I miss you for a long time

Lin Ran found an unlit place in the flower bed downstairs and sat down. He took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket. The case of this pack of cigarettes was crumpled. It's been a long time, thinking about it this way, he hasn't smoked for several days.

He took out two cigarettes, handed one to Jiang Ye who sat down with him, and put the cigarette in his mouth, but he searched all over his pockets but couldn't find a lighter, which made him very angry: "Fuck, play with me !"

Jiang Ye suddenly came over, pointed the lighter at the cigarette in Lin Ran's mouth, and made a "snap". Lin Ran felt that if he hadn't dodged quickly, his eyebrows would have been lit by the lighter right now.

"Jiang Ye! Where did you light the fire?" Lin Ran pouted, "Here is the smoke! Your small eyes are out of focus? Can't you see clearly?"

"Oh, I'm sorry." Jiang Ye retracted his hands, hung his head and fell silent again.

"What did you say?" Lin Ran realized that something was wrong with Jiang Ye. He bent over and leaned closer to Jiang Ye. With the faint light in the distance, he couldn't see anything unusual about Jiang Ye, but tonight Jiang Ye just had a feeling of saying no. Out of normal. "Jiang, you can't be...drunk."

Jiang Ye said, "No, I'm awake."

Lin Ran pointed at himself: "Then who am I?"

Jiang Ye raised his head and looked at Lin Ran: "You are Ah Ran, I am Ah Ye, not a wild species, I am Zhi Hu Zhe Ye."

Now that Lin Ran was sure that Jiang Ye was really drunk, he grabbed Jiang Ye's wrist and forced him to look at him all the time: "Jiang Ye, let me ask you, who are you giving the ring you bought today?"

Jiang Ye reacted for two seconds, then smiled lowly: "I want to give it to Ah Ran, Ah Ran, when I saw that ring in the afternoon, all I could think about was how to wear this ring On your finger. I... want to love you so much. At this moment and in the future, I want you to be by my side, but I... Ah Ran, even family affection is unreliable, but love is reliable Is it? I'm afraid to disturb your life now, and you will regret meeting me in the future. Ah Ran..."

Lin Ran leaned in front of Jiang Ye, held his face, and kissed him lightly on the lips. This was the first time Lin Ran kissed someone, the first time he liked a boy in his 18 years of life.He thought he would be nervous, but when he looked into Jiang Ye's eyes, he felt that it should be.

"Ah Ran, you..." Jiang Ye suddenly opened his eyes wide, looked at Lin Ran in disbelief, and immediately grabbed the hand that Lin Ran had removed from his face: "You kissed me."

"Fuck, yes, yes, I kissed you, but can you not say it?" Lin Ran looked at Jiang Ye, and suddenly asked suspiciously: "You are not pretending to be drunk, are you lying to me?"

"I do not have."

"...you fucking."

"I really don't." Jiang Ye approached Lin Ran, and he could smell the strong smell of alcohol in his breath. He fixed his eyes on Lin Ran's lips, and asked after a while, "Can I kiss you back? Ah Ran. "

"Fuck, kiss, I fucking believe you're drunk." Lin Ran closed his eyes, with an expression of letting you do whatever you want.

But Jiang Ye really just kissed Lin Ran lightly on the lips, and then backed away.Lin Ran looked at Jiang Ye in disbelief, and saw Jiang Ye took out the ring from his pocket, and then heard a "plop", Jiang Ye knelt in front of Lin Ran, the point is, he knelt on his fucking legs ground.

"Fuck, Jiangye, you..." Lin Ran didn't know what to say, and after holding back for a long time, he cursed, "You are fucking crazy, get up quickly."

Although it is already past eight o'clock in the evening, there are many people coming and going. If you see a boy kneeling to another boy, or kneeling with both legs, those who don't know the truth will think what the hell is wrong.

"Hush...don't talk, reach out your hand." Jiang Ye took out the ring from his pocket, pulled Lin Ran's left hand forcibly, and put the ring on his ring finger, then he bowed his head piously He kissed the ring once, and never looked up again.

"Jiangye? Jiangye?" Lin Ran pushed Jiangye who was kneeling on the ground motionless, only then did he realize that he was actually asleep! "Ouch, you are so fucking awesome!"

Lin Ran was going crazy!Is this a confession or torture!Why don't you bastard say this while you're sober!Ah Xi, Lin Ran suppressed his anger forcibly, bent down to support Jiang Ye, and found that he was really asleep. He remained motionless like a dead dog, letting Lin Ran drag him away.

"Jiang Ye, let me tell you, this doesn't count, you wake up tomorrow and tell me your love again." Lin Ran held Jiang Ye and thought all the way: "It's the first time I like someone in such a fucking age, you Just fix this thing for me? How do you let me remember it in the future? Besides, you are fucking drunk now, it’s still the same thing if you don’t remember it tomorrow morning. If you dare to play tricks, I’ll beat you to death. Beat you, don't give me a chance, otherwise, I beat you and your parents don't know you, oh, your parents don't know you..."

Lin Ran carried Jiang Ye into the ward, threw him directly on the sofa, then picked up the water cup on the coffee table and poured a glass of water in one go, and then heaved a long sigh of relief.

"What's the matter?" Grandpa Qin looked at them.

"He was drunk and fell asleep downstairs." Lin Ran brushed his hair. It was almost November, and the temperature was already very low at night, so he was sweating all over. "Grandpa Qin, have you had dinner?"

Grandpa Qin said: "I ate it a long time ago, and we went for a walk in the park not far away."

"Then I'll take a shower first."

Seeing Lin Ran enter the bathroom, Qin Ranxiu took a thin blanket and covered Jiang Ye.

Song Jin'an also got up. He took two boxes of milk and put them into the lunch box, poured hot water to cover them, "Hot two boxes of milk for the two children, how uncomfortable it is to be drunk."

Qin Ranxiu said with a smile: "You, you have spoiled Ah Ran since you were a child, treat him as your own grandson."

Song Jin'an said: "Don't you spoil me? Feel free to tell me, when I paid my salary, I went to that big supermarket called at that time, bought a lot of food for Ah Ran, and chased after you every day to call you grandpa, aren't you happy? ?”

"Happy, why aren't you happy?" Qin Ranxiu walked up to Song Jin'an, and the two of them held hands and sat on the hospital bed. "Have you ever regretted it?"

"Are you really, the older you get, the more confused you become? Why do you ask such a question?" Song Jin'an patted Qin Ranxiu on the shoulder, and said in a low voice, "The only thing I regret is that I flinched once back then, which hurt you... ..."

"Don't talk about it, so many years have passed, why bring it up." Qin Ranxiu smiled: "Besides, we are quite old, and we finally came to an end together, so we have no regrets."

"Ah."

"Cough cough." Lin Ran came out of the shower and saw two little old men leaning together and whispering, and immediately felt a sense of tranquility, but he had to disturb the two: "I'm done washing, do you want to wash up?" ?”

Qin Ranxiu smiled and said, "We both washed up a long time ago, and we'll just wait for you to come, or we'll go to bed early."

"Come here." Song Jin'an greeted him: "I warmed up milk for you, you drink it, and there is a box for Jiang Ye to drink."

Lin Ran glanced at Jiang Ye who was lying on the sofa sleeping like a dead pig, and said helplessly: "He will definitely not be able to get up, forget it, I'll drink alone, let him sleep."

Qin Ranxiu asked: "Did you two quarrel? It feels like you are very angry."

Lin Ran wondered if he wouldn't be angry. Halfway through the confession, he knelt down on his knees like a marriage proposal, but he fell asleep, so no one would be angry. He never thought that Jiang Ye could drink so badly. Lin Ran remembered that there were only two empty wine bottles in front of Jiang Ye at that time. Are these two bottles of beer still considered wine?To be so drunk, I don't know if I can remember what happened tonight tomorrow morning.

"No quarrel." After drinking the milk, Lin Ran sat on the single sofa, took out a physics test paper from his schoolbag, thought about it and changed it to a math test paper. Recently, he did too much physics, and he couldn't write it in. , or some mathematics. "Grandpas, you two, go to bed. It's already nine o'clock. I'll close the curtain and do my homework for a while."

"Don't be too late. If you're hungry, there's something to eat here, including bread and biscuits." Qin Ranxiu said, "Oh, by the way, there's pudding I bought at night, do you want to eat?"

Lin Ran smiled, he was really envious of these two old men, their lives were very interesting, almost everything that was popular among young people, these two old men would try anything as long as it didn't endanger their lives, whether it was food or play. "I'm not hungry. I ate a self-service barbecue opposite the hospital today. I was so stuffed. Grandpa Song, when you leave the hospital tomorrow, I'll take you to eat. It's super delicious."

"Okay, no problem." Grandpa Song had already laid down, and said to Lin Ran: "Then we old people go to bed first, if you are sleepy, go to bed earlier."

"Ah."

Lin Ran also really admired himself. After being confessed last night, he was able to do a few papers calmly. He didn't feel a little sleepy until twelve o'clock. He packed up his things and put them in his schoolbag, and went to the bathroom to drain the water , When I was washing my hands, I noticed the ring on the ring finger of my left hand.

The dog's tail grass is very beautiful. He doesn't know why Jiang Ye took a fancy to this men's ring, just like he fell in love with it at a glance in that booth.

He took out another ring from his trouser pocket, put it in the palm of his hand and looked at it for a while, then turned around and came out of the bathroom, he walked to Jiang Ye and squatted down, he could clearly see Jiang Ye's face by the light of the corridor, just like the first time The day I saw him, he was handsome and handsome, attracting him everywhere.Lin Ran had told Gu Shenghui before that if he was looking for a boyfriend, he should be someone like Jiang Ye. Around that time, he had already secretly fallen in love with him. It might not be love at first sight, but it must start with his good looks. Who told him to be a dog.

Lin Ran pulled out Jiang Ye's left hand from the blanket, and looked at it carefully. Even the fingers were beautiful, slender, straight and powerful.He slowly put the ring in his hand on Jiang Ye's ring finger. It was just the right size, just like the one in his own hand, as if it was tailor-made for the two of them, it fit so well.

Lin Ran suddenly felt a little ashamed, this hasn't officially started a relationship yet, why are they wearing rings, it feels like they have already made a private appointment for life, and the only thing left is for the two parents to meet and finalize the banquet.

Fuck, Lin Ran touched his face, unprecedented, the all-powerful Ran Ba ​​Ba blushed.He quickly got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water, only then did he feel that his face was not so hot.He went back to the ward and took out a thin quilt from the cabinet lightly, and then nestled on the single sofa. Although his body was a little excited because of what happened tonight, it was probably the effect of alcohol, and he fell asleep soon. He fell asleep, but he couldn’t sleep comfortably. He actually had a nightmare at night. When he suddenly woke up, his whole body was sore, probably because he was nestled in the single sofa. He reached out to check the time with his mobile phone, when he heard someone movement.

"Ann, what's wrong with you today?"

Grandpa Qin's nervous voice came, Lin Ran immediately jumped up from the sofa, turned on the light in the ward, ran to the bedside, and asked, "What's wrong with Grandpa Song?"

"He's not in the right condition..." Before Grandpa Qin could finish his sentence, Lin Ran rang the ward bell, and immediately pulled the quilt off Grandpa Song's body, pressed it against his chest, listened for a while, and called out in a low voice. A few times: "Grandpa Song, Grandpa Song...can you hear me?"

"What's wrong?" Jiang Ye also woke up, probably recalling why he was here, but he didn't have time to think about it, the doctor and nurse had already rushed in.

The doctor on duty came to see that Lin Ran was about to do chest compressions for Grandpa Song, so he knew it was broken. He hurriedly stepped forward to check it, and said to the nurse behind him: "Quickly inform the director, get ready for the operating room!"

Song Jin'an was quickly moved to the operating room, Lin Ran supported Grandpa Qin and followed along, Jiang Ye walked at the end, completely unaware of why such a thing happened suddenly.The three of them stood outside watching the doctors and nurses coming in and out several times. Grandpa Qin tremblingly stretched out his hand to grab a doctor to ask, but he didn't make a sound in the end.

Not long after, a doctor came out of the operating room, holding an operation sheet in his hand and looking at the three of them standing outside the door.

"Which of you is the family member of the patient?"

Qin Ranxiu stood at the front. The handsome old man who used to have a straight back seemed to have bent over in an instant. He was much older. He met the doctor's gaze and said softly, "I am."

"Who are you?" The doctor handed him the consent form for the operation: "We need your signature."

"I am Mr. Him."

"This..." The doctor was taken aback for a moment, and then quickly reacted. He said, "I'm not embarrassing you. Your relationship...is there any immediate relatives?"

Qin Ranxiu said: "I can sign it. I am his intended guardian. From a legal point of view, I have the right to sign it."

"Okay then." The doctor handed the consent letter to Qin Ranxiu, and then explained Song Jin'an's situation to him: "The patient is in danger now, with a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, and we are about to perform a craniotomy. The situation is not very good. You have to be mentally prepared."

Qin Ranxiu's hand holding the pen paused, and it took a lot of effort to control his emotions. He looked up at the doctor: "What is the probability that he will survive?"

The doctor couldn't bear it: "According to his condition, it is about 50.00%, and even if the operation is successful, he will not return to the previous state. He will lose many bodily functions, including limb movement, swallowing, speech and other dysfunctions. You still have to do well." Prepare."

Qin Ranxiu responded, signed Qin Ranxiu's name on the surgical sheet, and wrote gentle and elegant words for a lifetime. At this moment, it was messy and out of shape.He sighed, it was the first time in so many years that he signed Song Jinan's operation sheet, and it might be the last time, but the writing was so ugly, Song Jinan saw it, and wondered if he would laugh at him.

"If..." Qin Ranxiu lowered his head, with a tremor in his voice, he paused and continued: "If it's really not possible, don't force it, I don't want him to suffer in the end... .”

The doctor was stunned for a moment, and didn't understand Qin Ranxiu's meaning for a moment. Generally, relatives outside the operating room would ask the doctor to do his best, but he told the doctor not to force him, "We will do our best."

"Doctor." Lin Ran stopped the doctor who turned to leave. He asked, "Grandpa Song was supposed to be discharged from the hospital today. There is nothing wrong with his body. Why did he suddenly have a cerebral hemorrhage?"

The doctor said: "Since it happened suddenly, we couldn't expect it. It has nothing to do with his health."

"I see, thank you doctor."

Lin Ran supported Grandpa Qin to sit on the chair next to him. At this moment, he couldn't say any words of comfort. He looked at Jiang Ye who had been standing by the side, and called him: "Jiang Ye."

"Huh?" Jiang Ye turned his head and looked at Lin Ran. He had already passed the alcohol when he woke up. He was just a little confused now, why did Grandpa Song behave like this suddenly.

"Can you go back to the ward and get a cup of hot water? There are thermos cups on the bedside table."

"Okay, I'll go."

The operating room is on the third floor, and the ward is on the fifth floor. After Jiang Ye went up to the fifth floor and returned to the ward, he went to the bathroom to wash his face. There was a rush of war just now, and he was sober. He just felt like his face was covered with something , a little uncomfortable.He picked up cold water and poured it on his face. After rubbing it twice, he always felt that something was wrong. Then he realized that there seemed to be something sticking to his face on his fingers. He stretched out his left hand to look, and his heart skipped a beat. Did you put the ring on your finger?

It shouldn't be, Jiang Ye put his hands on the side of the washbasin and thought for a while, he almost didn't react when he just woke up in the ward.I drank alcohol, but I couldn't remember how I got back to the ward.

Jiang Ye stared at the ring on his hand and thought about it for a long time, and some images after drinking last night emerged in his mind, the most profound of which was the image of himself kneeling in front of Lin Ran and putting the ring on him.

"Fuck." Jiang Ye stroked his short hair. Is he really fucking drunk and cowardly?Restraint when sober, and propose directly when drunk?

Is this step jumping too much?How did Lin Ran answer him?Forgot, no no, the mother fell asleep by herself, and did not wait for Lin Ran's answer at all!Fuck it.

Jiang Ye patted the countertop of the sink, thinking about something else, he clearly remembered that the ring was already on Lin Ran's finger, how could it be on his left hand again?I can't remember this paragraph, so I simply don't want to.He felt that there should be no delay, after all, Grandpa Song was still in the operating room, so he had to go back and wait.

Jiang Ye wiped off the water droplets on his face, turned around and left the bathroom, went to the bed cabinet to get a thermos cup, there was already hot water in the cup, Jiang Ye took the thermos cup and went out, while waiting for the elevator, he put his left ring finger on the He took off the ring, hesitated for a while, and finally put the ring in his pocket.

The elevator stopped on the third floor, Jiang Ye got out of the elevator and walked to the door of the operating room, and handed the thermos cup to Lin Ran.When reaching out to pick it up, Jiang Ye saw a ring on his left ring finger that was exactly the same as his own!What the hell is going on? !

Lin Ran didn't care about Jiang Ye's gaze, he was anxious now, worried about Grandpa Song inside.

He has neither grandpa nor grandpa. Ever since he lived in Mengjiaxiang, Grandpa Song and Grandpa Qin have treated him well, pampered him, and taught him many things just like his own grandfathers.Lin Ran knew that the two of them treated him as his own grandson, so why didn't he treat them like his own grandfather, Grandpa Song's life and death were uncertain inside, what if something happened, what would Grandpa Qin do?

Lin Ran grabbed Grandpa Qin's hand nervously, staring straight at the door of the operating room, and then remembered why Jiang Ye was instructed to get the thermos cup. He opened the lid of the cup and handed it to Grandpa Qin: "Grandpa Qin, drink Mouth water."

Qin Ranxiu shook his head, but did not take the thermos from Lin Ran's hand. He stared at the operating room without blinking. After an unknown amount of time, he said to Lin Ran, "Let your grandma come over."

"Grandpa Qin..." Lin Ran looked at Grandpa Qin in a panic: "The operation just started not long ago..."

"I know." Qin Ranxiu patted Lin Ran's hand: "It's okay, it's already past five o'clock, your grandma should get up, let her go to our house, and take the... Let’s take him back to wear the clothes again.”

"Grandpa Qin." Lin Ran's eyes were sore, and he felt like he was about to cry in the next second. He tried his best to restrain himself, took out his mobile phone and lowered his head to call grandma, but when grandma's voice came from the other end of the phone, Lin Ran still Unable to hold back, tears fell onto the screen of the phone patter, and there was no sound at all.

Jiang Ye squatted beside Lin Ran, raised his hand to wipe Lin Ran's tears, then picked up the phone from his hand, and said to the anxious grandmother on the other end of the phone: "Grandma, I'm Jiang Ye, come to the hospital."

"What's wrong?" Grandma started to panic when she received Lin Ran's phone call early in the morning. Something must have happened, otherwise Lin Ran wouldn't have called early in the morning. She tentatively asked: " Is it your Grandpa Song?"

"Yes, the situation is not very good."

"Understood, I'll go right away."

Jiang Ye hung up the phone and returned the phone to Lin Ran. After searching all over his body, he couldn't find a piece of paper. In the end, he had to wipe Lin Ran's tears and snot with his cuff without hesitation, and then sat down beside Grandpa Qin.

Grandpa Qin has always been calm, but even a person like Jiang Ye who lacks emotion can feel the sadness in Grandpa Qin's heart, let alone Lin Ran who grew up by their side all the time.The first time Lin Ran couldn't hold back was because his emotions had accumulated to the point of explosion, but even so, Grandpa Qin was not moved, but just silently looked at the operating room, not knowing whether to expect or accept it.

Grandma came very quickly. She called Jiang Ye from downstairs in the hospital to ask which floor she was on. Jiang Ye told her that she was in the operating room on the third floor. A few minutes later, grandma appeared in the corridor on the third floor, wearing slippers on her feet. He hurried over after receiving the call, without even changing his shoes.

"Why did this happen suddenly? Yesterday I was fine when I came here during the day. Didn't everyone agree that I can be discharged from the hospital today?" Grandma walked up to Grandpa Qin, and Jiang Ye gave up the seat next to him. Grandma sat down and grabbed Holding Qin Ranxiu's arm: "God bless, Brother Song will be fine. He has never done anything bad in his life, so there will be no problems, and he will pass through safely."

Qin Ranxiu nodded: "Well, I called you here just in case."

"Bah, bah, what's in case, nothing in case." Grandma said loudly, "Brother Qin, stop talking nonsense."

"I just feel, I..." Qin Ranxiu said: "When he fell at home last week, I was very scared, afraid that he would have something, probably at that time I instinctively felt that he should not be too old The problem is that I am afraid because I am worried that he will suffer if he falls on his head. But today, I am not afraid, I always feel that the time has come and I can't keep it."

"Grandpa Qin." Lin Ran pulled Grandpa Qin, and just called him softly. He understood that Grandpa Qin's feelings should not be wrong. They have lived together for more than 50 years, and they probably have telepathy. There will still be. Grandpa Qin probably felt that Grandpa Song was going to die soon, so he faced all this calmly. The two handsome old men probably discussed the issue of death a long time ago, and they have already understood this scene Separation will come eventually.

Qin Ranxiu patted Lin Ran's arm: "I'm fine, Ah Ran, it's really not a big deal, sooner or later, he's ahead of me, I'm glad it's just a little sudden, I feel like there's still a lot to say Finished. We were chatting yesterday, and when he was discharged from the hospital, we wanted to visit the southern seaside. The last time we went was several years ago..."

Grandma covered her face and turned around again. Lin Ran knew that grandma was crying too, but this time, Lin Ran couldn't hold back, he couldn't cry anymore, or Grandpa Qin would collapse, haven't I heard that yet? The bad news, it must be that Grandpa Qin felt wrong, maybe Grandpa Song has...

With a "snap", the door of the operating room was pushed open. Lin Ran felt Grandpa Qin's hand grabbing him suddenly. He looked at the doctor who came out, like a prisoner waiting to be sentenced. When the doctor took off the mask and said something, Lin Ran didn't seem to hear it. He felt that Grandpa Qin beside him was trembling. He turned around and hugged Grandpa Qin, only to find that his face was full of tears.

No matter how easy it is to say, no matter how clearly it is thought, it is impossible to experience that feeling before this day actually arrives, just like at this moment, Grandpa Qin's wrinkled face is finally filled with sadness, he and Song The death that grandpa discussed before was just an imagination, and when that day comes, he will still break down.

Afterwards, Jiang Ye accompanied Lin Ran to handle the matter, Qin Ranxiu went in alone to see Song Jin'an, and grandma sat on the chair outside, wondering what she was thinking.When everything was done, it was almost noon, but Qin Ranxiu was tough once when it came to the final disposal of the body. He insisted on taking Song Jin'an home. In the end, it was Qin Ranxiu who called and found someone. was allowed.

After returning to Mengjiaxiang, Qin Ranxiu refused the company of Lin Ran and the others, and went back alone to the house where he and Song Jin'an had lived for decades, and accompanied the person who had walked all the way since childhood for the last journey.

Lin Ran returned home and sat on the sofa in the living room, alone in a daze. Grandma was sitting outside the canteen, staring at the door of Qin Ranxiu's house across the way. After standing in front of Lin Ran for a while, Jiang Ye took out the It was already noon when he ordered takeaway on his mobile phone. No one made lunch, but he was the calmest of the three of them, and he felt that he had to eat.

Afterwards, Jiang Ye poured a cup of hot water for Lin Ran and grandma. When he returned to the living room, Lin Ran looked up at him, and then moved his gaze to Jiang Ye's left ring finger. Seeing that it was empty, he couldn't help frowning. , Then he seemed to sneer, turned his head away, and stopped looking at Jiang Ye.

Jiang Ye knew what was causing Lin Ran, but right now was not the time to discuss the two of them.