Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Wednesday, February [-]th is cloudy

No one in one day, like three autumns.

I haven't seen a living person of Lu Bei for 39 years.

Woohoo, I miss him so much!

And this guy who killed thousands of dollars always told me that people from their company took him to dinners, bars, clubs, and team building. In the past three or four days, he has gone out to socialize twice, and he always comes back very late.Seeing that he is so busy, I am too embarrassed to mention the phone call to him at night, so I just chat with him casually, who knows that I have no time to reply to me after sending him a message, the topics are scattered and intermittent, and there is no chat at all. Can't get up.

He explained it to me, saying that he was busy, and sometimes he would take pictures of their banquets and dinners for me to prove that he did not lie to me.

Of course I also believed in him, but I was very lonely.

Even the consolation of chatting with him at night is gone, and the life becomes more difficult.

I started looking through his various posts again, such as updates on WeChat Moments and Weibo, likes on every one of his reposts, and even the posts of his colleague who confessed to him... to get a glimpse of the clues of his life.

No way, what he didn't tell me, I have to find it myself, so as not to completely derail his life.

Later, I became a little irritable, why can't Lu Bei be like me, whose life completely revolves around his partner.

If you have time to post on Weibo Moments, can't you send me two more messages?

I thought that his life would be miserable and deserted after leaving me, and I feel very distressed because of it, but now I find that he is actually lively and happy all day long, and he has a hot fight with colleagues who covet him.

Not so lonely.

I don't need it either.

I became more and more bored.

Ah, ah, I also know that this is wrong, I am the one who is on the edge of a dead end, how could I have such selfish thoughts.

Heart demons, heart demons... I thought that after having Lu Bei, I would feel at ease, and then my life would change from then on, and I would go forward bravely and positively for him... But I didn't expect that now even the most basic life is difficult.

Although rationality is desperately suppressing myself not to be stupid, I can't help but think in my heart that it would be great if I could imprison Lu Bei in some dark and damp basement that no one knows, so as to suppress his radiance and stifle Zhao Feng. Butterfly flower fragrance, let him bloom alone decadently, let me appreciate alone and silently.

But as cowardly as I am, I can only think about it.

The end of the new year is approaching, and my parents are still working at work, so the task of buying new year's goods naturally falls on me.On the one hand, I have to hang up a part-time job online, and on the other hand, I have to carry bags of duck and stewed vegetables to the house, and boxes of drinks and fruit milk to the house.

I really appreciate the government's call for not traveling far and not leaving relatives, otherwise my workload would be several times what it is now.

This year I can't go back to my grandma's house to visit relatives, but my grandma's house is still in the same city, so I have to buy something to send there.The two old people are old, and my mother is reluctant to let them spend money to go shopping by themselves, so I let me run errands.

In fact, buying new year's goods is not entirely a chore. For example, when I pay the bill, I can sneak a little bit.I'm an honest person, and I don't ask for too much. I know they don't have too much.Just round it up and get some change.

For Chinese New Year, the only meaning is to earn more sparkling money. This is the only place I can think of to comfort me. In a few days, I will be able to enjoy the joy of receiving red envelopes!

Then pay off the loan, pay the rent...

I told Lu Bei two days ago that I will pay him the rent for these three months immediately, but it may be later.

Lu Bei also loves people, so he told me that I don't live in February, so there is no need to pay rent for February, just pay for two months.

But precisely because he said that, I couldn't let him spend more money!

I did the math, and I have [-] in my hands as part-time job plus the price. If I add another [-], I will have the rent!

Recently, I'm so far away from Lu Bei, and I can't talk much, so there's really nothing to write in the diary.I stayed at home with nothing to do, and began to look forward to the New Year's Eve. On the eve of the New Year's Eve, I could get money and watch the Spring Festival Gala at the same time as Lu Bei!After that, after a few days, it will be the Lantern Festival, and then school will start soon, so I can go back to find Lu Bei!Life finally has something to look forward to!

But today, who is still boring and lacking in interest, I never imagined that in the next few days, what kind of tragic things will happen that will never be forgotten.