I miss you for a long time

Jiang Ye knew what Lin Ran was looking at, but this time was not suitable for chatting with Lin Ran, so he put his hands in his pockets and sat beside Lin Ran.He knew that Lin Ran was very sad, even surpassing his grandmother's feelings for Grandpa Song, but he didn't know how to comfort him. He knew too little about family affection.

Seeing that he sat down, Lin Ran got up and moved a stool to accompany grandma outside the canteen.Jiang Ye sighed helplessly, took out his mobile phone and sent Zhang He a message back, he didn’t go to the bar after getting drunk last night, Zhang He asked him, Zhang He should get up now, and told him that he still didn’t have time to go tonight, as for what Time to go, wait for his notice.

Lin Ran leaned on grandma's shoulder, held her hand, and asked softly, "Will Grandpa Qin be unbearable? I'm worried about him, in case..."

Grandma's voice was still hoarse after crying: "It's true that I'm sad. I think you're alone watching your Grandpa Song cry right now. But he won't do anything stupid. He knows very well in his heart that you, Grandpa Song, go away." After that, he will soon be there, and he doesn't care about the year or so."

"grandmother......"

"What I'm saying is true. The two of them have experienced too much. It's very satisfying to be able to accompany each other until they grow old." Grandma said, "I'll make some porridge later, and you can send it to him. Hey , It's just that this happened too suddenly, and I'm also worried about your Grandpa Qin's health, they just have such a good relationship..."

Lin Ran worried: "Grandpa Qin will not disagree with tomorrow's cremation, right? Today in the hospital, when he said he wanted to take Grandpa Song home, he was a bit stubborn."

"No, he just wants to take you Grandpa Song home again, the home of the two of them." Grandma got up and said to Lin Ran, "I'll make some porridge, and you will send it to Grandpa Qin later."

"Ah."

"Grandma, what are you doing?" Jiang Ye followed her when she saw her enter the kitchen.

"I'll make some porridge, and I'll send it to Grandpa Qin later."

Jiang Ye said: "I ordered takeaway, and there is porridge."

"Oh." Grandma sighed: "I'm sorry for you, I just don't want to do it, I went into the room and lay down, you and Lin Ran are outside watching some movement of your grandpa Qin."

Jiang Ye said: "Understood, when the takeaway arrives, I'll take you to your house."

Grandma nodded, turned around and walked out of the kitchen to her room.Jiang Ye still returned to the sofa, and didn't go out to get the food until the food arrived.

He knew that none of them had much appetite, they were mostly rice porridge, and ordered two hamburgers, but Lin Ran didn't eat, and only drank a bowl of beef porridge.Jiang Ye went into the house to give him grandma's rice, and then went back to the entrance of the canteen. Seeing that Lin Ran was going to deliver porridge to Grandpa Qin, he followed him.

"You stay, and you're all gone, what about the canteen?" Lin Ran turned to Jiang Ye and said.

"In Mengjia Lane, does anyone dare to go into the canteen to get things?" Jiang Ye smiled, and after a morning, Lin Ran finally talked to him.

"That's why no one dares." Lin Ran carried the rice porridge and walked to the opposite side. The door of Grandpa Qin's house was unlocked. He opened the door and walked in. He didn't see Grandpa Qin in the living room, so he must be in the bedroom.

"Grandpa Qin, I brought you rice porridge, you can eat some." Lin Ran knocked on the door of the bedroom on the first floor, but didn't intend to enter the room, and stood outside obediently waiting for Grandpa Qin's reply.

After a while, Grandpa Qin's voice sounded in the room: "Put it on the table, I'll go out to eat when I'm hungry."

Even through the door panel, Lin Ran could hear that Grandpa Qin had cried, his voice was hoarse, with a distressing old feeling.The calmness and calmness in the hospital, everything is endured, I don't know how sad it is.

"Okay, Grandpa Qin, I'll put it on the table, drink it while it's hot." Lin Ran said to Grandpa Qin who was inside the door, "We'll sit at the entrance of the snack shop, just tell me if you have any orders."

Lin Ran turned around and left without waiting for Grandpa Qin's answer. At this time, he really didn't need to be with him. It would be better to let the old man grieve alone for a while.

Grandpa Qin didn't leave the bedroom until the evening, because Lin Ran went to see it secretly. The bowl of rice porridge had been left on the table without moving, and it was so cold. After sending it over, this time he knocked on Grandpa Qin's door again to make sure that he was safe and sound inside, and then returned to the canteen.

When it was almost time for dinner, Gu Shenghui came. When he came, he also brought dinner, some light dishes made by Aunt Yao.But grandma stopped eating after only a few mouthfuls. She got up and went to Grandpa Qin's house across the street. It was already an afternoon. Grandpa Qin was in the bedroom. He didn't eat any food and didn't know if he had water. Grandma is not afraid, she is just afraid that Grandpa Qin will be sad and hurt his body.

"Brother Ran, don't be sad, it's sudden, no one wants it." Seeing that Lin Ran didn't have much appetite, Gu Shenghui comforted him. He only listened when he called Lin Ran this afternoon and wanted to ask him to go out to play. Saying that Grandpa Song is gone, I really didn’t expect it, and he was also sad for a long time. Although he didn’t have much contact with Grandpa Song, he occasionally met two old people at Lin Ran’s place, and he also ate various dishes brought by the two old people. A delicious food suddenly left, not to mention Lin Ran, even he was very sad.

"Well, I know, I just can't eat, I don't have much appetite." Lin Ran turned his head and glanced at the rain outside the door, it suddenly started to rain in the evening, the patter was not too big, but it made people very irritable all at once , I feel even more sad, as if this rain is here to reflect the meaning of death.

He discovered that whenever someone died around him, it always rained.

Jiang Ye stopped picking up vegetables, because he saw that the ring on Lin Ran's left finger was taken off by him at some point.But he didn't think too much about it. After all, he was the one who took off the ring first. Although he didn't know why there were two identical rings, it didn't prevent him from temporarily pretending to be blind for what he did after drinking last night, but He is not a coward either, since he confessed his love after drinking, he will naturally make it clear to Lin Ran after the matter with Grandpa Song is over.

Jiang Ye put the remaining vegetables in the refrigerator, cleaned them up, and poured hot water for them.His role today is to serve as the head of the logistics department. As long as Lin Ran, grandma and grandpa Qin need it, he will come without complaint.

However, this did not catch Lin Ran's attention. After talking to him in the afternoon, he has been ignoring him until now. Jiang Ye also knows that Lin Ran ignoring him is not because Grandpa Song is sad to leave, but because I took off the ring in the morning.

"Brother Ran, I'll stay tonight." Gu Shenghui and Lin Ran snuggled up on the sofa, took out their mobile phones and said to Lin Ran, "Why don't we watch a movie, last time I wanted to watch a horror movie. No one dared to look."

"It's fine to watch the movie, but you should go home after the end, I don't need to accompany you." Lin Ran emphasized that he really didn't need Gu Shenghui's company, "Really, I'm very sad, but now I'm more sad. It's Grandpa Qin who needs to accompany me, so I probably won't sleep tonight, so don't make trouble here."

"That's fine." Gu Shenghui clicked on the video, and started watching the movie with Lin Ran.

Jiang Ye silently took out the test paper issued yesterday from his schoolbag, sat on the single sofa beside him, and started to do his homework.

"Damn, Jiang Ye, you can still write your homework, aren't you upset?" Gu Shenghui raised his head from the phone, and after questioning Jiang Ye, he felt that his position was wrong, and immediately lowered his head and continued watching the movie.

"Both of you can watch movies, why can't I do my homework." Jiang Ye said: "Besides, Grandpa Song and I have only met two or three times, and we haven't said a few words. Isn't it a bit strange for you to ask me like this?" Excessive."

"He didn't ask you to do anything, he just talked quickly." Lin Ran said, "I understand, no one blames you, and you have done a lot today."

Jiang Ye gave a short laugh: "But I still feel uncomfortable from your words."

"I'm sad, can you stop making trouble?" Lin Ran glared at him, "I'm so angry, do you want to get a kick today? I refrained from beating you last night, you are still on the pole, right? .”

Jiang Ye frowned, and had no choice but to say, "Okay, I won't pick things up, I'm doing my homework."

After a while, grandma came back, Lin Ran immediately asked, "Did Grandpa Qin drink the rice porridge?"

"Drink it. I warmed up the porridge and brought it to the house to watch him drink it." Grandma said, "I said Brother Song was watching. If you don't eat, you will die when the time comes. See you in the underground." Brother Song, he won't talk to you either."

Lin Ran thought that Jiang was still old and hot, and grandma immediately grasped Grandpa Qin's weakness, and he said: "Grandma, you go back to the house and rest, I don't plan to sleep at night, I will go to the living room of Grandpa Qin's house later. Come on, stay with him all night, I won't go in and disturb him, just stay outside."

Grandma sighed: "You can do whatever you want, remember to bring a coat, it's raining all the time, it's so cold."

Gu Shenghui didn't leave until ten o'clock, Lin Ran took him to the entrance of the alley with an umbrella, hailed a taxi for him, and then turned back to the canteen.Jiang Ye had already gone upstairs to take a shower. Lin Ran was sitting alone under the canopy at the entrance of the canteen, wondering what he was thinking, and when Jiang Ye walked behind him, he didn't notice either.

"I've finished washing, why don't you go up and take a shower, I'll accompany you to Grandpa Qin's house later." Jiang Ye's hair was still wet, he was rubbing his hair while talking to Lin Ran.

"I don't want to wash." Lin Ran said, "It's so cold, it doesn't matter if I don't wash overnight."

"Taking a bath will make you feel much better, and your mood will be better." Jiang Ye dragged him into the house, and when his fingers touched Lin Ran's left hand, Lin Ran avoided him.

"I'll go by myself." Lin Ran crossed Jiangye and walked upstairs.

Looking at Lin Ran's back, Jiang Ye felt that this matter had to be resolved. After Grandpa Song was buried, he must find an opportunity to clarify with Lin Ran.

Jiang Ye found a coat and put it on, and sat alone under the awning at the entrance of the canteen, listening to the slow sound of rain, holding a nearly burnt cigarette between his fingers, he was actually very envious of Grandpa Song and Grandpa Qin, at least they were together In those days, we could get together recklessly and grow old together. Even heterosexual couples, bounded by a marriage certificate and children, were able to have such a good relationship until the end of their lives. It was really rare. .

Jiang Ye sighed, there are really too few, he will not be one of the lucky ones.It's true that he likes Lin Ran, he longs to be with him, longs to be with him for the rest of his life, but Jiang Ye also knows that this is simply harder than going to heaven.He clearly understood his stubbornness and despicableness. He was afraid that if he was with Lin Ran, and if Lin Ran wanted to end it first, he would go crazy and do something that would hurt Lin Ran.So if it is destined not to be together for a long time in the future, he would rather not start, he is afraid of being thrown away halfway, he is too afraid of this feeling.

He took a deep puff of the cigarette, and exhaled the smoke slowly. He saw a few little wild cats hiding from the rain in the small flower bed across the road. With vigilance and uneasiness, but they are still willing to hide in such a small place that cannot be sheltered from wind and rain, and they are unwilling to live in a warm and sheltered house with kind people, where they have food, drink and love. He is a wild cat , eager to get and afraid of losing, so it's best not to get it.