me, the bright road of singing birds and flowers suddenly lost its fun?

Or is it the seven-year itch or in their case—the ten-year itch?

I don't understand, I'm not reconciled.

I can close my eyes and not know anything, but I can't know that I have failed after everything is over, as long as I persist for another month, many things will be turned upside down.

I finally let go to pave the way for them. I thought they would be very happy after I died.

In the end, I died, and found that the true love between two people for ten years had transformed into a friendship in a month.

So what's the point of my death?

"What do you decide to do?" Xia Mingxiu suddenly asked seriously.

My scalp immediately went numb, and when I came out of this sentence, it seemed that I had suddenly jumped to the stage of "telling the truth", which is commonly known as the breakup and showdown stage.

"Luo Yuchen, get ready!"

Fortunately, the director yelled that Luo Yuchen was about to go on stage, so luckily the conversation did not continue.

When Luo Yuchen was on stage, for the first time, I had no intention of admiring his performance.

I've been wondering what on earth he decided to do.

Many things exceeded my original expectations.I feel very scared.

After the party went on until midnight, everyone went to the celebration banquet, and Luo Yuchen didn't return home until the early morning.

Then he fell asleep and slept until noon the next day.

When he finally got enough sleep and didn't eat, he went into the study, and I was so angry that I wanted to jump up and grab his ear and tell him you are a guy who healed his scar and forgot to hurt! !

He sat down in front of the black grand piano and began to play softly.

It suddenly occurred to me that I hadn't seen him play the piano for a long time.

His appearance is very indifferent, only the sound of the piano is the Luo Yuchen I used to know, that kind of emotion is rich, gentle and sad, I am very addicted to listening to him playing the piano, but later he found out, and he never played in front of me again, practiced When playing the piano, I hid in the company's piano room and hid from me by the way.

He didn't do what I wanted, he just deliberately bullied me.

The sunlight came in through the translucent tulle on the study window, and shone on his side face, which was brilliant and lazy.He was in a daze, and for a while he was meditating silently, for a while he played a few notes randomly on the piano, for a while he just hung his hands on the keys of the piano, making movements of playing, but didn't play, and for a while he suddenly grabbed a pencil , Write and draw on manuscript paper.

For a moment, only himself was left in his world, and everything else was isolated from him. In the space he created alone, the smile on his face was leisurely and distant.

When the noon sun turned into moonlight, he suddenly recovered and smiled softly.

It was a complacent smile, belonging to Luo Yuchen who had always been arrogant.

Then, his slender fingers lightly touched the keys and began to play.

Smooth and gentle, green and gentle.It is full of memories, and the faint piano sound is a piece of music that I have never heard before.

The words may not have been written yet, he just sang a few faintly along with some of the music in random places.

"In the summer of the blue sky, we hold hands, the strong wind blows, and the green rice fields.

Flying a kite, the kite got tangled in string, you cried and said, after cutting it, let go of the past.

In April, another year of wind and flowers, I smiled and said, under the banyan tree, we promised to see each other again.

I always thought that there was a lot of time between us.Sunny and rainy, summer and autumn.

I always thought that there are many moments in every year.Crazy wrapped around, smiling brilliantly. "

The taste of faint nostalgia, the gentleness of the warm summer sun, under the current silver moonlight, yesterday reappeared, but it was extremely long ago.The tenderness and sweetness of the past are remembered one by one, but in my opinion, there is only one kind of sadness that is no longer there, and the world is far away from now on.

He sang with a smile, sweetly reminiscing, not noticing any sadness.

Is this your new song, Luo Yuchen?How can you listen to a song like yours on Valentine's Day to stop people from crying?

I saw a few words on the paper, which was the title of the song, called "Long Memories".

Memories, memories are the most hurtful things.