Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Tuesday, October 27 Partly cloudy

I just had a nightmare, woke up and touched the pillow, it was wet.

To be honest, except for the dream about Lu Bei, I would not have such strong emotions in the dream.

Even after the college entrance examination, I dreamed that my score was not on the main line, and I was not afraid.

Clench your fists, grit your teeth and smile, looking up to the sky and screaming Ollie.

But once things like feelings are involved, no matter what you dream about, you will feel sad, so now I am very afraid of dreaming.If I dreamed that Lu Bei was getting better with someone or was indifferent to me, then needless to say, in the dream, I can't hide my emotions, let alone deceive myself, even if I know it's fake, my heart will overflow with sadness; but if in the dream Being sweet and sweet with Lu Bei is like glue, living together with him pressing Ma Lula's little hand wet, kissing, making love, etc., it will be even more tormenting when you wake up, and the reality is full of gaps.

I forgot the details of the dream just now. It was a dream that Lu Bei changed his relationship on Weibo, announced his new boyfriend, and declared that he was the only love in his life, and vowed to spend the rest of his life with him.

In the dream, I didn't believe it at first.This kind of sudden publicity is not Lu Bei's usual style, and judging by his posture, he must be serious, but how could he fall in love with a wild man who doesn't know where he came from so easily.

But then, I watched helplessly as he changed his WeChat account, expressed his heart in a long post in Moments, interacted wildly with his boyfriend on Weibo, and even deleted all spare tires.

He didn't delete me, maybe I'm really not attractive to him.

So I was very wronged.

Partly for himself, but more for Shen Jing, and Lu Bei who likes Shen Jing.

Didn't you say that loving him so much will never change?Are you not what he wants in this life?Aren't you going to spend your whole life waiting for him to turn back in vain?

How can you just give up when you say give up?

Then what do you take me for?

When I woke up, besides being sad and wronged, I was more angry.I am sorry for Shen Jing, and I am sorry for myself.

But after thinking about it, it was Shen Jing who dumped him back then, so Shen Jing was not a good bird!

So there is only anger for myself.

But at the moment of writing the diary, I am fully awake.I just feel ridiculous.

How can I become a CP fan of Lu Bei and Shen Jing? ? ? ! ! !

Pfft, isn't this the classic stalk of Grandma Qiong Yao?

"I'm not here to break up this family, I'm here to join this family!"

ah!Lu Bei!Shen Jing!You two look at me!I'm not here to separate you two, I'm here to join you two (3P)!

(If it is possible then I want to be the total plug)

(Even if it's not a total plug, I don't want to be a converter, I can be a single socket)

(If you don’t understand, just pretend I didn’t say it hahahaha thank you thank you.)

As for the "open house" on the unfinished day, in fact, there is nothing to talk about afterwards.

That day I sat in a stalemate with Lu Bei for a long time, and then he pressed the cigarette butt in the ashtray and said to me: "I'm going to open another room, you can go."

I watched the remaining cigarette holder struggling to let the last few strands of white smoke escape into the air, Lu Bei's attitude was very firm.

So I left.

I went back to the KTV alone, and lay down on the sofa with my members in disarray.

Lu Bei's frankness made me happy and painful.

Happy, he doesn't lie to me, happy, he is willing to tell me what is in his heart.

He didn't lie to me about the pain, he told me what was in his heart.

I covered my head with my coat, and I was so depressed that I wanted to cry all the time, and I was still thinking in a mess that I am not Lu Bei's darling now, I can only sleep in the KTV box, why did this happen all of a sudden, I regret it if I knew I would not be with him I'm really miserable at the showdown.

But I didn't cry until the end.

I hugged my clothes, listened to the intermittent snoring next to me, and stayed up all night.

As for Lu Bei, he never came back that day.

Afterwards, his attitude towards me also cooled down visibly to the naked eye.

I returned to the dog-licking posture again, but this time, like the majority of my dog-licking compatriots, I have not received any response at all.

I try my best to rape his Weibo every day, like and comment on every circle of friends, find out what he needs, send him messages unremittingly, share song lists and jokes... But he is determined to disassociate himself from me , as if separated by an indestructible wall, it automatically blocked the half of the world with me.

I finally know that sadness is really physical pain.I suspect I have Broken Heart Syndrome.

So I stopped writing yesterday as I was writing. I have to take a rest, I am afraid that if I continue to write, I may not be able to hold on.

Another one, it was also because the paper of this book was smeared with tears, and the paper was black and blue, so I couldn't write.

shame!A man does not flick his tears easily!

Oh oh oh!

In fact, at some impulsive moments later, I also wanted to ask Lu Bei, how could you treat me like this?Am I not human?Have I no heart?Don't I feel pain?

Then I thought about it again and didn't ask. After all, Lu Bei has hurt so many people, so I must be the same.

I originally wanted to write about how I found Lu Bei Weibo, but Aini was in heat and made too much noise, my head was dizzy, so I should write it tomorrow.

In this way, it was the first time I saw a cat in heat, my god, that screamed!Day and night!Persevere!Urinate everywhere!

I really want to drag her to be sterilized right now, but I don't have the money.

I sent a message to Lu Bei: Aini has been in heat recently, it's so miserable, do you want to come and see? [poor] [poor]

I don't know if he will come back to me.

As a person, I talk a lot of nonsense, and I really like random thoughts.

But if one day I have nothing to write, I will write I love Lu Bei a hundred times.