Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Tuesday February 23 cloudy

My dad is determined to make me look good this time.

Yesterday, the receiver was filled with his yelling insults and my mother screaming and cursing, and he ordered me to go back immediately, immediately, overnight.

He threatened to go back and deal with me again.

But no matter whether he is a threat or a lure, it is impossible for me to go back.

I said, "Don't think about it, since I came out, I don't think about going back."

The voice in the microphone was so loud that almost everyone in the noodle shop could hear it, and several of them looked sideways at me.I took the small bag, went outside and continued, "Whatever you like."

My dad said angrily: "I said I would call your teacher to suspend your studies, but your mother insisted on not letting me. You really have the guts of a leopard! How dare you run away!"

I was surprisingly calm: "Put it down, I'm already an adult, and I'm not a kid in your hands. How can it be so easy for you to suspend school? Do what you like, and see if you can do it. "

In fact, I'm not sure about this matter, and I don't understand the process of suspending school, it's just a bluff.

Sure enough, these words frightened my dad, and he said: "Wait, I won't pay a fucking penny of tuition and accommodation fees, 5000 yuan, I don't believe you can take it out, you see Give the school money and they will let you go to class!"

I said lightly: "Don't worry about this, our school can apply for student loans, which are repaid only after graduation, and there are also exemptions and subsidies."

It may be that I ran into Lu Bei and the confession man's friendship with unknown meanings, which greatly distracted my attention and made me unable to feel my father's hysterical fear. I was surprisingly calm during the whole conversation.

In the end, my dad said that even if he asked for leave and didn't go to work, he would arrest me.

I said, if you do this, I will tell all my relatives and friends that I like men.

Sure enough, one move to defeat the enemy.

It is not very harmful and extremely insulting.

He laughed back angrily: "Okay, okay, very good, you can do whatever you want, you bastard, I'll pretend I never gave birth to your son!"

After hanging up the phone, I seemed to be able to see one storm after another roaring in front of me, especially when I held an umbrella with my bare hands.I stood at the door of the noodle shop for a long time without thinking about anything. After a long while, I walked slowly towards my and Lu Bei's house.

I'm sure that when I open the door, I won't see any sexy scenes.For some reason, I always tend to trust his unwarranted loyalty.

In fact, this is indeed the case. I adjusted my mentality and prepared to pretend to be surprised after entering the door. Then I greeted the confession man and raised the airs of the main room.

Unexpectedly, when the door was pushed open, the room was empty.

...The two of them should have come back and gone out again.

I was like a balloon that had been punctured, and I was full of momentum and vented to the ground.

Aini was alone at home, watching me from afar with vigilant ears.

To her, I, who disappeared for a month, was a strange and threatening giant.She bent down, widened her big yellow eyes, and looked carefully.

I yelled, "Ani!"

She seemed a little confused, a little skeptical, and still lay on the spot, not daring to move.

I had no choice but to go into the room, undress and wash my hands, call her name step by step, and approach her slowly.

Although she could see that she was terrified, she didn't hide, she just looked at me where she was.I knelt down and tentatively reached out to her.

Aini leaned forward and sniffed.After smelling it for a long time, the password was finally unlocked, and finally the father and daughter recognized each other.She excitedly circled around my feet, rubbed her head against my legs, and kept meowing.While smoothing her hair, I kept comforting her: "It's Dad's fault. Dad has been out hunting for too long, and he will come back sooner next time!"

Our intimacy didn't last long, and I found that her food bowl was empty, so I added more food to her, and I asked her, "Is it the other dad who hasn't given you a good meal recently?"

Aini gobbled it up and didn't bother to return to me.

So this is probably one person who attains the Tao, chickens and dogs ascend to heaven, one person is frustrated, and cats and cats have nothing to eat.When I was getting close to Lu Bei, Lu Bei's licking cat, Comrade Aini, didn't get my favor. Instead, we became cold, and she was the first to suffer.

I casually packed my things, took a shower, and started to deal with the backlog of affairs that I had not had a mobile phone a while ago, such as facing the anger of my junior high school classmates-he was very angry that I left without saying hello.

But I still need this job now, so I apologized to him in a low voice: "Brother, I'm sorry, my mobile phone was stolen suddenly a few days ago, and I didn't have time to tell you. I recently bought a new phone, and I can go to work immediately. "

But he said, "Forget it, I've already found someone else."

I didn't know what to do, so I talked to him for a long time, and finally got his permission to work from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-] in the evening, at [-] yuan per hour.He also assigned me a task: to call the customers with bad reviews to change them to positive ones, and I added three yuan to each successful one, and I agreed.

I searched for other things on the Internet for a long time, and it seems that the tutors earn the most money. I made up my mind that no matter how painful and difficult it is this time, I will endure it and work hard.

After finishing all this work, I turned on the TV, hugged Aini, and waited for Lu Bei to come home, ready to have a good talk with him.

Maybe for the last time.

Unfortunately, he never returned.

Early this morning, I lay on the sofa and fell into a drowsy sleep when I was woken up by the rustling of keys opening the door.

The sudden noise made me bounce off the sofa in fright, my eyes were sleepy and my hair was disheveled, and Lu Bei was startled too.

He froze for a moment and frowned slightly: "Why are you back?"

He asked again, "Why didn't you tell me?"

I asked him back, "Why did you come back?"

He said: "Yesterday I went out to socialize with my colleagues, slept in the office, and came back to take a shower in the morning."

When I wanted to say something, his tone was cold, and he said, "I'm going back to the company soon. I'm in a hurry. Let's talk about it when I come back tonight."

My mouth was dry, and I looked at him for a few seconds, but finally just nodded.

During the waiting time during the day, I calmed down and kept simulating various plans in my mind.I finally took control of myself for the first time and planned a premeditated escape.

If the situation is better, our relationship may have a qualitative leap, if the situation is almost...

Maybe, maybe we just... I don't want to think about it.This day came much sooner than I expected.

It seems that the book that records my full memories of Lu Bei is the carrier of our feelings. My last hope for him was shattered as the paper flew all over the sky.I was so tired, exhausted physically and mentally, it seemed like everything around me was going against my wishes, and I couldn't take it anymore.

I'm going to take a break.

Lu Bei seemed to come home on time in the afternoon. He seemed to be in a good mood. He bought a bunch of vegetables and said that he would cook in the evening.

I agreed and said, "Then let me help you."

We cooperated as we did a long time ago. I was washing rice and washing vegetables, while Lu Bei cured the meat and chopped vegetables.I turned my face to look at him quietly, and Lu Bei was still as handsome and sexy as when I left, with strong muscles and smooth curves, like a good lover who can give people a sense of security.

He suddenly asked me: "What's wrong with the face, is there a black spot?"

I touched it after knowing it, and found that it was a bruise from a previous beating, but it had basically dissipated, leaving a shallow shadow.

I shook my head: "It's okay, I can be beaten."

Of course I didn't want to hide this, I just wanted to make him feel guilty.

Sure enough, he frowned: "What's going on, what happened?"

Instead of answering, I asked, "Who were you with on New Year's Eve?"

Lu Bei laughed angrily: "You still dare to mention that day? On New Year's Eve, it wasn't you who insisted on counting down the vigil with me. I'll wait for you until two o'clock. Where did you go?"

I insisted: "Day? Afternoon? Who are you with?"

It was rare for him to see me so blunt, and he was taken aback: "Colleagues in the company, we got together when we didn't go home. We had a meal during the day and went to sing and play games in the afternoon."

"Is there someone chasing you?"

Lu Bei asked, "What do you mean?"

"Is your phone with him?"

He thought for a while: "When we were playing games in the private room, it was true that everyone put away their mobile phones, but he couldn't open them either... What are you trying to say?" He paused: "Why didn't you answer my question? ?”

"He may have recited your password. It's not surprising." I said lightly: "My parents found out about the two of us that day, beat me up, and smashed my mobile phone. I called you all afternoon I sent a message, but you didn't reply."

……

"Ah?" Lu Bei's hands stopped, his face full of surprise: "What's going on? How did you find out?"

He explained again: "I really don't know about this, I haven't received any news from you!"

I said, "It should have been deleted by the man chasing you, so he didn't run away."

Lu Bei propped his hands on the chopping board, thought for a moment, and said, "I can't come to this conclusion yet. I didn't find him acting alone or approaching my mobile phone that day. It's not good to stamp him so early. What if it is misunderstood him..."

"Then who else would delete your date's messages when they have nothing to do?" I interrupted him.

Brother, why are you here again?I beg you to have a little desire to survive. I don’t have the patience to listen to your logic at this time.

Lu Bei found that I was on fire, so his tone slowed down: "I'll settle the score with him later. What's going on with your family, are you okay?"

He gently stroked my bruise: "Does it hurt? Huh?"

I was unmoved: "My mother peeked at the diary I wrote, so I had a showdown with them. They tore up my notebook, smashed my mobile phone, and locked me in the bedroom to prevent me from contacting anyone..."

Lu Beidao: "Then why did you come back suddenly? They have figured it out now? Or..."

He suddenly thought of something, he was taken aback, and said in disbelief, "You didn't sneak out by yourself, did you?"

"Correct."

"..."

Lu Bei's expression slowly became serious.

"Then what are you going to do in the future? Have you thought about it? If you fall out with your family, what will you live on?"

I actually didn't want to answer his cross-examination, I had considered these questions countless times, so I said: "I work hard, earn a good money, and I can apply for student loans or borrow money online, so I won't be cornered. "

"This..." He was speechless, and it was obvious that he really wanted to educate me.

He gritted his teeth: "You shouldn't..." He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down: "It shouldn't be like this. It's too impulsive. Coming out is not easy at all. It's a protracted battle. The people around me People who come out of the closet come slowly. If you are exposed, the first thing you consider is to reduce the conflict. How can you be so..."

"So what do you think I should do?" I asked.

"Pretend that you are obedient, compromise, admit your mistakes, and nothing happens. Wait until you have the ability to show your cards, and then talk softly and hard with your parents." He said, "In fact, even if this is the case, there are not many people who obey their parents' arrangement to marry and have children. A small number, this is normal..."

Lu Bei said: "You are too young and too impulsive. I know, you may feel that my three views are not correct when you listen to me. But this is the reality, this is the society we live in, not everything It's all as simple as we think." He said earnestly: "You can't be so childish, especially if you have taken this path."

"But didn't you make it clear to your family?"

Why did you choose to come out?

Just because the other party is Shen Jing?

Lu Bei smiled wryly: "At that time, I was too young to understand anything, and I paid a very high price... Sometimes when I think about it, I would rather not have told them."

He said: "It's been a while since now, maybe four years. They have been learning to accept it slowly, but it's still very difficult..." He frowned, "I remember that Shen Jing's parents were very enlightened, didn't they fight back then I paused and broke a stool leg."

Well, I don't want to hear him reminisce about the past.I said, "Then I'm locked at home like this? I can't contact you, and I can't explain it to you?"

For me, the choice now is the only choice I have.

I thought it was quite funny: "You know? The most worrying thing in those days was that you couldn't find me, or you were too powerless and sad to know about it. I'm not worried about my own situation at all, I'm just afraid that you will celebrate the New Year Worried. But what about the result? Lu Bei, I finally got my phone and saw the first message, which is that you said we can break up."

"This... is indeed my fault."

But I didn't want to spare him: "You didn't trust me, you didn't try to find me, and you didn't worry if something happened to me. You are like an octopus, hiding in a sojourning shell, and your tentacles can only touch the clues of the other party's indifference." , I can’t wait to walk away.”

I said: "Then what is my charge, what is my feeling for you?"

Lu Bei simply stopped cooking. He put down all the things in his hands and motioned me to go to the living room to talk: "Calm down, Xiao Tianer, I'm not blaming you. I just think that I'm older than you, and I'm older than you. He is your first man, so I don't want you to taste the detours I have taken and the hardships I have suffered."

I said: "But I actually have no other choice. In order not to let me see you, my parents want me to take a year off from school and lock me up. Then what can I do? Do you think I still have to give in?"

Lu Bei pondered for a moment, and then slowly said: "But you don't have any specific plans. It's not realistic to rely on you to work and support yourself. I have some savings, which can be used for you, and I can use it to pay for your tuition and living expenses... There is also rent. But you are only a sophomore, Xiao Tianer, the income from my internship cannot be enough for the two of us to live."

Aini leaned over and yelled "meow" to show that she still had her share.

"...I won't ask for your money."

I knew I couldn't handle it, but I still insisted and said, "I will find a way to support myself, don't worry about that."

Lu Bei could probably see through my stubbornness: "You, it's already like this, let me leave you alone?"

"I don't want to be your burden."

"Then you shouldn't just run out without saying anything. If you can get the phone, you should contact me first, and we can discuss it later."

"You're breaking up with me."

I remind him.

"Then you can tell me the whole story! Isn't this something that can be explained clearly in two sentences?"

Seeing me come back again, Lu Bei gradually became impatient.

I looked at him across the table, and gradually felt that he was far from the Lu Bei I thought he was.I used my fantasy to coat him with a layer of holy light, constantly crowned his words and deeds, and regarded him as a treasure.But the Lu Bei captured by that layer of light is so real, so ordinary, so... makes me sick.

"I'm tired," I finally said.

"Don't worry, I won't trouble you."

I got up and repeated over and over again.

"I never thought you were a burden..."

He stood up, trying to catch up with me to explain.

I interrupted him: "Actually, I went home yesterday. Before I could say hello to you, I saw you going out with the man who was chasing you."

"That's why all of us are in the company because..."

"I'm going to sleep."

I turned my back and didn't want to look at him, but I could still feel his focused and burning eyes behind me.

In the end, Lu Bei suppressed all words: "Then you go to bed first. Good night, little Tianer."