Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

January [-]st Friday cloudy

According to my original plan, at this point, I should have been sitting on the high-speed rail, holding my boyfriend's hand, and watching the speeding scenery outside the window.

This should.

And now I am alone, with my arms around my knees, sitting on the sofa at home.My boyfriend went to the hotel to pick up his ex (…) who had just come out of quarantine.

As for the man Shen Jing, he is awesome, and I don't know what he was thinking. After receiving Lu Bei's email, he didn't reply, and directly showed his super mobility. The tutor asked for leave, finally booked a plane ticket, and flew straight back from Canada—and then quarantined for [-] days.

Just got released today.

Harmful!What a story of hard work, what a wonderful love story, it is so touching that the listener is sad and the hearer sheds tears.

Lu Bei actually asked me if I wanted to pick him up together, but I refused without thinking.

I don't even know what kind of mentality, what kind of appearance, what kind of identity I should use to meet Shen Jing.Do I have to greet him with a smiling face when I see him: "Hi, I'm your ex's current boyfriend. I just licked your ex-boyfriend hard not long ago. Please take care of me."

Isn't this a Shura field? ?

Embarrassment fucking opens the door for embarrassment, embarrassment is home.

Embarrassed fucking crying embarrassing, embarrassing to death.

Embarrassment ass on fire, embarrassment exploded.

And I don't even know how Lu Bei will introduce me.

I can even imagine him frowning and explaining to Shen Jing: "Let me introduce, this is my roommate, we just happen to share the same room, so don't think too much about it."

Then I'm afraid it will be difficult to maintain a calm posture and say hello to Shen Jing with a smile.

I started to think about it endlessly, feeling like I was being held by the neck and I couldn't breathe.

Recalling Lu Bei's distraught look after he answered the phone last night, I don't even suspect that he will break up with me as soon as he comes back today.Maybe he would still be secretly angry with me, if I hadn't forced him to stay with me then, he would still be unfettered and single now, and it would be much easier to chase Shen Jing back.

Although, it seems that it is not difficult for him to get rid of me.

Last night was the first time we both went to bed at home but didn’t sleep together. Lu Bei finished his phone call and said “Happy New Year” to me who was dumbstruck, then went straight back to his room clutching his phone .Naturally, I couldn't fall asleep either, I tossed and turned on the bed, so in the second half of the night I could still hear Lu Bei pacing restlessly in the living room, sighing.

I got up early this morning and told me to refund the ticket and check out. Shen Jing came to look for him, but he couldn't leave him.

I suddenly thought, should I wink and withdraw voluntarily, so as not to create artificial difficulties for this pair of fateful mandarin ducks and embarrass Lu Bei.

In any case, I don't want to make it difficult for him.

So poor, helpless and aggrieved, I took out my mobile phone, opened the dialog box to chat with Lu Bei, and thought for a long time how to break up with him decently, but in the end I typed, deleted, deleted, and my face was covered with tears and snot. Think about how to say it.

I want to share with him a piece of "Success" by Liu Ruoying directly. It seems that I can afford it, let it go, have a broad mind, and lose more decently.But there is a voice in my heart that has been shouting that I am not reconciled, not reconciled, not reconciled, why am I the one who worked hard for so long, and I was the one who lost easily.

I can be a dog, and I can also be loyal and endure abandonment and wait in place, but I can't pretend that I am not wronged.

My sunk cost is too great, I can't give up on Lu Bei, the most I can do is watch the two of them rekindle their old relationship and break up again, and hope that he will think of me again as a spare tire.

On weekdays, I didn't realize that I was such a pessimistic person. Even though nothing had happened, I had already scared myself hundreds of times in my heart.

Tears hazy.

I flipped through the memo on the last page of the diary, counting one by one, there are so many things I want to do with Lu Bei that I haven't done yet...

The king of the sea, Lu Bei, originally said that he wanted to see the sea, and I wanted to go to the beach with him, step on the sand to pick up shells, and bury him;

I want to go to Disney in Shanghai together, he is tall and handsome, he must be very photogenic wearing a Mickey hat;

I want to hear him sing all the English songs he can sing, record them one by one, and listen to them in a loop when I can’t see him, such gentle songs, such gentle voices and such gentle people;

Wanted to go to Deyun Society to listen to cross talk together, sat in the audience and kept talking nonsense, and then was pouted angrily by Jiaoer;

I want to listen to talk shows again. Many talk show actors are very popular recently, especially a girl with a big face and squinting eyes who loves to smile. The jokes are spicy and funny, which is very wonderful;

I want to wake up every night and kiss him who is sleeping soundly; I want to eat a few more bites of the rice he cooked;

I want to say "I love you" to him seriously;

……

The more I thought about it, the more I collapsed. I covered my mouth and lay down slowly on the sofa, crying uncontrollably.

He even wondered if Shen Jing's nucleic acid test would be positive and he wouldn't be able to get out at all.

In the next second, I spurned myself again, human life is at stake, how could I have such vicious thoughts!

But if this continues, I don't know if he will die or not. Anyway, I'm going to die.

At this time, the phone suddenly rang, and Lu Bei actually called me!I quickly wiped my nose to pick it up: "Hello? What's the matter."

Lu Bei heard a bit noisy: "We are going home now, let me tell you first."

I was taken aback: "Huh?"

God!What's the situation?Don't let Shen Jing want to live at home!

Lu Bei spoke quickly: "Check to see if there are any vegetables in the refrigerator. If you run out of food, go buy some fungus, eggplant, steak... buy something you want."

Oh, let's buy vegetables for Shen Jing.

But he said again: "I remember you said yesterday that you like fried short ribs, so let's buy some more today."

I suddenly felt like I still had a role to play.

I said, "Okay." Then I asked, "Does he... want to live in our house?"

Lu Bei was taken aback: "No, I'll go to the hotel with him to put luggage first, there are too many people eating outside, Shen Jing finally came back once, give him a welcome, let's eat at home."

I nodded numbly: "Okay."

"Then I hang up." He said immediately.

"Okay..." I held up the phone: "Goodbye."

I anxiously waited for Lu Bei to hang up, but he never hung up.After a while, he suddenly lowered his voice and added, "Don't be too nervous."

"I'll be right back," he said.

Maybe it was because I was so easy to coax, that I was comforted by these words again.

So I obediently followed my advice and bought those dishes, and took them home heavily.After that, he sat back on the sofa without moving, and frantically checked a certain tone with his mobile phone for a long time, but he still couldn't help imagining the horrible threesome situation in his mind.Simply put down the phone, do nothing, and wait for the final verdict.

Finally, the door lock rang, and I immediately got up and went to the porch to meet him.

Shen Jing came in first.

Seeing each other, we both froze for a moment.

Shen Jing is really good-looking. His short chestnut hair is soft and fluffy. He is fair-skinned and the tip of his nose is red from cold. The appearance is even more handsome, just like the tall version of me.

Oh no, it should be said that I am the low-level version of him.

Only then did Lu Bei enter the door.He put the key on the table, and introduced very naturally: "This is Shen Jing."

Shen Jing stretched out his hand generously: "Hello."

I smiled awkwardly: "Hello. Well... Now that the epidemic is over, let's try to minimize direct contact."

Shen Jing was not annoyed: "That's right, then I'll wash my hands first."

Then Lu Bei said, "Well, this is Gou Tian. It's..."

Lu Bei paused: "It's my current boyfriend."