Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Tuesday March [-]th is sunny

ah!today!It was originally three months since I dated Lu Bei!

But we - points!hand!La!

In the past few days, the two of us have tacitly not looked for each other. Lu Bei is still at the top of my WeChat chat, but our chat history will always stay on the day of his birthday.

I wear a couple ring I bought on my index finger. It's a little tight, but it can still be tucked in.The most I did in the past two days was holding my phone in a daze. Before we deleted each other, I opened and closed his circle of friends over and over again, trying to get his latest news.

But nothing.

Lu Bei seems to have evaporated in the world recently. He hasn't posted a single microblog in Moments, and has completely disappeared.

I was secretly worried that he was too sad, so I kept silent in a rare way.

However, I searched through it and found that almost all experience posts would say, if you get dumped, don’t pester the other party. It is recommended to stop updating all the news and make the other party curious, so the chances of reunion will be greater!

So I quietly guessed hopefully in my heart, whether he did this just to get my attention.

But no matter how much I scratched my heart, Lu Bei never made a sound.

I even wondered if he had specially set up to block me, so I took a look at Baboon Wang’s phone for an excuse, only to find that it wasn’t aimed at me, and his circle of friends hadn’t been updated.

As for people, once they become dependent on personnel, it will be difficult to change in a short time.During this period, I had the idea countless times to talk to Lu Bei and share my daily life, even if it was meaningless, even if it was pretending to be serious, as long as I could see his reply and ease my restless mood.

After all, although it was true that I broke up with him that day, I didn't say that I would never contact him again!

But I can't figure out his attitude, I'm afraid he hates my capriciousness and mocks my thick skin. After all, this is the first time I've dumped someone, and I don't know what to do to be normal.

So every day when I woke up and closed my eyes until I went to sleep, I felt anxious, painful and tormented like ten thousand insects devouring my heart, but in the end I still couldn't speak.

I just know I miss him so much.I really miss Lu Bei.

When I went back to the dormitory and saw my pile of trivial luggage, I would think of him helping me carry the big and small bags that day, and even fighting for me.Seeing the mattress reminds me of the nights we shared the same bed.Lu Bei's body is warm, hard where it should be, and soft where it should be soft. He is a beautiful and comfortable companion to sleep with.As long as I can smell his scent and fall asleep, I will return to my mother's arms safely like a baby.

But now there is nothing left, cold bed, cold eyes, cold heart.

I'm out of date.

My roommate was also surprised and asked me why I moved back suddenly. Li Houer claimed that they originally wanted to use my place to store sundries and luggage.

I thought about it for a long time, but I still didn't say it. I just smiled and said that there are many classes this semester, and I think it's more convenient to live back.

At the beginning, I came out of the closet with difficulty, and now I have to go back into the closet with difficulty.

But no emotion is as strong as my obsession with Lu Bei now.Lu Beiming shook his head like an attractive fat meat in front of a hungry person. Several times he almost couldn't help it and sent him a message.

So I set a deadline for myself, NO.12, on Friday, I want to contact him and pick up Ani.

Then before that, I must not find him!

I vaguely feel that maybe Lu Bei is not having a good time now.If I really have a place in his heart, then with his character, it must be impossible to eat, drink and have fun so readily.

Maybe he will think of me like Shen Jing in the dead of night.

He may review our previous interactions over and over again, he may think about the problems between us, he may be distressed, confused, and introspective.

Maybe he will miss me as much as I miss him.

So now, it's actually a quiet contest between the two of us.

Whoever takes the initiative first, whoever can't help it first, and whoever speaks first will lose.

I persuaded myself like this in my heart, as if I had taken a pill tonic, and slowly my mood eased.

Originally, I was quite happy after we separated on the first day, because I deliberately confronted him, and my heart was a little bit excited.

As a result, on the second day, I hid in bed and secretly wiped my tears at night.

The third day, that is, yesterday.Suddenly, I frantically searched all his news as if obsessed, and even searched for a long time on our school’s confession wall, and then checked the confession man’s Weibo, but found nothing.

Today, I figured it out, let go, realized it, and my mind is like still water.

I have taken the initiative so many times, I have walked a hundred steps for a distance of one hundred steps, and I have done enough.

Lu Bei, shouldn't you condescend and move your precious big jio?