Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Sunny Friday March 26

I haven't seen him for two whole weeks since NO.12, when I made an appointment with Lu Bei to take the cat.

I gradually got used to the days when I didn't see him.

But I miss him very much, very thickly.It was so thick that sometimes I felt out of breath, gnawing on my chest like ants finding food.

I stroked the place where the tattoo was, and I couldn't feel any bumps or scars, as if it was integrated with my skin, the black and blue words seeped in, linking down to the heart.

I dreamed about Lu Bei last night.I am a person who loves to dream, and it is easy to have severe mood swings because of things in dreams.

I dreamed that Lu Bei and I got back together again, and he took me to meet his friends, two or three, and we gathered around for dinner.

During the dinner, someone said a few words in a strange manner, which was quite offensive. I forgot the specific content, to the effect that I am not good enough for Lu Bei.

As a result, Lu Bei's face turned black all of a sudden, and he angered his friend because of me without hesitation: "What are you, teaching my wife how to do things?"

My friend still wanted to play haha, so he put his hand on mine and said to the other party coldly: "Give me a face?"

Straightforward and straightforward.

Then he grabbed my hand and turned away.

After leaving the store, he still held me tightly and smiled softly at me: "Don't worry, I will of course stand by your side."

I woke up feeling lost for a while.

If...if he could be chosen firmly, no matter who he was, he would be shaken!

But when will Lu Bei understand?

harm.

As soon as I woke up, I had to face many real problems, for example, Aini, the cat, was too doggy.

I don't know if I'm human, but she's a real dog.

The dog doesn't think the family is poor, but she is picky.I used to live in a big house and was used to running around, but now I moved to a small room like my rental house.

After all, she is an animal who doesn't understand anything, only that the quality of life has plummeted, so as long as I'm not at home, Aini will keep crying in pain, and will jump up and down in the hut less than ten square meters in the middle of the night.

The sound insulation was not good, and the roommate who lived with me was so angry that I complained to the landlord several times.

The landlord gave me an ultimatum: If the cat is not removed, move to another place.

No way, I can only start to find a place again.

I also thought about taking another cat to accompany her. I basically live in the dormitory now, and I am afraid that she will be depressed by herself.

But in my current situation, it's already enough to support myself, and I really can't afford it.

Originally, he was not responsible for only one life, but in the end it will become two.

So Xiaogou's troubles were added in vain.

snort!The main thing is to blame Lu Bei!

Aini was given to me by him, and I was reluctant to pass it on to others.I know it's best for both of us to find a new owner for the cat, but I just can't let it go.

The tighter you grasp, the more tired you become, and there is only mutual torture left.

Cats are like this, so why not people.

In the past two days, our outreach department is going to host another event. The specific content needs to be handed over to the student union, and we need to get the records of previous years' activities, so after class today, I went to find the junior senior who was in charge.

As a result, we sat down for a while and ordered two cups of coffee, but the more I looked at him, the more familiar he looked.

After thinking for a long time, I suddenly realized: Oh my god!Isn't this why I met Lu Bei's boyfriend at the time on Halloween in my freshman year!

Come on!It was the one who sat next to Lu Bei when I dressed up as a big guy in women's clothing and asked Lu Bei to put on makeup in the bar that night!

He also thinks that Lu Bei puts on me makeup for a long time, and I haven't done it for him!

Whoa!It was him!I never dreamed that one day, I would still meet Lu Bei's ex-boyfriend.

Although there is nothing surprising about this matter, after all, Lu Bei's ex-boyfriends are all over the world, and they are all over the street.

Speaking of which, it's strange that it took me so long to meet this one.

Of course, it’s also because I don’t know anyone else, maybe you’ve passed by countless times on the road, and you don’t even know that you still have a “one-stick relationship” with each other.

I couldn't hold back, and asked, "Senior, have you... been with Senior Lu Bei before?"

The senior stopped turning over the paper, squinted his eyes, and asked me, "Huh? Are you familiar with him?"

I was taken aback, and said vaguely, "It's okay, it's okay..."

The senior smiled and looked back at the information again: "Yes, he is my ex."

"Oh……"

I nodded.

I don't know how to answer it. In fact, this topic is already abrupt, so there is no need to continue.

But he said: "that man, you have to be careful."

"Eh?"

"It is said that he is a walking wrench in the world." The senior smiled: "But he is about to graduate, and now he is not staying in school, you can't meet him."

He lowered his eyes, looking a little bit bitter, he was not the same person as I remembered the girl in the bar who made Lu Bei put on makeup by pouting.

"Are you gay too?" He looked up and asked me suddenly.

"Um," I was caught off guard by the question: "I, I..."

"If you're not an insider, you won't pay attention to this." He said, lowering his head again, circling the precautions in the information, "It's okay if you don't want to say it, just stay away from that man."

"why……"

The senior thought for a while: "Because he doesn't know how to love others, he's a trash."

He said: "When we were good, he would do what a boyfriend should do, such as accompany me to eat, go to self-study, etc., and he is really good in bed. But, think about it carefully. Thinking, it seems that he has never put his mind to it. I do it, and he doesn’t bother to coax; I chat with others, but he doesn’t get angry; It doesn't matter if he or I associate with other people."

He concluded: "I can't feel that Lu Bei likes me at all. Before we got married, we would definitely be ambiguous and have a good impression, but after dating, I discovered that he actually doesn't like me at all."

"Oh……"

Sure enough, I can imagine Lu Bei's dead appearance at that time, which is exactly the same as the him I met at the beginning.

"Our circle is small, and I also know his other exes. Everyone's situation is similar, and I feel that he has never cared about anyone. He can't be good to anyone, and he can't be bad to anyone. He is ambiguous to everyone. I don't know, the central air conditioner casts a wide net. So being his boyfriend will be very tiring, he is a stupid scumbag."

Oh, I nodded in agreement.

Then I asked the question that has been bothering me: "I heard that Lu Bei will always be green?"

The junior senior smiled: "That's right, I also cheated on him! There was an element of anger at the time, and I was not a good person, so I found another one outside the school."

"Why didn't you just dump him? Is it revenge?"

"There must be a reason for this, the main reason is... His hardware facilities are really good."

"..."

"It's time to find an automatic heating stick with voice. If it weren't for this, who would be able to stand his temper!"

"..."

"I have a friend. I used to love him to death when I was chasing him. After he got better, I couldn't bear his indifferent appearance within two months, and we broke up again. He deserves it."

"……I see."

"But even if I cuckolded him, it didn't mean much. He didn't care, so I didn't have the pleasure of revenge. So I regretted it after thinking about it. After all, he is capable in every aspect. With him, the future life It will be less stressful, and it will save face when you take it out.”

The senior closed the file and handed it to me: "It's a big deal, let's play our own way. But I asked him to get back together later, and he didn't agree."

"Is that so..."

I took it and thanked him.

After waiting for a while, I felt that the two of us had nothing else to explain, so we were ready to leave.

Unexpectedly, he said again: "It seems that he has made a new boyfriend now, and he is quite serious."

?

"Ah..." My footsteps stopped, "Is that so..."

"I just heard from his friend that they are living together and have met their parents. He seems to like this quite a bit, and he doesn't raise fish anymore."

"Eh……"

"It's a trick to make a person like him stable."

The senior smiled sarcastically: "I want to see how long they can last this time."

"Ow..."

I listened in embarrassment, felt guilty for a while, and pretended to respond to him as if nothing had happened.

I really want to tell him in my heart that we have already broken up.

Of course, I didn't say it in the end.It is estimated that if the senior knows that this "new little boyfriend" is me, I am afraid that his jaw will drop in surprise.I don't know what I was afraid of, anyway, I was very flustered, and I said a few words to him casually, and then hurriedly said goodbye.

On the way back, though, I had mixed feelings.

It would be a lie to say that I am unhappy, I already want to jump into the sky as I walk!

From this point of view, Lu Bei's treatment of me is indeed different from those of his coquettish and cheap predecessors in the past.

Hearing these things from other people's mouths seems to be different from what I have experienced.I heard a little jealousy, a little envy, a little hopeless disappointment.

It turned out that what I once saw other people had was now mine.

Lu Bei gave it to me.

I earned it myself.

When I'm in a relationship, it's inevitable that I can't see where I am.I always feel that I haven't got it, I haven't been loved, I still have to work hard, I'm still far behind, and I still worry about gains and losses.But I don't want to, it is already an insurmountable mountain in other people's hearts.

Now I can finally be sure that I am a very special person to Lu Bei.

A special person like Shen Jing.

The surge of emotions in my heart made me choke up for a while, and I felt like I was about to cry while walking, alas!I finally did it!

Stand out among Lu Bei's dog licking spare tires, and achieved the achievement of "Shoulder to White Moonlight".

Lick to the end!I!Everything!

Of course, not enough, not far enough.I clenched my fist, and I was about to step on Shen Jing's shoulders to climb up, and plant a small flag representing victory at an altitude that no one has reached in Lu Bei's heart!

This is the ultimate goal of dog licking!From licking people to being licked!

For the rest of the day, I was blissfully content.In the middle of the night, I was so excited that I couldn't fall asleep, I tossed and turned happily on the bed.

I suddenly remembered the fortune-teller whom I hadn't contacted for a long time, and felt itchy for a moment, so I went to poke him, saying that I wanted to test my ex's opinion of me.

He just happened to be online, and with a good memory, he asked me cheerfully: "Is it already an ex!"

I happily replied: "It's already my ex!"

"Not bad! It's so fast!"

The fortune-teller's tone sounded very excited, "Then comeon! I'm a regular customer, this time I'll give you a test for free! Meditate, brother!"

So I lay flat on the bed, covered with a thin quilt, closed my eyes, and asked this question to the universe wholeheartedly.

Lu Bei, how do you feel about me now?

How much can I occupy in his heart?

"Come on, let me see the cards you drew." After a while, he said.

"it is good……"

I was so nervous that I pitifully clutched the quilt and waited for the result like I was waiting for the results of the college entrance examination.

After a while, I finally heard him laughing obscenely and strangely: "Hey... guess what?"

"What?"

My heart was in my throat.

"Appeared……"

He said: "Little lover card."