Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Saturday January [-]th overcast

My dad came to pick me up at the station yesterday.

We saw each other from a distance in the vast crowd, and when we met, he naturally wanted to take what was in my hand, but I refused: "It's okay, I can handle it."

Old Gou didn't force it, he could see that he was very happy, grinned, put his hand on my shoulder and patted: "Little Gou, you are finally back."

His appearance didn't seem to be any different from half a year ago, and he seemed a little older.

I smiled and said, "Well, I'm back."

"Your mother is cooking delicious food for you at home, so hurry up and leave."

Sitting on the subway home, I feel that everything around me is strange and familiar. Some feel at ease facing my hometown, and some fear getting along with my family.Year after year, I finally came back.

My house is an old building with seven floors and no elevator.I carried my luggage and ran up to the fifth floor in one breath, came to the familiar door, and turned to let the old dog who was panting upstairs behind me open the door.

Lao Gou opened the door, but let me in first.

"mom."

My mother was busy in the kitchen, when she heard my movement, she hurried out to greet me: "I'm back? So fast!"

She said: "Sit on the sofa with your dad for a while, and then cook a dish, it's all your favorite food."

I replied, I was tired enough from the long day of traveling and traveling, so I threw the big and small bags on the ground, and sat on the sofa next to my dad.My dad turned on the TV, and the room suddenly became lively. I quietly took out my phone and sent a message to Lu Bei: I'm home!

After a while, Lu Bei returned my "OK" gesture.

I guess it was because I was too busy with work in the afternoon and didn't have time to get back to me.

Dinner is a standard four dishes and one soup.When eating, my parents asked me the same old questions: "How did you study this year?" "Did you get your test results?"

"good."

"Some came out."

"No."

My mother took a bite of the steamed bun: "Have you passed CET-[-]? Your school doesn't issue a diploma for CET-[-]! You must pass this test."

"Uh-huh."

"Study hard. If you want to take the postgraduate entrance examination later, your parents will support you. Look at that sister of Uncle Liu's family. You met her last year, but she failed the postgraduate entrance examination this year. She is unwilling to let her go to work. She just stays at home all day. , Said to take the exam again, for Uncle Liu to worry about..."

"But fortunately, the school my son went to is very good, and it is not difficult to find a job."

"Yes, you can live up to it."

"But, son, didn't mom say that you spend too much money, isn't it enough for you to spend so much every month?"

"Nowadays, children spend a lot, and in big cities, it's normal to spend a lot." Lao Gou tried to smooth things over.

"Wang Guifang, who worked in the same factory as me, met when I was shopping for vegetables two days ago. We chatted for a while. Her son and Gou Tian's class said that 1000 yuan a month is enough."

"Then your son is neatly dressed, and looks comfortable!"

"That's right," my mother said happily, "My son looks much more handsome than her son, and he was admitted to a good school..."

She said: "In the future, finding a partner and finding a job will definitely be better than her son."

……

The two of them talked to each other, and it was just such a small back and forth, which made my head buzzing.

Thinking about how I grew up, the only time my parents were able to live up to their expectations was when I was admitted to this key university, and they finally had the capital to brag to outsiders.

Probably the last time they were so happy was when they knew they were giving birth to a son.

My mother suddenly asked me: "Did you have a date at school?"

"Ok?"

I was taken aback.

The first reaction is that I forgot to block my parents in one of my circle of friends? ? ?Don't, don't, don't!

My mother said: "It takes so much money, it's all spent on the little girl, right?"

"Oh..." I said vaguely, "No, I spent it all myself."

"You are too honest a child, you are easy to be deceived, you know that. Nowadays, many girls are more materialistic and ask you to give this to that. You have a good heart, and you will give what other people want!"

"I know... nothing."

My dad chimed in: "Your mother is also doing it for your own good. It's okay if you spend it all on yourself. If you fall in love with someone, we can buy her a few times for tens of dollars. If you want something more expensive, Or if they keep asking you for it, you have to see if they want your money or you.”

"...Our family has no money. What good plans do they have?"

"Don't be afraid of ten thousand, just in case."

I was a little impatient: "Stop worrying about this useless mind."

After dinner, my dad went to wash the dishes, and while my mother was chattering beside me, she picked up my bag from the ground and opened it: "Are there any clothes that are no longer worn or need to be changed? Hurry up and take them out. I will wash them for you." go."

I slumped on the sofa indifferently, and glanced at it: "There is nothing to wash, just put it there, don't move."

My mother turned a deaf ear to it, and flipped through it: "What are you packing, the bag is so heavy."

She suddenly asked, "Hey, what is this, a notebook? It's such a thick book."

!!!

I immediately jumped up from the sofa, and sure enough, what she was holding was my big diary!

Hastily, scared me to death!

I snatched it from her hand: "Don't turn it over, it's nothing to see."

My mother was still very happy: "My son is so upbeat! He wrote so many notes, and he studied so hard."

I forced a smile, quickly took the book back to the room, and hid it in the drawer.

I feel a little uneasy.If my mother sees this, it will be fine. She and my father are both conservative older generations. If they find out that I have found a boyfriend, or the one who plays the role of a woman, they must take my skin off!

Last night I wanted to chat with Lu Bei for a while, but I was too tired. I lay on the bed and looked at my phone for a while, and fell asleep without knowing it.

When I woke up this morning, I saw that he had sent me two or three messages that I didn't know, and only then did I have the real feeling of being in a different place.

Growing up to this age, it was the first time that I felt that the winter vacation was very long. The school only started on February 25th, and I could only go back on NO.20 at the most. How can I spend so many days?

I also thought about planning to go back to Lu Bei in the two days of the Chinese New Year and give him a big surprise.But if there is no money, there is no reason. I guess my parents will not let him go, so I have to think about it in the long run.

But I just came back yesterday, and today my mother and I hadn't been warm for a few hours, and we quarreled again.

I replied to someone in the part-time customer service, but she said that I have been playing with my mobile phone and asked me to go out and buy food for her.

It didn't make sense to explain to her for a long time, so I closed the door and ignored her.

Then I heard her yelling at me for being heartless outside the room through the door.

My mother, I don't know if her heart is tofu or not, her mouth is always sharp, and she tells me to get out of her house and her house every now and then.Said that I ate her food and drank her food, how much money I spent for me since I was a child, but now that I have grown up so much, I am unwilling to do little things.

I don't mean to scold her, but she is always very nervous, irritable and irritable. Whenever she sees that my dad and I don't agree with her, she will be hoarse.

Sure enough, my view of my family has not changed because I haven't seen each other for a long time, and my relationship with my family will not become more considerate and smoother because of the reunion after a long absence.

I listened to her yelling and scolding in the room, and I was indifferent, and suddenly a little rebellion and a little courage arose in my heart.

Even if I walk out of this house, there is nowhere to go. I still have Lu Bei's home, so I am not afraid of anything