Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Sunny Monday, October [-]

In the end, the matter of sponsorship was still left to Lu Bei to solve alone.

I felt very guilty and felt that my incompetence had dragged him down, but he didn't take it seriously, and even made a special trip to praise me when the meeting was concluded.

Lu Bei sat at one end of the long table, with a serious face: "As you all know, I've been very busy recently, and this event was completed satisfactorily by Gou Tian, ​​who was in charge of the matchmaking. It’s not easy. Here I want to say thank you to him.”

I quickly shook my head and said, "No, no, I should."

He paused, looked at the meeting minutes in his hand and remained silent for a while.Then he raised his head suddenly, and before everyone was paying attention, he grinned and raised his eyebrows at me from a distance.

Fu lowered his head again, and held up the large open notebook, trying to hide the smile that could not stop from the corner of his mouth.

Ah this!Ah this!This is seduction!This must be it!

Both of us!Both of us!Why is there a sense of stealing, love and sight!

Ahhhhh my boyish heart!

Lu Bei privately sent me a bonus on WeChat, saying it was the balance of the event.

I was so moved that tears were streaming down my face, I didn't know what to say.

I swear to kowtow to thank you for your great kindness, but I will promise you nothing in return.

I am a person who pays special attention to details. Thinking about it, Lu Bei still has a little thing to poke me.

In our college, the roll call is usually done by freshmen and juniors together, and by sophomores and seniors.Our instructors are also long-winded, which makes it take a long time for each roll call.Of course, this also means that I have another chance to meet Lu Bei.

At that time, I had been in the External Relations Department for a while, and I had dinner with Lu Bei a few times, and I gradually became acquainted, but it was still not a very good friendship.

At that time, I was in a hurry to hand over a copy of materials to the instructor, and I went late again. The seats in the back were all snatched and I could only sit in the first row. I stumbled into the classroom and sat down, panicking.

Everyone was playing with their mobile phones, only the instructor was talking nonsense in a long tone. Except for him, the whole big classroom was filled with the sound of me flipping paper, and the sound of tearing paper apart.

The instructor kept darting his eyes and warning him several times. I didn't face him and didn't meet his gaze. I just pretended not to know.In fact, he was already panicked in his heart, blushing with embarrassment.

Then there was a heart-piercing deafening cough from the back row, which instantly drowned out the loud noise I made.

Everyone was attracted to the sight and looked sideways.

I also glanced back in a daze. The voice came from Lu Bei's direction. He covered his mouth with one hand and lay half prone on the table, looking like a tuberculosis who had been dying for a long time.And his friend next to him had a coaxing smile on his face.

My movements stopped.

Am I thinking too much... He must have done it deliberately to cover me!

I swallowed, buried my head, but my heart was so happy that I had a sense of "my idol finally interacted with me in full view of the public".

Lu Bei is a person who always likes to do some little tricks that make me feel like a deer in my heart.

Even such a small thing made me go back and remember it for a long time, trying to use it as proof that he likes me.

But now I know that if he doesn't admit it or refuse it, he is not responsible, and occasionally he is a little ambiguous, no matter who looks at it, he is a complete fucking scumbag.

But Lu Bei's existence is a layer of filter, and I can't bear to use any even slightly derogatory words to describe him.

I became irritable and worried about gains and losses. My sensitivity to him ranged from the frequency of his replies, the number of words, and his tone of voice to every ambiguous look in his eyes and caring actions towards others.

I started to ask for more and more, obviously not qualified.

So it was painful for me to contact him, and it was also painful not to contact him.

I tortured myself to death all day long.

When I was free, I looked at the only visible to me in my circle of friends, and saw a day last year that read:

"I'm very upset that he didn't talk to me all day today.

Until the last minute, he took the initiative to come to me.

Wow!I am so happy today! "

Tsk tsk tsk, look at this useless dog licking gesture!Look at this pitiful wag!

But, at least I'm stronger than me now.

At that time, I was still jealous, I still cared, I was still ambitious, and I wanted to take a place in his heart beyond my means, and I analyzed every song he shared word by word for the person deep in my heart, and then hid in In the quilt, he couldn't bear to live because of their beautiful love and my wish for it.

Now I seem to be used to it.

Gradually, the stone named "Shen Jing" became less painful to me, and I tried to wrap this secret into a pearl, to prove that my love for Lu Bei transcended all narrow limits.

I persuaded myself that I fell in love with Lu Bei's devotion at first.

Now I hate his devotion.

This is my fault.

I shouldn't be.

Of course Lu Bei was right.

He didn't know that I actually knew him early on.

One month before he broke up with Shen Jing, the night I fell in love with him at first sight for the first time.

The two were wearing school uniforms, and he kissed the fair boy with eyes full of affection and a smile, and took his hand as he walked along the cool breeze in the middle of the night, melting away all the chill in the small town.

Afterwards, I happened to pass by me who was being beaten up, my nose was bruised and my face was swollen, and the hot-blooded Fanggang saw the rough road, so he blocked me by the way.

He faces the light.He shines.

I met him later, it was the day he was dumped by Shen Jing.

When their first love went abroad, they broke up.In that coffee shop, Lu Bei put his hands on the table, his face was disfigured from crying.

I sat at the next table, hesitated for a long time and didn't dare to come forward to comfort him, even if it was just to pat him on the shoulder.

But I thought, he was so beautiful when he cried.

He can, I really love him.

I've frightened, struggled, denied, and reflected on my mind.

But this glance has become an obsession, a madness, and the love I most yearn for in my understanding.

The name of love is Lu Bei.

So I silently stepped on every footprint of Lu Bei.

In order to go to the same university as him, I endured the impatience and ridicule of my classmates, and borrowed their notes one by one to read.

To get closer to him.

I know that Lu Bei's heart must be extremely gentle and kind, but his love has gone away with the person who left two years ago.

But now the core of all the loneliness and wandering in this old refrigerator is just the love he buried deep in his heart