Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Wednesday, February 24th is sunny

Today I still get up early in the morning.Obviously the future is at a loss, but the mood is unexpectedly refreshed.

I've figured out what I'm going to do.

Can't go on like this.

Because of family reasons, I am naturally sensitive to interpersonal relationships, and I started working part-time a long time ago. I have seen all kinds of people and things, and I have some knowledge of the world.It's just that I have always been simple-minded, and I always don't want to let myself manipulate other people's feelings, let alone hurt people's hearts.But it is not impossible to be black and black, to be scheming and ruthless.

I've always been reluctant to treat Lu Bei like that, I'm too reluctant.No matter how smart a person is, they will be vulnerable when they meet the one they love.So I never held a weapon in the fight with him, and let his gunfire fall on me again and again.

But after a long period of self-harm, I finally realized that maybe Lu Bei is not worthy.

He has no heart.

In other words, his heart didn't grow on me.

Or maybe I don't love him anymore.

Lu Bei woke up almost at the same time as me. He pushed open the door and saw that I was awake too. He missed his eyes in embarrassment, said "Morning" hastily, and then went into the bathroom to wash up.

I easily replied: "Morning."

Then pour oil on the pan and prepare to spread eggs for him.

After Lu Bei washed up, he didn't seem to sleep well last night, his hair was uneven and his eyes were bloodshot, he said: "I asked my friends yesterday, and they said that our school's tuition and dormitory fees are for seniors You don’t need to pay it on time every semester, so there is no rush. The same is true for loans, and you can graduate smoothly if you pay it off before graduation.”

"it is good."

"Don't be under too much psychological pressure at home these two days, what to do, don't think about it, and get ready for school. If you have the opportunity, you can also call home and be submissive. After all, your parents won't be willing to let go you."

"Ah."

Seeing that I didn't care, he said, "Of course, if you don't want to, you don't have to fight."

"Ah."

He smiled at me: "It's okay, I'm tall enough to support the sky falling, I won't starve you to death."

I shoveled the fried egg into the plate, squeezed a heart pattern with ketchup, brought it to the table for him, and smiled: "Come and eat."

Lu Bei probably felt that he had coaxed me well, and looked relaxed. He sat down at the table, dismembered the red heart with a fork, and swallowed it down.

"Are you going home tonight?" I asked.

He paused: "Sure."

While talking, she complained like a baby: "You are not here, the family is not popular at all, and I don't want to come back after work, and sometimes I start to miss you when I sit."

I didn't answer: "Okay, then tell me what you want to eat at night, and I will learn how to make it for you."

Lu Bei finally showed a relieved smile: "Okay."

During the day, I advertise on all the platforms I can think of, such as Tieba Xianyu. No matter how the relationship develops afterwards, survival is obviously a more important issue.

Besides, I still have to take care of Aini's eating and drinking, and since she hasn't done anything to hurt me, I'm naturally responsible to her.

Now I have no interest in buying a notebook and starting over again, but the long-term diary habit can't be changed for a while, so I find some unused waste paper at home, and I feel flustered when I write every stroke.

When Lu Bei came home in the evening, I served him two dishes and one soup.

He also joked: "Didn't you always think that two dishes are too small? Why did you cook two today?"

I said: "I used to be extravagant and wasteful, and I always have to eat our leftovers the next day. Now I have to live on a budget."

Lu Bei was very appreciative: "That's right, you've grown up. But you can't be lazy, you have to persevere."

"Let's do it," he said, "If you can cook at home every day before school starts, and you don't order takeaway and don't cook too much, I will reward you with 100 yuan when you start school!"

It amused me: "Isn't this just like parents tricking children into doing homework?"

Lu Bei denied: "I'm not lying, the red-hot Grandpa Mao is here, and he will do what he says."

"Good good."

I put a lot of effort into cooking this time, following the steps of the recipe step by step, not daring to slack off at all, so I unexpectedly discovered that my cooking skills are not that bad, and both dishes have the same appearance.

Reflecting on it this way, it turned out that I was always sloppy when I was doing it, and the finished product was always a disaster.I always feel that Lu Bei's culinary skills are superb, so it's only natural that I don't need to bother to learn.There was also a sense of being weak and childish in front of him, in an attempt to win more love from him.

ah!Love and men are indeed obstacles to a man's progress!

Lu Bei was also very surprised by my cooking skills, and he was full of praise: "Not bad, Xiao Tianer, today's cooking is really good."

I said: "That's not true, I have spent a lot of effort just to let you have a good meal."

I buried my head in the rice and asked him, "How is today? Is it still hard work in the company?"

He said: "It's like that every day, too busy."

"What about lunch? Did you have a good meal?"

"It depends on the situation. Sometimes I'm too busy and don't have time to eat. Or I can just stuff the bread and steamed stuffed buns and it'll pass."

"Then starting tomorrow, I'll make your lunch ahead of time." I said, "Last time I saw that there are lunch boxes at home, so don't be sorry...does your company have a microwave?"

"Yes, but you don't have to do it specially, it's too much trouble. We have a small shop downstairs, it's very..."

"I want to." I said firmly.

"……Row."

He didn't insist anymore.

"Oh, that's right," Lu Bei said suddenly, "You said earlier that my colleague deleted your news. I clicked on him today. Although he didn't admit it, his eyes were still flustered."

He felt ashamed in his heart, and his tone was flattering: "You're right, it should be him who did the trick. It's our little Tian'er who has a bright mind, and he guessed right."

Seeing his positive attitude, I was not aggressive, and said softly: "Right, I just said, he looks bad, so don't play with him in the future."

Lu Bei was obediently reprimanded: "Yes, yes, I was wrong. I wronged you, and even murdered you. It is all my fault. From now on, these things will be up to you."

He looked at me with firm eyes, and promised: "In the future, such a thing will never happen again, I promise you."

In my increasingly vague memory, it seems that this is the first time that Lu Bei has spoken to me like an oath.

I met his eyes and looked at him for a long time before I said, "Of course. I believe in you, I believe in you in everything."