Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Snow on Wednesday, February [-]

In the past two days, I have been in my room every night, talking on the phone with Lu Bei. This happy time can be said to be my only spiritual nourishment.No matter what disputes I had with my parents during the day, no matter how difficult the customer was when I was working part-time, as long as I can talk to him at night, I feel that I am completely fine.

Of course, I also know that Lu Bei said before that he doesn't like to hear me complain about these shitty things, so I am very conscious and only choose good ones to share with him, or talk less, and mainly listen to his work experience and joys. Anger, sorrow and joy, but also feel extremely happy.

At this time, you can see the difficulty of a long-distance relationship. It is really a test of the relationship and trust between the two. With such an object, I don't trust him, nor do I trust myself.

Besides, a few days ago, I was still inseparable from him day and night, but now I can only chat with him for a while at night, and I'm afraid of tiring him.Such a gap made me even more uncomfortable.

Damn, I don't even know how I will live if I break up with him later.

Sometimes we video at night, sometimes not.As far as I am concerned, of course I want to see more of that face that I miss all the time, but I feel that my big face in the camera is a bit uglier than usual, so I feel ashamed, so I always refuse his invitation.

Lu Bei is such a lovely person, it is just right to give him the title of "gay circle heavenly dish".The voice is deep and pleasant, and every time it comes from the earpiece through the network cable, it hits my heart like an electric current, and I feel extremely seductive and sexy.Even if I couldn't see his face, I could still picture him at home in his cute flannel pajamas, his hair still dripping from the shower, dripping water one by one, stains on his chest. The water vapor, the light in the room was dim, he leaned lazily on the head of the bed, smiling and talking softly to me.

Aini, on the other hand, nestled obediently beside him and slept soundly, smooth and smooth, fat and strong, and the years were peaceful.

At this moment, Lu Bei's expression must be very good-looking, with beautiful peach blossom eyes drooping, and a gentle smile on his face.

Holding the phone in one hand, holding the...

Cough cough cough.

It's not that I'm an old pervert for pornography!That's what he did in the first two days when he was shameless!

I also said at the time that something was wrong while chatting, and I heard him panting strangely and quickly over there.

At first I didn't realize it, thinking that he had some stubborn disease and suddenly fell ill, and I was very worried, but later I found out that he was doing a lot of work there.

But I can't fix it anymore, I'm ashamed and annoyed...

Eager to try again!

Since my house is an old house with mediocre sound insulation, I dare not turn on the speakerphone when talking to him, especially when calling him to do his favorite thing. I can only hide under the quilt, rubbing my hands excitedly and nervously.

Who knew that Lu Bei would be happier after learning about it, he likes to play exciting things, so he made a special trip to make a phone call to excite me.

Harmful, thick-skinned pig's trotters.

The old man is crazy.

It's fine for a day or two, and my mother is not a fool for calling like this every day, she thinks there is something wrong with me.

While eating tonight, she tried me out in a roundabout way: "You haven't come out to watch TV with your dad every night for the past two days, why are you hiding in the house?"

"Ah... nothing to do."

"I heard you always call?"

"...Well, chat with your classmates and talk about school studies."

I'm deadpan.

"You still want to lie to me, you are talking about someone."

My mother showed a look of seeing everything, and she was very interested. She picked up a few stir-fried and blackened vegetables on the plate with her chopsticks, and sent them to her mouth along with the steamed buns.

Seeing that I couldn't escape anyway, I simply accepted it and said vaguely, "Oh...it seems, right?"

Now she seemed to have a chicken blood: "Is your...object in the same class as you?"

"...No, two years older than me."

"Hey, it's ok, I'm still a senior."

"..."

That's how the conversation started.

My mother started asking me like a machine gun: "Where is this girl's family?"

I thought about it, and said: "...It used to be from our side, but then it seems that the family moved to Chongyun."

"Oh, that's still a fellow! It's good, we communicated kindly with their parents, so she will go back to Chongyun this year for the New Year?"

"No, he's an intern now, and he's working in a foreign company over there from our school. He didn't have a few days off this time, so he stayed there and didn't go home."

My mother curled her lips: "Hey, this girl is very motivated! She is quite enterprising. It's really not easy for a girl to be alone in Chinese New Year. What did she learn?"

"Like me, applied chemistry."

"Oh, that's amazing. This girl is very good. Your school already has high scores in this major, so few girls study it."

"It's less."

"Then he must have studied well."

"...It's not bad, I have won several national awards."

When I answered, I was still a little inexplicably proud, for Lu Bei and myself.

To some extent, his achievements are also my achievements. He is hung on the top of my merit wall and has become one of the few capitals I can show off.

My mother still didn’t forget to teach me when she said: “When you two are together, you should learn more from others, see why they are so good, learn from others’ learning methods, or you will still be a boy if you stay together for a long time. I have always been inferior to others, so I can't look down on you."

"……Oh."

Thank you for reminding me, this is my sore spot.

My mother seemed quite satisfied with Lu Bei's situation. She thought about it for a while, and added: "Actually, whether you are good at studying or not, is second to none. The main thing is that this person has a good character."

"..."

Then I'm really sorry, Lu Bei has everything, but no quality.

I thought this topic was basically over, but after eating a few mouthfuls of food, my mother asked again: "Then, how many children are there in their family?"

"...just him."

I haven't heard Lu Bei mention brothers and sisters, probably not.

"Oh, the only child is pretty good," my mother breathed a sigh of relief, "One baby, there are few disputes in the family."

"……Maybe."

My mother looked at my face, and then pretended to ask casually: "Then, how about the conditions of their family?"

I frowned: "I don't know, I haven't asked about this, and it's not a household registration check."

My mother concealed her embarrassment, buried her head and took a sip of porridge loudly: "Just look at her usual food and clothing, how do you feel?"

"...how does this feel?"

"It depends on whether the girl has a plan for spending money, whether she likes to buy clothes or not?"

Lu Bei has quite a lot of flowers. His shoes alone fill our shoe cabinets.I usually buy clothes and order takeaway, and I never pick and choose, and I don’t spend too much on what should be spent.Instead, it was me who struggled on the verge of food and clothing all day long.

So I said: "It should be okay. I don't know."

My mother said: "I'm going to ask. If you want to get along well with people, you have to understand these things clearly."

My dad chimed in: "That's right, we're going to be in a long-term relationship when we're together. If that's the case, it's better to know everything."

I was speechless: "With our family's conditions, what can they do?"

My mother disagreed very much, lest I be cheated.

She held the steamed bun in her mouth and said: "People are older and have more eyes, don't be stupid, just listen to what they say. After all, you are all students now, and you don't make money. What you spend is the hard work of your parents." Money, who to spend, how to spend, how much to spend, you have to weigh it clearly in your heart."

Money, money, my mother is afraid that I will spend money as soon as she hears someone.But if you don't spend money chasing him, where did the object come from, especially if someone as good as Lu Bei fell from the sky?

I frowned: "I know. He hasn't spent much of my money, and he recharged a lot of my meal card a while ago."

Who knows, now my mother is not happy anymore, and continued to preach: "That's not okay! You are a boy, how can you let a girl pay for you? If this gets to the ears of your classmates, you will say that you are soft It's dinner." Her tone slowed down: "Mom means, you two can spend your own money, and it's enough to buy some small gifts or flowers for the girl once in a while, just don't spend money lavishly. "

"……it is good."

Before I could catch my breath, she spoke again: "Also, this, mom is not easy to say, but I still want to remind you, although you young and young people have a good relationship, you also need to know what to do and what not to do." You should do it properly. You are a boy, you have to be responsible, and you must not mess around."

My dad interjected: "Protective measures must be taken well."

"……Um."

How dare a gay not take measures when buying Coke, although it is not possible to make a big belly, but if you are not careful, you can lose your life!

Talking to them about it makes me feel like I'm on pins and needles.

I finished stuffing the buns in two or three mouthfuls, picked up the bowl and drank the porridge in one go, and quickly said, "I'm full."

Turned his head and got into the house.

Hearing them ask such a series of life-threatening questions, I feel awkward about what I think.And this conversation also made me clearly realize that sooner or later I have to tell my parents about Lu Bei and I, and they will know about it sooner or later.

I have never considered these things before, after all, there are only me and Lu Bei in my future plans, and I have never thought about what will happen to both parents, especially my parents.

Anyway, I originally planned to live in a different city with them after work, far away, and send money regularly every month so that I don’t need to contact them again, and then I only need to meet a few times during the holidays.

I can't even imagine what my parents will be like after they see me coming out of the closet. It's not surprising that they are so painful that they want to live and die.

It made it worse for me who didn't dare to come out of the closet, and vowed to go deep into the closet to the end.

How can I have bad intentions, I just hope to hide it for a while, maybe a while.

In the evening, Lu Bei and I were going to watch an old movie together. I adjusted the angle and set the light, took a picture of my handsome side face with more sharp edges and corners, and started a video with Lu Bei.

Lu Bei wanted to watch this old classic love movie, and mentioned it to me several times, so I agreed with him to be together today.

In fact, anything is fine, as long as I do one thing with Lu Bei, I feel satisfied.

But I was absent-minded when I watched it, wondering whether I should talk to Lu Bei about coming out. After all, this is not only responsible for him, but also for our relationship. I can't just hide in the closet forever not come out.

But at a glance, Lu Bei was immersed in it. He opened a bottle of red wine comfortably, poured half a glass of drink, and still had freshly made crispy popcorn in his hand, staring at the screen intently, looking in a good mood.

So my words went around my mouth a few times before I swallowed them again. I didn't want to spoil his good mood, so let's talk about it when I have a chance.

I'm always like this, I don't know how to worry until the fire is imminent.I always think about the future, but I never thought about how many futures we will have.